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methods
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>>27072247
old age is the best, most certain, and least painful way
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don't kill yourself, anon. you're not allowed.
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>>27072247
put a shotgun in your mouth or rail a fat line of fentanyl
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Eat so many chicken nuggers until you pop
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>>27072247
satirically, you use
>cpap tubing
>cpap mask
>helium tank
Attach cpap tubing and mask to helium tank, put on cpap mask, and slowly let the helium in. too fast and you'll blow your lungs out. it'll kill you via anoxia, it'll be painless, quick, and effective. just make sure you actually want to leave, because there's no going back.
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are you a tranner? wanna play mario kart with me instead of killing yourself?
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>>27072289
not op, but that's oddly convenient, I work for a medical technology company writing cpap software so I've got all that stuff in my office lol. weird to think I could lock myself in a conference room and have my coworkers watch me die through the glass
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>>27072269
>least painful
lol
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>>27072247
https://lostallhope.com/
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>>27072289
most party balloon helium kits are 20% air now instead of just helium so this doesn’t work
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>>27072569
I was looking for this site a while ago, thanks
I like statistics
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>>27072569
wow
forgot about that place, I browsed it years ago when I attempted as a child. clearly it didn't work
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>>27072247
Drink a glass of water
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why do you want to die?
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>>27072569
Am I being trolled? Clicking "suicide methods" leads to a 403 forbidden error.
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>>27073883
https://lostallhope.com/suicide-methods/statistics-most-lethal-methods
this works
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>>27074024
Thank you.

I'm really surprised. I was planning to go out by stabbing my abdomen, because I watched this video (now deleted):
https://www.reddit.com/r/eyeblech/comments/vfs3le/peruvian_man_catches_his_ex_wife_in_the_act_and/

And watching her gasp for breath from her collapsed lungs really made me not want to go through that. But statistics don't lie. It'll take much longer, I would suffer (slightly) more, and the success rate drops from 58.5% to 12.5%.

I really don't know what I'm going to do.
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>>27074127
The don't do anything. There's no rush if you aren't sure.
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>>27074127
Just stop being suicidal. Unironically. Find a reason to live and to do something you consider worth doing.
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>>27074177
>>27074316
Don't do this to me bros. I'm not even OP. I'm not even trans (not that OP expressed being trans desu). But it's over.

I guess I can say thanks for not dropping out of context platitudes like everyone else. But no. It's over.
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>>27074343
Why is it over?
You will always die too late to avoid your suffering. Might as well work to a happier point now.
If you want, I've got a discord, but I think you won't ask. Either because you are scared of being talked out of it, or because you have actually made up your mind. It's almost never the second.

Suicide needs time, preparation, and a cool head. Are you even in a state to try?
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>>27074388
not who you're responding to but

have friends in early middle school, no idea about trans stuff
>i'm worthless, i should kill myself
have friends in late middle school and early highschool, but get bullied
>i get bullied all day, i should kill myself
get in a different class, new friends, no more bullies
>i'm kinda happy, should still kill myself
realize am tranny in small conservative dump
>being a tranny sucks, i should kill myself
get tranny gf in other country, can be tranny whenever i visit her, both of us love eachother
>she'd be better off without me, i should kill myself
highschool ends, can finally completely troon out and visit gf more often
>i should kill myself
break up with her because LDR is too exhausting and she starts getting exhausted at me beign depressed
>i should just kill myself

is this what you fuckers call living?

me wanting to kill myself was never related to how i'm doing or how much pain i feel. no matter what everyone around me does or say to try and prevent it, i just don't wanna live. i just want to stop being an indecisive bitch, and get it over with.
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>>27076222
Not him but why was it LDR?
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>>27072247
Can you fucking not?
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I’m so fucking tired and it hurts to live without him but I can’t kill myself without leaving a mess for the people around me
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>>27076244
because we met over the internet. (and dating irl in my town would probably end in harassement)
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>>27076391
But you broke up with her after:
>>highschool ends, can finally completely troon out and visit gf more often

Why couldn't you just live together after highschool?
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>>27072657
Seconded. Learned this one the hard way, at most it will give you a really bad headache from crying with the mask on for hours trying to figure out how you managed to fuck this up too.
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>>27076404
because i wasn't able to do that quite yet. i could've moved in but i didn't have money and also i never told my parents about me being tranny and gay. also i started being anxious and insecure about the relationship even when i was visiting her.
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>>27076454
She just let you break up with her? Because she thought it was hard dealing with your depression?

