>>26745430I'm a retard and put sunblock everywhere except a specific area of my neck and a spot on one of my arms. Now those parts are red, but I can't tell if they're fully sunburnt (and will peel in a day or so) or not.
haha you have seizures just thinking about me?? that's cute bb ngl
>>26745430>tfw you’re tired of ultramind shill>tfw you actually read it and follow it and unironiclly feel less tired, bloated, and depressed and have way more energy and focus >tfw you’re tired of julienhimself and David Tian shill>tfw you actually watch them and they give you a positive mindset and you learn a lot about psychology and philosophy and don’t feel so blackpilled anymore and now you have more confidence and are better at not procrastinating>tfw you’re tired of unified mindfulness shill>tfw you actually try it and start feeling a lot calmer, happier, and more focusedHoly shit bros. Shillposter is actually based. I’m going to get into the internal family thing and go through the puashill catalogue next.
Nice fucking ghosting there mate, not at all fucking obvious that that’s what you’re doing and leaving me on read
i wonder if you have a job yet so you can take me on dates (even tho i prefer paying for myself) hmmm
>>26745298When did you EVER help me? A better question would be what did you EVER help me with?Get over yourself.
You're a fat fucking disgusting whore and I hope all the worst things happen to you for eternity, even in the afterlifePiece of hypocritical garbage
Today I found out that a girl I liked from class some months ago has a boyfriend now. She is very busy lately (basically, her life is only working and studying), so I couldn't do very much aside from inviting her to meetings after class with everyone to get to know her more, but she rejected every invite. And then, she found love at work. I'm feeling helpless. I know I did all I could but still it wasn't enough. I already forgot about her but knowing about this right now... It hurts
I’m doing a big brb but I hope to return with more gusto
9th grade bully was almost right about me when he said that:"no one likes you, you'll never get laid" After over 100 failed approaches it feels like that. But I've fucked escorts so he was wrong.
eating gnocchi [nyow·kee], juicy buttery
How do I stop being a black pilled autistic mentally I'll tranny and accept I'm ugly as fuck>be me>normal life as an autistic eprson>get unmonitored internet access at a young age>discover porn>mostly furry shit then transgender shit with men turning into women>men turning into women gets my dick hard as diamonds>for years fap to this>dick no longer gets hard at 26>eventually years of begging parents I get HRT pills on my 25th birthday>4 weeks in, terribly scared and mental illness symptoms exacerbated>life pretty much has sucked, been mostly a shut in, never had a friend circle, only true friend was in high school where we shared similar interests and would smoke weed behind the dumpster>he stopped talking to me after graduation>i look like shit, 290 lbs, stretch marks, balding>other than that people have told me i look ok>still convinced i look like shit>still have dreams, but absolutely no ambition or umpth to get up out of bed in the morning, sleep 12 plus hours and a 2 hour nap>still not a NEET though, I have a job working in a gym and I'm about to get my bachelors in englishEvery day I'm suffering and want to die
>>26746095clarification, 26th birthday I turned 26 recently
graduated college recently and I've become completely depressed. everyone in my life is putting so much pressure on me to "enter the real world" now and it's completely paralyzing. also looking at the economy it seems like I've graduated into the worst recession in 40 years. my parents have never taught me much real life skills (i dont know how to deal with stress, i dont drive) and i cant help but feel like I've been set up to fail. on top of this i have no irl friends and have never been in a serious relationship. i just keep thinking "what's the point of all of this".
No mixup that silly could happen, right? I tried ti make it clear that I didn’t have friends
You.Go fix your anxiety problem, right now.I've let years of untreated mental illness destroy my life. My relationship has been ruined. Please do not end up like myself.I've gone to get help and I can feel myself getting better already. But my god had I done this a year ago I would've been so much happier.Please go help yourself, get off this board.
I hate how my peers have way more experience with women than I do sometimes.
