It's over edition.How over is it for you anon?
It's not over. Over implies an immanent change or end, but this present moment is eternal and agonizing. We have just begun to suffer
>>31138611You are correct, actually. It never even began.
>>31138590>Poor>Old>Slav>Neanderthal>Sasquatch>Linebacker>Slopehead>Norwood 3I dont deserve to live
you could be happy just being gay
Renounce attachment to worldly attainment, brothers and sisters. Let us escape the cycle
POV: Ive kidnapped you and Im force feeding you your estrogen
I wish there was a thread to post one's face and have its overness evaluated.
>>31138642>feeding me estrogen>feedingJesus I'm not even a tranny and I know that's like the second worst way to do it. Just make me drink horse piss at that point
>babe its just chef boy r d alphabet soup.. youre gonna need your strength if you want to esape.. I know youre getting hungry
>>31138647There are, sometimes. The jannies HATE them and tend to delete them fast.
I literally cannot live as a man anymore.Yet I look like a man, I sound like a man, breathd like one, cry like one, laugh like one. I am iremmediably male and the only solution appears to be suicide.
>>31138703The only solution to pedophilia is death yes
>>31138703How does a person breathe like a man
>>31138713KYS>>31138726I don't know. It sounds like a man. Feels like a man. It's hard to explain. Everything about me is male. It's maddening.
>>31138729Im beginning to think most trannies are just severely mentally ill
>>31138642>>31138651Yes mommy pls make me a pretty girl I don’t want to be an ugly boy anymore uwu
>>31138743I have been diagnosed with ADD, OCD, ADHD and social anxiety, so yeah, I am pretty fucking mentally ill. I WISH I WAS REALLY TRANS I WISH I WAS CUTE I WISH I WAS A GIRL.
>>31138750You forgot to say you have pedophilic tendencies and terrabytes of child pics
>>31138765>pedophilic tendenciesI don't have that. >child picsCute, perfectly chaste and dignified ones, sure.
Just gonna drop this right herehttps://cyoa.allsync.com/s/owWor64yLTngDk3?path=%2FCYOAs%20Themed%2FLittle%20Girl%2C%20TransGender%20Based%20CYOAs
>>31138785H-hot. But I am on nofap currently because I want to kill my dick, so I will have to resist.
I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BECOME A WOMAN I WILL BE A CUTE SWARTHOID MIDDLE AGED LOOKING WOMAN.
>>31138799It's not all sexual, or little girl stuff. Just sort of a bunch of tg themed cyoas. Also a lot of other fun cyoas in the main directory too if you're like me and like a little structure to your imaginings
>>31138855I mean, it's sexual if you have a TG/ AR fetish, which I do. The idea of becoming a little girl is extremely arousing to me. Are there REALLY people who actually read these stories for plot??I write TG/ TF/ AR stories myself and I never thought so.
Im going to stop using repgen and filter it from now on because i don't want to get associated with pedophiles.
>>31138861Oh. Well that's different, and weird. I'm just a cyoa aficionado and thought I'd share since it seemed relevant to the interests of the thread. For me they're sort of helpful as an outlet for my weird gender feelings and a good way to kind of process *what* exactly about being a girl it is that I would like.
>>31138869Based, another cute girlie trooned.
>>31138874Damn. I am jealous. Do you think I am faketrans for finding it arousing? I don't want to be faketrans. I also find them exhilarating and wholesome.
>>31138881No idea my guy/girl. I'm basically ace so I don't get it when people find *anything* arousing, but ultimately sexuality and gender are pretty tightly bound, so it's possible the horny aspect is just some kind of deeper seated desire that got sublimated or crosswired into sexual arousal. Like that story of the guy and the floor tile.
>>31138909Yeah, I guess. I hope. 99% of the readers of my stories are trans girls so yeah, I think there's a strong comorbidity lol.
I hope everyone here is okay. I want everybody to be happy. Personally... how I am now. I know that I'd take hrt even if I didn't pass.I love the physical and emotional effects of it.I'd just go full based and just take it and be honest with people. "I want to but I can't so I just take this."
