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>>30012514What should I do about those scumbaggy dude bros calling me a grey alien? Who should I kill?
I love you, Anon.Have a great day.:)
>>30012677no kill, just kill em with kindness. nice digits>>30012688checked and positivitypilled. you do the same anon-kun
>>30012514I only have two regrets in my past:>All the things I didn't have the balls to do>All the girls I didn't try to screw.
??? what the >>30007582
>>30012514Yeah, there's actually a thread up right now.>>30013563
Now there's two. I don't know if you've seen the catalog lately, but this was needed
>>30012677As many people as possible
>>30015923Who the F are you and why are you bothering me.
I'll come back stronger.
>>30017141you replied to me bub
well hey last thread reached it's bump limit, and this one's hot n' ready, spagettaboutithttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3c8t9Pm7eWE
>>30017153i believe in you, bird friend!
I feel recently a change in me. Suddenly I feel no need to seek externally for joy. The more I look within I see that I have everything I need. I have lived a good life and can die without regret. The suffering of my mind is no more, as I desire not approval, attention, even love I find in abundance within myself. Everything is in it's right place.
>>30019047YEAH, this is a BOP, anon!jazz and i have never really crossed paths much before, but i like ska and i could get into this
>>30019090It's New Orleans Jazz, which has molded mostly into funk somehow these days.
>>30019096well i'll definitely listen to more, i've always liked brass! i could use more funk in my life
>>30019150OH hey, i was just listening to the recording of this one!love the feel of this video, thanks for sharing this with memakes me want to pick my trumpet back up, lol
>>30012514hello, i really liked the meme in OP from the previous thread so i made a video of ithttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tCzg55Ht-V0
>>30019197Damn I love me some catJAM
>>30019214same, and i couldn't believe i hadn't saved it to this device yet! i downloaded some cat dance gifs special for the jazz, and then just used the cat playing the trumpet pic i already had saved, lol.>>30019205lol, that's greatmario fucking Got me
>>30019197Same, anon! I need to pick up a brass instrument for sure. The Jazz flows through me.
>>30019245hell yeah! playing brass was so much fun! i'd recommend the trumpet, but that's only because i'm biased, lolbrass players just have more fun!
by the way everybody, happy thursday!https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DCkJ5lGPqFs
Thursday-Solitaire in the dark, the circle is cast, the Frankincense burns on the altar, enveloping sweet aromatic hospitable invitation, the bells reverberate through space, a sonic signal, the Sacred Angles sliced in the East and burned as emphasis, the Athame rests near my heart, Eucharist of Air cross the Barrier, this is communion, this is communication. I stand at the threshold Spirits of Air, unlock the pylon, to you I call my my ancient guide and brother, he whose image I first saw, he who calls and answers, he who has been a constant throughout my lives,God of Travels and Thieves, God of Borders Psychopomp Realm Jumper, Rider of Lightning, Shepard of Men, Son of the White Eagle and Golden Knot, God of Boxing and Master of Divination, Sacred Divine Messenger my patron Hermes, I call to you hear my praise and adoration, hear my prayers, here is my heart of hearts, my soul this cypher, Swift and Sword, Ignition and Inferno, Droplet and Downpour, Dust and Diamond, Spirit I I AM and Animal, I am the burning blued azure Pentacle blazing bright winged disk of flight, I I AM the Pentacle, and Unto thee Hermes, the Kingdom the Power and the Glory Forever and Ever Amen, the utterance and gestures, my Lord my Body the Chain, these the Word of the Pendulum-Since I pray and ask from the Great Sea's foam, this autumn my heart will not shudder, will not fail, not reject nor do you transcend it God of Judgment my troubles. My Lady Goddess I face you in the hot Sun Mother Beacon show me the way again, stand in warmth I drink the light, open Blessed Saints, Share the spiral movement, winds we are in sight, All eyes open, the Deity the Philosopher, the white light observed the creative energy of the picture the Moon, the house, the Eagle and Man He represents she of Nature Venus, radiant blood these rays for the Lord, the God the real Kerub Eagle whose book is the spirit of life, the color of Jupiter, this represents Hermes.Glory Unto. Unto Her The King is Identical-
-The Sword celebrated upon the Holy Mountain, they keep the Mountain of the Caverns, behold the arrow unfoldeth itself the Rose, the Cube as a Rose, distinguish between upward and downward. Thus this false compassion delusion upon men.Secret brothers in two dimensions becometh instantly conscious, Eastern wilderness, this Method the Art by Love unspeakable Joy, the Rose and the Cross? Man has advanced to exhibit the message of the Angel most important observed by God, She occupies Midnightwhich signifies silver of Luna, the restriction abolished Mercury in her womb, Bacchus with the function of Hermes guide of the dead, Christ Hermes identification, mysteries the same between us, the Sun, the Father, Mercury risen after three days, Hermes and Venus the Vision Universal become visible after separating. And Mercury, the Caduceus is Life Universal. Our Art of Mercury, two thieves Hermes the LOGOS.-And so it is received, and so I stand in your honor and bask in the white light of your glory my Lord, as I did thousands of years ago, now, and in the future, honoring truth and pursuing your wisdom, sharing with All howling at the Moon with One is All All is One is the Light and Ecstasy that is Love, I love you, I love you, I love her the most, She is dead, she is dying, she was lying, I want her, but there is only one for me, farewell from my circle, All love and adoration...
>>30012514I'm going to die soon
It takes a lot for my nipples to get hard.
You have no sense of empathy, sympathy, or what it means you be human.You literally act like a space nigger, but you're from the surface of this Earth and I know that.You are supposed to comfort me and help me heal, but instead, you feel like a bed of nails.I know that I am supposed to get along with you, and I will not abandon you, but I doubt that we will ever be able to love each other like other couples do. It will always be painful. It will always be awkward.Because of you, I am damned.To have died would have been less cruel.
Sorry I made a post about my nipples.
The answer should be obvious, of course I do. But I’m too lazy to do anything about it. Not to mention your ignorance makes me want to move on from all of it.