So you say you want to meet up to grab coffee this morning and you give me your cell number. Now all of a sudden you're saying that we're in different places and want to see if other people do it better for you before coming back to me.Excuse me....who the FUCK do you think you are???From what i can tell from you leading me on: you're a chubby little 4/10 boring cunt on a dating app who's never even met me before and yet you're making excuses simply because you think YOU can pull better. Yeah...good fucking luck you fucking bitch. Sorry for giving you a chance despite having reservations myself.Like holy fuck I try and match with girls who are definitely below me and I still get blown off despite doing everything right. No wonder incels are a thing when even below average women seem to all think they're a fucking Roman aristocrat with a posse of men at the calling. My hatred for women who use dating sites has never been higher.
>>26745835Complete projection from the ugliest man alive.
>>26745765You know what would make me happy? If you killed yourself! =) I mean that.
>>26746374Why so rude? Bad anon, bad!
>>26746360You said I was sexy
>>26745430>>26745562You'll be wiped off the face of the planet soon. One thing you idiots don't realize is all you digital info is stored and you will be put to death soon for your incel views. Globalists, like Trudeau hate you and they will release all your incel data soon (pretending it's hackers). Then everyone will crush you. I can't wait.
Reposting from last thread:So I’ve been going to therapy, but I dunno if I’m doing it right. 9/10 times, whenI walk out of the building, I feel like there’s this voice screaming inside of my head. Is this normal?
>>26746512A girl is being nice to me and might have a crush on meMight not be incel anymore :D
>>26745430So I'm going to start a new site that doxxes misogynists. I'll post the link here later. Submissions with photos and real names will only be accepted. Must include hacked or posted proof of misogyny.
>>26746526Doesn't matter, if you've absorbed the incel culture / misogyny, you're toast.
>>26746503Liar, no one thinks you're sexy. Absolutely no one.
>>26746553I’ll just see where it goes. I don’t hate women or anything I just find them to be harder to mesh with and I’m not blind to the troubles of men like me out there. She could teach me a lot
You can start submissions starting July 1st.
It's time ladies. <3https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ixw_bLVUL34
Nothing is really wrong with my life. I’d like to move but don’t live anywhere terrible. I just feel so checked out lately. I don’t care about anything. I go through the motions. I won’t get fired, I eat decently, I pay my bills, all like a robot. I quit drinking. I quit porn. I don’t smoke. I don’t know what else to do.
>>26746619Might I suggest painting? Bob Ross had a mean show dedicated to that. It’s easy to get into digital painting/illustration with a tablet and pen these days. Maybe something like woodcarving or another crafting style would spark your interest. I think people do well adding some expressive things like that when they aren’t doing it at all
I am far more in control of my life than I ever realized
I'm taking anti-anxiety meds right now. It feels great so far. I feel numb to what usually bothers me which is a great change.It's weird having the suicidal thoughts be pushed away. I now don't have a clutch for whenever I think about past regrets.
>>26746612What I suggest is meet guys off here and other alt-right site, don't give them your information but get their info (I'll help you with this in the future and explain how to do it). We will expose both misogynists and racists but our focus is on misogynists. We will absolutely destroy their life by exposing them and will contact neighbors, family and employers.
>>26746642And of course pedophiles.
>>26746632I appreciate your input. I recently got some watercolor shit and did it once. Maybe I should put your effort into it.
>>26746660It can also help you socially creatives like to mingle with other creatives. You didn’t mention that in your post but a common problem here is isolation after all
>>26746698It’s true. I have one good friend I talk to on discord daily, and I do have a woman, but she is a plane ride away. Also I moved somewhere that isn’t hospitable to newcomers and I basically work alone.
>>26746642Fucking faggot. I'll infiltrate your group and doxx your ass instead
>>26746706Yeah that makes sense. I lived a long time having nobody so I can tell you it’s a really great thing that you do have those people and I think you’ll meet more in time. I’ve never moved to a place like that but if I had any advice there it’d be to consider trying your best and consistently showing warmth even if they’re cold but another way is to move out of there. Hope you’ll feel better soon anon
I miss my ex. It’s really as simple as that, but I can’t let it get to me. Sometimes, you just know shit should have worked out, but that doesn’t mean that it does. I’m going to text her pretty casually and ask what she’s up to, but I want to wait till I get a real job. Shit sucks, and my life is on halt.
