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What is /lit/'s favorite accent to listen to? I looooove the appalachian accent, keeps me hanging on every word that gets uttered.
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Does sincerely contemplating on committing horrible actions, but never actually following through on such actions, still make me a horrible person?
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I wish I was a normal person with a normal well-functioning brain, not a retarded autist
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I will coom to Korean plastic doll models on December 1st
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>>21290181
Tried to remember my password for my computer. Tried 2 times, got it on the third one.
Have been a while since I last used my computer, I haven't had any time to open it - no, I am lying. I have a lot of time in my hand, always had. Perhaps that is why I am like this.
But I feel - felt - short on time. I was unable to do anything if not obligated. I couldn't just not do anything, but I also couldn't do anything. I felt for the past 3 or so years in a limbo, a purgatory of some sort. I couldn't feel the joys of haven nor the pain of hell. Purgatory is worst than it sounds. Feeling nothing, not even pain. It's never about pain, but rather purpose. If only I suffered enough to be something.... I wished something would strike me down. Something terrible would happen to me that would make me realize how valuable life was.
That thing that I always felt on my chest, it changed. Changed since I started to take pills. The medicine did remove some of my pain, but I wish it didn't. I came to realize that my agony is not something that is inside of me, but is rather me, myself, part of me, that can never leave. I decreased part of myself by decreasing my agony.
I stopped taking my pills 2 days ago. I feel alive. I feel something.
I feel as if I met my old friend - agony - once again. I am so sorry.
That sharp pain in my chest, that hole - not, not a hole. It's not the lack of something, it's something else. That abyss, full of something I can not tell, hurt me so bad when I was 12 that I used to punch my chest sometimes, as if to make sure my heart was still beating. I used to think that abyss was holding me back. I am so sorry. I am sorry I went away for so long.
My older thoughts came back, as if my little abyss was waiting for me, preparing the room for when I came back. I feel loved.
I longed for a woman, someone, that could save me, that could help me, that could listen to me. I don't feel it anymore. I am quite happy with myself now.
I always regret talking to others. It always feel like it's not really me - but it is. It is just a part of me that I don't like, a superficial part that I show to others. I hated it.
I don't want to talk to others anymore, all they can see is that superficial me. I seems like no one can reach my real me, my deeper me. I don't think I would be able to show it to others.
I think that part of me is reserved to my little abyss. He understands me.
I am so very sorry for keeping you waiting.
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I'd like to ask escorts about how often they deal with guys that end up crying during and/or after sex. There's something beautifully vulnerable about that image.
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Another week, another excuse to not work on my novel. I wish I had the mindset to continue writing but I lost the inspiration after a while.
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There are no girls in my friend group or at my work. There is no crush or oneitis. There is no girl giving prolonged eye contact or smiling at me that I should talk to. No girl has ever smiled at me on the street. There is no ex-girlfriend am I still in love with. There is no “one that got away.” There are no exes at all. I have no lost loves. There no “what-could-have-beens” or lost connections in my life. I have never been oblivious to flirting only to realize it after the fact, because no girl has ever flirted with me. No one has ever asked me how it is that I’m still single, and no one has ever offered to set me up on a date. Women do not exist in my world. They are an image I see on the street which cannot see me. They are as tangible to me as a two-dimensional anime character on the internet, and I interface with them in the exact same way. I cannot reach out and touch a woman as I cannot reach out and touch an anime girl in my monitor. They both exist purely as a titillating concept which exist beyond my realm of action. I see them and they are beautiful, but they cannot see me. Speaking with a waitress or the girl cashing me out at the supermarket is nothing more than reciting pre-selected nothings and pleasantries. Going beyond the programmed script is impossible; they cannot process the words coming from my mouth as anything more than white noise. It is not something older men can relate to. I feel an incredibly deep well of solidarity with the other lonely young men on the internet. I read their posts about their lives, and I am driven to great emotion. Like Nietzsche and his horse.
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>>21290271
Your mom probably knows a great deal about that, but I don't think anyone would cry after fucking her.
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>>21290328
I could've made this post.
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>>21290215
The normie is usually taken to be superior to the retard, autist, and schizo in normie metaphysics. However in actual metaphysics the normie can be considered engrossed in Kants empirical intuition, which is why she is adapted to the physical world. She is actually the lowest stage of human evolution. The next stage is the schizo, who is becoming engrossed in imaginal intuition and thus becomes lost in his confusion of the imaginal and the sensible. Next comes the autist who has been born with intellectual intuition and is higher or lower functioning in the sensible or physical world depending on how developed his intellectual intuitionis, with high functioning autists having a lesser developed intellectual intuition and low functiong autists having a more developed intellectual intuition culminating in the absolute retard who is so engrossed in intellectual intuition he has lost touch with physical reality. Thus as you see in the hierarchy of human being the absolute retard has the highest being and is closest to God while the normie has the lowest being and furthest from God. The normie is also known by the term of midwit.

I would like to add that autist, schizo and retard are normie terms developed by normies to understand nonnormies from within the normie metaphysic and therefore carry with them the negative connotations normies associate with these nonnormies. In actuality however these connotations are contingent overtones of the normie metaphysic which is a faulty metaphysic grounded on the lower empirical intuition as opposed to the higher intllectual intuition, giving direct knowledge of reality. But we must communicate to the normie on his terms if we are ever to communicate with him at all.
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>>21290283
You squashed the inspiration more like. Wishing won't do you any good. Find more inspiration or find out how you can create inspiration only using your mind. Unless you want to leave it to fate

>>21290328
There are two paradigms. In one you are a sad retard crying to 4chan posts. In the other you learn how to attract women, even if it will be hard. You will learn a lot about yourself..
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>>21290379
If I exerted every ounce of my will from now until the moment of my death on either venture, i would be more likely to create a work of art as impressive as the Sistine Chapel than I would be to attract a 5/10 girl
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>>21290248
you are definitely on the list now
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In the morning I cleared brushed. It revealed the mounds of a rabbit burrow. I came back at sunset for a walk. From a broken briar stalk ants were climbing and taking flight towards a nearby mound.

I slept and in my dreams witnessed a rabbit pressing its body against the wall and crying out as a swarm of ants flooded their once cozy tunnel.

The next day I visited the mound to find furry grey shit sitting atop it, teeth dotting it like corn. I had more space to walk.
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Anyone else been having problens with the captcha lately?
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I don't like this board and I don't enjoy coming here
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>>21290190
Welsh or Irish
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I was looking through the Kindle shit on Amazon, and got really deep on the list.
There, and found some cosmic horror nonsense.
I decided to look it up to see if it had any reviews, and the whole fucking thing is available for free on reddit.

For what fucking purpose I cannot fathom.
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She didn't reply my message.
I don't know if I can go on like that.
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Why the fuck didn't I hyperfixate in a more interesting hobby when I was an adolescent? It had to be video games huh?
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>>21290470
It is very difficult
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>>21290379
just improov bro
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>>21290470
yeah i don't get how they all think it's fine to not reply especially when it's an invitation or something more 'urgent' like that. it was shit like this that turned me absolutely cold and incapable of seeing them as anything more than sex objects. yeah i get you have something cooler to do/ don't find me that 'valuable' but is it really impossible to just reply that you're busy or doing something else so it doesn't reduce the chances of me hitting you up another time? I swear sometimes I think they treat texts/DM'S like some a automated notification with no person on the other end.
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>>21290476
What’s your top 3 games all time?
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Why is everything better in my head? Why do I try to make the material world look like the beautiful image in my head when it’s futile. It doesn’t eventually come close to the beauty. It’s a mockery.
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The mood seems a little heavy in this thread... How about we all post one good thing that happened to us recently :)
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I'm so fortunate and blessed to have been able to harbor such love from the depths of my soul to certain artforms. Literature, pro wrestling, film, music, painting...Whenever I manage to catch a subtle detail in any of these mediums, it genuinely feels like a ray of light has struck me. Being able to peel back layers of these precious gems over a significant stretch of time is like breathing in life's own most refreshing essence, and somehow these layers never seem to end! It is through these things (but not exclusively) that I came to know infinity, leading me to God himself. It sounds so mawkish, maybe detached from the concrete experience of day to day life, but believe me when I tell you that I feel these things in my core. My communicative skills are too limited for a proper relation of this experience, even if I suspect that speech in general is incapable of doing justice to that sort of soul stirring. I really don't like to be overly ornate and sentimental about the grandeur of art and whatnot, as I don't even consider myself to be an "artsy" character and I try to have a whole lot more things going in my life than art, but tonight I felt lucid about the sublime and wanted to share it with you lads. What I'm trying to say is that thanks to experiencing that process, I became able to appreciate and contemplate the little details in our daily business, being able to draw a lot out of the memory of a guy lending me his pen with a smile at the post office or being able to have conversations with anons that have stuck in my mind for years, to be relevant to our digital location. The very idea that it's even possible to "experience" this is bizarre on a logical level.
I genuinely don't understand why I had the blessing of coming into lengthy contact with these things. I don't feel worthy of it, at all, as I am in no way a person who paid his dues in life and treated his surroundings with the necessary respect and reverence to be the recipient of this much light. I feel worse when I see so many hopeless, jaded, cold souls that simply cannot indulge in observing because they're busy getting hammered by fate's brutal circumstances. I want to share this with them, to reach their souls and spark something good within them. Because I still believe in good. But I understand that my privileged position means a severe lack of experience in "real shit" that naturally and rightfully prevents me from getting through to them on that level. It's part of the foundation of life, it's just the way things are. I want to give this love back to people, to help things resonate with them to an even stronger degree, because I found so so much beauty, and I can't have it all to myself so selfishly. This beauty must be the realest thing there is. These tears must be real. I want you to have this love, but I don't know how to get anyone there. Maybe this is delusion.
I'm sorry for being ignorant and naive and maudlin and crying like this. I just really feel love. Guilt.
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>>21290648
Girls smile at me when I’m at work.
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Imagine all the people you could have ended up next to in the Sheridan in Baltimore. Pelly was from Cuba by her account. Her dad died and I bought her a round and she bought three.