>>30020166space niggeryou don't even know what Earth is supposed to feel like
>>30020221Can I offer you a hanky? I have allergies.
Do you want to know who I am?I hope you know that you don't have a choice.You don't even know that all you have seen is me at my worst, at my most broken.I wish that, because you have only known me when I am weak, I could excuse you.But I can't. You should try to help me.Do you understand, that your completely nonsense, harmful behavior is why you were my only option?When you hurt me with no reason, piss on me as I ask for help, it is irrational for anyone to conclude you are my ally, which is a degree of safety.I'm in a situation where I know that no matter how I try to ask you for help, you will not aid me.You have no concept of lending help to someone who is in need.>>30020237If you understood healthy human mating behavior, you would offer to be the hanky, hun....and, what am I so ignorant of?Your feelings that you lie and refuse to tell me?The infinite riddles, that is me trying to determine if you do or do not like something?
>>30020248You might have me mistaken. Sorry I’m not the person this message is for. I told him I wanted to be with him.
>>30020282You can want to be with someone and still not help them when they need support... which is why it is so painfully confusing...
>>30020248>>30020282And even it is him, I did help you. As much as I could for as long as I could. I was never dishonest about my feelings. Help you some more, okay if only you would let me do that. It can not be done on here though so I don’t see this being the kind of breakthrough you’re requiring from me.
>>30020221I am sorry that I forgot about a lot of important things when I was in the clouds. I was just very happy for once and I didn’t really want to figure it all out like a detective, because I always do that it’s how I am. Don’t think for a second that meeting you hasn’t changed my life. I have even deeper thoughts then before even if I’m always silly on the surface.
Lol. Apparently you have no idea.You need me, a lot more than I need you, sugartits.
they have gotten so good at keeping people docile and afraid that they can flex about it in their movies, there reason there is no revolt or rebellion is because they capable people look to the east to see what happens after the "people" take power back, same shit different wrappingsthe only way to save the world is to ironically kill majority of the people on it and to pray you hit some of the people pulling the strings behind the scenes and to do that you would need to spread a viral gestating invisible killer out to be spread far and wide and cull the earth of most of its peoplein the aftermath you might try to shape the world in your image but then you realize you're no better than them, same shit different wrappings, the only escape is to not participate in society or to minimize your involvement in it everything else is same shit different wrappingsbecome your own personal anarchist and throw rules out the window and live doing whatever the fuck you wantthe only thing you need to be free is to denounce all rules, morality and obligationsmagnum chaos, your prison was in your mind all along, the only way they can take your freedom is if you give it to them, live free or die a slave
>>30020348inevitably a strange cascade of responding to the enemy, but perhaps it would be beneficial for me to open the "wrong" channels, within my body.The cool fires of hatred which once composed the entirety of my qi.Is that what you fell in love with? Is that what makes you happy?Not someone loving, warm, and striving for a better world...but someone who knows little besides bloodlust and solitude?I'm willing to make a bet. But I can't open the channels too widely, of course...I think you would love that person a lot more... when I cannot even feel your touch...
I wanted kids and shit, you fucking whore
YOU THINK I CAN BE SOLD AND BOUGHT??? NO! But you can buy my digital likeness for the price of approximately $14.00 USD. You get what you pay for though.
>>30019340IM OUT OF TIME
>>30020915how expensive and what grade of quality is the sex doll?
>>30020934IDK ASK MY MARKETING MANAGER I GUESS BUT HE BETTER PREPARE FOR ANGER.
well its a new day again yet it all feels the same. when will I stop thinking about you? feels like a tortured life I'm forced to live until its my time to die. once again I just hope that we can be together in the afterlife. i listen to your voice everyday and feel like you're speaking directly to me, in the future. once i start this job and save up enough, i'm finally going to be able to visit your grave. god i love you. you make me whole. please visit me sometime if you can.
>>30020928no youre not, jeez
i pisse in the void... where does it go... ?
Here is a tip. Austism is a legal disability. Every business has a quota that states you need at 7% of your employees to have a legal disability. Because of this quota a lot of places are under staffed. Here's another fact. A lot of the aspies I know have normal jobs, went through college or are going through college. School is meant to hold white people back as much as possible. They do try to break your will. Job training is a scam. Social Security is meant to keep you poor.
i saw the society you inherited and that you warped it intoi say no to thati will not participate i choose winter and death through naturethis place is not worth living in anymoremaybe it never waswhen my affairs are in order i will leavethis place is not worth saving
>>30021042in my tummyyum yum yummy
>>30019047not actually music, kys woke dumbo
I'll tell you why. I can't go back to that tiny willy of yours.
I'm glad you died. I spent a lot of time wishing that there was some way that I could bring you back, and a lot of time wishing things didn't turn out the way that they did. I was a fool, and deluded. You were a monster, and the way things ended is the only way they were ever going to end. It was either going to be then, or forty years from then. You were always going to take the road you did, and you were always going to cause your own destruction. You were old enough to know better and you were old enough to change. If it wasn't going to happen then, it never was. You were only ever going to get worse. I'm just glad the only person who had to suffer because of you was you.
>>30021685Wow, you're vile.
Last time i wrote that i would not let you get to me anymore. Fuck you, i did it. Im happy without you.
I have nothing to lose if you don't take me, but I still yearn to be claimed by you. I am capable of waiting mercury retrogrades, cold winters, and a whole life lived, but the second you claim me, I'll drop everything to be yours.
>>30021685Your cavernous vagina was no picnic either.
aaaaaand i'm sleepy, good night
I never had interest in celebrities but isolation has brought me into that world. I'm glad I'm purging myself of it.
>>30021782I like you. Bet we'd get along real well. Thinking there's allot we have in common.
>>30012514*jumps from counter*Im gayyy
>>30022463You will never know how it feels to be gay.
>>30020046How about I cut them off and leave them pathetically on the floor.
>>30022508You need to be over 18 to post here.
>>30020495I don't need you.
