>>21795437
I dropped 120 fucking pounds of fat. I got /fit/. I got a good job. And I'm still wildly suicidal and miserable, I can't get laid no matter how hard I try. It's like women see through my fake confidence and demeanor with ease and sense what I really am. It's worst when I am out in public with a tight shirt on and a girl ACTIVELY approaches me to make advances, then my personality still manages to bleed through and drive her away.

I will be an actual, unironic incel until my heart stops and I'm sent to the grave. Unreal.

>>21795454
Get well, anon.

>>21795454
Yeah theres something about being socially alienated in the formative years that just never leaves you.

>>21795454
Even after you start fucking women and this awkward phase of your life feels like a distant memory, it will still feel like it's never enough.

>>21795422
>>21795438
While what you are saying is probably true. And also bait to make pissed probably. This man listens to reggaeton and mostly consumes Tiktok and dollar-store Mexican andrew tate clones, he probably just didn't have any idea of what post-modernity was.
Not that I fault him I guess. But a part of me truly suspects he doesn't know what post means.
I feel bad about it because he's pretty friendly to me while I'm being an asocial reject in the background. I reciprocate with politeness for the record.

God is punishing me for no reason. I guess he really wants for me to kms.

>>21795509
To make me pissed*
never type tired.
>But a part of me truly suspects he doesn't know what post means.
Post as in post-production, post-modernity, post-soviet, post-industrial, etc.
It took me from left field a little, reminding me that not everyone thinks like I do.

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>>21795437
I have 3 months, 90 days exactly, left to live. I've already wasted too much time trying to ignore the passing of time. Now that I barely have time left, I can see things more clearly.

>>21795515
god isn't real. you are probably suffering by the stupid of your own actions

>>21795454
>e
Man, you don't have to remain in this eternal purgatory. Just give up if it's such an excruciating ordeal. It's not worth the effort.
However, do take into account I'm not a very (outwardly alienated) human being so my experience is probably radically different from yours. I just dislike being with people a lot, but I can very well befriend them.

>>21795524
My condolences in advance.

>>21795524
>that melodramatic faggoty picture
>that file name
>that melodramatic faggot post
yep, that's a win for the world. please do it.

>>21795528
God is real. You are probably suffering by the stupidity of your own actions.

Why are humans disgusted by garlic farts?

We are biologically wired to be attracted to health.

Eating garlic is healthy.

So why are garlic farts so repulsive? They should be a sign of good health and fertility just like clear skin and fat tits.

>>21795515
Read the book of Job, my dude.

>>21795528
>>21795541
getting conflicting message here

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I don't know if I'm cut out for drawing and painting and it's causing a lot of turmoil. I want to do landscape, architecture, and semi-abstract work stemming from those subjects but I'm so autistically detail-focused that everything feels soulless. And I'm not even far enough along in the learning process to be thinking like this, but I find it hard to let go and find freedom in my creation. And I don't practice every day to even improve at a good rate because I'm so depressed. It's frustrating.

I took a trip to the art museum and spent a lot of time with the landscape painting and many had incredible attention to detail but still conveyed great sense of feeling and place. I took a road trip and along the way kept thinking about how so much of the earth is passed by in an hour, while many of these landscape painters would hike in to the mountains, spending days or weeks in the environments they were painting, or paint the untouched landscape around them. I sit in my room and draw from photos.

>>21795566
Im not a very faithful person like Job for God to test me on this.

>>21795437
Having sex is metaphysically giving away a piece of yourself. I regret having multiple partners, I've become what I despised the most.

>>21795515
Use the healing power of music to feel better. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wh-07BzfgYY

My young life sucked. Childhood, adolescence, young adulthood. All shit. I'm kind of upset about this. Hoping things get better from here on

>>21795589
dance music videos are something else, especially that era

My mom thinks says she's sorry for failing as a parent. A bit of a huge indirect insult to me.

>>21795645
*My mom says she's sorry for failing as a parent.

>>21795648
>>21795645
Well, that's rough buddy. In a small way, I can commiserate.
>>21795437
My father has recently been pushing for me to fuck a prostitute because he traveled to his home country recently and my uncle decided to ask him if it happened yet.
I am completely disgusted with the idea. Or with having sex in general as of now. I'll have to get accustomed to it eventually, given that I want to have children.

>>21795656
You should read up on what Thomas Aquinas did when his family sent him a prostitute.

>>21795454
I'll let you in on a secret: the keyword here is that you said "get laid". You only want to get laid. You don't like women at all, you only want the pussy. The thing is, you need to like women even if just a little bit. And yes women see through that.

>>21795437
I've been getting into capitalization lately. Even a bit of punctuation here and there.

>>21795454
So far as advice goes this >>21795676 is probably the best you’ll get.

My personal experience with women has been quite chaotic and I’ve allowed myself to get taken advantage of and hurt by romantic/sexual partners because I was so desperate to be loved. Point being that, besides the pursuit of pussy for pussy’s sake being deeply off-putting for most women most of the time, the consequences of seeking fulfillment in sex and love can be quite damaging (not just emotionally!). I’m not saying to just “be yourself :^)” and stop worrying about sex, but trying to offer a gentle reminder to look out for yourself and to try to love life for what it is and what you can personally make of it. Again, heeding the advice above, thinking of women as people will help you enjoy life better independently of whether it helps you get laid.

Stay strong, my guy. I’m sorry you’re going through it.

>>21795674
Hopefully, it doesn't come to that.

I'm sad and lonely and want attention

>>21795645
Just redirect right back at her
>yeah, you really could have done more

Guys I'm reqlly depressed. What am i supposed to do to fix it

>>21795778
Why are you sad?

>>21795784
Therapist I guess

>>21795589
The Bridge is one of my favorite albums of all-time and Ace of Base is severely underrated.

https://youtu.be/zDfdeVhLP-Y

>>21795437
Had a dream where teleportation technology was created but is so expensive only a few have acces. During which they made a game show called red light green light where 12 people walk forward in their own traffic lane. Responding to whatever obstacle in front of them. Every contest talked about their lives in that world while llaying.An old lady won getting to be sent wherever she wanted. Then backstage there's talk of the staff of a new co host. Not sure what it means..

>>21795875
I had a dream about wooden stoplights.

Like whoever made them didn't even try. They were just logs with traffic signals embedded. Not sure what it means.

>it's the "bizarre and sexually-charged dream about my little sister" episode again
I dreamed that I convinced her to show me her vagina and then she turned out to have a dick instead. I then proceeded to frot with my other sister, who also randomly had a dick. It was deeply troubling.