>>26746726There is no way you'll be able to doxx any of us, we're much too smart and don't lose our common sense over pussy. :-)
I'm C and I think J wants me dead :')
>>26746820It never began, stupid.
Why am I feeling like shit again.Last week I started taking antidepressants and I was feeling amazing. Now it's the second week and I want to die again
>>26746642This is the best idea even conceived on here. If you don't end up doing it, I know many who might want to. I know many girls on here that would love to doxx the assholes they talked to on here.
>>26746642No one is ever going to mistake you for a real woman.
>>26746859Idk webm's no longer load for me on /adv/
>>26746866Except I am, you're going to get doxxed. This is the fucking perfect plan, all these guys on here are horny as hell and assholes.
Just got back from my last LA trip hopefully ever. I now resent my friends out there like you wouldn't believe, I tried to give them the benefit of the doubt but at a certain point you can't say thing words do have meanings for fucks sake. Every year its the same thing one or a few of them invite out and cite all the fun shit we can do, I make plans, I get there then all of sudden everyone is like radio silence too busy. Even if we plan ahead the day off everyone is too busy or does not want to drive. I just do not play around with making plans but no one takes them seriously If i ask hey is it okay if I crash at your apartment for 3 days, person who invited me? and they will be like yeah sure absolutely then act shocked when I show up. This time they didn't want to go to the beach, they didn't want ot go to the mountians, they didnt want to drive into LA proper nor did they want to drive in their Not!LA subrub so they wouldn't lose their spot. they lazed around of facebook all day and exclaimed 'We should do this!' to every random even that popped up and make an excuse why we should not actually go. They wouldn't even drive me to the train when i said i'd do something solo becasue 'no one takes the train'
>>26746893You will never be a real woman. You have no womb, you have no ovaries, you have no eggs. You are a homosexual man twisted by drugs and surgery into a crude mockery of nature’s perfection.All the “validation” you get is two-faced and half-hearted. Behind your back people mock you. Your parents are disgusted and ashamed of you, your “friends” laugh at your ghoulish appearance behind closed doors.Men are utterly repulsed by you. Thousands of years of evolution have allowed men to sniff out frauds with incredible efficiency. Even trannies who “pass” look uncanny and unnatural to a man. Your bone structure is a dead giveaway. And even if you manage to get a drunk guy home with you, he’ll turn tail and bolt the second he gets a whiff of your diseased, infected axe wound.You will never be happy. You wrench out a fake smile every single morning and tell yourself it’s going to be ok, but deep inside you feel the depression creeping up like a weed, ready to crush you under the unbearable weight.Eventually it’ll be too much to bear - you’ll buy a rope, tie a noose, put it around your neck, and plunge into the cold abyss. Your parents will find you, heartbroken but relieved that they no longer have to live with the unbearable shame and disappointment. They’ll bury you with a headstone marked with your birth name, and every passerby for the rest of eternity will know a man is buried there. Your body will decay and go back to the dust, and all that will remain of your legacy is a skeleton that is unmistakably male.This is your fate. This is what you chose. There is no turning back.
>>26746246actually send this to her
>>26746964>You have no womb, you have no ovaries, you have no eggsExcept I do.
I hope she has fun with her new friend while leaving me on read. I just can't do it anymore.
>>26746642jokes on you i don't meet people off of the internet. also 90% of "females" here are LARPing males, including you.
>>26746982Good luck. I’m sure you will definitely come up with le ebin scheme to catch nazis.
>>26746993>>26747014You know it will work, that's why it bothers you so much! Lmfo
>>26745430FUCK ALL THESE HOES IMA BREAK EVERY HOE'S HEART
>>26747079Lol, you can't even get a girl interested in you.