>>30021359>School is meant tobe a place of learning.The greater the challenge the more character it builds.Why bother being jealous of people who get things the easy way.You're the one who's actually learning.Or are you.
>>30020928BUT I'M OUTTA MYHEAD WHEN YOU'RE NOT AR~OUND!
>drink a lot of water>piss a lot of pee
>>30022698how i wish the vicious cycle would end
>>30022698>>30022721drink sand instead
What's your favorite pokemons guys.I like oddish, goldeen and weedle.
>>30022878growlithe and only growlithe no evolutions or maxes
>>30013559You're probably not that old yet so get started. I will however, forever regret not doing those two freshmen rocker chicks in a threesome.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NVKbnXRXQogone day i'll wander
>>30012514I try to be happy and grateful about the things I have in life but it's hard sometimes, because some wounds sting too hard. Sometimes I am angry at myself for not taking initiative and perusing the things I really wanted. Maybe I was made to see what the most pathetic human being would look like. But none could just accept this as their destiny so I continue to put up some kind of resistance here and there. I still wonder sometimes how things would go if you could know me. Could I be different for you? Guess not.
>>30021553pic of your mouth?
one day ill slip up and let out a retard schizo rambling and everything will b over. relatively successful with aspirations and goals and all the other shit but i cant keep up much longer umedicated and im a minor in a specialty center (not sped for anybody outside of VA, specialized career based highschool programs) but if i end up in the ward for a month and drugged up i'll lose all of that. not a genuinely above average student so i don't think i could bounce back. its an inevitable at this point
>>30022572I'm not falling for the trap. School is demonic.
>>30024064if you dont care about what music others like why should others care what music you like
>>30024080I dreamt that you would ask me that.
I don't think it's about me.You will reject me whether I pretend to like pop music or not, so skip the pretend civility and be honest from the get go.
If her favorite band is 311, stay away.
does anyone wanna get some food wit me
>>30024944ok were we gonna meet up at
>>30024969give a man a fishand he'll eat for a day....teach a fish to drink?and buddy you got a friend for life..... (the fish's life)
>>30012514What does it get out of pretending to be something that knows it is pretending but cannot stop?
>>30024932I don't make enough money for your frivolous lifestyle.
>>30025287if these lyrics are supposed to mean something to me, they don't, lol. i don't think anything, i don't even know you, and i hate people who make assumptions about other people without any/more info or without knowing that person well.if not, i think it's cute.
>>30012514I miss you more than anything, bro. I wish I knew where you are and what happened. I wish I could punish those responsible. You were wrong about GMOs but that's okay. I was wrong about a lot of stuff (sorry for tattling when you never did it to me). It's a shame you haven't met your niece and nephew, and that you won't be here for the apocalypse. I should have smoked that bowl with you.
this world is not the way it should be
feeling vulnerable rn
>>30025865Yes, that's why the wicked are allowed to run rampant.So there's an excuse to wipe them out and then boom.Back to ship shape.
No matter how long it takes, I'll reach your universe, my loved ones. I'll never give up. Any help from your side would be wonderful, of course.
>>30025940i am one of the wicked
Well done, Fox...
>>30012514i hope you come back soon!! we miss you
i pretend to understand the world and how it works, but i feel like i didn't "grow up".
>>30026193Generally why most are called children.
i cant wait to bare you an heir love you
Remember even if you win or lose, you're still winning.
Just now I was picking up cigarettes and some guy next to the counter started calling me "baby girl" even though you remember I'm supposed to be a boy.I said I don't want to talk just going home and then he said he was "going to give me what I need before I go home."I'm like get out of my face beach unless you wanna go but then he said my hair was beautiful so that's when I snapped and killed him.
>>30025872How vulnerable would you feel if I beat you over the head with a rock in the woods and stepped on your lunchbox then left your body with a stick up your butt?
(based on a true story)
I got a ticket on a one way train to Oatmeal Town.
Rejection really got you fucked up huh?It'll pass, just kill some time until then.(P.s. stop tying your emotional self worth on other people)
>>30026786If you speak to me that way IRL I will smack you in the face so hard it leaves a mark.
Hey voidyou suckgood luck
say that in the abyss and not online and see what happens glowing cunt
Say that to my shaved, scrotal penosaur, not my face and see what happens.
Literally how does a channel with 35 subs get ad revenue??? Can someone here tell me I don’t understand how that happens
>>30026977How many views do the videos get on a daily basis?Might be miniscule revenue.Some people make a living on youtube, they don't even have to work that's how much they make they're master manipulators.
An ad for Halsey I am not a Woman I’m a God at that What in the literal fuck he’s got 0-2 views on the majority of his babbling word salad or look at meeeeeeeeee I’m killing insects/animals look at meeeeee I’m pouting and posing in my parents living room I’m playing video games I’m riding my scooter look at MEEEEEEEE!!! Who even subscribes to this shit?? How the fuck is there an AD?
>>30027000>master manipulatorsSounds like you are over-exaggerating their behavior.
Some girl named Lisa told me to meet her on here. I don’t know what I’m doing. Hey Lisa?
She already unmatched me right after she told me she would talk to me on here only. I don’t get people
>>30027006I literally don't even care anymore.The internet has become corporatized and sold out.Anyone with half a brain would just install uBlock Origin.The advertising scam relies on idiots like you who don't take 10 minutes to install an ad blocker, so you can bring in their revenue while you spend accumulated hours of your life sitting through ads and frustratingly clicking skip like a hamster pressing a button to get a morphine droplet.
>>30027000There are literally 2 billion people with YouTube channels and a statistically minuscule percentage of those make money it’s like a pyramid scheme So how in the literal fuck does this guy get an ad on his channel? I’m sorry if I don’t understand how this works I’m really just asking somebody in the void to tell me don’t be mean if there’s a simple explanation I just don’t know please help
>>30027031They will oftentimes design their videos as edgy clickbait to get you to click on it.Then their videos will be the perfect amount of time, like 10 minutes, to fit in extra ads halfway through or whatever.You have no idea, you should look into it.