I said "I'm sorry about your dad". Again, I was a stranger. She said "He lived a full life" and downed her drink looking straight down at the bar.

I said "I'm married. If you want someone to walk you to your room, I can do that for you when the time comes". She said "Thank you," and held her drink by her chin looking like if someone told her she was about to go launch into space she would just nod.

I said "You know, I never really knew my dad," She said, "It sucks ass, doesn't it?" I noticed this tattoo she had on her shoulder. It looked like a very accurate drawing of a yellow jacket. She said "I'm about ready to go,"

I said, "We can settle up and I'll walk you back,"

At her door she looked through the peephole. She turned to me and said "What do I owe you?" I said "I don't work for the hotel"

She said "Oh," and I assume she slept after that. I went back down to the bar and layered out my beers until I was ready. There were street races I did not anticipate. A Dodge versus a Chevrolet and so on. The noise of the engines filled the valley of the high rises I got my money's worth.
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>>21290684
That's the spirit.
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New personality just dropped: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pathological_demand_avoidance
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>>21290448
Why do you like Welsh anon, where you from? I love certain Welsh dialects on girls, on men it's very hit and miss. Unfortunately I'm from Swansea which is the peak of unaesthetic accents, people compare it to the squawking of seagulls because its excessively fast-paced and has a nauseating amount of rising inflections. Once I moved to England I began to imitate a North Welsh accent, slowed it right down and went downwards with my inflections more often than up. Best decision I've ever made.
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>>21290181
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u3xkOo-ldX0
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KHV here.
What I fantasize about the most is a romantic relationship in which I can give myself to someone else and work hard for their sake. Is this a real thing that happens in relationships or is it a figment of my imagination borne of excessive consumption of idealized escapist media?
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>>21290328
Are you me?
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>>21290648
I had a dream about being in a room with 3 kittens. There was also brothers cat but she looked way older than now.
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>>21290751
It’s not. I hate everything. I shun women away. I suffer daily. I can barely cope.
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>>21290181
---- Solaria ----
425
(Planetary Dish Or Erotic Scent)

Every amiable person I've ever met
Cares as much for music as for sex, if less

Than for the look of cutlery such as the amazing
Perfection of Cambridge "Sutan" and

Still less for the best
Of food.

https://youtu.be/Ab0wr6K0oAc?t=2216
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>>21290797
**edit**

---- Solaria ----
425
(Planetary Dish Or Erotic Scent)

Every amiable person I've ever met
Cares as much for music as for sex,still less

For the look of cutlery such as the amazing
Perfection of Cambridge "Sutan" and

Still less for the best
Of food.
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>>21290181
>Nephew (well my cousin's son) is 23 and is getting close to some girl
>He thinks she is the one and told his grandmother so.
>Everyone is happy for him and giving advice and asking him questions
>I straight up say, "No one is going to tell you this but if she has a mental illness or is on meds for a mental illness, then you shouldn't marry her or at least be careful"

Was i wrong for saying that? I admitted I was on antidepressants for a long time but I didn't resolve my issues until I got off them since ether only mask the problem. But I was more talking about personality disorders or bipolar or one of those more extreme ones.

I just said just loving them isn't enough and that it will be a big burden to taken on, especially years in if there are kids involved. Everyone seemed kind of mortified I said that but I could kind of tell my nephew got a bit funny at what I said. Think his gf really must have a mental illness or is on psych meds? We haven't met her yet btw as he lives in a diff state that his mother moved to a decade ago.
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all my life the only thing I ever wanted was for people to recognize and appreciate the things I can do, and yet the harder I try, the more the world seems to reject me.
I know I shouldn't care about the opinions of others, but just saying "don't listen to them" is like telling me to stop feeling a broken bone. How am I supposed to ignore an emotional need that my entire psyche is built on top of?

Does anyone have an answer that's not fucking jesus wank?
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If communism means, "I want everything free cause I'm poor" then I am most definitely a communist.
Everything should be pirate-able and humanity should discard intellectual property and someday remember it as archaic nonsense.
Bring on the post-scarcity world, aka true space communism.
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>>21290830
I can see myself so clearly in your post yet my lips remain sealed. Im sorry.
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Had sleep paralysis again. I always keep my eyes closed when it happens because that's the only part of your body you have control over and what's the point of seeing fucked up shit when you can help it, but you still feel and hear things. My foot was sticking out the blanket and I could feel someone blowing cold air on it with their mouth and lightly running their fingertips down my sole. I know it's all mental phenomena but the fear you feel in your body is real, the fight or flight kicks in but it's like you've become trapped in a web, only able to weakly flail while a terrible presence looms over you. Rationalising doesn't do shit either. What a fucked up phenomenon. The one time I did open my eyes and see something, which was over a decade ago and was the first and only time I opened my eyes during an episode, it was the hatman. Always keep them closed now. Anyone else get sleep paralysis?
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>>21290830
If it's any consolation, most people identify as their persona and they legitimately can't distinguish their consciousness from it. It's blind leading the blind. Whereas people like you and I, we perceive this split in acting and doing, thus we feel rejected because we receive contradictory advice

This is why platitudes and normie advice never works, it's all two-faced and contradictory. It's meant to be a signal in one way and read in another. You know, funnily enough, even Shakespeare posthumously had his public persona altered. He went from the 'playwright genius' to the 'comical, jesting' type after he died. This is what will happen to us eventually too. The persona is just acting, it's almost a completely fake concept, yet the literal concept of being human relies on the existence of the persona/ego
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>>21290822
You were just looking out for him. Frankly, you gave the most useful advice out of anyone there. He could've fucked up his life if you didn't at least remind him. Social norms are good and all but meaningless compared to actually good advice, no matter how blunt or uncouth.
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>>21290181
---- Solaria ----
426
(Montage)

The first time I saw the Caribbean was from 7 miles high.
I'd have cried if not so delighted

By the power it implied.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u-hA7LAEp44
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>>21290854
Yeha that's how I feel. I know his grandmother has some mental illness. I think bipolar as I've heard about her changing my uncle with a knife before, and she sometimes locks him out the house. There have been times I had to pick him up myself becuase I was the closest lol. I wouldn't be surprised if his aunty (one of my cousin's) is similar too, I always got low key high maintainance vibes from her and feel like she "settled" for her husband as a betaprovider. So I feel he might possibly be dealing with somehting similar

I feel even brother's wife must have BPD or bipolar and I know he is completely drained and depressed from it. And I've found meds in his house.

It's a serious thing to deal with. Mind youi used to believe love solves everything but as I'm older and seeing marriages break down, like my own brothers (who stayed with me for a few months at the start of the year and only went back home on the weekends), it's actually quite scarey what marrying the wrong woman can do to a guy. Especially if she becomes so insufferable
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>>21290854
Also the thing is, I've never met his gf, no one has. So im not making any judgements about her directly but just speaking in general.

Like what if even now he is indeed dealing with a woman with a personality disorder. At least I'm telling him the possible reality right? The fact he seemed kind of shook by my comments makes me think he might be dealing with one. Heck it might be one of those rollercoaster cycle type relationships where one minute it feels so good and she's lovely then the next she's a complete psycho.

If he is dealing with that I'd like to at least think I've planted the seed for him to think about the situation more clearly. I did remind him he's a good looking guy, fit and has a good job. I just annoyed I didn't remind him that in those situations you most likely won't ever "save" them or whatever guys who end up with them hope to do
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>>21290181
test
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>>21290181
---- Solaria ----
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(Hipparchus)

I know the constellations and the seasons by feel so well
That look of the planets are familiar to me

As identity that passes
Without retrospect.
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are there books about a /lit/ seeming person born in a managerial household
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>>21290939
If by that you mean in a foster home, I sometimes wonder. For a the I spent in one, I took great pleasure in the fact that my father would sue the shit out them for the slightest abuse.
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>>21290965
>foster home
kek may as well be since that person would not have much in common with his people
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Two days of drinking didnt cure the loneliness. Time to increase the dosage today.
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>>21290971
I detested all of them, and ultimately became the best friend my father ever had.
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why does society use "solves his problems with violence" as a dab
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Any anons here being watched by glowies let me know
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I'm 25 and I had my first date with a girl last week.
I'm not an incel, though. I've had sex with three girls and many cute boys before (but never twice with the same person). But this was my first time going on a genuine date. She was amazingly cute and intelligent, and we had plenty to talk about and shared interests since we met during a volunteering. And now she wants to meet again.
I'm fucking terrified bros. I've never had a serious relationship before, and she's way a saner and more succesful person than I am. But she just keeps texting me and talking and talking and she is so funny and cute with her blue eyes and freckles I can't take it any longer FUUUUUUCKKKK
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>>21290181
---- Solaria ----
428

---- Solaria ----
429
(The Arrow Of Time)

Far out here
Far as the look of things go

i feel a little sleepy.

I'm doing about 80 through exurban fields
In a rare land yacht

While ghostly music plays on
And cheers me up on land.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=10uVS6ssCxU&list=PLh0rUu4c29SVHYSCdVN_FS9TTRKFFxB38&index=3
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I bloody hate when english authors would casually mix in french language, as if the whole world is expected to know both. There's one thing when a few words are used, one can usually guess what is being said, but when a rather big chunk of text is left untranslated you can only scratch your head in confusion.
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>If you aren't equal to an out-of-this-world 99.9th-percentile caricature, it's grounds for suicide
Has anybody else noticed this phenomenon becoming out-of-control among terminally online people? I see it with zoomers a lot. Is it because of the lost distinction between fiction and reality among digital natives?
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>>21291171
lookism is the perfect example
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>>21291171
seems more of a characteristic of real life
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>>21291001
i don't care how you became your father's new fuckbuddy that's not what i asked
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>>21291108
>the dilemmas of a normalfag
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I did it /lit/. Last night, I wrote in the former wwoym that I had taken tramadol recreationally for some 10 days, had stopped, and was about to take my first shit in a fortnight.