The truth will set you free.There's a lively life and a deathly life. Truth leads to the lively one.
The very existence of happy trans girls is fucking torture. I am crying.
I love having a good bath and crying for 40 minutes because my body makes me so utterly dysphoric.
I watched a movie about a shell with shoes and he was facing all this super hard circumstances and helping his sick granny but still wanted to get enjoyment out of life everyday and not let the world sand him down. I may have cried
>>31139328Must be nice not to be too tall for an enjoyable bath
>>31139108Same af bestie>>31139328This is so fem brained, just take the pills weirdo lol
>>31139822Pfffttpfpftrftffff
>>31139822I am 184cm, and my fucking shoulders prevented me from being fully comfortable, which made me cry even more from dysphoria. >>31139824I guess I am fembrained in some ways.
>>31139866Ok i am that height too
>>31139984How large are your shoulders?
>>31140034I haven't measured them idkI bump them on door frames all the time though, my mind doesn't expect them to be where they are
>>31140049I think 184cm isn't all that horrible in term of height imo.
>>31140066It's like 95+ percentile height..
>>31140152For women? I think it's 99 percentile lol. But in 20 something women it's not unheard of. It might be cope but I see women around my height occasionally.
>>31140165I counted combined like 90 and 99I saw two women my height in my lifetime
>>31140238Move to western Europe.
>>31140243I am in worstern Europe
>>31140278No way. I have seen ton of women my height and taller. Or am I delusional?
>>31140295Bad pun "worst"ern
>>31140305Ah right, move West then.
How can I make myself stop ping-ponging between wanting to be a high T autist and wanting to be a cute trans girl and just pick something and stick with it
Bump for IWNBAW.
I just remembered happy trans girls exist, time to cry again.
>>31138630me + bald
I saw this really cute dorky redhead at the grocery store. Fuck i feel so bad now. I wish i wasnt a repper. She looked at my direction and started blushing. I want to be a normal man.
>>31143260I would literally lose my shit and start going full spastic.
>>31138590do reppers have gock?
>>31143282Yes, sadly, but we don't want to use them.
>bought the new zelda game>as soon as zelda came up on the screen I felt awfulI HATE THIS SHIT. I wasted $70 to immediately feel the dysphoria eating me upI cannot look at fictional women anymore fuck fuck fuck this shit fuck
>>31138590Can be over if my hair doesnt grow back. It kinda is doing that though... just not fast enough.I shouldve went on pinkpill a decade ago.
>>31138703Maybe you should take your own advice and actually neck yourself instead of coming back here to sob all the time.
>>31143394Don't you feel evil telling people to kill themselves?
>>31138840She's kinda homely and nice...
>>31143430Agreed. And when I see her I actually kind of recognize myself, but also a woman.It creates a really nice feeling. I hope I can look like her someday.
>>31140480realize that being a cute trans girl is impossible (you will never pass), that its easier to continue living as a man and that its your divine duty to ascend beyond your childish sensibilities and become a leader and father.
>>31143403Not when its a guy like this. Someone who is so mentally kaputt that he is objectively better off dead.Also, we're on 4chan, so git gut scrub.
>>31143458You will 41% before I do, repnigger.
>>31143441Godspeed anon.
I took some 'strogen last night and had very mixed and uncertain feelings about it. What's sad is this isn't even my first HRT trial run (~5 years ago). Oh well.
>>31143473I doubt it.
I look like a troll and no one will ever consider me fem unless they are blind and dumb. I started hrt at 28 and ngtmi. Only thing good is I am average cis girl height so get fucked height hons
>>31143626I have a loving family. And enough money for FFS. Oh wait, it's covered by my countrie's socialized healthcare lol.