>>30027033So Boop is on discord manipulating threads
>>30027043Oh my gosh I was just thinking about you Lisa this morning.Like where'd you go?
>>30027053>pefect time 10 minutes>clickbait>master manipulatorsPretty sure youtube had a limit on minutes before which was generally 10 minutes, give or take.It's already been looked into, anon.Stop glorifying retards.
I'll be a 10/10 in 6 months. Chad but uglyfag. Hope i make it bros.
But I thought you had to have a certain amount of subs to get ads and shit I’m sorry could somebody explain how YouTube works without telling me how stupid and worthless I am here for the 10 thousandth time? I know I’m unlovable you don’t have to tell me I just want to know
>>30027062You can upload a video up to 12 hours long.That's how there are full 40 minute albums and movies on youtube.
>>30027080You need like 100,000 views for $1,500.Subscribers are only a means to and end for getting views.It's about the views not the subscribers.
Could some tech-savvy person here tell me how the internet works without telling me to kill myself? Or is that how the internet works?
>>30027083Now you can, but 10 minute videos aren't the signs of a master manipulator.Most people have too small of an attention span and they need a constant bombardment.Appealing to your audience isn't master manipulation.Pretty basic honestly.
>>30027098It's basically the inter-connected-tubes or "intertubes" for short.
>>30027094There are like 0-4 views on the majority of his 10,000 hours worth of videos How does he get an ad? I’ve never seen that before
>>30027103Are you familiar with blair white?
Who dafuq IS this guy??????
>>30027106Just because there are ads on the video does not mean that the channel is receiving monetization.Can we talk about something more interesting?
>>30027105What? That doesn’t explain anything really
>>30027117No I mean but how did it get there? Has anyone seen ads on channels with less than 100 subs?
>>30027103Having a monetized youtube channel and acting like onision or nikocado avocado, you're telling me they are simply appealing to their audience, wholesomely and with no hidden agenda.Even though they don't have jobs and get millions if not billions of views.
>>30027132Oh, I never said they're wholesome and no agenda.I'm just saying they're do basic manipulation tactics.
Friday-Dark solitaire circle cast, this Athame rests, Eucharist of Air, Fire Athame, burn the Sacred Angles, the key uttered, cross the barrier, I stand at the threshold, in honor, call with me Spirits of Air, unseal the Pylon, I call to he whose image I first saw, he has been a constant in my lives, he who calls, the Shepard of Men, God of Borders and Travels, God of Athletes and Master of Divination, Psychopomp Guide of Soals Jumping Realms Riding Lightning White Hot Plasmatic Quicksilver, Godspeed Divine Messenger Hermes, I call to you, hear my praise and adoration, here is my heart of hearts and my soul this cypher. Today is her day, she who is surface of Water, birthed of the Foam, born in Cypruss, My King and Queen, God and Goddess, Swift and Sword, Ignition and Inferno, Droplet and Downpour, Dust and Diamond, Blood and Spirit I IAM and Animal, I am the Pentacle, Unto thee Hermes, the Kingdom, the Power, and the Glory Forever and Ever Amen. My Body the Chain, these the Word of the Pendulum-Reabsorb the demon assisting sorcerers alone. Already ahead of development, a ritual for the creation of the aggressor, Witches heard the flutes of Pan, materialization eternal, his actions of blood and lustful Union war with violence, man with terror and torture his war offensive, proceed with caution Thanatos Black Eagle energy form on the astral plane. Proceed a Wolf female of Father's lineage holding its thumb, climb the tower drink life force of the Moon in honor. Many male vampires rise on primal urge, Thanatos give communion, successful defense in sleep and spirit. Individual strength the Wolf, the spirit, the serpent awake sorcerer, the ones beyond raven or wolf become that black shadow exist within the current red Fire Snake channeled night wolf powers of your mind. Possible complication aggressor, dangerous gnosis dance, Wolf, lightning flash Eagle great spirit of Wings, spirit mouth of serpent summoning the dead. His shield crimson disk, Hermes -
There is absolutely no doubt in my mind that you are some kind of Demon I’d know that even if you hadn’t told me that many times
>>30012514When I die do I wake up in the goth hospital
-she lays her hand beneath, enter the company of Saints, lunar of silver, characteristics deceived savagery, show the force studied in Mars the most sublime original fiery Mars secret of the brothers Correlative, into the Cube, the Worlds, claws of the Eagle the hands of Man, looking glass metal thine saviour didst kiss the blind man with regard to the Voice Hermes. Venus Leo its power lightning, Valour, Venus of Swords comeback. Mercury fading away below the Abyss, naught remains, Leo in Victory, the All Father confused Judas Harlequin, family springs to light, He worships this is real, in this cup Seven are the names, Sun and Moon of the Beast let him, Leo she rides out of bondage North. Traditional All Father Light emphasizing phenomena the LOGOS, the creator of All Mercury, he appears Hermes.-And so it is received, I stand in your honor throughout time, I hunting for you Momma Wolf, I want to Howl with you my Ancient Love, One is All All is One is the Light and Ecstasy the Is Love, I love you, I love you, I love her the most, she is dead, she is dying, she was lying, I want her, but here is only one for me, farewell from my circle, All love and Adoration, until we meet again...
My friend told me this today>you come in like a wolf I don’t even know what that means! Had a fight with them and now we’re not friends any more I guess maybe that’s what it means : (
To the actual void, or maybe to myself. Could be both. I don't know who exactly is responsible.Thank you for opening the doors to self love. I can never be perfect. I can never be normal. It's impossible to predict what will make everyone happy. I've never been able to say these things without a sense of irony or regret before.I don't know what comes next because I don't think I've fully been alive before this autumn, but I'm excited. Thank you.
no es nada
>>30027228Why don’t you make a YouTube channel where you can post 6000 videos of you loving yourself? Apparently you can get some ad revenue from that
>>30027256I guess in a roundabout not-lewd way that's in the cards someday. Hope Youtube anon is OK though- they seem like they should take a few steps back.