>>21795899
Is this from a Jordan Peterson book?

The best thing about women is their butts

>>21795454
>I dropped 120 fucking pounds of fat
Method? I'm definitely not a desperate fattie who can't lose weight hahahah

>>21795903
I wish

I don't have ADD. But the depression fried my brain and robbed me of my better qualities. I let my self go. My cognitive abilities are significantly reduced. My executive function is practically non-existant. I can no longer estimate the passage of time. Or focus for too long. I've become accustomed to rumination, regret, so much so that those are the only thoughts dominating my neurological processes even when I'm doing something that requires meticulous attention. At this point I am no longer depressed. I've become depressive. This is who I am now. I must reverse this. I am a coward and will never put a firm end to my life. So I must find a way to fight this. I must.

>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C1193zh-q5k
new goldfrapp finally

>>21795454
>And I'm still wildly suicidal and miserable
There you have it, that's your issue, start praying to God ask him for guidance and forgiveness.

>>21795577
>sit in my room and draw from photos.
>trip to the art museum and spent a lot of time with the landscape painting
Take stuff with you to sketch and copy next time. Start drawing architecture from real life too, because getting perspective down helps with rendering things from plans. Autistic detail focus is not a bad thing in art, especially not if you hone it into skills. Daily practice trains your hand eye coordination and suffering through it despite depression gives you a soul.

I'm very proud I haven't spurted out I want to suck your dick. I think I deserve a medal for self control in public spaces.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=60ucKFdNv-I

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>>21795938
Get a visit to an endocrinologist so that you can be sure that being fat is your fault and not a severe hormonal disbalance/autoimmune disease. Visit her often so that you obtain a sense of guilt for not dropping fat. (i've got Graves' disease that says something about losing weight fast and eyes popping out but it doesn't actually do anything for me except high heartbeat).
Count the calories for "snacks". If they're too much, throw them out and replace them with more sustainable stuff (at my place they sell frozen pineapple pieces that are like 1/6 of ice cream in cals and are still cool, or buy a pack of nuts or some shit).
Drop juices/sugary drinks/sodas immediately.
You're probably eating a lot of shit you don't even like. Try replacing it with fruit, vegetables or "healthier", non-sugar alternatives.
Get a step counter so you can see how much you've burned/you have to burn.
If you're working or studying, extend your commute time. Start getting off at larger distances or find alternative routes to get home that take more time.
Cook for yourself so you know what you eat or only buy food with you know how many cals.
DON'T RUSH IT nigga, with your first 20 kilos off you don't even need to weigh yourself except at a doctor.
> t. went from morbidly obese to "excess fat" (still going) in 2-3 years without significant restraint, minus ~50kg

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>>21796546
Also a pretty fun thing if you've got the money:
While you're at the computers, get a treadmill or an exercise bike and do the thing while scrolling or doing things that do not require significant mental load like vidya. If you're real broke, get a mini exercise bike and do things for a long ass time so you can regain the necessary pressure.

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bros...

>>21796600
>let's ignore your mother working for tips
kek

>>21795437
How do I know if I love someone or just really really like them a lot?

(I ask myself as I've cried two days in a row about potentially losing them)

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Thoughts?

My life is crumbling to pieces and it is all my fault
I ruined it all, I couldn't bring myself to be a man and do what had to be done and I let myself float deep into a trap.

>>21796568
>a exit

>>21796834
What happened?

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>>21795454
Just give up, anon. You'll be happier. But whatever you do, always keep improving and don't revert back to your fatter self. If you want to get "laid" just see a prostitute.

>>21795585
How many women have you been with?

There's this young girl who lives a few houses away from me, and she walks her dog every few days by my house. I've noticed her looking at me and smiling, she even said hi once when I was in my front yard, she said it really enthusiastically and loud which surprised me people just mumble their greeting or look at the ground when passing your house. I have no idea how old she is 14/15 would be rough guess.

There's also another girl living down the road a bit farther she seems a bit autistic, around my age but has a really nice body just a little on the thick side, she's quite pretty actually even if not my and I've seen her walking up to my house, then turning back, going multiple times by my house always acting nervously and sometimes checking me out

Oh and there are two more girls 16 and 18 I believe the older one which i really hot living near, I was at some birthday party last year in the neighborhood and they were constantly looking at me, talking and giggling.

No particular reason for write any of this that's just what was on my mind.

>>21796546
>>21796568
Thanks king, I will follow your word. I wish you luck with your troubles, you're a cool guy you'll find somebody

There's a door in my mind. An exit. I can feel its outline sometimes. If I pry hard enough I think I can go through, but I'm afraid of what my body will do afterwards, and I fear that it's less of an exit and more of a trap. Regardless of my fears, the door lies there, tempting me.

>>21795585
Only because you think it so.

In fact, it is growth. Perhaps you don’t like who you’ve become, but you are always growing year after year. Loves, sexual encounters or not, will also change us. You’re bemoaning the passage of time and the life experiences.
Get well, turkey.

test

>>21796600
Mombros...

I'll be right back. I'm going to wash the dishes.

>>21795437
starting Herodotus' Histories today, im excited.

>>21797421
Who are you talking to? How would anyone know if you were here in the thread or not, unless you were actively posting?

>>21797421
I will admit, I sometimes enjoy cleaning house, doing laundry and so on but makes me embarrassed as a man.

I need to get a girl to do these things for me because I like having everything tidy but feels weak and wasteful to be doing all of these thing myself.

I sometimes even get really into laundry detergents, dishwasher detergents and other shit completely by accident because I need to but something but due to me perfectionism / lite autism I get really into these things and end up buying the best I can find.

>>21797531
How did the dishes go?

>>21797538
I'm not the dishes anon

>>21797549
if you're not the dishes then what are you?

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>>21796617
>>21797287

>>21797554
I'm the anon who expanded with on the dishes post >>21797531

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>>21797556
I BROKE IT

>>21797574
It breaks like this every few minutes you need to reload the page nothing to do with the prompt

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>>21797612

I get why they used to prescribe quaaludes to housewives... I'm comfortable and love my husband but the isolation and repetition starts to get to you. I can't even play video games or watch netflix shows anymore because the dopamine hit just isn't there. It's like staring at the wall. I guess I could work but I'm socially retarded and that doesn't work well in an office. Last two jobs I had I got fired for vague "well we just don't think you're a good fit", but I'm pretty sure it was because I'm weird and couldn't integrate into the social culture. I could try joining some groups in my area but the aforementioned retardation is still a problem. I'm kind of hoping having kids gives me a sense of purpose.

