I want to die but I don’t want to hurt my family. I’m sure people have asked this question before but I couldn’t find any satisfactory answers.
>>26753584https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FbQr70rfwQg https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t6NAC6ajkH8Read and apply the mind illuminated and happiness beyond thought by Gary Weber, you can die psychologically
>>26753584take drugs but don't kill yourself. I'm doing that and it gets rid of my urge to commit suicide
>>26753622That’s because the drugs temporarily reduce the activity of your brains “default mode network”. You can learn to naturally decrease it through >>26753616
Bruh, don't do it man, it won't matter how you die anyway, you are definitely going to make your family miserable for the rest of their lives, if you actually care about them you would stay in this world and help them how you can
>>26753655I know but at least if it looks like an accident then they can say "he just died young" instead of knowing that I killed myself which I think shows the ultimate weakness and shamefulness.
>>26753669Even then, they'll still mourn your death until they themselves end up dying, possibly because of the heartbreak, and no, no weakness and shame in killing yourself, only the gut wrenching sadness.
Why do you want to die
>>26753733Because I'm a homosexual and addicted to porn as well as just generally being a bad person.
>>26753754Well why not stop watching porn and becoming a better person instead of killing yourself? And being homo is nothing wrong
>>26753760I've tried to stop for 3 years and its actually gotten worse than before. I'm just tired of trying and failing.
>>26753584Your mind is not who you are - but you are very attached to it. Don't try to get rid of the mind, just realise that you are not it. A rope in the dusk looks like a snake, and you see the snake, not the rope. Once you realise the snake is actually rope, the snake disappears. So with your mind - do not focus on it, but focus on the real you - a part of the divine infinite consciousness.
>>26753765Keep trying until you succeed. The very moment you realise you are about to actually die you will instantly regret it.It may seem impossible to get better, but it is possible. Perhaps find some support groups of people who deal with the same stuff. Change your strategy of getting better if what you tried hasn't worked for 3 years.Trust me anon it can be done and there is a light at the end of the tunnel, even if the tunnel looks reay long and dark at the moment