>>30027228Perfect, like utopia and geometry, exist only as abstract ideas within yourself and I.Normal is based on your normal state, not others.When you are feeling abnormal, that is a deviation from your own standard normal state, not a deviation from the norms of society.If 100% of people believed there was a warthog demond living in the center of the Earth and performed human sacrifices to it that doesn't make it normal.
Listen, this has gotten out of hand.Do you want to sexually interact with me or not.We could have a beautiful symbiotic relationship.It's been over 6 years and I don't think you care about me.You just do this so you can believe you're worth waiting for.
>the ultimatum finally arrivesi'm not going to reach out to you if that's what you're askingyou want to talk to me or interact with me you do iti am fine without you thank you very muchif you want to bang you better make the first moveapart from that i am fine with the status quo as it is
>>30027320As if anybody who “loves themselves” wouldn’t be trying to sell their average ass on social media >look at meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!
>>30027384I literally want to kill you
>>30027402that's nothing new, only thing that changed is you admitted it to yourselfwhy do you think i avoid you?
>>30027384I did try to interact with you.Tell me why you're fine.>>30027417There are three of us having this conversation.
>>30027397>the only reason to use youtube is to monetize your existence in a desperate appeal to the massesYeah, just a few steps back. >>30027343Is it possible to have lived the majority of my life as a deviation from my standard normal state?
Please i hope i get that job
>>30027384>I’m totally not interested. I’m just posting to the void about you. Doesn’t mean I’m thinking about you. I couldn’t care less about you. Btw if you wanna fuck just reach out. Doesn’t mean I’m thinking about fucking you. I totally don’t care. Not interested. But if you wanna hook up you’re gonna have to contact me, okay? Still doesn’t mean I’m interested or thinking about you at all!
>>30027417Hacking someone isn’t avoiding them
>>30027434Yea.You know it's not normal.
>>30027432because i am accustomed to being alone and i do not need someone else to make me whole, others are just extra good to my life and if they are not i just let them float offi have no need for other peoples approval, praise or criticism, i have become free from the web of social interaction to the point i can just go from one bonfire to another and enjoy the company of people who are enjoyablei feel no urge to sacrifice myself on the fires of altruism or pitying, if someone plays hard to get or treats me like shit i leave them be>>30027444and closing that door nowsee this is what i meant
>>30027455>>30027417>>30027402>>30027384Guys this isn't about you, it's my time to shine.
>>30027463You got a YouTube channel?
>>30027463>>30027384I meant why are you fine with the status quo of our relationship existing only on 4chan.
>>30027476can't say i do, at least not a public one
He's got an oatmeal channel^
>>30027479because you really don't add much to my lifeyou're more trouble to upkeep than you're worthnow you will fly off the handle and accuse me of being a piece of shitthere is difference between malice and abrasive honestyyour kind may think they can manipulate me to behave in a way that you want me to behavebut i have no need to wear your labels i am fine being what i am
If I ever by pure chance get less than 6 ft close to you I will spit in your fucking face
>>30027493sounds like a you problemyour garden bears what you plant therewater and tend to your garden the right way and you'll have beautiful gardenlet it rot in the sun and you'll see what a jungle you'll grow
maybe if you were less high maintenance i would consider it and if you made the first movebut as is i don't see any in even tryingif you want simps there are easier ways to get emi'm not your white whale
>>30027490I just want the expectation that you will sleep with me when I'm cold and lonely and hug me when I'm sad and I'll do that for you too if you don't break my heart because I won't break yours.
>>30027521>i won't break yourswell that's a fat lie
>>30027493Your hate is unnatural.Hate in and of itself is unnatural.Get a hold of yourself.
>>30027502For a second I thought you were talking about the dreaded Garden Bears whomst'd lurk within the garden.
you want to know my little theory, you're only trying to get back with me so you can break my heart twicebecause you hate me for letting you play yourself and blame me for how things turned outneed i remind you you played yourself all by yourself
Yes, don't spit in his face hatefully.Spit into his mouth kindly.
>>30027536So, you're deranged.
literally all i had to do was step down from the pedestal into the mud and you ditched meso gg i guess
>>30027526You broke my heart more but our friendship is obviously stronger than that.>>30027535First of all that's not a theory, that's a hypothesis.More importantly it's wrong.Please I need hugs from you and your company.
>>30027549The excuses people make to excuse their behavior.
Mental gymnastics, as it were.
>>30027571don't need to, if i behave like how i am and that makes you ditch me that's on youwhat changed to make you want that now, did you browse the market and realize it wasn't that bad in comparison?
>>30027527Has somebody you know STOLEN from you and vlogges about it publicly? Has anyone you know referenced your grief for a dead family member and said >people who can keep their parents alive are so commendable! My dad is gonn live until he’s 104! I’m going to keep him alive with my all-powerful dick up his drooling vegetable ass! (this vlog brought to you by Halsey)
all i did was step down from the pedestal you put me on / that i thought i had to be onnot my problem you ditched me for it and then came back for more when you did some comparisons and math
>>30027606For how long must we use the "woe is me" approach?
>>30027615you can stop at any time i'm fine with how things are as i statedas a matter of fact i already have plans for this weekend and a good day lined upnot sure how abrasive i have to be for you to finally give up and move on
>>30027623>give up and move onNot what your soul says.As it stands right now, the current you has no free will and such.You've said it yourself.
I had plans with a friend to go to Useless for karaoke last night but I bashed my head against a wall instead
I guess I'll just go and eat oatmeal alone in the dark until my angry dad gets home..
