Am I giving up on life or is this slow adult maturity? Ever since I got my first job I feel myself not giving a fuck more and more. Situations that would have sent me crying as an unemployed hikineeto instead makes me laugh at the absurdity of it all. I no longer do above and beyond (which got me a latin honor) and instead coast along like a log in the sea. I feel hopeless but not desperate, despair but not surrender. I have no idea what's going on.
>>31222363>Am I giving up on life or is this slow adult maturity?Probably both, if I have to be honest. That's what happened to me. I have a lot of pain and despair but it's so deeply repressed that I wouldn't know at all if I wasn't a psychology hyper autist.Generally the better you feel, the more active you will become. Instead, your situation makes it sound like you're very good at coping with resignation, which is what I am also good at. But this is a less than ideal outcome.
>>31222363that sounds exactly how i feel.i think this is just alignment to whats happening in the present. And its not suffering, but a plain, stale acceptance. It doesnt hurt anymore. The truth sets free indeed.
>>31222417>less than idealhow so? Isn't it good to feel happy? nothing matters so it's better to feel good throughout the course of our meaningless lives.
>>31222363>I am no longer an over-emotional loserThat s the opposite of giving up.
>>31222363What would make you feel despair and hopelessness?
>>31222547Because you would feel way better if you were living a wholesome and active life. It's the difference between a woman having a good boyfriend and a woman learning to love the beatings that her bad boyfriend gives her.