I just did it. It took 12 hours after that post before it finally wanted to come. It came out as 7 lumps the size and shape of tennis balls, hard and heavy enough to make the porcelain of the toilet clink as I dropped them. Monumental, massive pain, extreme beyond compare, but I just had to share with you, the relief, holy God and merciful Jesus, the relief is out of this world, the euphoria from taking the shit after opioid-binges rivals the euphoria of the opioids themselves.

/literary lifestyle/, now and forever - have a great day anons.
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>The ancestors of the Hindus, at a time which remains undetermined, must have inhabited a very northerly region, since, according to certain texts, there were occasions when the sun circled the horizon without setting.
Which texts? Is he a pseud?
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>>21291336
Mainly Atharvaveda, Rigveda, some Brahmanas and parts of the (obviously non-Hindu, but related) Avesta. It's worth consulting Bal Gangadhar Tilak's books, he published two very insightful books which directly cite the relevant texts as an exposition of the evidence, one is a study of the constellations (esp. Pleiades) listed in the Vedas, the other is a study of the references to the movements of the sun for the most part.
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>>21290190
Any east coast one
>>21291171
They don’t go outside so their idea of average, fat, thin, ugly are all super distorted.
The average person looks like shit.
Also it’s a good excuse to not try.
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>>21291332
Just so you know, one of the reasons cigarettes feel so great on a nod is because they're stimulating your digestion and moving shit for you.
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>>21291345
Do these combined texts offer evidence that, when taken on the whole, indicate ancestral Hindus lived in a northern region, or do they each out-right state in some manner astronomical occurences that could only happen in the north?
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>>21291373
Rigveda does some weird shit that extends beyond northern only knowledge, like predicting the heat death of the universe, but it explicitly refers to the north star as a mode of navigation which puts it in the northern hemisphere. It's pretty safe to assume that they're all written in the north, but most of the debate is when they were written because some texts refer to astrological placements which would be historically correct but would have started to change or disappear by the assumed date of writing. If you wanted to be obtuse you could use this to claim they were written by someone who was relayed knowledge of the northern hemisphere, with the author's actual location up for grabs, but it's more likely that they're all written in the northern hemisphere before the Pleiades moved.
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>>21290770
Consider the following:

>been KHV till 30 years old
>naturally autistic traits, social phobia, prefer solitude more often than not, others stress me out or give trauma, social retard since elementary school
>became depressed since 19, developed suicidal thoughts since early 20s, over the years in my 20s had increasing symptoms of derealization, dissociation from body, head aches constant, and dare I say, psychotic states of mind
>one basic thought always in the back of my mind: people with gf don't experience this, that would be the solution to all my problems, I would be a happy man
> lose all hope till 25, think there's something fundamentally wrong with me, so even give up the thought of having a gf
> against all odds have sex with someone after a work party, form a relationship for over a year now, live together, regular sex
> suicidal thoughts and depression come back yet again, derealization knocks at the door, feel like everything is a chore, autism still makes me feel miserable in social situations, life's not worth it

Conclusion: gf helps a bit, but life still sucks when you're a mentally ill person beforehand. gf might cure depression, many such cases, but it won't cure actually mental I'll people with a wide spectrum of disorders and over decades of suffering behind them. I still have hope that somehow I just don't get the best of this relationship but I'm sure it's just that I'm a broken person.
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>>21291412
>therapy didnt work
>meds didnt work
>gf wont work
honestly, why bother living if you're mentally ill?
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I was wiping my ass after taking a shit just now, and upon glancing at my stool on the toilet paper, saw what was obviously a large piece of onion.
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>>21291373
Are you just pretending not to know who the yamnaya were? Why are you so skeptical of a historical fact?
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>>21290612
1. Spartan Total Warrior
2. NFL Street 2
3. Last of Us (Multiplayer w/ brother)
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>>21291171
Dating apps. It's dating apps. Women have an unlimited number of shameless hookups with 8-10/10 men in their pocket they can draw upon at any time. A massive list of men who want to go on a date with them, messaging them, complimenting them. They have all the choice in the world. Why would they choose you, a 4/10? Seriously, why would they choose you when all it would take is 10 minutes of swiping to find someone better than you?
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>>21291495
Because I don't believe something just because someone said "according to certain texts", I want to read the "texts" myself and see if his references to other works have truth to them.
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>>21291520
I can empirically validate this sentiment. Yesterday evening we did a social experiment with a friend of mine middle aged where she posted (good) pictures of herself and made a profile on a dating website. After seconds there was a non stop swarm of men liking/ messaging her. First 10 messages, then 10 more, and so on and so on. And it was a high variety of men, from ages 23 to 70, all heritages. We're in Germany here for reference. There were 1-10s, and she could choose whomever she wanted, highly athletic, body builder, young, rich looking and so on. Almost frightening how fast she got so much attention, she said she's overwhelmed with the notifications and such and didn't know where to start. One good looking man straight up offered her to come to her place, meet on the street in a car, or go to him. So yeah, women simply need to exist in those dating app sites and get all the validation they ever need.
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>>21291520
>>21291581
Literally so what? The details don't matter, why is that all-consuming?
I say details don't matter because I wasn't just talking about dating, which is obviously the major reason men are hit harder by the phenomenon and generally disadvantaged in modern society, but you see it with loads of other stuff too. Career-wise, leaving aside memes like imposter syndrome, people will plan out their career plans to the month, and then when they encounter a realistically minor setback or career change it'll trigger mental illness. People worry about having interesting hobbies, you can see that in this thread, they worry about that instead of enjoying hobbies. People worry about image so much that they lose sight of essence, but I suppose that lack of distinction is the defining trait of postmodern society
Whatever, I don't understand it on a visceral level
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>>21291584
Narcissism is the current culture.
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>>21290612
Not that guy, but:

Fallout: New Vegas
RDR2
Rise of Nations

Rise of Nations especially, been playing it on and off since I was 11, 17 years by now, but it is just perfectly timeless, like chess. Still makes my eyes insanely bloodshot when I boot up the ancient CD-ROM from 2003 with the 2003 graphics, but I just can't be bothered to buy the remastered version on Steam.

Fallout New Vegas has that strange and haunted feeling of being somewhat unfinished, and I think that's part of the draw for me. I also used to make small mods for it when I was in high school and had loads of time, and would mod the everliving shit out of the game to suit my tastes - that it still has a very active modding community is really nice to see, and to me at least, is a vestige of a time where internet culture and computer geeking was more engaged and DIY than the consoom culture it is today - probably one of the last releases that I encountered and engaged with that really fostered that sort of community.

As for RDR2, what can I say, maybe it's a plebby choice, I was never super into video games, I just find it such a massive and unparalleled technical achievement coupled with a very compelling narrative.

>>21291512
Mate, never regret playing something like The Last of Us with your brother, that has definite value. I have very fond and warm memories of gaming with my older brother, all the way back from GoldenEye on the N64 to Battlefield V just recently. Now he's married and trying for kids, works full-time and hasn't gamed in years, and there's a real sense of sweet melancholy to those hours we spent together, wouldn't trade them for anything.
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Ok /lit/ help me out. There is a qt who studies history, she's in the third year of her, I assume undergrad, program (or maybe the "final" one, I can't remember; and she's in some sort of apprenticeship or something) . I will have a chance to meet her for a min tomorrow and I was wondering, what could I ask her or talk to her about?
I mean, how would you initiate conversation with someone who studies history, in general? Maybe someone here can help me out

Overhearing her I think she said something about "as a science", while talking to someone about her studies in general. Thats all I know. Don't know what uni she's from.
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>>21291619
ngmi
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>>21291584
Yeah the broad phenomenon isn't that difficult to explain or actually new at all. Our culture is saturated with images of wealth and success, and it cultivates extremely narcissistic, fragile and neurotic personalities. It's not surprising at all to me you see wanna-be Patrick Batemans trying to kill themselves after getting a C on a midterm or whatever.
>>21291581
It is, in a very meaningful way, "over" for a lot of us. We're simply ngmi when it comes to women. There's no pathway forward when the smallest imaginable deficiency or faux-pas will lead a girl well below you to ghost you and return to the pandora's box of dating apps.
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>>21291624
I read history and even some historiography and philosophy of history whenever I can (given it's not my field of study), but I'm socially inept
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>>21291636
You need to have sexual gravitas to pull it off if you're don't have social skills, and considering the fact that you're posting in 4chan you're probably the sexual equivalent of a 200 year old tortoise.
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>>21291636
So are most people here bro.
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>>21290194
no, quite the contrary, actually
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>>21291645
Fair, but I still need to start somewhere, do something
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>>21290822
While I don't think you were wrong about it – and it is advice that I strongly support, mind you – opting for a less blunt or uncouth (as >>21290854 put it) would be better and even make it sound somewhat more genuine, like you're really looking out for him.
Anyway, I otherwise agree with your follow-ups and this definitely is something he ought to have in mind.
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Not even excessive binging on food, alcohol and tobacco can fill this emptiness. I rationally know this but still theres a subconscious magically wish that maybe this bottle, maybe this bite of food or cigarrete might plug the hole. Nothing happens and the circle of self-destruction goes on.
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>>21291584
It's a war for attention spans and social media is the battlefield. First impressions have never been so crucial in all of history because today you have the option to be wholly impatient and still get out of it with no harm whatsoever. Everything moves so ridiculously quickly, everyone dedicates so little time to specific corners of life, that their sense of judgement is built around the first contact with the image, since their subconscious has been convinced that it's all they can afford to invest time in. As soon as you pass on one thing, a billion other options race towards you. Appreciation for the essence as you called it is something that gets cultivated over time ; heck, I guess the same applies to being able to see it even. And when a person does spend their time with one thing, how much space of their attention, the brain's RAM to oversimplify things, is split between a hundred other colonies that have nothing to do with what is present in front of you.
Somebody here used to consistently post about his brain being balkanized, which might have been an ironic statement, but there was a real kernel of truth to it. That's why narcissism, adhd, overreliance on nostalgia are so prevalent among the under 35 crowd. All they're going to really know is the most immediate experience with the self, especially the pure self of childhood, and everything else just gets progressively cloudier as it requires more thought. Dudes' brains have literally been colonized so the powers that be could draw resources from them as much as they please. It's ugly.
To bring this back into the relevant topic of our board here, I highly recommend Ellul's Humiliation of the word and Virilio's Information Bomb for a much more lucid and eloquent breakdown of this whole debacle. We all carry a malignant form of spiritual cataracts.
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>>21291671
Is it the cause of depression and anxiety too?
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>>21291332
happens to me with kratom lol
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>>21291704
It sure can be. You see too much too fast. Relatively, you start to think that you have experienced so little despite being around for so long and that therefore, what value will your life have to yourself and to the world at large. That sort of frustration and unfulfillment can break your spirit. Why do you think people talk about the fear of missing out so often?
I have some business to attend to right now, but I will point out a few angles to this later on this evening, obviously not encompassing the total scale of the issue. Sorry for not delivering immediately.
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>>21291668
have you tried edging it gives you a morale boost
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I feel fuckin good baby!
This is what I feel like right now
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GTroJlLPRHM
So fühle ich mich gerade
Moods don't have momentum. They redirekt like light off a mirror.
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>>21291889
as in being straight-edge or just masturbating for hours without ejaculation?
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>>21291889
just be careful not to break your dick, trust me. you've been warned.
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I'd like to write a memoir about my family's destruction and my mother's slow death. It is a tale of American injustice.
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>>21290181
I'm 100% gay for sematary
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>>21291806
I'll be waiting anon.
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>>21290181
---- Solaria ----
430
(United States)