>>21797641
nice try but women don't talk like this, they are much smarter and classier

I'm so sick of this stupid wagie job making me work holidays.

>>21797421
It’s been an hour. Where are you? Please don’t leave me hanging.

I have to take some radical measures and decisions in my life

>>21797694
Like what?

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>>21797655
I came here to vent not get salt in the wound
and you're so classy mf?

>>21797655
Weird retards can. And who else do you expect to be here?

>>21797641
Do you like animals? Maybe a pet would be a good starter/test run for that.
Cheer up, have hope.

I saw all that shit from last night, but I wasn’t the one who posted it. It’s some troll. Please don’t assume that it was me and try to escalate this and fuck me over. I’m scared.

>>21797641
Get a real hobby, learn to play an instrument or something

>>21797641
You're asleep
Find something that wakes you up, then challenge yourself to truly learn and excel at that thing
A dead life makes a dead mind and keeps you sleep walking in place

>>21797641
I'm also a socially awkward woman. Hopefully my husband impregnates me soon because I'm really bored

>>21797893
How funny! I'm also a socially awkward woman. Guess there's a lot of us on /lit/. Unfortunately I'm unmarried and struggle to get a boyfriend because its hard for me to even go outside and talk to people. I would like an awkward /lit/ boy to marry me so we could drink red wineand read poetry by candlelight and go to museums.

>>21797893
>>21797917
Post tits now, roasties

>>21797925
>>>/soc/

>>21797917
Noooooooooooooooooooooooooo!

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Fell in love with a friend again
Hahaha oops I'm gonna be so alone soon

>>21795676
>>21795718
My wording definitely makes it sound bad but I actually have nothing against women. Really, getting "laid" was sort of on my mind because I was on a date with a girl before writing that which was going well, and she invited me back to her apartment for drinks and I just fumbled it in her home. I will admit the fact that I've never had sex at the age of 29 is brutal on my mind though, which is something I should stop focusing on so hard. I've let it become a bit of a stepping stone in my mind and that is certainly a mistake.

Obviously the overarching goal is some attainment of normalcy and stability but I have largely abandoned that as an achievable goal long ago, so I just settle for the little "wins" from time to time.

horny for office milf

>>21798006
Hey, at least you have friends

>>21797672
I just got back from bowling and eating at a restaurant with my grandfather. I forgot to check back in after doing the dishes earlier.

did any of you guys do anal? my gf is trying to use it as a bargaining chip

>>21795454
Sounds like you were a fat kid growing up and you still subconsciously think of yourself as a fat kid in a disguise rather than thinking of yourself as a chad. It's mind games bro, just know what women are like and know how to keep a convo going.

>>21798276
Bargaining chip for what? Anyway thats a red flag. Using sex as leverage is manipulative and unhealthy

>>21798276
Yeah, it's fine. Worth trying but I'm not crazy about it. Pussy is better.

>>21798300
it was in a joking manner, she'll probably let me do it anyway but I don't want to be icarus

I'm doing it, I'm going, I can't hold back anymore, I have to dig myself deeper, I want it all, I want to be covered, I want it, I want it, yes, I can't stop, I'm floating, I'm flying, I'm taken to a high place and shown all the kingdoms of the world, I'm ascending through seven marble palaces, there's golden dust on the wind, the sun is a wheel of glass, the sky is a bowl of fire, the sea is all the stars abreast, I, I can't, I'm-- and now I'm falling back down and the sun has turned to ashes and the seas have gone dull and the stone rolled away from the tomb in the garden pins me to the ground with a great weight and I struggle for breath and a thousand burning needles brush my heart and the kingdoms of the world were all just dust blown for a brief moment into towers and spires and there's nothing, nothing, a bottomless pit, a mouth, the trumpet from Heaven and the fire from Hell winding round and round me, and I know that I could run to the horizon without ever reaching it or I could close my eyes and the horizon would be gone.

>>21798326
Flying too close to where the sun don't shine? Anyway what's your hesitation?

>>21798343
idk I might get shit on my dick

>>21795437
Today, after a very long period of sleep deprivation and madness in its truest form, things finally felt right. I have no one but very few solid friends I can count on, nothing but a can of soda in my hands and a roof over my head, yet I feel content. I am glad past me made it to today. I am glad he somehow mustered the strength to do what we did. We always thought we were fucking idiots, but at last we are competent and truly determined fucking idiots, doing idiotic fucking things that are brilliant.

>>21798354
Wear a condom dummy

>>21798372
still nasty, also condoms suck. Guess I'll do it with the lights off and just throw it away

>>21795437
https://youtu.be/dsx2vdn7gpY

>>21795437
Is it possible to divorce oneself from what's often called "groupthink", or is the effort inherently futile?
I've encountered many ideologues and zealots religious and political, offline and online, and have found that all exhibit a similar thinking style.
Namely, that such people can't fathom the possibility that their group's beliefs have changed over time or that their group may share any similarities with an enemy group.
The possibility that their group's ideas change over time would be to admit that their group's beliefs are not eternally true.
A believer must believe their favored group has existed for all time eternally static and unchanging.
If I tell a progressive about the history of progressivism in the early 20th century--the support for eugenics, the nativism, etc--the reaction is always defensive because that account doesn't align with the one they have in their head. Because that version of progressivism is radically different from their contemporary one, such that it makes them feel threatened.
The same goes for religious groups if I try to talk about the history of their religion, and how people of their religion in the past viewed things differently, the reaction will always be a bit angry no matter how passively I deliver this information with no ulterior motive.
Everyone always suspects me of having an ulterior motive, when my only one is genuine curiosity.
I've encountered this with my family as well who are zealous democrats. Recently watching some congressional hearing, I pointed out how it's interesting how Democrats have moved, at least rhetorically, to a position far more in favor of some economic protectionism, of bringing back jobs to America. A shift away from the pro-globalization platforms of the democrats in the past.
The reaction was suspicious and defensive, and they insisted that the democrats were never pro-globalization, and that they didn't know what that meant.
I realized that they were defensive for several reasons 1) the suggestion that democrats' positions could change over time bothered them 2) they hadn't yet rehearsed lines fed to them by democrat thought leaders

>>21798326
Just fuck her tight little ass until it flops inside out

>>21798354
Just have her take laxatives and then use an enema

>>21798483
& 3) the offensive notion that their group had any policies similar to the other side

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A Poem

Gold
A mint is built for it
People cherish it
Yet it can get lost

So why do I search
for this life's gold?
Am I a fool?
Yes and no!