>>31143657Go ham with it, dude
>>31143699I mean, this hon is probably over twice my age lol.
the reality of life is that the only thing that ever mattered was genetics, every difference between me and other people, every success and failure and hangup about my body all just comes down to genetics. i never had a chance, none of us ever had a chance, the idea of trying to become a woman is laughabale because it is based on a fundamental misunderstanding about how this works. attractive (read: genetically superior) people can do whatever they want, even take estrogen, they will be accepted because their genetics allows them to make free choices for their own benefit. People who are genetic garbage however do not have choices. I am fucked in everything by the fact that everyone around me can see that I do not have good quality genes. The reaction to seeing a hon is no different to seeing an ugly person. Because it is one and the same thing, it just becomes socially permissable to voice that disgust openly.
i just want to play as cute girls in video games but i feel wrong doing so
I have avoided this board like the plague for 2 months. The thoughts were supposed to go away by now. But they only get worse. I only get worse. Not only that, but me being depressed and dysphoric is negatively impacting the people around me. Even tho i try to hide it behind a smile and a joke, the mask slips on occasion.I dont know what to do. But i know IWNBAW.Sort of related, does anybody have a version of this meme that is trans but doesnt mention communism? Looked on Knowyourmeme but this was the closest to what i was looking for.
>>31145080
>>31145080yeah, we all end up here again sooner or later, wish repping was easier, alcohol just doesnt cut it anymore these days, it just fucks me up badlyalso this meme is reddit cringe, but sadly i relate to both parts of it
ever since i got a haircut i'm wondering has my jawline always been this wide?
but for real though, i think my body is actually at the moment where i have to stop drinking and face horrible withdrawals, or end up in a fucking hospitalevery time during such withdrawals my depression goes fucking hard and so is my dysphoria, so see you soon i guess, also guess im already here again so
>>31145115thank you>>31146105i agree. very cringe, but relatable.
>>31145080There is another one where it’s like a war scene where one is leading you men to certain death and the other is anime girl lol
>currently homeless>The shelter I got sent to is a church or some shit and I have to go to church to get stuff I think>It's one of those onions new churches not like a cool catholic church and there's a guy up on stage playing onions christian rock and talking about Jesus and stuff>There's also an insane schizo next to me who won't shutbupFun times yo
>>31143699age spots... wrinkles...55 to 60 yo ig?so second pic 60 to 65, and then it's actually not that bad of a result
>>31148440What country nigha? Homelessness is no joke I hope you land on your feet anon you’ll get through this
All my friends are balding and hitting that late twenties wall of becoming full on men and I don’t understand how they are so calm about if. I jumped on fin a couple of years ago freaking about my already shit hairline and if it was receding (I always told myself if I started balding that would be the last straw to trooning) Fuck this world. I’m just insanely jealous of every woman i meet and if I shave every hair off my body and I don’t actively hate myself so much and get motivation to do stuff in my life it only lasts for a couple of days and I have to be paranoid about hiding it too and not even wearing shorts or anything but I walk past shop windows with cute dresses or girls wearing summer dresses in the streets and I’m just seething. One insanely dumb thing I’m jealous of is hanging cute hand and nails too, like girls getting to wear a bunch i different rings and cute nail. It’s so ducking dumb it would look so ridiculous on me as a masc af guy too. I also hate my feet and always have fuck every shoe I buy has always been a somewhat unisex one but obvs masc af on my clown feet stomping around like a scuba diver slapping the ground . Blog post over in kind of drunk
>>31148813oh godi'm in the late 20s wall right nowit's awful
I just made it to 23 yo, dropped out, chronic back pain and living with dad, he is an narcissistic addict so no economical stability.I never had a chance.
I really don't know how to proceed. I know I'll never be happy repping but I also know I'll never not be disgusted with myself even if I transitioned. It just feels like I've already lost
just be gay instead of being trans
>>31148813stop repressingI'm in my mid 20s on hrt for a year, and I see the same thing with men my age, so many of them are already falling apart. Meanwhile the little bit of hairline I lost is growing back, I have less body hair, and I look like 5 years younger. Your hands change too, as the skin gets softer and fat moves around a bit. My hands don't look female or anything, but they're prettier now than 99% of men's hands
>>31149413To enjoy the pleasures of wearing diapers in your 30s and dying of AIDS in your 40s? Being gay is just as bad. Just be normal or go volcel.