Here one can imagine anything
Serenely accepted as midmorning sun is.

I suppose annual Dianthus is evergreen in the South.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xNUbBpZ9Ac0
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I figured I should buy a Sherlock Holmes collection for future reference, so I went to find one that is an all-in-one book. There is a nice hardback, made in cooperation with The SH museum, that was offered at 38 euro at the time, so I nabbed it.
I must say, it was really worth the money. The cover is a bit too busy for my taste, but still interesting to look at. Pages are colored gold on the sides, which I could do without, especially since glitter comes off and even a bit of color after the book slipped from my hand and I scratched the side by accident.
Paper is okay, even if first attempt at leafing revealed all the pages to be rather stiff on the edge. Probably from coloring, since they are just fine once you handle them.
The font is good, the stories are organized well, and there are illustrations. Not the famous ones from Sidney Paget, but Patrick Knowles is just as talented.
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>>21290648
I got a new work project which is paying decently and keeping me busy. The contractor might be regular enployment for me too, which is good
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Tocqueville said in Democracy in America that lawyers were the closest thing to aristocracy that early America had. Do you think that’s still the case or have they been supplanted by someone else? Industrialists, financiers, and serial entrepreneurs maybe?
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>>21291416
Pure spite
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>>21290181
can someone please reply to my post
I took my time to write it and I think you owe me my time spent doing this >>21290248
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I’m very unhappy with how my life has turned out.
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>>21290181
I asked a girl out
she said she wouldn't date me in a million years
I said what about 2 miillion years
she laughed and said anon you are funny we should have a date sometime
We went on a date
She said what are we eating
I said we are eating pork
she said she is jewish and can't eat pork
I said I didn't ask for your opinion
We ate pork
She had an allergy to pork and died I day before
Now I moan her death
If only I said 3 million years instead of 2
we would be alive
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>>21292141
Arent we all?
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>>21292098
I've read all of the series, and never been disappointed by Jeremy Brett.
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>>21292109
Im already too spiteful.
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>>21292164
Based Underground Man
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>>21292144
made me smile
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>>21292167
Im him but without the hiring prostitute part.
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>>21291980
i'm doing it anally
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>>21292198
that just sounds exhausting.
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>>21292105
i'd consider bankers to be aristocrats. it's no wonder that many of them have offspring that work as art curators or support high art in general. and by that i mean the really inacessible refined stuff like architecture.
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>>21290611
It's their way of signaling disinterest. It also just happened to me. Feels bad man.
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>>21291668
https://youtu.be/H_C1srEKMPA?t=5383
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>>21291412
same except i don't have a job and gf
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>>21292105
Tocqueville never imagined a world so monstrously overpopulated, it will die a fiew generations from now
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>run around a dozen boards
>create shitpost bait threads on all of them (on topic)
>leave and never read or engage with any of the replies
>come and tell /lit/ about it
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I'm honestly at my wit's end. I have no idea where to turn in order to carry on living. I escaped NEETdom, made and lost many friends, moved to another state with a girl, moved back home with her, and now the urge to be a NEET once again is so strong. Seems like my options are to give in, destroy the small life I built, and be loser or just an hero. Carrying on in this nightmare world is no longer palatable to me.
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>>21292253
>ever thinking about suicide
what kind of a bitch nigga brain does this? Jesus christ I've done some depraved shit in my time and hit some low lows but you "people" really blow my socks off
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>>21292246
someones gotta do it.
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>>21290181
based sematary

love RB3


https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=doo0reV4Jpg
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>>21292260
because your low experiences were one time and not constantly ongoing
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>>21292273
I beg to differ, sport
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I wonder if it is possible to speak in fluent iambic pentameter?
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How do I get better at writing lyric-like dialogue?
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Just got an A on my exam
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I probably spent 2 or 3 hours reading the entire first part of the chainsaw man manga non-stop.
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I'm gonna get so fucking drunk tonight, bros.
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>>21292409
Whats the occasion?
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>>21292403
And?
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>>21290181
I paid 14 dollars for something I could have paid 8 dollars for if I'd just waited until the next day. I know it's not a lot, but it's so frustrating anyway and I still feel like an idiot.
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>>21292202
yeah this has been an interesting nnn
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>>21292442
Just wrote what was on my mind. But to add to that, I read it in my smartphone and felt like I was mindlessly consooming.
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>>21292253
Are you a NEET right now?
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>>21292206
"Bankers" is a broad category of people. The lower end employees at banks are definitely not aristocrats, but the partners at large lenders, private equity firms,and all that sure, they definitely have the means of aristocrats. These people have basically no role in public life, however. In America at least, most of the politicians are still lawyers.
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I can't help but feel my failures and mistakes exclude certain possibilities for my future. That's just how life works, isn't it?
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Such a plague. A cancerous dead meme from twenty years ago. You zombie conformists have no imagination
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>>21290764
I'm from the US south, I like British isles accents in general minus say cockney and irish traveler accents, the Welsh accent I had in mind is a guy from northern Wales actually so it makes sense you say they're better
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>>21292478
No, I quit my job as a bank teller after a year because the toxic environment had me on the verge of a meltdown. I'm working at warehouse now thinking it would be hard, physical work (good for my soul), but they ended up hiring too many people so most days I just walk around in circles with a broom. I think what is really happening is that the consequences of my inaction through life is hitting me in the face so I feel stuck and helpless. I know I'm not anywhere close to meeting my potential, but everything post-covid is mismanaged by niggers and people have become unfriendly so it's hard to be noticed and rise above the shit. Retreating inward to NEETdom would be cowardly, but maximum comfy.
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>>21292525
Why do you feel stuck though? The job you described isn't necessarily an intolerable sort of job.
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>>21292496
Thats how it works. Some paths are forever lost upon being born.
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>>21292548
To suffer a fate you might've chosen is worse than to suffer a fate you had never had any say in, I think.
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>>21292531
Honestly, I used to be really charismatic and able to get along with anyone, but being a bank teller really fucking broke me and made me see that the way I interacted with other people was artificial in that I would really just reflect whoever I was talking to back at them. My coworkers were also catty, miserable bitches that brought the worst of my insecurities into light which put me back into my 16 year old mentality that originally made me a NEET to begin with.

I'm actually realizing that there's probably a lot of shit that I didn't process in high school and I spent years covering it up, but now it's all coming back and I'm in the same situation as before. Thank you for listening and acting interested in me, anon. It actually means a lot <3
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>>21290841
Yes. It used to trouble me deeply as a kid. Now at 26 I keep my eyes open, it is an experience like no other, no horror film or video game or novel can come close to the living nightmare dread felt during sleep paralysis. But it is all a dream. Right? Every time I recover fully awake, my heart sputtering, cortisol coursing through me, I witness the terror with a sort of appreciation and wonder. As it fades and I relax I laugh in my bed at how wild and mysterious and alive I feel.
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>>21290181
You really want to know?

I don't know if I will be able to make a living for myself, let alone for a wife and children. I don't know if I will be able to find a wife by the time I'm able to have a family, I'm also worried about my looks since I'm losing hair. I hate when I see someone from another race with a woman from my own race and I feel powerless about it since I can't help eveyrone and not everyone wants to hear about race things from a complete stranger.

I feel like there are not enough hours in the day to do everything I want and every time I see a cute woman or I hear some dog barking or just a woman speaking I feel remorse for wasting so much time in the past since I would probably be ready to find a wife by now, I eat myself inside because I want to talk to good looking women but it wuld be pointless since I don't have money to have a family right now, it would just end up being a waste of time. It also doesn't help that I don't know what to use to keep a conversation with a random cute woman on the street walking her dog or on a grocery store.

I also feel so stupid and weak sometimes, I feel like everyone is better than me at anything I try so there is no point since I will always lose. Some days I feel frustrated at myself for being such a failure, I don't know how I still have the audacity to show my face outside my small home since people I know could see me, come chat, shoot me with their innocent questions to which I would have to retort with the truth, and then try to end the conversation as soon as possible while ignoring their uncomfortable semblances typical of one in an awkward situation.