My Au is special
I feel it in my heart
I wear it in my soul
It is aetherial

That gold I value
More than pain or death
For it is not just gold
But love

A love of bien-être
A feeling of grandeur
That I want
That I cherish

Within a year this board will be nothing but /pol/posting, incel posting, Twitter threads, bait threads, and anons hyperfixated on the implications of AI. Truly a dystopian nightmare

>>21798486
like a prolapse? nah that's fucked, also she's an anal virgin

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>>21798501
PS

My love is like a heart reservoir
And you could leave me standing so tall
Gold!
Always believe in your soul
You've got the power to know
You're indestructible
Always believe it!
You're Gold!

>>21798483
I think you have to dumb it down or lie to them in order to get them on your side

I’m scared to respond because it wasn’t me who did it this time and I don’t know what you think or what you want or if you’re angry and I’m not supposed to talk to you and I don’t want to get in trouble

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I WILL BE FREE

>>21798559
>in order to get them on your side
I guess that's the problem, that I usually have little interest in "winning people over".
Except if I'm honest with myself, even when I tell myself I am not I actually do secretly want to win people to my side. Yet I dislike the task since I'm aware such a desire is really motivated out of egoism--the want to see the other adopt a stance that is similar to my own. To make the others resemble me. An aim that feels vulgar and small.
But being aware of that fact, I will still indulge in it, even if for me winning others to my side only means making them as cynical and detached as myself.

>>21798276
yes, it was worth trying once. didn't really feel better but knowing a girl was willing to let you do that to her was pretty erotic. not sure about the bargaining chip thing though anon, doesn't sound healthy

>>21798503
with AI posts to boot!

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>>21795437
(I)cons

>>21798520
Even better. She probably has a tight pink butthole for you to violate and engorge.

>>21798823
she's not white so nah

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>>21795437
Ed Edd n Eddy is singlehandedly responsible for the sissyfication of young men.

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About to do my third line of coke for the night. Maybe I'll do one more, but that's a decision for later. Trying to read some lectures from Russell's "The Analysis of Mind" while trying not to feel overwhelmed about future goals and the aspirations I have not even conceived yet.

Do you have a single favorite book/movie/aesthetic? Or do you not make lists in your head?

>>21799162
No

>>21798974
I don't understand. I love ed ed and eddy though

>>21799289
How do you keep track of everything you like? Do you just go with the wind?

>>21799321
I have a goodreads for books and a rateyourmusic for music. I'm not a movie guy so I don't keep track of that.

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runescape subreddit fell for AI art

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>>21795437
how do i cope with being a fucking midwit?

>>21799537
What test is this I wanna take it
At least you're not dumb, could always be worse

>>21799556
open psychometrics
i would be less annoyed if it weren't for the fact i got the complete inverse of the results i expected. i thought i would do good with language and shit with spacial reasoning

>>21795437
/pol/ and it’s offshoots have done quite a number here

>>21799573
yeah, i don't mind rightwing shit, but /pol/ shit is always so fucking dumb.

>>21799580
I'm going to be honest here. I'm not a fan of /pol/ or Nazi stuff.

>>21799590
no one is. that shit is fucking stupid.

>>21799162
I think werewolves are super fucking cool

Layber under daylait moon
Paws to wissel th'gowldin toon
Forms dispurs, silenc soon
Layber under daylait moon

>>21799590
I’d add incels, tradcath larpers, and tradlarpers

Life sucks. I’m in the most beautiful land in the world and I still can’t even feel optimistic about it anymore.

>>21799614
Hedonic treadmill. In my experience it's better to not even have goals in life and just enjoy what you have day by day, not considering the past or the future. But your circumstances might not allow you to do that. I'm living with my parents.

>>21799610
i don't like marxists, anarchists, or people who offer trite responses blaming everything on capitalism either. imagine if we could just talk about literature without some ideological nitwit banging his hobbyhorse in every thread

>>21799619
I agree

>>21799619
I only care about stories and storytelling and all the related ways of storytelling like narrative techniques and prose style. There's nothing else I care about. I wish this board did as well.

>>21795437
I dont. want to sleep yet because I dont want to jerk off for a third time today thinking about red head college girls in St. Patrick's days outfits with big milkers, downing pints and giving BJs.

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>>21799566
Wow I mogged you faggot, first try
Lol jk. It's higher than I expected but I knew my spatial awareness was shit

>>21799618
The hedonic treadmill is real but that’s not my issue.

>>21799626
Permiscuous women don't turn me on, personally. I prefer sanctamonious women.

>>21799628
whoa you're good at memorizing things big whoop
i was drunk when i took it anyway

>>21799614
Sounds more like you are sucking right now. Life just is. Make yours suck less somehow. I dunno how, but you should.

>>21799633
I had some wine too, you are coping n seething n shitting yourself
Nice spatial awareness faggot

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>>21799644
i've been mogged
it is over

>>21795437
---- Solaria ----
830
Sirius

Hipparchus would have done better
And made it the zero standard candle of night

Had he lived where it sets and rises to the scale of season
And when one can live so much

By the clock of whim or will that day
Itself comes goes without much incidence

Of feeling, and relax completely as it comes and goes
Like perennial themes in miniature.

Or the sense of universal snow far without
The dome of personality wherein such things both

Sing and seem to with some incalculable rarity even as darkness does
As firefly photographs, that moment one pauses

To tell whether it's Venus or a jet's headlights or glimpses of
Orion as a freeze-frame in a timelapse of spinning sky,

Always faintly hilarious in his strut.

Kinda tired of the AI threads. Out of all the shit over the years, this might be the final nail in the coffin.

>>21795437
isn't it good to be a man?

>>21795437
---- Solaria ----
832
(Conversation)

She looked sad even from resort balconies,
Toured Southern avenues lined with ancient trees,

Surveyed several capitol cities without ever talking to anyone
Met by the chance of easy charm,

And took photos from breathtaking perspectives on the Haleakala caldera
Yet never took much pleasure from that or the thousand

Treefrogs whirring in the giant maples of her front yard,
As she did with me, playing music more to her liking than she knew

While drifting cottonwood fluff completed elysium of a pleasantly shining mid-afternoon.

