Bros... I think it's time we got another one goingI only have the ones from the old thread but hopefully we get to see some new ones
I wish I saved more...
I feel so empty, brothers...
I'm so tired of being alone.
I hate this godforsaken site. At the same time, I love it.
>>2216170There are no new ones. Someone will need to actually make more.
>>2217229I'm working on some. If anyone has an idea about a panel or screenshot that would make a good one, post it and I'll whip something up while I work on mine
>>2217230Maybe one of the night-time park scenes. I'm sure there's a few frames in the 24 eps that has a good shot of that.
Merry Christmas
merry christmas anons. I found a shot that I think could make a good wallpaper if enhanced / edited.
>>2217763i forgot to post the pic, here it is
>>2217764What episode was this? I'll get a higher res shot if you let me know. And Merry Christmas.
>>2217765>>2217765I wouldn't be able to tell for sure, last time I watched it was well over a year ago. It's got to be around the last few though. I'll check and let you know tomorrow fren
>>2217470Found one if someone can enhance itEpisode 14 At about 19 minutes in
>>2217764>>2217791I'll take a crack at these
>>2217764I'll finish this by adding a background one day. This should be usable in the meantime
>>2217764>>2217765sorry for the wait, the scene is from episode 19 about 5 minutes in. >>2217834good job anon this looks very cool, thanks :D
>>2216170Do not give up she is out there!
>>2217229I love the colors on this one
>>2221201>>2221202too coomer for me, but very good anon
>>2216171He just like me fr
I had been following the last NHK wallpaper thread since I was at the peak of adolescence. I remember reading it constantly to give me some hope. I was a loner, without a single friend. I was never bullied; just ignored by everyone around me. My main coping mechanisms radically shifted through this time period, from vidya, anime and manga; anything that can be considered an escape from reality. NHK was that one anime that forever changed my life. I had consumed and read so much media, yet had never been able to relate to anyone as much as all the characters in the entirety of the anime. During the period I first watched the show, I was around 12-13. I was pretty much incapable of trying in school and somehow, this show motivated me. I began working hard, not as hard as everyone else, but I became the best at nearly every subject. I thought "life will get better once I get into a good university" and that "my emptiness, loneliness and depression will just disappear". Now after getting near the top of my state in finals, I'm in university studying commerce, bored the fuck out of my mind (because it is either basic/retarded psychology, boring or too easy), realising that these problems don't just magically disappear. If anything, they get much, much worse. I'm finding motivation harder and harder than ever. I have some friends in classes, but none that I could ever truly open up to. None that I could truly rely on other than for course related content. I don't know how much longer I can keep on going being this unhappy. Maybe I need to re-watch the show again for a slight boost. Every time I try to sleep, I'm flooded with terrible thoughts, which makes loneliness even more painful. Sorry for the blog post, bros...
>>2223160Hey, hang in there anon. Thanks for sharing. The world is a crazy place but you aren't alone in it. There will always be strangers on the internet who feel the same as you do.
>>2223160Have you talked to a professional about that?Do you have a hobby that keeps you interested outside of consuming media?
>>2223288>Have you talked to a professional about that? No, I fear I would be made a laughing stock. My family are the type of people who will treat me like I am a "nutter" if they ever found out. I kept many personal details and pretty fucked up events out of my shitty long-post too, because I never want to share them to anyone. I just want a friend. Just a companion who I can even relate with (I've found no one like myself in any social environment). Every day, my parents ask the same shitty fucking questions they have asked for the past 6 years. When are you going to hang out with your friends? How is (insert imaginary friend) going? It is unbearable and makes me realise how much more lonely/insignificant I am. My mother, literally one of those extroverted popular girls at school, gets on my nerves all the fucking time about how "people without friends are rotten" and all that bollocks. At least she can't really call me a loser now, either. >Do you have a hobby that keeps you interested outside of consuming media?I used to play a sport but I was no good at it and was always a loner in every team I was in, regardless. I walk everyday to try to forget about everything. Without anime and vidya, I would've necked myself by now. I don't know what I'll do after my backlog is finally complete. I don't have that many titles left and I've played huge chunks of nearly every console generation post SMS/NES. >>2223260Thank you, anon. I wish I met some of those people.