I plan to read a book in one week, I end up spending 3 days on a single subsection of one chapter. I'm slower than everyone else.

At night, if I didn't do what I was supposed to do, instead numbing my mind with garbage when I should've been productive, I lay down on my bed and imagine myself punching a wall enraged, regretful. I tell myself tomorrow I will be better. Sometimes I imagine myself becoming dust and being cast away by some foreign wind.
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>>21290841
>>21292579
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GV7eDppqVEk
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>>21292603
He's literally me
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>>21292603
I dont remember writing this.
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>>21292573
I can sympathize with that somewhat because I've had bad experiences with jobs that affected me in similar ways too, but I think you're over-analyzing it all if I'm being honest. I also don't think a job can really change you like you're a piece of clay. All you're doing is modifying your behaviors, but you're still yourself. I don't even think there's that much shame in having been a NEET. Yeah, there is some shame in it, no doubt. But it's so common these days. I don't think you need to psychoanalyze yourself because of it. I mean, you're not a bank teller anymore anyway. Right now, you're getting paid to putz around with a broom, right? So what's so terrible about how things are for you right now?
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>>21292622
Pushing the broom is just dumb and boring. Sure I'm making money from it, but there is so much better I could be doing with my time. Plus, I've been acting very antisocial and avoidant and now that people expect me to act that way, it's hard to change and actually start chatting with others which would probably make the workday more bearable. I just don't feel like I have anything to say anymore and even if I did, I'm way too shy and awkward for people to listen. I do overanalyze severely tho, thank you for calling it out.
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Pic related is from a thread about whether it's worth the time to cook for yourself when you could use that time to earn more money instead.
Do you agree with anon here? Is he right?
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for the past year i have felt very exhausted. no amount of sleep or rest makes me feel less tired. it's made reading almost impossible since i began to doze off rather quickly and i forgot a lot of what i manage to read.
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>>21292710
Are you 80 years old?
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>>21292710
Exercise and read up on the Wim Hof method.
It’s just body chemistry you need to reset.
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>>21292709
Cooking is a spiritual ritual about respect and love for yourself, the food and those you feed. Ofc spiritually dull western zoomers who worship nothing other than money and that which they have fetishized could hold such a stupid fucking opinion about the "worth" of time quantified only in money.
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>>21292691
So what would be better?
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>>21292709
Living in the orient where cooking traditions and so on are still passed down through families and small communities, there still is an obvious feeling of "taking things for granted" that permeates all over the social dynamics here and treating those that maintain these daily tasks like disposable minions. The guy who cooks is going to be treated like crap because he's seen as doing what he's supposed to do, it's his duty, and the benefit is him being able to have this duty. The general sentiment of that anon's statement is on point, however there is a whole ocean of nuances to grasp when it comes to addressing these issues.
Still, it pushes me towards asking my mother for cooking lessons, so that's a positive. So thanks for sharing it.
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The extent to which left-wingers and liberals in America have become simps for the glowies legitimately freaks me out.

I'm in my 30s and I remember when every single person left of center had a hardcore dislike of the CIA and the FBI. Back during the heyday of the Bush Administration and even into the Obama years, fucking nobody who considered themselves left-wing liked the CIA or the FBI. Yet ever since Trump trolled his way into the White House the effect has been completely reversed. Now it's the right-wing who is suspicious of the intelligence community, while all the lefties, including people I once knew, think the CIA and the FBI are trustworthy and part of the "resistance."

It really does seem to be purely a case of "orange man bad" and it freaks me out because I thought I could trust the critical thinking skills of a lot of these people. Apparently not, it's just a matter of teams and sides and factions and who you perceive to be on "your side" versus the "other side."

No wonder Glenn Greenwald went insane and started showing up on Tucker Carlson. Going bonkers and siding with the right is an understandable reaction to all this bullshit for someone who's been in his position for the last 20 years.
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>>21292770
I don't think Glenn Greenwald is siding with anyone. I think he goes on Tucker Carlson because nobody else with any level of eyes on them will have him on their show.

Tucker is one of the only news shows left with any semblance of antagonistic journalism so he gets the most eyes despite also being a quack. If you watch many of Greenwald's appearances on his program Tucker is either agreeing with him because Glenn is telling a truth that can be spun into a partisan line or disagreeing with him because it can't. Regardless of that Glenn is doing whatever he can to get his message out.
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I really regret not drinking third day in a row.
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If someone is unhappy with their life thus far and has no hope for their future, why shouldn't they commit suicide?
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>>21292905
numerous reasons
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>>21292924
Such as?
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>>21290181
I still cant get over her, we didn't even fuck or date.. We were outcasts getting bullied by our peers but we stuck together, talked every day during class, in-between and after. Friends of friends would make jokes, question why i hung out with her. None of that mattered it still made my day better running into her in the halls, her excitement, smile, her hugging me. We had a falling out after a year of talking everyday...Years went by. I thought I was over it, it would creep up sometimes over the years, I would try to forget about it and distract my self with moderate success.. Recently its been getting harder.. But damn she is a literal 10/10 now...Ah well life is still amazing outside of the romantic aspect. I have a wonderful family, some close friends and Ive been getting into boxing this year which has improved my confidence.
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>>21292938
not wanting to inflict pain to parents, too angry to die and actually having than slimmer of hope. besides there are methods of slow self-destruction as overeating, alcoholism, taking drugs and etc.
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>>21292905
because life is long and happiness is a transitory state and shit yardstick.
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>>21291171
>If you aren't equal to an out-of-this-world 99.9th-percentile caricature, it's grounds for suicide
If you’re not God, it’s grounds for suicide.
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Exhausted. Nihilism is ironclad. Yet I decide to just have a coffee every day.
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Beauty Agent, pistol in a gift bag.
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>>21290181
I missed the love. It hurts but I need to make the peace with this simple fact.
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>>21292905
because you'd be fighting against infinity, and you always lose against infinity
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I've developed the habit of referring in my mind to people who annoy me or frustrate me as "stupid [topic]tranny"
example: let's say that someone keeps pestering me to go help them with some shopping. I will unconsciously start referring to that person as "stupid shoppingtranny" in my mind while the inconvenience lasts
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>>21293154
Turn off your computer, throw your phone away, and go spend 2 weeks or more hiking in a national park or something. Your brain is rotting.
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>>21290841
Had it once since I was trying to achieve "some" state through pseudo meditation. Always heard about it but never took it seriously. Neither do now, but yes it was exactly as you described. Practically paranoid state, and almost exactly the same scenario.

A hitman, or a maniac of some sort. I don't remember, but I was trying to look, but either saw him as celling tall, almost like a shadow wall was over me, or only saw it at the corner of my eye. Any sensation felt like a touch. The fear was intense. Truth be told, I kinda romanticize to have this experience again, it was for once that I truly felt alive.. , but besides that, just to have more control over the situation and see where it takes me, since at the end of it, I turned away to the wall, having at least a control of the head at the end and wished it was over and it ended. Since as at the beginning, I was kinda more or less familiar with that state of "paralysis" even though I never had it, sort of.

As I said, I sometimes pseudo meditate before sleep, to see.. something.. and what iv noticed, it's probably a known knowledge at this point, there is this saying that it takes you roughly fifteen minutes to go to sleep. So technically, if you were to go to sleep, but still remain semi conscious, or at least tried, you still will go to sleep, or rather your body will enter it's begging cycle, which partially involves a paralipsis of body. You can literally feel the transition where your individual sensation of limbs and general body disappears into nothingness followed with decent heaviness.

Pair that with another part of dream cycle, altered brain function, and thing can get little out of hand, sleep paralipsis being one example.
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Synthetic food is the perfect metaphor for the modern world. Its a cheap and nasty producuct stamped into an appealing shape and marketed as a healthy alternative to whatever happens to naturally grow in the ground. A sack of onions beans can be ground up and stuffed into a mold to produce a rather foul patty that almost resembles beef. In the same way, a healthy young man can be fed propaganda and forced to fit a mold of what he thinks will bring him happiness in socierty. Both the Impossible Whopper and the disenfranchised youth are often both filled with estrogen too.
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Anyone have experience with giving up their smartphone? I'm so sick of this fucking thing it's like having a self-imposed prison in my pocket. Plus, they're probably the most effective mind control tool ever created. You just know the powers that be are pumping everyone's head with the most retarded garbage. Lord help us all.
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>>21290181
---- Solaria ----
431
(legacy population IV)

My bedroom window looks upon,
Articulates a scene of astonishing elegance.