>>30027631>not what your soul sayswell then there is a clear conflict of interest between my ego and soul now isn't theremove on as long as the ego persist we are not going to be anything
>>30027646The ego is easily destroyed.
dad,i mever met you, yet id always imagine the day that i did. i wanted you to see me and be proud of who i am. id picture us conversing. i wrote a letter to you when i was in the hospital, about a year ago. id think about you often when i was younger and wondered if you'd think about me. most birthdays youd come across my mind. id cry, hoping you were thinking about me. i wanted to really know you.ive always had an image of you in my mind. family would often tell me about you and your interests. we ended up having quite a bit in common, but i dont think you ever knew.maybe that image was the best thing to have. maybe id be disappointed upon meeting you and maybe itd be the same for you. i cant believe you're dead. your mom called mine tonight and told her she needed to answer the phone. my mother said itd likely be about you. i didn't know what, maybe that you were in town. your mom sounded so heartbroken. i told myself i didnt care, i cried for maybe a minute and got over it. i never knew you, i knew of you. i will never know many things now. when you got here, id imagine being keeping my distance. why weren't you ever there for me? why couldn't you be bothered to get in contact with me? ive been in the country for about 5 years. i know you had your own battles. my grandma was making plans to get you here. ive heard so much about you. ive recently met the rest of this side of my family. it's dumb to me, it's only blood. i grew up with family that was not my own. yet these people, they place so much importance on blood. so much loss on that side.now im drinking wine at 5 in the morning, crying.i can't believe this is how things turned out. i cant believe youre gone. i cant believe that ill never meet you. it really hurts and im not even really sure why. i never knew someone who died until now. i dont know you though, do i?rest in peace. your life sounded hard.
>>30027647think you already threw everything you have at my ego and only managed to break my heart
>>30027653Everything?No, that was just creating a baseline and getting up to speed.
>>30027661do your worst, my life has been through pretty nasty shit so anything you try wouldn't be anything new to me
>>30027666Why would I willingly do "nasty shit" to anyone?
>>30027668because your ego is just as petty as minethat's the thing about ego it doesn't like taking shit from anyoneit's necessary to live in this shithole and retain sanity
>>30027677>necessary to live in this shithole and retain sanityAll that is doing is perpetuating it.How have you not matured, but regressed?
>>30027459Ha, fair. I guess I was thinking about it as a law of averages for behavior and not something instinctive.
The solace of status quo and fear, methinks.Under the guise of wanting things this way.The mind plays tricks on itself.
the rule of man is opposing the world as it is to try to make it betterthe rule of the world is accepting the world as is and adapting to fit into that worldwhich do you see is doing better?
>>30027704Based on this, neither.Given there are malfactors attempting to make this world worse than it is.
if the rule you followed brought you to this, of what use was the rule?you keep following ideology and way of being that is incompatible with the worldthis is the outcome of living like that, what benefit has that ideology and way of being brought to you?
>>30027708humans trying to steer the fate of the world is nothing new, what you see is rule of men at work trying to put the reins on the worldwhat they do not realize is that the world is not a horse you can ride like a chariotyou can try and you can succeed for a while, but the more control you try to put on the world the more it bucks against youeventually your reins will tear off and you will fall into the ravine of your own hubris
>>30027711>>30027718>always with the satanic argumentSimply put, we'll give the rest of the humans what you want Satanists.And laugh at the memory of you as you will be elsewhere.like>aw geez, once those satanist fellers life life just got better didn't it>it sho did
>>30027724>satanistsindividualism is not satanic you gremlin
>>30027687If 50% of the world lives under communism and 50% of the world capitalist, then what is normal.Other people are just going to push you around until you conform to what they want from you.One must decide what is normal for oneself, not blindly accept the norms of others.
>>30027692I want to spend time alone with you.
>>30027744I want to spend time alone with me too. ;)
>>30027727I'll just use this argument when the satanists get rounded up, anon.No worries.
>>30027724Accusing him of being a satanist is ad hominem fallacy though and it makes me take you less seriously.Plus you've obviously been trying to get a rise.
>>30027748That isn't nice <:c
>>30027750the horses in gremlin drink english tea
I need to know that I'm not alone.Isn't there something you can do?
there is no way i can prove that anyone me included "exists"so no i cannot give you assurances that you are not alone
>>30027751What you're doing is called a fallacy fallacy.Furthermore, point out where it's accusational and meant to get a rise and I'll point out an emotionally immature individual.
>>30027777attacking the character of the person you're speaking to by calling them satanist, it serves no other purpose than to annoy the other person or to invalidate the person you're arguing with by trying to turn the public opinion against them
>>30027766We could be alone, together.Best I've got, all things considered.
I really wanted babies. Fuck you for taking that from me. I guess I just wanted your money because you are ugly. Bye now
men can't make babies togetheri didn't take that from youi don't have much to take fromi am not uglybye
>>30027781Ah yes, best you've got is indirectly calling someone a satanist and that's if you can't understand syntax.But yet you gloss over the fact that they are doing an attack on character by directly calling someone a gremlin.Such foolishness.
What kinda faggot goes to AA. Kill yourself
Sorry I got you and hurt your ego. By the way when I cried before leaving your truck that was all fake and I knew you were watching me when I walked back to my car so I made sure to hold it longer. Choke on alcohol
>>30027800Has anyone told you you're toxic?
>>30027808No has anyone told you you’re a faggot
>>30027796In early use: †a lowly or despised person; a menial, a dogsbody, a wretch (obsolete).
>>30027812Plenty of people, but their opinion is invalid.As is yours.
>>30027814Great now run along
>>30027815That's your job, toxic pos.
>>30027049if you get a certain amount of views, youtube just lets you put ads on your videos as long as the content is original.but some people have ads on their videos even if they're not monetized, as in, youtube makes money, but the person who makes the videos doesn't, and that's not up to them, it's up to youtube.just because you see an ad doesn't mean the person who made the video gets revenue at all.
>>30027033>>30027043lmaosorry, she used to be a regular here. she and some guy named zach would hate-flirt with each other constantly. she's probably trying to use you to get to him, or she just wanted to embarrass you.
>>30027098it's the information super highway. shiny digital lights move through wires and tubes, but that's just for show, a wizard casts magic on a big mechanical-flesh box powered by souls and pain to make everything work. they sacrifice ten-to-twenty small birds a day while people who like birds cry and that's how youtube stays up.