>>21795437
put
your entire
arm
upmy
ass

Rude remarks run rampant

>>21795437
>>21795437
people say i'm some sorta reactionary nazi lunatic but i hate war and racism

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>Get into an argument with someone online
>Feel like I'm obviously right
>He makes that one point I have no rebuttal for
>...
>Realize our entire dispute is pointless unless we delve into literal Socratic dialectics about aesthetics and morality and shit to find out who is actually correct
>This will never happen unless you have two massive autists who both study philosophy
>Realize >99.99% of discussions online are fated to go nowhere for this reason

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>>21799293
Was half joking. Just meant all the scenes of the Kanker sisters bullying and sexually harrasssing the Eds.

>>21799886
lol, you have to let it go. i beat you. move on.

>>21795437
How do I cope with being artistically incompetent?
Everything I make is shit and the fact it's shit essentially prevents me from improving because I hate having to be constantly reminded that I'm shit by doing the same shit again.
Do you people know of any retarded surrogate hobbies that create things but aren't actual art so I don't have to face my incompetence?
Apart from making shitty althis maps, which I already do.
And no I can't get over it because I make art for it to be good, to have made something with value, not for myself. If I actually lived "for myself" the first thing I'd do is cease vital functions and kneel over dead.

>>21799899
Which one is the best sister?

They call me the thread bearer.

>>21795784
>>21795808
therapy won't do shit and it's also expensive. start taking care of yourself, exercise, keep a strict sleeping schedule, maybe try meditation. avoid alcohol and drugs and try to stabilize your emotions without high highs and low lows. pick an achievable goal that most people might do in a day and give yourself a week and really work hard to do it. or, if you have some grander ambitions, make an effort to plan out what you want to do and then start doing it. for example, writing a 300k word book sounds like a major undertaking, but it's suddenly not so bad when you realize that's less than 1000 words a day.
i would not go to a therapist unless you are extremely rich and know that the therapist you're going to is scared of you or scared of getting a bad reputation for treating you badly. if you are a poorfag, avoid therapy, it'll only make you feel worse
also, it goes without saying, but cut out all toxic/depressing people from your life, they'll only drag you down. make some exceptions for old friends and family, but if you've got some guy you just met that you see occasionally and you think he's a downer, cross him out of your life

>>21800118
>therapist you're going to is scared of you or scared of getting a bad reputation for treating you badly
are you projecting?

>>21800016
blue hair whatever her name was

>>21795437
---- Solaria ----
833
(archive)

My father gave up the driver's seat
To what he admired and cultivated to the end.

Frailty too advanced for rough adventure,
Adapted for luxury cars, ears and

Soundsytems gliding plains automated beyond belief.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v7hFdGnwH1E

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yeah...njdkna,mdkam,sm ,mdas

>>21800152
Why so sad? Don't be obtuse or evasive.

Я ycтaл быть тeм, кeм ты хoчeшь, чтoбы я был.
Чyвcтвyю ceбя тaким нeвepным, пoтepянным пoд пoвepхнocтью.
He знaю, чeгo ты ждeшь oт мeня.
Пoд дaвлeниeм хoждeния в твoeй oбyви
Кaждый мoй шaг - этo eщe oднa oшибкa для тeбя.
Пoймaнный в пoдвoднoм тeчeнии, пpocтo пoймaнный в пoдвoднoм тeчeнии
Я тaк oцeпeнeлa.
Я нe чyвcтвyю тeбя pядoм.
Cтaл тaким ycтaвшим
Taк cильнo ocoзнaю.
Я cтaнoвлюcь этим.
Bce, чтo я хoчy cдeлaть
Быть бoльшe пoхoжим нa ceбя
И мeньшe быть пoхoжим нa тeбя.
Paзвe ты нe видишь, чтo дyшишь мeня.
Дepжишь cлишкoм кpeпкo, бoяcь пoтepять кoнтpoль?
Пoтoмy чтo вce, чeм, кaк ты дyмaл, я бyдy.
paзвaлилocь пpямo y тeбя нa глaзaх.
Кaждый мoй шaг - этo eщe oднa oшибкa для тeбя.
Пoймaнный в пoдвoднoм тeчeнии, пpocтo пoймaнный в пoдвoднoм тeчeнии
И кaждaя пoтepяннaя ceкyндa - этo бoльшe, чeм я мoгy вынecти.
Я тaк oцeпeнeл.
Я нe чyвcтвyю тeбя pядoм.
Cтaл тaким ycтaвшим
Taк cильнo ocoзнaю.
Я cтaнoвлюcь этим.
Bce, чтo я хoчy cдeлaть
Быть бoльшe пoхoжим нa ceбя
И мeньшe быть пoхoжим нa тeбя.
И я знaю.
Я тoжe мoгy пoтepпeть нeyдaчy.
Ho я знaю.
Tы былa тaкoй жe, кaк я, кoгдa ктo-тo paзoчapoвaлcя в тeбe.
Я тaк oцeпeнeлa.
Я нe чyвcтвyю тeбя pядoм.
Я тaк ycтaлa.
Taк cильнo ocoзнaю.
Я cтaнoвлюcь этим.
Bce, чтo я хoчy cдeлaть
Быть бoльшe пoхoжим нa ceбя
И мeньшe быть пoхoжим нa тeбя.
Я тaк oцeпeнeл.
Я нe чyвcтвyю тeбя pядoм.
Я ycтaл быть тeм, кeм ты хoчeшь, чтoбы я был
Я тaк oцeпeнeлa
Я нe мoгy чyвcтвoвaть тeбя тaм
Я ycтaл быть тeм, кeм ты хoчeшь, чтoбы я был

Why isn't tech progressive fast enough? I want my ai wife and i want her now!

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>>21800183
>Why isn't tech progressive fast enough? I want my ai wife and i want her now!

>>21800158
ist isiant patigt day and its anc ecsui to get cuejd uo. so obviously i took it too far. im fucking fcjeu iddm

>>21795437
After years in therapy and dealing with depression and anxiety, I've mostly redirected my angst outwardly, and for the most part, I'm feeling fine. I still get hit by small waves of motivation or insecurity, but the last one almost made me regress to full-on depression. I'm in a short film script-writing workshop for beginners, and I just enrolled to get better at writing realistic dialogue. Turns out I'm expected to write a fully realised film, and I'm nowhere near ready for it. Ironically it went pretty ok until one of the mentors told me I write great dialogue but that my didactic was cold, alien and almost inhuman, and the other mentor defended me by saying "well yeah, but he also talks like that irl". Tbh, no one has ever told me something like that and so bluntly. I'm not autistic but I am very socially awkward and as much as I try to get out of my shell, I don't think I ever will.