I'm fucking worried about my final year of collegemy grades were decent for the last two years so I need to do is be consistent but the live speaking exam is making anxious as fuck
Things I am trying fren>healthier eating and exercise>on an SSRI for anxiety>write in journal if feel oncoming episode>trying to find buy puzzzles, books, or another hobby to sink time into after work>switch jobs to eventually get away from hereIs this ok?
>>26747079>when ur still in a 15 yr old teenage fuckboi mindset cringe
Where am I supposed to turn when everywhere I turn just confirms that I want to disappear?I'm trying and I have been for so long. I want to be happy but I always end up feeling like this I'm just so tiredI just miss you, always. Why did you leave me here? It was us. It was the best I ever had. Never wanted to be here until I met you
>>26747121SSRIs are a poison. get off that shit
They keep telling me to stay, because that's how I keep a part of you here. But you left, you didn't want to be here. But I want to be with you.
>>26746981Nah she ain't worth the attention or knowing that she caused me undue stress, which she'd probably be gleeful in knowing.I told her "k thx bye" and unmatched. Waste my time in trying to find a meaningful relationship and get the fucking quickscope cunt.>captcha: p00yd
>>26747209My parents put me in it for anxiety/depression when I was 7(?). When I stopped taking it because I ran out of refills I went into withdrawal. I’m not sure what the other options are but if it has been working for over two decades I will stay on it.
....did i just said some unlikely things yesterday just for some rrally bad joke out of some minor celebration, just for the comedic discovery??!?!was waiting for some one to suddenly say "k fine i lost brah" maybe by feeling my suddeen increase in my phero-joy-liquid-something-rate in my heart.... guess not, since it makes it all sound ssd anyway. but hey!
isnt just natural, to blame anything but yourself in life? blame eveblame adamblame devilsblame humanblame angelsblame your friendsblame other comepeting, similarly described beingsblame life!blame logic!just a natural thing, for everything to be always so.... imperfect at all times. nobody can control that.hellmaybe imperfecfionis unlimited tooo!hahA!yea i probably need to start some resume butwho cares! i found somethin anyway lol...not cokes man.
CALL THIS BITCH REAGAN WITH HOW SHE TEARING DOWN MY WALLS
wellmaybe thats the root of alla text so meaningless, equally meaningful to becomejust ANYTHINGlike not practicing english through all these bad rap, repeatinf the same pattern of bad rants until finaly an AHA from the desire to be comedicnot some level up models you so desired, only espressed (expressed?) in the evil tome of the machines and numbershahathe logical root of allof good and evil itself.so perfectly, imperfecti suppose the power button is not pressed until the *** said so.well everybody's laughing. and thats the point. even if i had amassed some army, you d have to laugh too. the only way anyone wins.
I wish I hadn't fallen for her so hard, but she said"I love you" first.
>tfw say excuse me and the lady sucks her teeth at me and glaresSorry for being white
>>26747121I don’t know if I’m fren but you sound like you’re doing great anon. Watch for side effects on the meds it’s their job to work with you to get the best dosage and all
it s unmodern for girls to look for looks nowadays.
I acted like a fucking retard today, I had a second date with this girl I approached and she was very shy/nervous, tried going in for a kiss and when she declined I kept being pushy about it and probably caused a big scene. I kept going on in on like a fucking weirdo and I don’t know why I fucking did it. She seemed like a good girl even payed for our tickets for the date. I ruined what could have been a good thing if I try to find another girl I think I’ll fuck up again cause I always end up doing something stupid. I feel so fucking empty right now and suicidal and lonely. I apologized to her and explained myself and everything and she texted me basically saying its fine and all that but idk where its gonna go from there. I think I got some mental issues and im not keant to get a girlfriend.
delivered, my sweet desire
So how do I cope with the fact that I am not made to get a girlfriend and ny friends are always busy with their girlfriends. How do I accept the fact that I’m gonna be lonely.