A distant horizon of oaks
And a few soaring cottonwoods

Before a sky the ghostly lines of which stretch for
At least a thousand miles

In broad daylight, like stratospheres of the mind,
Unbelievably serene to see.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WwoQgDk7wUc
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>>21293348
If you aren't forced to use your phone for work/school (even if just for a few days), I'd highly recommend it. Just turn your phone and computer off and don't touch them, read books and take walks instead. I really enjoy it but anytime I do it people get worried and think I've gone missing.
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>This explanation would be incomplete without a reference, however brief, to certain proposals that have seen the light in various contemporary circles for restoring a 'Western tradition'. The only real interest afforded by these ideas is to show that there are people whose minds have ceased to be content with modern negation, and who, feeling the need for something that our own period cannot offer, see the possibility of an escape from the present crisis only in one way: through a return to tradition in one form or another. Unfortunately, such 'traditionalism' is not the same as the real traditional outlook, for it may be no more than a tendency, a more or less vague aspiration presupposing no real knowledge; and it is unfortunately true that, in the mental confusion of our times, this aspiration usually gives rise to fantastic and imaginary conceptions devoid of any serious foundation. Finding no authentic tradition on which to ground themselves, those affected by this aspiration go so far as to imagine pseudo-traditions that have never existed and that are as lacking in principles as that for which they are to be substituted; the whole modern confusion is reflected in these attempts, and whatever may be the intentions of their authors, their only result is to add still more to the general disequilibrium. From among conceptions of this kind, we will allude only to the so-called 'Western tradition' fabricated by certain occultists out of the most incongruous elements and intended primarily to compete with a no less imaginary 'Eastern tradition' [...]
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>>21290770
often virgins have this high noble ideas of relationships with women. Im also like you
In reality its pretty much pragmatic, calculated and status and money based
That's the discrepancy between real world and our aspirations and strivings
so we're alone
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>>21290770
its a real thing that happens
for how many people? not many, probably near 0
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>>21293348
While homeless I took rather a lot of pix using an Iphone 4S from Uber cars in Chicago. Magnificent Mile, 333 West wacker Drive, several thousand in that magnificent city. Now that I'm NEET retired to country about 90 miles west of all that, I've a Motorola that I ignore even when it rings, and use it almost entirely as a camera.
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>>21290328
Yup, well put, i feel the same way
Its still a mystery to me why are we this way, why are we the way we are? Isnt there a place for us, a girl for us? Why do we exist this way
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>>21290181
I am going to fuck the shit out of Mina Le and get her little ass pregnant whether she wants it or not.
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>>21293348
Nah m8 my shitcoin wallet and homemade collection of porn and creep videos are my lifeline.
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>>21293566
*my relatives are rather rich, if not particularly considerate,
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>>21292499
better than tranny jack and chud jack
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How many of you think
>Vaccines cause deadly blood clots
>16 year old guys having sex with 20 something female teachers is rape/pedophilia
>Free trade is bad
>Democrats are unironcially a bunch of pedophiles
Genuinely curious here. Trying to have a feeling for how intelligent people on this board are.
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>>21292622
what if others force feed the psychoanalysis to you how do you filter that
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>>21293607
>Vaccines cause deadly blood clots
Who gives a shit 2020 was a million years ago
>16 year old guys having sex with 20 something female teachers is rape/pedophilia
Dont care about healthy heterosexual men getting their dicks wet
>Free trade is bad
(((Free trade))). Even double digit iq commieniggers think this is bad.
>Democrats are unironcially a bunch of pedophiles
All politicians are crooks and pedophilia is just one of their many grifts.
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>>21293607
You're a tiresome troll.
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>>21293553
surely there must just be people out there that love each other
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>>21290181
NOT EVEN A FUCKING BONUS THIS YEAR EITHER.
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>>21293629
yea i agree.
I dont know where they are but i think they are out there.
They are certainly out there on movies. But movies arent real life
When i look at couples i have met they are not that way. I dont see any love
Sometimes when i walk around i see some couples who look like they love eachother. Its really rare but it happens. Although i cannot know for certain since i havent met them
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>>21293571
Maybe if everything keeps getting hypersexualized and hypercommercialized there will be a cultural pendulum swing the other way, as people look for something genuine and warm in contrast to what's around them. I don't know how long it may be before that happens though, or if it'll happen it all.
Maybe instead the average man will sate his inner desire for companionship with increasingly realistic VR pornogaphy and extreme forms of OnlyFans-like subscription-based intimacy like dating-on-demand or long-term prostitution, while an extreme minority of men will continue to experience real intimacy.
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>>21293668
im not sure if the pendulum will ever swing in that way
its the nature of this reality, of samsara
people seek superficial, that has always been the case
I really dont understand why we have this need for companionship and that need is unable to be properly fulfilled. I really dont understand that
Things you listed are all degenerate cope
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>>21290181
Is Alice in wonderland worth reading as an adult male? Will 8nget anything out of it?

Also which book should I read next now I'm done with Tolstoy and Dostoyevsky main books

3 musketeers
Pride and predjudice
Persuasions
Wurthering heights
Don Quixote

I listed the Bronte and Jane Austen books because I liked the society/ love story shit in the Russian books lmao. Not sure if they're worth putting time in
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>>21293724
>shit
>lmao
>meme books
Not a serious reader. Back to pubnite or whatever it's called.
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>>21293348
gave it up recently. i feel fantastic and now there are attempts to give me a new phone. my life is bizarre.
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When I'm drunk I exclusively lust after black girls. Is it just the alcohol?
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I have complicated feelings towards alcohol.
I was born into the Mormon church and its cultural values are what I grew up with. Mormons believe in what's known as the "Word of Wisdom," a set of dietary guidelines supposedly received by revelation from God which, among other things, prohibit the consumption of alcohol, tobacco, tea, or coffee. It's never explicitly stated anywhere in church doctrine that doing so is a sin, as the Apostles clearly drank wine and used it in the Eucharist, but it's greatly frowned on, so much that one cannot receive a recommendation (essentially a permit) to enter an LDS temple if one does consume such things.
I don't believe in LDS teachings anymore as I now accept the Nicene Creed but I also don't drink. Part of me is just plain uncomfortable with the idea after seeing many peers and coworkers embarrass themselves and act like retards while drunk, part of me avoids it because it feels I have the potential to slide into alcoholism very quickly, and part of me sees sobriety as a virtue of its own.
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>>21293904
i sincerely don’t think you’re missing out on anything. im not sure anybody’s life was ever improved by alcohol. even if your aversion is born out of weird Mormon cultural values, i think sobriety is just better, and i say this as a reasonably heavy drinker
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>>21293904
keep it that way, man. there are enough people who drink in this world, why not try to see where the other way goes? it takes discipline, which is a unanimously acknowledged virtue, and it's a novel path. good luck.
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>>21293204
you think people can just take 2 weeks off?
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Reddit died when it became a mobile app. At work some arthoe asked me if I used reddit. I played stupid and said "reddit?". You weren't ever supposed to mention reddit in public before just like you should publicly deny you even know 4 chan exists now. But here was thin fine ass big tittie qt mentioning reddit. So I bounced dem titties and macked that back and now you know how reddit cracked. The end.
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>>21293993
Go back.
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>>21294012
I can't because I'm a frog now.
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>>21293878
No
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>>21293878
When I was 20 I met an extremely socially awkward nerdy black girl with a severe stutter. She told me "I really like white guys" (in her characteristic stutter) and later asked me for my number. I told her I didn't have a number so she gave me hers. (I lost it a few years ago)
How fucked am I?
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Gf wants me to open up emotionally.
I dont even know what the fuck that means. Am i a bad person for this?
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>>21294176
It means she wants you to hug her and tell her you love her more than anything. She probably feels like you aren't emotionally supportive enough.
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>>21294176
Women are intuitively in tune with their emotions in a way that men are not. She wants to get closer to you than she currently is, it can be a big sign, it can also just be her being a woman.
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There's no such thing as an untimely death to a determinist.
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>>21294176
Its the oldest shit test in a femoids playbook. Dont fall for it unless you want to dessicate her pussy.
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>known to get rid of mice and rat
>introduce mice and rat to your other mice and rat free house
>nothin personnel kid
why are cats like this
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>>21294176
i would take it as a sign that she wants to feminize and peg me but then i've never had a gf
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>>21294220
wtf am i supposed to say then
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being a person is very wild. it's something else
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>>21293348
You don't need a solution that works in every case for everybody. I managed to limit smartphone use by making a formal ritual of it. I try to account for everything I see on my phone. This puts it on an even playing field with all the other things I take account for in my life. A degree of separation.

Yours is a response to the research of habit formation. At some point your mind forgets the distinction between positive and negative emotions, so you end up associating the thing you're trying to get away from with an intense experience. Any addict that manages to quit in fact creates a new opportunity for his dealer. What does it matter that you reach a limit with the very thing that promises an end to limitations? They exploit your weaknesses, and you'll always have a few of those. Direct confrontation is not possible. Mediation is not possible. Just get on with your life however you can. Let someone else handle this fool's errand.
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I ctrl+f'd "worm" when I meant to type "wwoym" to find this thread.
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i'm terribly confused. what i know is good seems bad, and what i know is bad seems good. it's like i've accidentally trained myself to instinctively choose/desire all of the things i am most repulsed by. it's a troubling state of affairs.
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>>21291671
One aspect of this that I've noticed is that people will ask questions they could formulate an answer to. I used to do that here, but I began feeling compelled to find my own answers. Whenever I start to write a response nowadays, it comes with a growing sense of doubt that I've failed to apprehend the substance of the post I'm responding to. It happened just now. I'm looking at the monitor like an idiot. I'll go back to carving my own niche, and while I'm satisfied with that, I also fear that I've lost touch with humanity a bit. Or that I've earned my way out of infantilization. Please leave your thoughts.
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I don't know why but whenever I read some kind of blog post or listen to someone talking about a specific subject and they use the phrases "such that" or "to this end" it triggers me for no reason. Is there some kind of term for these types of phrases and why do I hate them?
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>>21293571
I can only speak for myself, but it is this way because I am ugly, uncharismatic and unsuccessful. You have to be better than 99% of men to get women to recognize your existence.
They will never recognize your humanity- there is only being dismissed as trash and worshipped as a God.
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>>21292416
Its my final day of atough ass work project plus the night before thanksgiving
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BROS! REMEMBER HOW I KEPT CRYING ABOUT HOW I RAN AWAY FROM THAT GIRL AFTER CLASS? BROS! I WAITED AFTER CLASS AND TALKED TO HER! IT WENT WELL. THIS IS GOOD.
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I tried making a sort of audio blog again
https://youtu.be/4rXcb2DT0nE
Guess it's obvious to most people in retrospect, just feels relevant for me lately. Hopefully someone can relate
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>>21294589
Did you get her number?
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>>21293607
>Vaccines cause deadly blood clots
There's plenty of evidence (in my eyes) that goes either way as for whether or not the vax had negative side effects.
>16 year old guys having sex with 20 something female teachers is rape/pedophilia
It's not technically pedophilia, and I don't see anything wrong with 20-something year olds having sex with 16 year olds, but student-teacher sexual relations are unprofessional and predatory.
>Free trade is bad
Yes. The government should protect the industry of it's citizens from foreign competition.
>Democrats are unironcially a bunch of pedophiles
The average voter probably isn't, but it's clear that the Bidens and Clintons have some underaged skeletons in their closets.
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>>21291619
You know history right? My girl is not a history major but she likes when I tell her about random facts. If she's intelligent she will probably like to discuss random stuff, even mathematics, science or geography. Of course I didn't initially go up to her and start blabbering off random facts but it can give you material fot later conversations
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>>21294573
Not true. I'm probably only an 8/10 and women are always coming up and talking to me. My income is probably only 80 or 90th percentile as well.
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>>21290181
Can someone recommend some good Sword & Sorcery authors, or should I just stick to Robert E. Howard?
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>>21294632
Hey anon nice to see you again. I hope your music dream comes true.
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>>21294684
8/10 is 99th percentile for men
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>>21294714
Well I meant as in I look better than at least 8 out of 10 men (in terms of face, body would probably be close to 99th percentile)
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>>21294710
Thanks man. I guess for now I've shifted my short-term goal from making original music to doing successful covers at an open mic night. I live in a college town so maybe people will be receptive to some weird dude doing covers of 90s rock and japanese songs they've never heard of. Kinda nerve wracking honestly, I guess you just need to force yourself out there
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>>21294738
ok
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>>21294741
Doing covers sounds like a step in the right direction, and yep you just need to go for it I think. You rarely end up regretting taking the leap with things like this.
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>>21294645
NOT YET. I WILL DO THAT UPON OUR NEXT ENCOUNTER.
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>>21293647
My brother and his wife are the happiest couple I know. They pray the rosary every night. They just had their first child. I’m an uncle! I know they will be great parents. And I feel relieved because it gets pressure off of me to have children. I am not like my brother but admire and look up to him so much.
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>>21294804
Gay
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>>21294817
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I’ve made too many embarrassing mistakes. It’s over for me.
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>>21293611
I guess it depends what you mean by force feed.
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>>21292964
None of these are hopeful or contain possibilities for the future
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>>21290181
Is there some type of raid happening?
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>>21293137
I don’t understand.
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>>21295039
Yeah, there is.
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>>21295039
I guess soijaks are the peak of comedy to some people.
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>>21295039
Jannies dealt with it.
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>>21294853
yeah right. keep truckin.
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God is beautiful to me. He is beautiful to me, and He is a source of great comfort in my times of distress.