>>21800183
I'm happy with any woman or man capable of some semblance of discourse. Sex with one's physical ideal, or something adequately close to it, is is nice, but no more necessary to happiness.

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there is no saving someone like me.
i was destined for this...
if you still dont get it, dont try to... dont reply to anymore of my posts. i was born like this.
goodnight
https://youtu.be/djU4Lq_5EaM

>>21800187
My father has been dead since 1989 from diabetes, my mother lost to schizophrenia around 1973, my eldest sister lost to schizophrenia, again, around 1982, the best friend I ever knew alienated around 1993, was dead of cancer in 2011, and my favorite sister died by suicide around 2017. I'm a survivor, yet remember all of them fondly.

>>21800186
You are a Iago, which is to say the general run of of Russian trolls.

>>21800223
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mVvIfoNBY3w

>>21800187
Oh give me a fucking break, you cant be so fucked up that you're typing like that. This is an act.

>>21800223
So fucking dramatic. You're like a teenage girl who watches too many movies

Dubs and the date with my ex will be more than great

>>21800125
did i strike a nerve, therapyboy?
also, i'm not projecting, there's plenty of statistics to back up what i'm saying. satisfaction level with people going to low-end therapists is incredibly low. obviously, i am talking about america here. it's possible that if you live in a good country and get a free therapist assigned they might be good. but cheap american therapists are garbo

>>21800352
Dubs and it ends in murder/suicide

>>21800352
Dubs and she ends up pegging you

>>21800363
>cheap american therapists are garbo
theres a difference between a garbo therapist and therapist you cant connect with.

>>21800369
Dubs and she ends up pegging me

Is a garbo therapist related to the garbanzo bean

>>21800352
What you need is a suicide pact, nigga.

God what I wouldn’t fucking give to have a racist cop shoot me. I get to be dead, family gets sympathy and probably big bucks off it, and a cop (probably) has their life ruined. I’d finally be done with this shit

>>21800388
Go and buy something with a counterfeit bill and see what happens

>>21800372
you think you're going to connect to some underpaid middle-aged woman that's giving maybe 10% of her attention to listen to you and then giving you some shitty advice you could've gotten anywhere? you're better off talking to chatgpt

>>21795437
---- Solaria ----
834
(late June drive)

Sweet airs in the sweetest season,
The frondy flicker of huge municipal maples,

Nothing desperate about the scene
Rare as breakdowns are here.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UAuh16uG7Vc

>>21800438
>giving you some shitty advice you could've gotten anywhere
did you get one?

>>21795454
>then my personality still manages to bleed through and drive her away.
Wrong. What puts people off (and women especially, who are more sensitive to it) is the falsity, not your real personality. If you want a genuine human connection, try having the confidence to express your real personality instead of constantly putting up a fake ass front. Everyone sees through it, guaranteed.

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One of my close friends asked me why I never add any flags to my social media handles. It's over.

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Growing up means realising that the chuds were right.
Becoming wise is realising the christcucks were righter.

>>21795437
---- Solaria ----
836
(cruising July)

Somewhere in the distance tremendous cumulonimbus billows
While I drift around in glazed comfort

Between lowland parks and mall complexes
Where i someitmes park for the view

While air conditioning runs
intermittently, and imagine twisters for fun.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eIl0lovboEQ&list=OLAK5uy_kzwgFt_E3DPVrZ8O9jWRPXswDiBwD8OSk&index=6

>>21795437
Why do school shooter types (or even incel types) tend to almost always be a momma's boy?

What is it about women that creates these types?

>>21800546
Growing up means remoteness from such a lexicon.

>>21800242
Schizophrenia is genetic. I don't mean to scare you, but be aware of it.

I'm convinced that the people of the past, from antiquity to the 1800s, would see modern people as completely alien and bizarre due to their worldviews, behaviors, and mindsets.

>>21795437
what are some books for evil people who do evil deeds?

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>>21800595
Got a whole chart for you pal

>>21800546
growing up is realizing the joker makes more sense

>>21800590
I'm 60 and quite safe from it. That much should be obvious from the personal chronology and the planetary statistics.

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>>21800581
Didn't say I'm mature, I just possess forbidden knowledge about things I don't possess

>>21800609
Such as? I'm on pretty easy terms from megaparsecs to marry as an ancient invocation to Miesian architecture as a general look

>>21800600
i was thinking of evil on a more mundane, personal level

>>21795437
Does anyone else's brain malfunction at large parties?

>>21800604
*true, I drink rather too much from time time to time, but am far to vain to let it diminish my looks.

Big dicks will rule the entire world soon

>>21800689
Ever played truth or dare? Ever indulged in a long snogging session amidst a crowd? Made a fool of yourself in a nightclub?

>>21800720
Hardly. The general long-term trend is toward oligarchy plus dictatorship. Needless to say those pricks don't have much hanging.

>>21800720
thick five inch chodes rule the world. this isn't speculation, it's a historical fact

Wanted to use chatgpt but it needed my phonenumber

>>21800744
literally my pp

>>21800790
having a thick stubby is the mark of the great man. Napoleon, Genghis Khan, Julius and Augustus Caesar, Alexander, all had fat chodes

>>21800831
uhh, how do you know this?

>>21800935
i'm a historian

>>21796739
cool.

>>21795437
i sure do love arguing with other retards on the internet for 12 hours a day

>>21795437
One day, she will see something that will remind her of me. And she'll realize that even though I was an idiot, I truly loved her. But that day isn't coming anytime soon and I probably won't hear of it either. Because just like I didn't say what she wanted to hear, back then, she won't say what I want to hear. Men and women, cats and dogs.

The world lost its colors when she left. I sometimes think this is God's will. The only way for me to achieve any kind of real faith must be through suffering and losing everything that ever mattered through idiotic circumstances. It's like God Himself was pointing a finger at my destroyed hopes and saying "Look, nothing is as eternal as my Kingdom. You think your plots and plans will deviate the course of fate? There is no such thing as humans winning life." And perhaps this is the lesson I should take. Perhaps I should just pray and hope for change, perhaps in kindness, he will give me something that will extract me from my inner shell and make me see those colors again.

This new pop-psy obession with trauma being attached to body parts is starting to remind me a lot of Scientology's thetans.

>>21801344
A lot of psychiatry is basically worse than that. Hilariously a lot of stuff which would be better known psychiatric scandals (especially the bribery scandals) aren't well known because the Scientologists like to talk about them, so mentioning real criminal convictions for pharma companies has become a bizarre dog whistle where you're either a pariah in the profession who didn't take bribes to harm patients, or a nutjob who thinks the aliens are talking to you

>>21801203
She's getting fucked by another man and she will never care about you.
This is how much women care about men https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T9RsnZjjZ3I

I ate 2 Taco Bell deluxe boxes. A very long fart ensued, but something felt wet. There was a brown stain on my underwear.