I don't want to victim blame her, but, I'm sorry. Some people have support in that regard. I can't say I know the feeling, but, it's apparently possible.

I don't see why you have to kill yourself. You're so young, and have so much potential. You've also accomplished so much, even if to you it may not seem like it. I don't see why you can't keep going for a brighter future, and present.
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>>27076454
i realize now that maybe i could've saved it if i just held out a bit more, but then again, wanting to kms has been a constant in my life since forever, so that seemed rather pointless anyway.
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OP, become a prostitute or porn performer. It gonna kill you sooner or later, but at least someone shall have some fun.
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>>27076487
>She just let you break up with her? Because she thought it was hard dealing with your depression?

i simplified a bit. she tried helping me, but obviously she can only do so much over LDR. it was also less about being depressed and more about me being insecure in the relationship. it wasn't fun for her to constantly have me freak out about how she doesn't actually love me. but yeah, it felt like she didn't care towards the end.

>You're so young, and have so much potential.

great. why am i now obliged to do something with it? and potential for what? i doubt there is anything that can make me be okay with being alive.

>You've also accomplished so much, even if to you it may not seem like it.

how would you know? and i haven't. i've graduated highschool, dated and then broke up with the love of my life. nothing more.

>I don't see why you can't keep going for a brighter future, and present.

because no matter how bright my life gets, i would always want to kill myself. like i said, it's been a constant.
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>>27072247
>get abusive boyfriend
>make him more and more angry
>he eventually snaps
>profit??
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>>27076542
Well. People have led worse lives. Is all. Not to dick-measure.

I understand, about the relationship. I don't even consider myself as having loved and lost, because, in hindsight, I feel I was never loved. To me, it was worse than having never met her at all. I also know the feeling of (in my opinion rightfully) feeling she doesn't love me, and in return, receiving someone who doesn't care that much about it.

Again, I don't mean to victim blame her. But there are people who would never let you go. Not that the world revolves around relationships, though.

If you really want to end it, I suppose you can. It doesn't sounds like it's grief causing you to want to off yourself. Unlike me. You can try speaking to a psychiatrist about it, to get diagnosed. Even if you're uneducated about how people of suicidal ideation are treated, when you're this calm about it, you may as well. I don't mean to parrot misinformation, but I've heard that antidepressants sometime make suicidal urges stronger, because you can more calmly take the steps necessary to do it. From what I understand, it's when you're no longer scared that you should be most concerned. But, it sounds like you never were.
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>>27076556
giwtwm
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>>27076589
Same, it would save me from the shame and damnation following a suicide
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>>27072312
not op. they need to make blooper a playable character again.
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>>27076584
>Well. People have led worse lives. Is all. Not to dick-measure.

i get it, people lived through worse. but idk, i just don't think 'living' is a neutral state that is to be uphold, but rather an active choice. and i just don't feel like deciding in favour of it.

>I understand, about the relationship. I don't even consider myself as having loved and lost, because, in hindsight, I feel I was never loved.

i think she loved me. i would need to be completely schizo to think she didn't. and when i broke up she told that she still loves me and wants to keep talking, but also understands that i felt miserable in the relationship. but i'm also not sure if she loved me as much as she think she did. she alway mentions good times we had in the past, and i think that made her ignore what i'm like nowadays. as if she tried to keep dating someone who wasn't there anymore, and therefore just did not see anyway of helping me.

>To me, it was worse than having never met her at all.

i'm sorry, hope you feel better now.

>Again, I don't mean to victim blame her. But there are people who would never let you go.

she didn't completely let me go. she still wants to talk to me and stuff. and i do too.

>Unlike me.

i'm sorry to hear. hope you get better, you've been really nice to me today.

>You can try speaking to a psychiatrist about it, to get diagnosed.

i've been wanting to for ages, but i'm very scared by social interactions like that, so i haven't.


thank you for talking to me, it's really nice.
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>>27076668
Thanks for the empathy. But, no, for me, due to abuse/neglect, I really lost far more than I can willingly explain. It's complicated, and small. But, I cared about it, and because of her, it got destroyed. So. I also can't find anyone else romantically, because my romantic expectations are hopeless. But I can't be happy without it. So even if it's stupid, I've given up.

Even though in many ways, and in the most important ways, she simply didn't love me, it did make me realize that what being loved would look like. So it's not all bad.