I think that if I did not find Him a comfort I wouldn't be so devoted to Him, all the things He asks me to bear, all the trouble in my life.

But God is a great comfort and a great healer, for me. He is a balm upon my troubled soul.
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I feel sick. I shouldn't have had whipped cream on grilled cheese.
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>>21290190
Scandinavian
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>>21290194
No, but if you water those seeds enough, it might someday. Better to uproot them and replace them with something good as much as you can.
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>>21290190
I think any accent can sound awesome if the voice is well suited to it, and it would depend on what I'm listening to.
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>>21295213
Sounds about right
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>>21292083
This is >>21291806 >>21291671 sorry for responding so late.
You're going to feel like crap when your points of reference are deceptive in their nature. That's what the ephemeral social media imagery is, and it's more of a zap, which i realize is funny considering the brain's electrical activity. Now I personally believe that a conscious human being is so much more than a physical brain, he is layers of mind-spirit-soul with a physical vessel as Kierkegaard once put it, but for the sake of the analogy let's carry this zap thing further and ask what happens when you repeatedly shock a specific area of the body too many times? Well it goes numb. You're zapped at an gatling gun firing rate. And isn't that what 'depression' is supposed to be in the broadest term? Now look at what is transmitting these brutal electric signals (the who is an even more multifaceted question but I'm sure we all have them in mind) Images posted with malicious intent, whether the perp is conscious of it or unconscious. If we were to take the examples of images that are directly targeting you to 'sell' you something, then we have to understand that they are a controlled environment first and foremost. The magic of editing, and isn't that propaganda's favorite tool? Mind you that marketing is propaganda's sibling, both birthed by Ed Bernays nephew of Coke Sigmund. This is important because if this engineered result is what you have taken to be your baseline of thought and opinion, then it is by default a deception due to it being a reduction of the most volatile, unrefined, out of control thing there is, which is life itself. That's the difference between now and then, the broadcasts have become so close to reality that it's easier to mistake them for the whole truth/experience, when it never will be. Take into account the sheer amount of information (field of view, sound, smell, air pressure, gut feeling...) that gets filtered out by these intermediaries and ponder on how much justice they are doing to the real thing. 200 years, when you were told a story about a place, word to mouth, all your senses ontologically knew that it was a story, even if you believed it to be and really was true. They have more access to your mind than they ever did before, they figured out the space-time tricks. Confusion, reduction, velocity.
Anxiety-play operates on a similar strategy, with fear being the main targeted end result over numbness, and I guess it depends on your inner architecture based on people's reactions to trauma ; some become paranoid, others become zombies.
Again, the central thread running through all this bullshit: Reductionism. You condition your victims to the "dumbed-down", swift, nuance-devoid, and there ya go. Brevity is the soul of wit, but what is wit with no wisdom (cont)
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>>21290181
Barely any sci fi is good. At least not the kind you'd find here.
I don't care being labeled a snob, Dotoievsky is good, Shakespeare is good, Kerouac is good, BORGES is good. This is shit, a shit slurpee, like worst than fast food equivalent.
But it gets the job done.

None of this is good literature, you can barely call it that, what it is, is ENTERTAINING
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>>21295403
You're right in the sense of political marketing and advertisement, those are both heavy on manipulation with behavioral psychology. But otherwise, for major depression, attention disorders, or schizophrenia, those still remain as neurological diseases and it's much more complicated than that
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>>21293553
Maybe I should remain an incel then so I don't spoil the idealized image I have of true love etc.
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>>21295422
Just making clear what i want, because sometimes people who never read a book confuse the two.
They go like "oh you like sci fi? check out Billy shitpants agains the evil empire of shitty cliches part 8: the shittening".
And im like, oh okey is it fun? and they go like "its like super interesting because the characters...

AND THEN I STOPPED LISTENING, because there will never be something interesting about these shits, never interesting , fun yes, fun a lot. Like videogamse, its fun just entertainment and fun, when you want something else go look somewhere else.

So all that being said,

any books like expeditionary force? nice space opera realistic but light hearted?
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>>21295403
Is there even a solution to the numbening?
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>>21295403
(cont)
Let's take a practical example to further illustrate this ; something that directly appeals to emotional needs/responses. Romantic relationship advice and relationship standards on TikTok. It's a beautiful woman and a handsome man flaunting God's sculpture right in front of your already sad, demoralized eyes. They smile with a bunch of text flashing for one second per each sentence, telling you how they seemingly got to where they seemingly are, and why they seemingly are so happy. They are not runway models from high society, even if they look like them, they're "something". The footage is not continuous, it's so spastic that it might be funny to revive somebody who despised Breathless in 1960 and project this in their faces just to see them have a stroke again. All of this is done in a minute at best, in on the goddamned kill taker. It sounds stupid and juvenile through text, but it is wickedly effective (I was going to cite the size of the tiktok userbase as a source, but really noticing the amount of tiktok clips that get posted on this website are enough to tick you off). That becomes the standard. And you know what the worst part of it is? As soon as that clip ends, something else immediately starts playing, snatching away your attention before you even begin to ponder on what happened. You made the fatal mistake of replaying it or pressing the like button? Well guess what, the automated system has decided that you are going to look at a similar clip the next that you load up the app. Even if you were to think that it's unrealistic trite after the fact, it appealed to your desires and emotions. It genuinely imitates cancerous cells. It's even more dangerous when it slices and dices stuff that should be anathema to this sort of "content", such as literature and the little goblin known as booktok. Similarly, how ironic is it that in averagespeak, stories are more synonymous with 15s of flashing cue cards than the wells of wisdom that have been celebrated throughout history.
So really, this brand of reduced thought is synonymous with a constant state of adolescence. Nobody wants you to grow out from that. It's a cocoon that neutralizes virtue, because teenagers are supposed to be retarded. Adolescents are prone to overpanicking and despairing over benign matters, they are unstable, impatient, short sighted ; and that's the condition of the average contemporary society. And moreso than that, teens are reliant on "adults" while deceiving themselves that they are rebelling. Replace teens and adults with the citizens and the state/corps/the machine.
Mind you, these are all just humble observations on the average state of the average person, that doesn't make up 1% of the way things are. These are not the main causes of 'depression/anxiety', especially the more serious cases that truly warrant the use of those labels. It's just grand old broadspeak. Make of it what you must, and I do hope it serves some sort of benefit to somebody
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>>21295492
>These are not the main causes of 'depression/anxiety', especially the more serious cases that truly warrant the use of those labels
Do you think that those cases happen because of personal causes of current culture of information overload accelerates it?
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>>21290181
>Just thinking up a nice scenario in my mind where I meet a girl who actually likes me for me
>Leads to relationship and marriage
>The only people outside a few relatives I could even invite is a few coworkers as I have no friends
>The idea of exposing myself at such an event as haivng no one groomsman or friends to my whole family and coworkers (only ppl I interact with regularly) becomes so unbearably humiliating that it fucks up my whole fantasy
>Realise I don't even have a job or coworkers anymore after I refused the vax
>none of them really contacted me afterwards besides 2 to see how I was doing and even then the last time was 5 or 6 months ago
>Realisation that I don't really have anyone besides a few family members hits harder
>Realise that they only probably talk to me out of the fact they're family

