I have schizo, and I'm a fat ugly neet, and I feel like everyone fuckin hates me that I meet. I'm wondering if its in my head or not, if there is any way to fix this.Here is some of my evidence:I go on chat sites like omegle and attempt to find friends/e-gf and I have had conversations with about 100 people, I've asked 15 or so for further contact, of those 15, about 5 have accepted, of those 5, none of them have been fruitful long term. This makes me think I am intrinsically unlikeable because I never showed them my ugly fucking fat face.I also have this thing where I'm constantly looking for women to approach (yes I'm desperate, I try to disguise this but I don't think it works). Women sense that I'm doing this and quickly avoid eye contact with me, or close off their body language, look down or go on their phones or put headphones in.I also try to talk to cashiers at stores that I go to regularly, and they purposely say one word answers, or don't answer me at all, and then talk enthusiastically to other customers.My therapist seems to think that a lot of this perceived rejection is in my head and due to low confidence/self esteem. I think people can see in my face that I'm uncomfortable and emotionally unstable or awkward and this combines with my ugly bloated face and desperation to create the perfect storm of repulsiveness. My indian neighbor literally won't say hi to me either. I tried to be friendly to him in the elevator and he just stared at the ceiling when I said "Hi" to him. He talks to my parent when he sees him. Just feels like everyone fucking hates me. Everyone wants to get away from me. I hate it. It makes me feel terrible and like my life is pointless.TLDR cant make friends, girls dont like me, people dont respect me, not sure if its in my head because im schizo or if its real because im fat and uglyany advice?
>>30209511I suggest you stop looking for approval from random people on the street and go back to your own family.
>>30210252I have no family. I am trying to make friends or get a gf by reaching out to people around me.
>>30210307Do you have siblings? And where are your mother and father
>>30210329I meant I dont have a wife or family of my own. I live with my parents. The whole point of this is to get a partner or a social life or at least improve something about my lfie
>>30210339Do you have goals, or an ideal future for yourself?
>>30210379Yep. I'd like to lose weight, get a part time job, get some friends, and get a gf. I figure I'd be happy if I did that. I also want to write a novel but that's a bit of a pipe dream.
>>30210409I think it would be wisest for you to focus on the goals that are actually in your control before worrying about the ones that aren't, namely getting friends and a getting a girlfriend. If you want a particular job then perhaps you can begin your journey by acquiring the skills that the job requires.
>>30210474I will keep that in mind. Job would be good. I need to get a part time job. It would help my social skills as well, since right now I meet nobody new . Thanks
bump for more advice, possibly.
>>30209511I think there is a deeper problem than being friendless, and you need to resolve it first. You may also come off as too clingy or too needy, and people tend not to like that. And are you really committed to real life interactions with people? If your demeanor is that "okay, I'm going to say 'Hello' but I expect them not to reply back" when instead your demeanor and spirit should be "every person I say 'Hello' to, is TOTALLY going to reply back". Whatever you do should be loaded with enthusiasm and belief.
>>30213856It's really hard to believe I'm socially competent when people constantly react badly to any attempt I make. My mental illness also makes my voice and demeanor flat, which I believe puts people off>I think there is a deeper problem than being friendless, and you need to resolve it first.What is the deeper problem? My self esteem?
>>30213856Even my own sister reacts to me badly. She is friendly on the surface but I can tell she doesn't like talking to me and thinks im a fucking loser.Even when people are friendly with me I can just tell they think I'm a loser. Yes, I am aware how that sounds.