bump
>>2223332>I used to play a sport but I was no good at it and was always a loner in every team I was in, regardless.I really relate to that honestly I used to try to play sports a lot younger for certain periods of times as well but even though I was decent at some of them I wasn't really enjoying any and while everybody around me was making friends with each other I just couldn't seem to be able to talk properly with any of the others around me. In fact just last year I took my shot at tennis but I got assigned to a group full of 40y/o boomers so up their ass you wouldn't believe, most of them married and with children. I'm 18 now in college and I haven't been making any friends and have been losing contact with my old ones from high school. It's never late though maybe I'll meet someone in the following years and who knows I bet the chances of two people like us two ending up in the same college aren't that low. Don't lose hope anon <3sincerely, anon
>>2223838That made me laugh the story about the boomers in tennis, anon. You got fucked over from the sounds of it. I hope you meet someone, too. I actually came back here to give a quick update. I met a Euro girl online who I thought was the same as Misaki. We both relate because we feel depressed. We are so similar, it is uncanny. She asks my favourite anime and I say "Welcome to the NHK". She goes and proceeds to say it is her favourite too and we have a discussion comparing the novel, anime and manga. I couldn't even fucking believe how she was into it. Then, I get a text thanking me that I at least made her smile and that she is going to end it. I'm trying so fucking hard to convince her not to, because she is one of a kind. The odds of us being that similar are fucking nil. She is literally the only reason I've been slightly happy recently and now, I'm going to be alone all over a fucking again if she goes through with it. She keeps apologising to me everyday because she has had it planned a long while and feels terrible that we made friends. She said she regretted even replying to my messages, because she feels guilt. The thing is she is very supportful, not one of those classical narcissistic Stacies. She actually listens to my story and I listen to hers. Fuck
Nothing new, just the usual.
>>2224119Another update: she is severely depressed but one of the nicest people possible. She told me not to suicide myself and that she is a terrible person. I finally convinced her not to end it and she's going to a psychiatric ward. It took 80 pages of text to reach this conclusion, alongside fun discussions we had about our hobbies. We promised to meet up in a couple of months in her country and we both made eachother promise that we wouldn't kill ourselves. She was so deadset on dying. I feel happy that I at least could positively effect a single life on this planet. I was convinced I was useless. I couldn't do a single thing right for her. I just started saying "I love you", thinking she would probably consider me insane because that is how I felt (platonically). She said she loved me back and that's when she changed her mind. She told me she had planned this day for ages and deleted all of her social-media accounts. She said she had no one who actually cared for her. I said the same, but she said she cared back. The messages we just exchanged, they were heart wrenching. I think I saved her life. I have never spoken to a single girl like her, either. She isn't self-absored, narcissistic or selfish in anyway. She genuinely cared about me and my issues. Even though I hate discussing my problems (fuck, I've never posted them on this site), she got them out of me and didn't try to instantly make the conversation revolve around her.
>>2224234She also gave me hope. She wanted me to be happy before she tried committing suicide, so she told me I have so much of a future and that there are other people just like her. I told her no, she is wrong. She is one of a kind.
>>2224119>>2224234>>2224235fuck anon, reading your story now I am kind of tearing up not going to lie to you. Really makes me kind of happy knowing you two reached some type of resolution together. She sounds really nice and you do as well. And in a sense she is right. Thinking about it, it's much nicer knowing that regardless of how down on our luck we are, we are never truly alone in our suffering. Think about all the people on this site. It's never too late to regain hope and restart all over again, just like Sisyphus. I am wishing the best for the both of you love, anon(P.S.: i think you should listen to this song, its lyrics have been keeping me a lot of company lately. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zmMpKsWdpHg)
>>2224285Bro, my replies prove there is always hope for fucking anyone, including yourself. I don't know if you are like me and want to sui, but I felt so fucking close to snapping. I was so lonesome for all of my adolescence, yet I was able to at last find someone to relate to. I was at the rock bottom, or it surely felt that way. If I could find happiness, you can find it too! Just continue to put yourself out there, but it sounds like you are doing it anyway, anon. I bet we'd be mates in real life. Also, nice song. Solanin (manga) was pretty great and I didn't know this existed. Thank you for the share, anon. I really like it and the lyrics are really touching. Are the they straight from the manga (I read it so many years ago)? I think they are, not sure though. Here are some songs that have been helping me: >https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bl-JSiojkuY >https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zGl4PP9xaaQ
>>2224234Anon, don't have anything to say other than that I hope you and your girl are going to be OK together and live out a fruitful life. Thanks for sharing
>>2224375I'm in a similar boat you're in (the empty feelings just never end and severe social anxiety affects how I interact), but its nice you have someone to care for. You both deserve to be happy and I am glad you shared that story, it was nice
lmao i literally finished watching NHK yesterday, good thread so far, dont have anything to contribue tho sorry :(
I'll post some I made using panels from the manga
here's where I found the panels for anyone interestedhttp://misakinakahara.slmame.com/there's a bunch of art as well, check it out
>>2224652Thank you, anon. I love them
>>2224655thanks fren, I'm glad you like them
here's an extra
Now that it's daytime I realize the grey doesn't look great (I made them at 3AM with f.lux on). I remade them with a better-looking grey, I can post if you guys want them
I remade all the previous ones but I don't wanna flood the board so tell me if you guys want them. Also here's a new one
>>2224670can i get the remade version of >>2224648
>>2224692I also got rid of the white border
>>2224670Yeah sure anon, you can flood the board.