>>31148709California don't worry my life isn't worth shit plus I have it better than 70% of the people out on the street
>>31149674just wear a condom and don't do anal every single day
i remember when i was 14, i felt so feminine, i wanted to be feminine and my head was full of dreams and ambitions of how i would be in the future, but i just got more and more masculine, at some point it finally hit home that i am just a man, and not an attractive one either, just an ugly looking incel. i have trans friends or gay friends and i cannot relate to them anymore, i used to consider this board a kind of community for me but now i just feel alienated from everyone. just an ugly lonely man.
Had a terrible dream tonight and it woke me up. I was in a new school/ uni, and I realized every students were trannies. All were either passing or at least feminine and cute. Meanwhile I was like a monster next to them. Everyone was looking at me and wondering why this man was here. I want to fucking Kms.
Reppers are assholes.
>>31152958i try to be nice
i'm surprised it catched on so quickly
>>31154105Literally me.
I would surely be better off dead.
Funny thingopening the biard just makes me spiral into obsessive patterns about tranny shit, where during most moments in my life I am cool as a breeze.This board and other places like it, plus pornography have clearly skewed my sexuality and gender identity.I was always confident that I am just a bi guy with a feminization fetish under the context of "it would be cute if a girl dressed you up"Learning about tranny shit eventually lead me to learn that hey I might be trans! Of course after tryiong hrt I figured out I simple dont have that same drive and need to transition. So now I am just perpetually wandering between "would be nice if i was a cute girl hehe" and "tranny shit is gay fuck this stuff, literal globohomo".I like the cute pictures and imagining I could wear cute dresses and be cute and girly etc etcBut thats so obviously impossible and frankly embarrassing.I am trying to abstain from porn and it HAS elevated my functions, I am feel much more "alive" so to speak but the acute illness begotten from this fetish is ofc still there and it manifests in me tricking myself to seek out non-pornagraphic ways to satisfy it.What does this all mean? AKATLDR: AGP or even just the fetish of tranny stuff like feminization, while distincts from MEF is still welling inside me and I honestly just wish i could be a normal feminine man at this point, enjoying his crossdressing and moving on after the weekend. But i am not feminine, and cant do shit about my looks. So i just fantasizy and use tranny shit as a crux.Long story short, I was never trans, just someone who lost his chance for some fun twink years.pic unrelated
>>31154963You're similar to me. Through in my case (maybe in yours too) it has always been a bit more than just sexual. Anyway, I don't know your age, but I ended up cracking at 24 despite how over it is for me.
>>31154991I tried hrt at 26It was..ok for at first and then I realized it really didnt matter and thus I stopped. Why bother after all? I didnt feel much better anyway."Cracking" wont make a difference, pursuing this is utterly a dead end from all perspectives.Even if it is not entirely sexual(I am not so arrogant as to say I know my unconscious mind that well) why should i pursue it? Will my life get better? No I will just stop being obsessed and then have 10 other problems, trying to hide it. Will i be able to finally be feminine or androgynous? No, my body is already set in stone.Thus the only logical conclusion is to stop obsessing and stop the porn too. Easier said than done, but entirely possible. At least that has promise even with such a small frame of reference from the few days of doing it.
>>31155031I think we have a similar condition but mine is a bit more potent. I can def relate but I just couldn't live anymore. I really hope you will not ever feel that. I will never fucking pass but I just couldn't live as a man anymore.
>>31155056The human condition is different for eveyrone.I hope you feel better now. The road is not so bright and full of hole but there is light at the end of the tunnel anon, and I hope you push through everything and come out on top of it all. Godspeed anon.As for me...I will just be vigilant and head on. This shit is just...sad at this point.
>>31155078I don't feel any better because it's a cope. HRT will not make me cute nor make me look like a girl. I hope for your sake your dyspho never gets too bad. That you never start crying every night because there are happy trannies living their best lives while you are a fucking ogre.