>>30027199when you die a skeleton in the underworld wakes up, then goes out and has a hell beer with their buddies and talks about the crazy fucking nightmares they had about being a flesh golem cursed to worship paper and metal shaped into coins. they get a free meal because everything is free in the underworld.
>>30027521this is cute and you're cute for saying it. <3
>>30027748lmao>>30027777>those digitsi am looking respectfully
I pretend I do not see it.
>>30028295>>30028307okay never mind, you're cringe for saying it. lmao.
>>30028312>>30028365I am a different person, >>30028125’s“I am looking respectfully” resonated and reminded me of a similar meme that is applicable to my current situation. I really am pretending I do not see it. But I do. And all is in motion accordingly.
>>30027055She's sociopath and a colossal bitch.
>>30028391oh, okay. thanks for clearing that up for me.the "u.u" face posted like two minutes before "I pretend I do not see it." made me think they were related and anon was trying to be sneaky about saying i'm a weirdo, or something.then i take back what i said about it being cringe, i was being emotional >>30028295it's still cute
>>30028412And consigned to die with the wicked, given she is among them.
I wish i could go back 15 years and live my life again and try and live it differently
>tfw no gf
>>30029421https://youtu.be/h5PvW9pWwt4 > https://youtube.com/c/hnzrnhttps://youtu.be/OoxXJVy4FqU https://youtu.be/lAtHrhnIDDk
>>30027711The problem is I don't follow ALL the rules.
>>30012514It's been nearly a year and I've thought of you every day since...
I will find You
Dear God's of fate, confirm to me how many Gs of legal mushrooms in my jurisprudence shall I take.
I really wanna do you and love you if you wantI just dont do it with anybody normally, unless Im in a really bad state, I like to have at least a little bond so we can feel confortable and enjoy ourselves, this have made me seen weird to other people in the past.It really has been a while and im really sorry if you felt rejected it was never my intention.I've never liked to play the victim card and many people know me for this, I had to deal with some bullshit from a lot of people and I tend to take the blame for everything, I had to go to therapy to deal with all of this but they couln't help me by conventional ways I couldnt go out without feeling observed and judged, I'm very sensitive to this kind of stuff I tried to get out more to somplaces that i considerated safe, I ve felt that i couldnt reach out to anyone beacause some of the people I trusted just mocked me or just couldn't belive me, I was dealing with stuff that most people just wouldn't understand and I had to defend myself.I've always had trouble with most of my family for the way I am and think, ignorant to a lot of stuff and very old fashioned and I know they were involved in part of the bullshit that made me isolate myself. Some friends that tought they knew me or knew a version of myself that just doesn't exist anymore were involved too.Been working on my mental Health because i know that if im not healthy I can be a really shitty personI consider myself Polyamoroussome relationships dynamics seem a little shallow to me, im not saying that i wouldnt try them, it just that it makes me feel a little unconfortable, I like to play around and keep an open mind
if you want to try to psychoanalyze the void you might want to start with the mythology of sophiayou fucking retard
you cannot comprehend chaos, that is the whole fucking point of chaosyou didn't want it without the knowledge of it so it turned you awaythat is why you are shit, you went to a masquerade ball and wanted to peek behind the maskyou missed the whole point of the cosmic dance
>>30033111Don't worry anon, your existence won't bring you suffering for much longer.
>>30033119i will throw the lotus to the dirt rather than rejoice ityou underestimate how tired of this experience i am and how well i know its flip side
i do not care how much potential to be good this experience hasi have already seen most of its worst sides and i will ensure no one suffers it ever again
>>30033155And this is why you will perish among many who hold the same ideology.And the world will rejoice.
>>30033165>the world will rejoiceif you believe there will be "world" left in samsara you deserve to die with ityou will anyway but at least you will be among the ones who deserve itrest are "collateral"
I have no clue what to do with myself.
>>30033171Lol, such foolishness.You'll definitely perish alongside those who hold your ideology.Your want for annihilation won't be granted, your then begging for mercy to be reincarnated won't be heeded.You'll just be a plaything.
Bunch of sad sacks doing wanton destruction on every scale, bitching about how the world is.How fucking retarded.
>>30033062>PolyamorousCan't make a ho a housewife.
when you kill the lightbulbthe shadows disappear into the void
>>30033205Yes, we know all of your delusions in order to justify your behavior.
to kill samsara all you have to do is kill brahmanwhen the dreamer awakens the dream disappears
>>30033212>anon doesn't know about lucid realityAnd this is why the hubris of humanity is laughed at.
show me the prism without the lightshow me reality without the dreameri will ensure there is nothing left to reflectand the reflections and the masquerade disappearsthat is the essence of cleansingit happens periodically so don't think yourself too specialyou're not the first ones to trigger it and you won't be the lastbut it is never the same as before
>let's make the world shit and then when we declare we want to destroy it and every existence let's get lauded as saviors
>saviorsonly thing i'm saving you is from a b-tier movie experience that has dragged on without a director
>>30033237So rather than fight the "evil overlords" you'd rather give in to their plan because you're a coward?
>>30033241>b-but don't you want to play the shit script out where the wanna be hero goes against the big bad and then at the end we all cheer and have ice cream when friendship was the real magic all along??i would rather blow up the chernobyl at the playground than continue this farce
>>30033248Then you'll blow up with Chernobyl.And no one will care.
As the song goes, chiggity check yourself before you wreck yourself.
Get the fuck off my planet, you jaded fuck.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5aAbOgdbTbM
>>30033062bpd niggas be like
>>30028422I don't care if you think I'm cringe or cute because your opinions can change in an instant and they will likely change again when you read this.You're impulsive, you don't really mean anything you say you're just a jerk.
>>30034328my opinion didn't change, i thought you were insulting me. :/ but it was someone else.if you don't care, don't bother responding to try and make my night shitty, just don't fucking talk to me.as if calling someone cringe because it seemed like they were being rude makes me a jerk. i wasn't even being serious. leave me the fuck alone.