>>2224704I think I'll make an imgur or a mega album at some point with everything I made, so it's a bit more organized
in the meantime
tried doing something a bit less boring
https://mega.nz/folder/4Fs1lTIC#fcRkbldh_UvV6e8U4CEQCwHere you go lads, there's a few that I didn't post here so check it out. Hope you'll like them
finished watching NHK a couple of days ago, loved it. Thanks for the amazing papes anons.
>>2224764Fucking awesome bro. Thank you
Satou is based
>>2217834Nice
>>2223160> Maybe I need to re-watch the show again for a slight boostRead the manga instead, much better
>>2224769>>2224793cheers guys. I'll probably make new ones from time to time so if you have any request like a specific color or background you can ask
>>2224836Satou is cringe, Yamazaki is based
>>2224846I want to read the manga but the quality on manganato isn't great, do you guys know where I can find it in better quality?
>>2224852I downloaded it from mangalife myself and the quality isn't very crisp so I can't help you there
>>2224856the quality on manga4life is actually decent, thanks anon
>>2224846Nevermind, I retract that, I was about halfway through it when I wrote this and now I finished it. I really hate Satou and Misaki...Jougasaki's brother was also an absolute disaster.
>>2217834Starting this one from scratch: https://files.catbox.moe/xg3joi.pngWhat's really interesting is that last time I painted it I was really focusing on Megumi's emotions in this scene, but this time I'm somehow more drawn to her brother and the moth-to-flame pull the digital world has on him, as well as his strange paradoxical catatonia. My life has turned completely upside-down since then, which must have affected me more deeply than I thought until I got back to work on this piece. Weird stuff.
>>2224935I've pretty much consumed everything NHK related. The manga is slightly better than the novel, but completely pales in comparison to the anime. I find it too fast paced, to the extent where I wouldn't be surprised if they were on crack. Every significant emotional scene from the anime is kind of washed over. I still don't mind it, though.
>>2224981What has happened anon? Care to share?
>>2225015How does the LN differ from the manga and anime?
>>2225043A lot less happens in it, but it is closer to the anime (from memory). The ending is the same as the anime, too. I honestly can't remember much from it because I read it in one sitting a couple years back. It's badly written.
>>2225016Just moved back home and started working on what I've always wanted to do after almost 5 years of on and off hikikomori antics. The strange thing is now that I'm here with no future prospects of doing it again, I can finally see the true darkness of the appeal of the NEET unlife, as it were. I guess it's just part of growing up.
watching the anime right now, absolutely loving itdon't think i've ever related so much to an anime before>>2224234and good for you anon, i guess you could say that you found your misakihoping the best goes for youwe're all gonna make it
Finally finished.
>>2226022hey im the guy who sent the pic a few months ago, thanks for making this, it is great, well worth the wait! great job, saved :D
>>2226030Glad you like it! I was trying to overshoot my skill level a bit once I had it "mostly done" and just decided to finish it up. I might revisit it again and paint it from scratch, but it'll probably be a long time before I'm that good.
>>2226255>>2226256I really like these reaction shots - I have a half dozen or so panels from Yugami-kun that I plan to turn into something like these.
>>2226352i have a few panels i don't know what to make of, have themshare if you make something cool anon
ch15-06
ch17-21
ch14-05
ch24-18
i made one actually
>>2226389I'll take a crack at these. Here are the 2 I had saved from NHK to edit, if you want to fuck with em.
>>2226480
>>2226395didn't look that great, i fixed it up
>>2226884just realized i missed a few spots
>>2226885Haha. I didn't want to post saying that you did because it was still a nice effort. Thank you.
made this really quickly today, i love this shot of satou
Bump.Glad to see this thread is back and revived
>>2217219i installed discord and met a nice person in the first server i joined.we've talked every day for a week now.it's weird coming home to messages that someone has sent me unprompted,just because they wanted to talk with me...what a strange feeling...
>>2225096literally me a few years ago now. 5 years on and off then moved back home. moved back out again now, haven't fallen back to the old ways.i mean, i fucking miss it sometimes, but of course you only remember the bad parts. overall now, even if i have a fraction of the spare time, i want to kill myself much less, and i know if i got that free time back again: i'd just squander it all over again.
>>2228325*good parts>>2225043Hmm, I'm not sure you would actually call the novel a 'Light Novel' just because it's Japanese...?
Welcome to the NHK kind of broke me. First half of the show is really raw and depressing, I ended up relating to Satou a lot which disgusted me like hell. While the latter half is extremely bittersweet and a bit too idealistic, everyone just moves on which yeah its the most realistic resolution but still left me feeling a bit empty. If there is one thing I didn't like about it it would be how the whole world revolves around Satou (Always meeting up with old friends he had no way of contacting, a girl that comes out of nowhere and tries to fix him, etc) that kind of defeats the message of getting better. But overall I really liked it and wish there was more of it, it inspired me to improve myself but I just keep bumping into obstacles from my enviroment, which makes it really hard to try at times.Sorry for not contributing and for the blogpost... I hope you are doing ok wherever you are