>>31155119I am so sorry to hear that anon. I haven't reached the crying stage, I cry very rarely as it is.You should push through regardless. These things need strength and I know you have it. Fight anon, and eventually you will be better. It might not get better immediately, it might get worse in the short term, but eventually, you will be better. You can do it. Believe in yourself.
>>31155147I just saw a Swedish tranny and recoiled. I started shaking, and then I broke down and cried. I don't think I'm going to make it anon. We are cursed. Being masculine and wanting to be a woman is the ultimate cosmic punishment. There is no way out. I will keep going and do my best but holy shit. Why is the universe so cruel? Some kind of intelligent design must exist to create such hellish existences
>>31138590Relapsing and listening to Defeater’s “Abandoned” on repeat. I relate this story of a celibate addict who lost the only person he ever loved to a cold and heartless world.
i set aside some time to play some VR porn gamesgod i'm a gross pervert
>>31155188In time you will learn to love yourself anon. Not in the narcissistic and cruel way, but genuine learn to like your flaws. Its the only way. Just keep going. You will do fine
I often wish I had just enlisted in the marines so I could’ve died in Iraq. I could’ve carried the family torch and died a hero’s death.
>>31155310I mean I did carry the family torch by enlisting, but the navy was far too safe. I should’ve taken the plunge and gone into combat rather than being a POG
Women are stupid and I don't respect themThat's right, I just have sex with them
>Tfw couldn't carry the family torch by joining the SS
>>31155363Holy cope.
>>31155384>t. Seething foid who wishes she was a man
>>31155403You dumb nigger, I am AMAB. I too coped this way.
>>31155407Calling me racial slurs won’t make your menstrual pain go away little missy ^^
>>31155428God, I wish I had menstrual pain.
I had my first dream about dressing up in girl clothes and wearing glitter nail polish is it over for me, is it over? Am I dying? Is this it?
>want to forget of the tranny thoughts and rep>still want to keep my hair so I'll just get on fin>but if i want to keep my hair why not take hrt instead
>>31155432i want to experience it once just to know what it's like and then never have to do it again
>>31155188was it me? ;__;>>31155432let's simulate it
>>31155492>but if i want to keep my hair why not take hrt insteadIn my case it's "if I wanna fuck around with my hormone balance and take more meds for the rest of my life why not take hrt instead"Still not on hrt tho or even fin but might to in the future when I have a bit more money to spend
>>31155894No she was on Reddit. She passed ofc. I want to die. I really do. My life will never be tolerable.
>>31155922*hug*iktf so well
>>31155937We are so cruelly cursed...
>>31155922I read that as "she passed on" and thought you were saying she fucking died
Bump ig
So questions, about 6 months ago my desire to transition just disappeared. It just went, where did it go ? Will it come back ? There's some inkling but I don't feel the insane self hatred to my male body of the jealousy I would feel to women. Did I disassociate so hard ? Also what about my AGP ?
>>31138642I was shocked for a second, I thought that was me lol
>>31158816could be disassociation yeah...
no
why tf do random people keep calling me by miss and stuff??the other day it happened 4x in a single day, and it happened once again yesterday?there has to be a conspiracy or something. I am literally just a man with long hair
>>31138590Very. I spend most of my time imagining a heaven where I can be happy and not imprisoned by my body.
>>31159000I think the trigger was when I realised that I'm privileged to be a man. And that I missed my chance and should be comfortable with with the body I have. It also helped that I did idolise certain guys.
only thing that keeps me from getting cross-faded every night is that this shit is so expensive.
>>31138590>since 19 I have said 'if i still want to next year ill diy'.>im 22 now>6ft man skull>uk>no friends>it is unequivocally over, but i still have hope it can get better for meam I delusional or retarded?
>>31160247>am I delusional or retarded?yes
>>31160247so do you still want it?