Also, I want to clarify what I meant by psychiatrist. I've wanted to see one myself, and I've read articles that explained that a psychologist doesn't prescribe meds, whereas a psychiatrist does. I specifically said psychiatrist because, everything you're expressing sounds like you basically have a negative modifier, in some way. That was what I meant by I felt you accomplished so much, even if you may not see it as such. Some people don't even graduate highschool. Some people repress. Some people don't get to experience what it feels like to be loved. I think that counts as something to be proud of, because it definitely requires mutual commitment, and effort.

I'm glad you're still talking to her. I kept saying I didn't want to victim blame her, and, it's a good thing, because she seems so sweet. I'm really glad you found her, and can benefit each other as much as is fair to you both.

About her maybe primarily loving who you used to be, I'm sorry. Only you know the dynamic between you two now, and how it's changed, but at least it didn't crash and burn. I don't mean to out of context assume anything, but maybe her speaking of the good times you've shared was her trying to foster positive thinking, instead of reinforcing negative ones. I know that may not meet the expectation you may've had. But it seems you know she cares. I'm glad you have her, in a way that's healthy to you both.
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>>27072289
>>27072657
so inert gas was my plan for the future. what's the best way to get pure stuff? nitrogen or methane?
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>>27076797
>I also can't find anyone else romantically, because my romantic expectations are hopeless.

why? surely your expectations can't be that bad.

>Also, I want to clarify what I meant by psychiatrist.

i know what a psychiatrist is. but even the process of asking for one at my GP or whatever scares me.

>I think that counts as something to be proud of, because it definitely requires mutual commitment, and effort.

well, maybe it does. but it doesn't feel like i myself achieved any of those things. i don't feel like i had to work for them.

>She seems so sweet.

she really is! she's really caring for all of her friends, and is really fun to be around.

>I'm really glad you found her, and can benefit each other as much as is fair to you both.

so am i, but i feel like i've sorta done my part. i helped her in all the ways i could, that from now on out she doesn't need me.

>I don't mean to out of context assume anything, but maybe her speaking of the good times you've shared was her trying to foster positive thinking, instead of reinforcing negative ones.

could be. but like i said, it made me feel like all the good experiences we could've had had already happened, and from then on the relationship would just become meaningless. i'm still grateful for everything she did for men, but i was just too scared for the future.
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>>27077048
Yeah, sorry, I ran out of space. I understand you're scared to see a psychiatrist. Tbh, I don't understand why, because I'm not scared at all. Though, in my case I would see a psychologist, because I was hoping there was a term to refer to my romantic expectation. Which, I wouldn't say it's bad. But, I've never seen anyone else have it. To find my ex I had to spell out for her what I wanted, and otherwise would never've wanted to be mutual, with me. I have a lot of bad experiences with putting myself out there. I just wish I wasn't so different.

The fact that it feels you haven't had to work for what you've accomplished makes it all the more impressive. I'm not saying it's the hardest thing in the world to be at the curb in practice, but, it shows that you don't lack ambition, if nothing else. It's interesting. You haven't even conveyed that you're just meandering through life, so, even if you can't regard what you've done so far as being that much, at least you view yourself as having untapped potential. I think your prospects look very good, if only you would stick around to see them through.

I understand, if she doesn't strictly need you, anymore. At least you can be mutually beneficial to each other.

I have a lot more space left than I expected. I guess I can say, again, even though I'm uneducated on the topic, I think it's interesting you feel scared about seeing a psychiatrist. It's not that I expected you to not feel, but, rather, I did somewhat think you were capable of going through the motions of things, without much problem. I don't necessarily think feeling bad is something to celebrate, but- again, even though I'm uneducated-, I think it's a very good sign. If there was truly no difference between one scenario and another, only then would I say that maybe existence is distinct burden with no return. I think you have hope. I think you owe it to yourself to see what resources exist for you one day.
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>>27077238
>I have a lot of bad experiences with putting myself out there. I just wish I wasn't so different.

well, there's loads of people who are also very different. it's not impossible that there's someone else who is also capable of loving you. and well, you just gotta repeat til it works sometimes.

>I think you have hope. I think you owe it to yourself to see what resources exist for you one day.

thank you. i'm not sure if you're right, but i guess i'll have to find out.
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>>27077347
I've given up. I'm still somewhat trying. But everywhere I go, I am "that one guy". And they hate me for it. I'm over introducing myself to people. I will try to get diagnosed, though.

>thank you. i'm not sure if you're right, but i guess i'll have to find out.
I would say "do it for her", but, I guess you can live for her without getting diagnosed. So. Do it for yourself. I think.



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