I want to wank it. But also want to resist the urge.

>>21801445
Go for a walk

>>21801451
I used to walk when I wanted to wank but I would be hard the whole walk and it was uncomfortable and also visible

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Just made it out of my latest depression LFG

>>21800118
>also, it goes without saying, but cut out all toxic/depressing people from your life
Really funny that people give this advice on 4chan of all places

>>21801460
Pray to God to help you

>>21801413
>She's getting fucked by another man and she will never care about you.
I know.
>This is how much women care about men
I don't hate women, I love them. Most people are a waste of space, kind of like you, except women are at least nice to look at. I've never discussed the morality of women (because most of them don't have any) but being misogynistic is pretty cringe. You should marry and touch grass

>>21801480
>reading lowercase posts
How new are you, they're all trannies

>>21800657
Handful of Dust by Waugh

>>21801488
Kek the depressed poster is a cuck r*dditor

>>21801495
There's nothing wrong with being a cuck you fucking sexist bigot!

>>21801488
>>21801203
I can see why she left you

>>21801451
I'm working on something important with a near deadline. So I have to stay here in my house.

>>21801495
Not a redditor, I simply have a mother

>>21801511
Not a cuck either

>>21801522
I'm pretty sure you don't since you have never been with a woman

Is it really such a big deal if I don't drive at 27?

>>21801568
How many girls have you dated/been in relationships with thus far?

>>21801574
z-... zero

>>21801581
So without a car and apartment or some signs that you’re headed up in the world, women (from dating sites anyway. My experience) will turn away.
By going without you do save a ton of money over time, but how’s the dating pool in ten years at 37?

They’re not all as shallow as this, but where are the good ones? You and I can’t seem to find them so easily. Hope you’re learning a useful trade that’ll make you more money than I did. (Though the economy is about to tank).
Weigh your options.
Whatever you do, try to make more lasting friendships and keep positive. Defeating loneliness is one thing, defeating aloneness is another.

People believe me when I lie to them. That just tells you the state of society.

>>21801451
>go for a walk
>see girl with nice big bum in leggings
>feel like wanking even more
what do

>>21801635
Depends on the lie.
A simple fabrication tells you people are willing to trust and haven’t been exposed. To much evil.

>>21801643
Ask her out

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mere days after the two year anniversary of my other cat dying, my other cat is now rapidly deteriorating in the same way. could be a matter of days, maybe even tomorrow, where she is bad enough that I will have to take her in. sad times, friends

>>21801679
'ate pets

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I'm doing a Classics MA in September and I'm looking forward to it. The only thing annoying me is that getting a job in academia will be very hard in the end. I know it's a retarded thing to go for, especially at 25 but I just want to do something that will make me happy. My entire life has collapsed in on itself since Covid and I'm sick of working either souless jobs with corpo talk and people who make their work their lives (fuck hospitality) or backbreaking manual labour work like I'm doing now. I spend my days lost in nostalgic day-dreaming or writing and studying langauges. I've noticed some of my friends are just not relatable anymore and are just coomer brained stoners who haven't moved on since they were 14. I'm probably retarded but I think this might be my chance to do something I'll enjoy in my life.
>/blogpost

>>21801733
having no pets will certainly make things easier but damn does it still hurt. spent 16 years with them, over half my life. its gonna be strange not having them around

>>21801741
are you planning to become a professor?

>>21795437
Does anyone else do terribly in parties but great on 1-on-1 conversations? It’s like my brain can’t process a new environment and multiple people at the same time

>>21801803
Yeah. I can't do groups, which makes it hard to socialize cause it's easier to meet people through a group than 1 on 1

>>21801788
hopefully, at the very least start as a researcher. I'm an Irishfag so it's a different track over here compared to America.

>>21801814
how its different?

>>21801203
You're fucking stupid man.

>>21801825
It's hard to explain but the whole "tenure" thing isn't the same and there seems to be a lot less saturation in certain fields and a bit easier to get post-PHD work. America seems very closed shop from my perspective.

>>21800572
Mothers suffocate their sons and prevent them from becoming men. Unwell women use their children as stress balls and the child, whose understanding of the mother is "the thing that keeps me alive", is trained from infancy that the range of acceptable behavior is extremely narrow. They swallow and disassociate parts of themselves that aren't responded to positively and a frustration and impotency builds as what they are and what they've been made come into contact with each other in puberty. Children are supposed to get unconditional love so that they might grow, but most parents impart their psychosis onto their kids and fuck them up.

>>21795437
Not having a safe vent to hate niggers is actually very damaging to race relations.

>>21800572
The school shooting incel creates his own problems. It’s silly for him to blame others. Many have similar lives but don’t turn out such a loser

>>21801480
i'm not the one whining about being depressed
if you are depressed or a mentally unwell person, yeah, you can't handle things other people can't and have a responsibility to self-isolate and keep your shit together
>>21801490
your mother will die in her sleep tonight because you made a false accusation

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>>21795437
Coffee anon here. I just had two cups at 3pm dear God help me. I'm going to be shitting my guts out & up all night tonight.

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Im a wizard
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>>21802122
ill be turning 29 in a few months, just one more year until official wizzard status

>>21802122
was it worth it?

the world is pulsing and the world is always pulsing and for something always hoping is the world to this day pulsing the world is always pulsing bulging bursting burning growing groaning growing pulsing pains of growth and endless pulse the *world* is always pulsing and *I* am pulsing too the world is always pulsing from the timbers to the roots it's pulsing through and through the world is always pulsing blood and matter mind and spirit flooding crashing through the bursting pulsing veins and arterial pulsing red and golden white blue growing green and flaming veins are pulsing with the deepest stuff the world is always pulsing and I am pulsing too the world is shaking from the timbers to the roots the world is always pulsing and I am pulsing too can you see within my eyes the fiery verdant pulsing blue? the world is always pulsing and you will be pulsing soon I can't resist to purse my lips and whistle the golden tune the world is always pulsing which soul within is not with passion burning? on your hands I saw the world and there the world was pulsing I can see the stars are moving empty space is empty flowing not a heartbeat put to waste in endless worldly pulsing for back in ancient time the slacked eternal twine was pulled taut and brought the end to the start where we whirl and endless twirl in a world of golden swirling timelike heaving heartaching breathing breathtaking breaths hurling forward on a high cliff wind rushing towards nigh stiff with cold and sick with love and she is there too we are rare to be apart with her hands on my shoulders breathing too and breathing breathing while the lands beneath are boulders trees and stemmed leaves blowing flowing in the wind the wind or silent stars could pulse and start or stop your heart most apart are not apart on this turning sphere burning clear within the living expanse of space back in the beginning the black was beginning to breathe and beat its heart heavily hurting with life overflowing time direction growing toward a deathless goal of tortured dreaming souls

>>21802122
Why dont you have sex

>>21801944
Pussy

>>21802244
My dick is pulsing

>>21801832
Okay samenon. I feel better reading your witless posts, someone is more miserable than me out there.