>>31138590This is the guy telling you repressing is deranged behavior
>>31138590I thought going to the gym and looking more manly would help me repress. It did not, I've been going for a year and last time I crossdressed I was depressed for the whole week. Oddly enough, some cis female friends were very supportive and interested in seeing pictures of me wearing a hoody, skirt and thigh high socks. They complimented my shoulders and arms...
>>31160553Is it over if I am unironically jealous of her?
>>31160496If I can somehow be happy without it, then nootherwise yes, desperately
>>31138630>>Poor>>Old>>SlavIm almost 30 kinda related
>>31160667For your sanity, yes that is gone
>>31152958Yes, and trannies are psychopaths.
The 4Tran AI knows ntr4ctr was right lmao
iwnbaw
Iwnbaw||m
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4x0EEXK7XfUits saturday night repkings, what are we listening to
>>31161654what does this acronym mean?
>>31161799i will never be a woman or man
>>31154105lmfao ouch
I used to think that repping for a long period of time causes damage to your brain and fucks you up and causes trauma. I'm starting to think that it's the opposite, and it's being fucked up and experiencing trauma especially when younger that causes you to rep for a long period of time. Your thoughts repgen? >>31155492>>31155904Because you can basically change nothing else and take fin. It doesn't really mess with you. If you hrt you've officially given up repping (suppressing)
invading ur thread to tell you all that ilu and u should really take care of yourselves today. ik life can be really hard but youre still a human bean and you still deserve nice things too <3also is it just me or are repressors kinda comfy? i wanna cuddle one of you and just share vibes together or something like that. idk maybe im crazy but i think that would be such a comfy friendship hbu
>>31163057plz cuddle me?but i'm uncuddable fr
>>31163345omw with snacks
i will be a woman
take your pills retards
WHY COULDN'T I BE BORN ANGLO OR GERMANIC. WHY WAS I BORN OF A DISGUSTING MASCULINE RACE. EVEN IF I TROON I WILL ALWAYS BE 3RD TIER TO ANY ANGLO AND GERM TROON. I CAN'T FUCKING STAND IT.
>>31163877>EVEN IF I TROON I WILL ALWAYS BE 3RD TIER TO ANY ANGLO AND GERM TROONis this baithave you seen german womenmy family tree basically determined I was going to be a hon whether I was born cis or trans, boy or girl
>>31163684ah heaven!
>>31163753i really should i don't think i'd forgive myself if i trooned out at 30
>>31163984it's been a few years and I haven't forgiven myself for trooning at 30, but that's only because I should have done it sooner
See I want to stop repping, but this lardass just came out and I look kind of like him so I'm going to have to hunker down to endure all the roasting he's going to get.
>>31163992that's what i meanif i troon out at 30 i'm pretty sure i would spend the rest of my life never being able to live down starting so lateso like, if i want to troon out i have to do it before 30 and i'm getting real close
>>31164032don't do this to yourself you will keep finding excuses and it will keep getting worse>>31164036bruh fucking get on that shit
>>31164069Yeah I realize it's probably not going to help if I wait. It just sucks having like a caricature of what you think you look like trooning out and taking all the flak you know that you would if you were open about it. But I mean, at least being a fatass makes it easy to manmode. Already got tits
>>31164069>bruh fucking get on that shiti really should do something about my life so i don't spend the rest of my life living in regretbut i just am too much of a fucking retard
>>31164032THIS SHIT IS THE GREATEST REPFUEL EVERI'm flushing my pills down the toilet.
>>3116398430 isn't that bad desu :__;
>>31164113I mean, the hair regrowth alone is pretty impressive. Plus there's always a chance that trooning out will be the motivation they need to stop being fat and weird.
>>31164131it's not good though. it's not a good life it's more like salvage and damage control
>>31164138If Anthony loses the fucking weight and actually tries to be feminine MAYBE.I don't think it's salvageable.