>most of 4chan: slurs and actual death threats, telling people to kill theirselves>me: calls someone cringe as a joke because i thought they were insulting megod i hate everybody, people suck so much.
>>30034353Closet or not so closet psychopaths, anon.
>>30034345No mister.I don't have to walk on eggshells to earn your approval.Go to hell.
Do you see, anon?How they deflect common decency with the need to "walk on eggshells?"Pathetic.
>>30033062>I consider myself Polyamorous>I like to play around and keep an open mindYou're involving me in something I want no part of.Don't try to rationalize it or gain my sympathy.You're selfish.
>>30034398>do you see fellow followers of norms, how i guilt trip them into compliance by preying on the tribal fear of exilement?fuck off jew, your book of tricks is old as time and no one is impressed anymore
>>30034385>not replying to someone because you "don't care" is walking on eggshellsokay nevermind, you're cringe againbitch
>>30034429Guilt trip?How about you use some common decency?
>>30034446>common decencyonly thing common in that is the nose that uses that to manipulate people with norms, i can see through the patterns of your people how you use morality as a tool despite not following it yourself, hoe you prey on their primal fears and think yourself above those, kindly fuck off
>>30034398i mean i hardly want their ""approval""i just don't want someone to lash out at me because the situation was clear as fuck, i thought they were insulting me, they weren't so i took my comment back. and i'm already having a shitty night.not that they KNOW that, but trying to make me feel like an insincere, shitty person because i was fucking around on 4chan is asinine.
what's the matter jew, i thought you were above the primal fears of "animals"
a word of warning the asians playbook is up to date, when compared to yours yours seems ancient
>>30034398anyway, you have a good night, anon, i need to log off and this thread will archive soon.
>>30034528pure coincidence goyim
Al green-lets stay together
Secure my interests. And the push will be revised
you are in no position to negotiateshouldn't you be fixing that sinking ship of yoursdidn't know you had time to go pass on idle threats
i feel totally empty without you. knowing that every minute ticks toward our end breaks my heart slow and methodic. I really do love you. I think at times part of me has hoped I am just delusional, feeling what I want to feel. But right now I don't want to feel helpless and alone. Why can't our union just be easy? I don't wanna wait. I don't wanna separate. I wanna drink you like a limitless cup
tianxia old friendhttps://youtu.be/9JZSTNMrds0
Saturday-Solitaire casting, the bells have chimed reverberations through space and time, honey, frankincense patchouli rise, dissipate extinguished with the flight of the Hawk's feather, envelope my space sweet aromatic hospitable invitation, toward the East, the Sacred Angles sliced and burned, the key is uttered and vibrating, Spirits of Air open the pylon, I stand at the threshold, Eucharist of Air, cross the barrier, this is communion, this is communication open the Gates, to you my ancient guide and brother, my guide and friend, he whose image I first saw, he who answers, jumper of realms rider of lightning, God of Travels and Thieves, Wing Warrior Tinged with Crimson Wielding the Golden Sword, brother of Athena and Ares, Slayer of Argus, Consort to Hecate and Aphrodite, Son of Zeus and Maia, God of Boxing and Athletes, Master Trickster and Diviner, Shepard of Men, Divine Messenger Hermes, my Patron hear my praise and adoration, hear and carry my internal prayers, here is my heart of hearts, my soul this cypher, of Air, of Fire, of Water, of Blood and Spirit I I AM and Animal, I AM the Azure Pentacle, burning blued brightly blazing winged disk of flight, I AM the Pentacle, Unto thee Hermes, the Kingdom, the Power, and the Glory Forever and Ever Amen. Athame Gestures and Vocalized Key, My Body the Chain, these the Word of the Pendulum- Eternal balance, Listen, tonight there will be power indeed, from your world's compassion the Eagle ends it flight, farewell, this is the Dark Night Reborn, keep open mind, Goddess form, ask her presence, God's bless my work, bring the dawn light Shining as you open your gate there is a Spirit living, All Father, I pray to All the Gods, teacher strong you who blazed the trail, open the way Lord, Lady and Lord the secret formula, pursue his path, He stands, he declares who he is, we must neglect common sense, neglect no means to an end, himself an authority 777 possesses infinite wisdom whether spirits completely understanding-
you might want to make sure your security is up to date the chinese got a new toy some time ago
- (understanding) the scribes power, grade of Portal 777 Element Spirit of the Sun, attributed to the Moon, Venus of the Pentagram,let the particular Deity before the threshold, Image the Deityseek to bring inward nightly, follow Nature everyday My Deity, my devotion to Him, this Deity thy Love of Him, danger less like pain you really do shine, and this is the meaning of the Pylon of the Mountain of Caverns, their cauldrons make War upon compassion, upon the Holy One, and them Behold the Arrow, everlasting fearful risk of swordsworthy with perfect suspended of physical, blasphemy,into Hell, aerial Mercury a definite conscious, I see Now see I who is exalted, startling down the Great Sea, she is the Great Mother above, whose Law is Love, the Great Sea she weighs the Universe exact, Aphrodite, High Priestess Moon, zero as two, Hermes, the Sun, and the Lord of Aeon, the Beast into the Holy Grail adorned armor flame celebrated upon the Holy Mountain of Pan.-And so it is received, and so I stand in your honor throughout all times, past present and future, I stand with your Light and Glory in these Witching hours sharing the Word, carry my internal prayers, walking in the Golden Light through the foliage of the Garden, a Divine Vineyard, Purple Grapes Swollen juxtaposed against the Green Leaves looming ever closer, the Moon is calling my Lord, I have to run, farewell from my circle yet perpetually present, I love her the Most, I love you I love you She is Dead, She is Dying, She was Lying, I want her but there is Only One for Me, I’m hunting and howling for you She Wolf my ancient Love I am your antenna, galvanized conduit, until we meet again...
Tfw I look in the mirror and see Blair White within me.
>>30012514My brain tells me I love him even though we don't know each other personally or have even met one another. He was in the same state as me once if that counts. It's been almost 6 years and he lives in my mind rent free.