>>21801741
You are doing a retarded move. That said we do need people retarded or rather naive enough to get into Academia and teach the next generation, so Godspeed to you. I have a bio background and left Academia the moment the industry opened up to me. I hope things will end up well for you.

>>21801203
>she'll realize even though I was an idiot, I truly loved her
I guarantee she will not give a shit. I've had ex's who truly loved me but it didn't make it worth putting up with their shit. Best to just learn from your mistakes and move on, I'm sorry about your break up though

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I think I'm getting close to having a seizure or something. I don't know how to describe it exactly but it's like sometimes when I'm looking at the world it seems like I'm looking at one of those AI generated nonsense images like pic related, or like my brain can't process what it's seeing. It can get especially bad when reading, as I have a very fast reading speed normally (~800 wpm) and when it happens it's like my eyes are moving automatically and the text turns into an illegible blurry line for a moment and then resolves itself. It only lasts a second or two usually but it's a little concerning.

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pic not rel. Wrong image. I meant to post my lukewarm midwit text which is my default XD ratpoisn'ed initial statement voice to computer introspection!!!1 'll be coming for u anon.

>>21802446
i'm the ESV edition. and then I was part of a hivemind 9.

>>21802122
I got a gf a few months after becoming a wizard. What did the world mean by this

Maybe the polyamorists have a point, I love women - I can't help but want more

>>21802423
I had something similar happen to me and it was stress related. I dealt with the source of my stress (work bullshit) and it hasn't happened since.

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In recent months, each time I meet up with my friends, I enjoy the fun with them, but after saying bye, I start feeling intensely sad and depressed.
I guess I'm just reminded of how lonely I am in day to day life, something that I don't sense on other occasions.

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>>21795437
life is honestly kinda shitty and probably not worth it

How do other humans accept the idea of loving and being loved romantically more than once? It loses all value once it's repeated to me, love either is evergreen and proven real or it simply doesn't exist and is a fraud of nature. I desperately wish someone could convince me otherwise, because this thinking isn't doing me any favor, quite the opposite, it dooms me to perpetual solitude. At 29, it's too late for me to live through my ideas of absolute, any man my age has already loved and promised all there is to promise in this existence to another girl. I've loved, too, and i was abandoned for another woman. I'm probably retarded for being so idealistic and naive, but i didn't think it was possible to be left behind like that. This doesn't sound like love to me, or is it what this is really about? The sacrosanct and most profound feeling a human heart can experience is just that, a frail and evanescent sentiment? Is there anything noble to the human condition? I sound like i've just been dumped but that's not the case; i'm just drowned by the feeling of regret that comes with accepting that i will never again believe in love.

>>21802423
That's dissassociation
It can be a type of seizure

>>21802522
you probably don't feel like this and are just coming up with rationalizations for why you isolate yourself from other people when the real reason is that you, like everyone else, have social anxiety by virtue of living in a profoundly alienating society
that being said romantic love isn't real but it doesn't mean love isn't real and it doesn't mean real love can't be expressed romantically
you can love a dog or a child or your parents but you probably shouldn't have sex with them but you might also love an adult and you can share physical intimacy with them if they love you too

>>21802522
It sounds like you're just over romantisizing the idea of love. I've had ex's where the love was bordering on obsessive, but it wasn't healthy. I'm married now, and the love feels a lot deeper and truer, although less obsessive. I don't think about them 24/7 or even a lot during the day, but if I am out in pubic and I see someone attractive I can think "wow... hottie!" but then when I turn back and look at my husband there's a warmth that comes over me

>>21801841
>Children are supposed to get unconditional love so that they might grow, but most parents impart their psychosis onto their kids and fuck them up
>was that child
How do I fix this bros?

>>21801610
>how’s the dating pool in ten years at 37?
Probably pretty good

>>21801568
Depends on the country. If you're in america, yes

>>21802646
dating pool for over thirties is washed ups and divorcees wtf are you talking about

Jannies are ruining this and every board.

What if I went back in time and told the ancient Romans that in the future you can click on a mouse?

>>21802646
Unless you're seeing girls aged 20-23 it's really not. Even then, these days women in that age range have racked up astronomical body counts

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OUR NATION IS NOW THIRD WORLD & DYING. THE AMERICAN DREAM IS DEAD! THE RADICAL LEFT ANARCHISTS HAVE STOLLEN OUR PRESIDENTIAL ELECTION, AND WITH IT, THE HEART OF OUR OUR COUNTRY. AMERICAN PATRIOTS ARE BEING ARRESTED & HELD IN CAPTIVITY LIKE ANIMALS, WHILE CRIMINALS & LEFTIST THUGS ARE ALLOWED TO ROAM THE STREETS, KILLING & BURNING WITH NO RETRIBUTION. MILLIONS ARE FLOODING THROUGH OUR OPEN BOARDERS, MANY FROM PRISONS & MENTAL INSTITUTIONS. CRIME & INFLATION ARE DESTROYING OUR VERY WAY OF LIFE

>>21802719
Answer my question >>21802702

>>21802704
Sounds like you just attract whores lol

>>21802737
I don't see anyone nor do I chase anyone - it's a simple observation based on personal observation, hearsay and having your wits about you. You'd be naive to think contrary to what I've said

>>21802749
>you'd be naive to deny what you see instead of accepting what retarded 4chan poster says

>>21802752
My conclusions are based on what I've seen in the real world, I'm not making things up

>>21802758
I don't care anon, I'm not you, I don't live in the US, I don't meet the type of girls you do, I don't live your life, I don't want your life

>>21802760
I don't live in the US but I do live in the West. But tell me, what paradise do you live in?

NEW THREAD
>>21802775
NO SHITPOST
>>21802775
BEHAVE
>>21802775

>>21802339
too flawed
>>21802198
no