>>31164146true :|*hug*
i was just looking at how to become a monk at a benedictine monastery because i thought that would be a great way to escape the temptation to troon out but it seems you need to be a believing catholic or something
>>31163753Is there a point when I look like this? https://unsee cc/album#m4t365L7slPAuZT6
>>31138590The reason why we are the way we are is because of trauma, social contagion, and chemical warfare waged on entire populations. It's very possible, even likely that I will never be happy or fulfilled in any sexual or romantic sense. I will never have love. I hope I will find some way to be happy some day that I don't have to feel bad about.
>>31164146I like to call it palliative care
>>31161666I’ve been rinsing this lol it’s unironically a jam
>>31164252bonjour
>>31164252dunno as we all have to do you got to find the way to continue yourself... or the decision to end it if it comes to thatimpressive book collection tho, i assume its yours?
the repression fuel added for every terminally online, autistic, computer obsessed guy who troons out like the tech tips person knows no bounds. Like that person was always a woman? Since birth? And no matter what path they took in life that core truth would have remained the same? no. I just can’t. it’s an autistic male with agp and so are probably 80% of all trannys trooning today. Like the notion that he is a woman just as much as any of the women in my life is just nonsensical. Sometimes I lose sight of this reality especially when I see passoids or just timelines where they are generally happier afterwards but people like this bring me back to earth and remind me how the world sees trannys in general. if you are not a type one: passoid hsts, then you are a type two: the exact same as the tech tips person. And even passoid hsts are looked down upon by normal people.
>>31165781You can just simplify your little type system toType A: hot personType B: ugly personi mean like who cares if you are a woman since birth or not, what does that even mean? If someone acts, looks and feels like a woman, then they are a woman. If you're too ugly to do that then yeah, obviously you wont be accepted.
>>31165781Is permamanmoding as a giga autist based or cringe?
>>31165252Wtf it's that bad??????????I was hoping for some slight hopefuel. Come on tell me it's not that bad. And ofc it's not mine, it's my dad's, do you think I am 60 year old???
I kind of think that that beastmoder guy has cracked me. It never really occurred to me I could be a hot chick while having something of a masculine frame and being tall. I kinda feel hopeful and excited and that's really scaring me
>>31165252>>31168244C'mon durian please tell me you were super depressed when you said that and you didn't seriously advise me to fucking kill myself out of my sheer overness please.
actually didnt completely hate being a man today lifes looking good
>>31168244>>31168325I am having another panic attack.
Holy shit this forum is making me want to give up on repping I must have some kind of blessed tranny genetics everyone going off on measurements here and I decided to start measuring shit and I don't know how much government tap water my mom was drinking when she was pregnant but these numbers are FUCKED. I know I had a slight build and small hands but come on. Maybe this is why I've had tranny thoughts since I was fucking conscious because my brain developed in a pool of phytoestrogens>Height 71" (80% men, 95+% women)>Hip breadth 15" (95% men and women)>Bideltoid <18" (~5% men, ~60% women)>Biacromial <15" (40% men, 95% women)>WHR .82 at a BMI of 27>Hand length 7.25" (like 1% men, 30% women lmao)>Hand breadth 3.12" (ditto above lol)>Wrist and ankle circumference around 30% of women, muscle potential calculator has me in the bottom 10% of men>Index finger very obviously longer than ring finger on both handsI just want the tranny thoughts to go away but now it's way worse knowing I have averagish women proportions for my height, even though I'm overweight and 30. I don't want hope I want to be discouraged.
>>31168787>Maybe this is why I've had tranny thoughts since I was fucking conscious because my brain developed in a pool of phytoestrogensPlease stop saying that. Invalidates dysphoria for masculine people.
>>31168953I thought science had already established that brains are seemingly sexed, with trans people exhibiting brain structure similar to the opposite sex in most cases. Is it really a jump for me to assume that shares the same cause as my tiny hands and slight build? In no way is that invalidating to anyone else's experience. Shutting down discussion like that is unhelpful.
>>31169057Yes it is, and again this would imply that masculine trans people are less trans. This is simply survivor bias.