Fuuuuuck lol
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>>21295485
Yes, it’s alcohol.
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>>21294367
You strike a very good point, anon. You have "authorities" at hand ready to spoon feed you what you already know inside, so why bother with the extra effort? For instance, see the massive popularity of half-baked video essays and "analyses" on things you could grasp in 4 minutes of thinking. Or the prevalence of the audible "wtf" reaction upon encountering the slightest idiosyncratic piece of thought. You could make the argument that most people don't have the time or the energy to bother with thinking after a long hard day of labor, but then you eventually stumble on them wasting away with whatever mental junk food is readily available. The existence of these habits is not novel ; their ubiquity is, especially in rural areas. The sort of self-actualization you mentioned should be highly encouraged and celebrated. Keeping a journal is vital for that reason. To explore with your thoughts on your own, and it's pretty much the only sacred place left where you cannot be followed, as literal exploration's thrilling solitudes can be deflated with a live camera for example, so you could understand why the former can seem more daunting to some folks. Emphasis on sacred, please. I can assure you, however, that purely judging from your post, you're still maintaining a decent bit of contact with your humanity. Make sure to be genuine and passionate with your niche, and pursue it in good faith.
>>21295426
Of course. Did not mean to sweep that away. You're just bound to oversimplify on a 4chan post.
>>21295485
Taking distances from your exploiter and his tools would be a good start. Then again, I am somebody who still regularly browses Instagram. I love photography, that's one of my vices I guess. But be sure to follow along with what >>21294367 has said. Nurture your self on your own terms. Find love for things and look very closely at details, textures, savor each one as much as you can. When you're taking a stroll along the forest, how much of the scenery are you really absorbing? This is something I personally try to get better at. You can have a rich inner life. It could activate those tiny machinations.
>>21295538
Acceleration is excess, and excess =/= overabundance. It's a factor, not the factor. Some get abandoned in the gutter, with no share of the pot ; that's alienation. Still, it's a case-by-case situation, it really depends. How common is it to grow up fatherless? Or to get diddled? That's a more severe element contributing to depression than getting blasted by tech.

I should clarify that I am not a bonafide anti-technology kind of lad, despite sharing a lot of opinions with those currents. If I presented myself as such, I'd just be LARPing, and there's enough LARPers on the internet already.
But holy kek have I realized that I write like one of those pop-sci NYT bestsellers cunts. Most anons here are much more eloquent and sharper than I've ever been. My retarded bum has a lot of catching up to do.
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>>21295606
Didnt help for me.
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I don't know why I keep coming back here. For some reason I think I can get something meaningful out of this place.
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Mjölnir hidden in secret by queer fish under a teak ship near Ellesmere
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>>21295633
I get the bare minimum of social interaction.
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>>21295633
The '4chan meme to reddit to twitter to facebook' thing has been formalized a while ago. Your here to be researched so they can make the next internet movement.
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>>21295633
I've been here for almost 15 years and I'll be here until the site dies for good. On a good day I can still have a lot of fun on this stupid website, it's all in how you use it.

Also I can tell people things on here that I'd never dare tell anyone IRL. As an Anon there's a degree to which I can be my true self.
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>>21295057
Possibilities are infinite
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>>21295657
Actually an upsetting thought. To know that I'm just here to be milked for organic content. I spend an unhealthy amount of time on this site, and I've posted too much here. I wouldn't be surprised if at least one of my posts have been screencapped, posted to r*ddit, and then disseminated across Instagram and Facebook. I don't use any of those websites so I have actually no way of coming across any screenshots of my posts.
I've also made "OC", some of my own reaction images and image macros. What I made just to express myself to my anonymous internet friends has likely been scooped up and beaten as an undead horse by the very people I despise.
I think it's time to stop posting.
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>>21295687
Exactly, you can only kill yourself once. I despise shit like that. Suicide is no different than a time exclusive taco bell menu item. I'm so privileged to eat your cosmic junk food.
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I'm one of those aloof guys who is exhausting to be around. Specifically the type that always obtusey steers the conversation into semi-autistic territory, who always talks and talks about "deep" stuff all the time, the sort that communicates in contrived platitudes sourced from things he doesn't really understand but wish he did. The type that has a skewed, self-important, psychotically sentimental lens on reality and who pretends to be a good listener not because he recognizes that it's plainly virtuous but that the aesthetic of the "good listener" is in utility of projecting an image of a shrewd guy who has his shit together and who can be your therapist-friend sort of thing but whom conceals his own sexual and social inadequacies behind that very image. The type who looks at books, "reading" books, reading David Foster Wallace but tilting the front cover up just a bit so everyone suspects some sort of mysterious, dangerous intelligence of him - he hopes a conversation will just fall in his lap, so he can chew on the self-righteousness of it to stave off the internal awareness that, in fact, he is still the same languid schizoid loser. But no one can be candid with him. Anyone who has a real life, anyone who understands what day in day out actually means, can see that it's a deeply insecure man and that it's better if they didn't inflame whatever impending childish tantrum/mental breakdown is swimming in whatever small part of him that's still recognizably human beneath the farce and the irony.
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>>21293607
>memes on the internet are how I think I communicate with intelligent people
kekekekekeke normies are so much worse these days. they can't even try to be weird in unique ways. back in the day you could have been a penguin of doom, but look at you now.
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>>21290181
Why does every board on 4chan have a blanket ban on Chinese IP addresses, it say’s it’s due to abuse but like.. really, the capture is there to prevent bots already ? I’m an expat that just so happens to be in China. Isn't this sort of policy just going to further cultural, political and social divisions when we need to be trying to do the exact opposite if we want to facilitate a unilateral political, social and economic landscape ? I’m obviously aware of the realities that exist in China, the realities that exist in the West and the reality that 4chan is an inconsequential basket weaving forum, but still, at the very least there’s a need for increased transparency when it comes to these nonchalant blanket bans.
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>>21295633
I unironically bought a 4chan pass because of how great I believe /lit/ is, I’m now paying $20 a year to be insulted by dweebs.
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>>21295224
> But thou, O Lord, art a shield for me; my glory, and the lifter up of mine head
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>>21295737
>you can only kill yourself once
>t. basic bitch single incarnation believer
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I was going to make a joke about amnesia but you guys keep forgetting it
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>>21296069
Oh you.
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A while back, I was told by my grandpa that his own grandma and her sisters were noblewomen, and that our family received our house and land because the elder sister died childless.
Though my country is a republic, and does not allow by law to create noble titles or receive from foreign countries, it does not say a thing about acquiring or inheriting existing titles. So, in the future years, I'd like to re-aquire any existing titles to my family, if I'm able to.
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I’ve made too many mistakes to turn my life around I think.
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>>21295835
can you resell it to me for $10 if it's not worth it to you
i could use some image posting abilities
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How do you continue to fight when you feel like you’re already no longer playing to win.
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I now realize how crucially important it was to get things right in my teens and especially my twenties.
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My dad was the first man to break my heart when he left at 13 and the reason for all my issues with men and my mom is judgmental cold hearted and doesn’t want me to thrive and the source of all my issues with older women.
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>>21296260
what was your win condition?
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How to stop being neurotic and indecisive.
I keep researching, thinking etc. and then do nothing because its like all my thoughts cancel eachother out.
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>>21296351
just do things.
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>>21296351
As the Greek goddess of victory once said, "Just do it."
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really tempted to buy alcohol.
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>>21296260
Even if we know the outcome is not in our favor, what else is there to do? We've been thrown into the world, and we have to fight.
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>>21296420
what if your efforts are in vain when faced with death?
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I read a Portrait of the Artist as a young Man. Definitely the first Joyce anyone should read. Brings you into Joyce’s world gently and beautifully, sets the stage for you to dreamlike walk through it later a thousand times. The book was suffused with such a powerful youth and honesty of emotion. I am young. Supposedly. University student, artistically inclined, looking out at the world, the future. But all I feel is despair. Portrait is my favorite book. It is an image of a youth - my life - but youth triumphant. The beautiful images of childhood spur the young man onward, don’t drag him down. Am I a Joyce? No. Not yet. Could I be? Perhaps never recognized as one. But I could be a man who loved his life and the world.
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>>21296426
Again, what else is there to do? We are like the pieces of chess. Without knowing why or how, we ended up in the middle of a conflict vaster than we could hope to imagine. Play your part, but don't take it personally.
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>>21296454
Are we moving ourselves or someone is moving us?
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>>21296465
Both are the same thing.
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>>21296314
My dad didn’t leave, but my parents divorced when I was 14 and I didn’t see him again until I was 24. I see things differently now than I used to. How old are you?
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>>21296470
it surely doesnt feel that way.
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>>21296351
What do you research?
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>>21296420
Step away from the game.
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>>21296519
It's all about the game, and how you play it.
All about control, and if you can take it.
All about your debt, and if you can pay it.
It's all about pain, and who's gonna make it.

I am the game, you don't wanna play me.
I am control, no way you can change me.
I am heavy debt, no way you can pay me.
I am the pain, and I know you can't take me.

Look over your shoulder, ready to run.
Like a Cleveland bitch, with a smokin' gun.
I am the game and I make the rules.
So move on out, you can die like a fool.
Try to figure out what my mood's gonna be.
Come on over sucker, why don't you ask me?
Don't you forget there's a price you can pay,
'Cause I am the game and I want to play
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>>21296519
You can't. There is no escape.
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>>21293604
Only by a little
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>>21296590
I’m talking about suicide, if that wasn’t clear.
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People are being called NPCs but I think I'm something more defective than that. Its like my body is here on Earth but my brain is pulling its info from Earth's shadow. I can visualize all sorts of somethings but I don't share the same source as the man standing next to me and so we become so very confused when communicating.
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>>21296821
I knew. Suicide doesn't solve anything, but it would make it worse. It would get rid of your outer manifestation but your inner being would remain there, most likely in a much worse situation. Don't tell me you're a materialist, anon.
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>>21296133
>that our family received our house and land because the elder sister died childless.
Title died here. It's also possible if they were all girls the title died or bypassed your line because they were all girls. It's basically impossible to revive, assuming it's dead, and if it's alive then your branch has been passed over.



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