>>31169070>this would imply that masculine trans people are less transThey are
>>31169715Bullshit. My dysphoria is literally making me go insane and I am 6 years younger than the feminine poster.
im thinking of a picture i saw posted here a year or so ago, some guy who trooned out and a year later the only difference was he had fully formed D cup tits. wonder how he's doing now.
>>31169892I bet this will be me. 2 months HRT, very masculine face. Asked a friend of mine (not pinkpiller, he actually tried to tell me not to troon) if my face had changed at all.He said yes. I posted 2 pics, one 1st day HRT, 1 from the very day (so about 2 months). He said the wrong one was post-hrt...
Im not trans i'm just>ugly>failed to meet masculine ideals>effeminate>feel like i lack control, powerless>self loathing and wish to be somebody else>obsessive compulsive, trying to find an answer to unanswerable questionsi have pretty much every fucked up identity issue a person could have besides actual gender dysphoria, i wish i fucking had gender dysphoria so i would know what to do.
I sometimes have weird fantasies about dating a repressor and slowly breaking their mind and turning them into a gf.
>>31170876giwtwm
>>31170895It just seems very wholesome, yet simultaniously depraved. I always despised sissy shit due to how sexist it is, and feminizing a repressor is like the semi consensual untainted version of sissy shit.
>>31170923You do realize reppers are masc, and that's the primary reason they repress, right?
>>31170928I have not seen a transition that has not shifted even the most masc, bricked up repressor at least somewhat more towards androgyny while also preventing ageing effects. I've talked to multiple repressors (as in, to the degree they became friends and somewhat trusted me) and when pressed they universally would admit that it would make them feel better to look vaguely fem than 100% not fem.
>>31170956>I have not seen a transition that has not shifted even the most masc, bricked up repressor at least somewhat more towards androgyny while also preventing ageing effectsI hope this will happen to me then...>I've talked to multiple repressors (as in, to the degree they became friends and somewhat trusted me) and when pressed they universally would admit that it would make them feel better to look vaguely fem than 100% not fem.Definitely. We don't want to be masculine. We are hopeless about ever getting to look remotely feminine.
Any time I see the woman at thrift market from whom I buy lingerie pieces I want to confide in her that I crossdress by alluding to the fact that the stuff is for me She has a big sister vibe and I think she already suspects
>>31170962It's literally impossible to not look at least slightly more fem/twinkish at worst even if you are like those repressor gigachad meme images. Getting your hair styled well+growing it out, skin softening and fat redistribution over time basically guarantee this.
>>31170989Yeah.. I hope my skin can be fixed, it's really fucked. It's so hard coping with being a man for life.
>>31170975>repressor>crossdressingI don't think you're really a repressor at that point.
>>31170998I just come here to talk to other cis male agps
>>31170997HRT helps a lot, even if you don't end up taking HRT a basic all in one facial cleanser can help a lot.
>>31164032Sad to see an autist I looked up to fall for the tranny mind virus>picrel the last beacon of hope
>>31171010Well, to be fair, I am already on HRT. I'll have to get a facial cleanser through.
>>31171008https://slatestarcodex.com/2020/02/10/autogenderphilia-is-common-and-not-especially-related-to-transgender/AGP and AAP are literally just normal human sexuality for women and men respectively. Link very much related.People who are comfortable with their gender tend to enjoy the idea of doing sexual acts as their gender, shocker.
>>31138590i will boyremove all of you
>>31171021Yeah I've heard all the angles including agp being a sexuality unto it's own
>>31171031I have bad news anon, if you have AGP it just means you're a woman.
Help, I told my grandmother (far right, rural, catholic) about my AGP and dysphoria, and now she is telling she'd accept me if I decided to transition.
>>31171266She's the one who told my I looked "cute like a girl" a few months ago. Is she trying to pinkpill me?
Gonna buy rope tomorrow
Should i write a note, what do i write in it or should i just go missing?
>>31171604ask chatgpt to write your note
>>31145080>>31145115Only faggots have these fantasies, not men.
>>31171691LIES