>>26747465That's scary imagine how she felt. Glad you apologized but try being in the moment more. We all make mistakes
>>26747492I honestly feel like such a fucking piece if shit, she is nigerian and kinda raised in a more traditional type environment so I should have not been pissed off when she declined. It was a combination of my ego and me being excited and just living in the moment. She seemed such a good girl too and I ruined her day over some dumb shit and now I just feel like I would not be a good partner for any girl and fuck it hardly a good friend. I really wish I can die right now. When I think about it this was some creepy ass shit I did.
>>26747492>guy is somewhat pushy about getting a kiss>OMG ITS SCARY TO IMAGINE HOW SHE FELT. HOW TRAUMATIZING.
>>26745430We did 2 months in the same class. I was somewhat interested in her from the start. Then one day as I was going out of class and our eyes met. I don't think she felt the same as me but I always cherish that moment. Unfortunately I was a coward and didn't ask her out. Fast forward 7 years and I'm texting her on insta with a fake account. My life has been in shambles for a long time now. I had so many failures and I have such ambitions it sometimes feel impossible. But the mere thought of not making it makes me immensely depressed. I cope however I can saying that one day I would better myself enough to be a suitable date for her. I know it's pathetic but I had such hopes for my life, making it, join the elite(she comes from a very rich family). Saying fuck you to my initial circumstances but I'm here alone living with my parents, crying and posting on an incel forum. The only reason I don't end it is because I still have that juvenile hope of turning things around. I keep telling to myself "I have to make it. I have to make it. I WILL MAKE IT!." But everyday the pain grows a little bit larger. Thanks for reading my blog. I will continue trying, but I had to vent for a moment. Fuck this shit man. I know I deserve better than this.
I had the weirdest, yet most straightforward and shitty dream last night.>in some house similar but different to the one I'm in now>a ton of random people are just about>walking around and having interactions I can't really remember with them>some more shit happens>the interactions start getting worse>the house starts becoming run and dirty/mouldy>grows over the windows and it gets darker inside>light's still shining through in some spots but can't see shit>walk into a room and there's a bunch of toys on the floor>wake upIt was just so fucking exhausting to wake up from that. I think that dream had the single most emotion I've ever experienced in a dream. I want to go into detail about it all but I'm too paranoid to even do that. These mixed feelings of "why should I even bother" and "I already know what's going to happen, I'm fucked and wont change because I don't want to."
is it that you love him? That would make a lot of sense. I wouldn’t have anything against those honest feelings either
>>26747534I mean she’ll get over it but it does give off rapey vibes.
I'm just bored out of my mind, completely. There's just nothing to do and nothing to amuse me.
i do he knows who he is
>>26747465You need to manage and integrate the aspect of your personality that acts out. Get internal family systems therapy.
>>26747565Someone unfortunately departed
as much as this has been great for you, i want things you're not willing to giveexpect less of me in your future
>>26747570You do what?
>>26747590What things did you want?
>>26747590You have nothing to offer asshole, never did. Expect silence from me.
>>26747582They love a dead guy?
>>26747559>>26747565>>26747566>>26747569>>26747570>>26747581>>26747582>>26747590>>26747598>>26747604>>26747635>poster count did not go upIt's time to take your medication
Why can't you see through this idea you have that you're always right and just realize I say things not to offend you, but because I actually want you to love me?Why so you threaten to end this when things get hectic? I thought we're supposed to do this together.Is it really that hard for two people to understand and love one another?
>>26747647I only wrote one those, loser busybody with no life. .
>>26747661>I actually want you to love meYou don't love me so why would you deserve my love?
>>26747641It’s possible. I’m just far too curious for my own good in a situation where I’ll probably never get to know.
>>26747581I will look into that I think I have that problem, retarded questions but can psychedelic? I am considering taking shrooms.
>>26747678Yeah, that's kinda what she says.Why is it so hard to believe though?
>>26747720Because you post here. >>26747687I don't love a dead guy.
https://youtu.be/bP1yUs737eQwe keep on climbing, but we never find the top. it's all downhill from here.
i dont know how or why you put up with me but it means everything to me that you do
>>26747754It's only up for me when I sever the tie. I know it's coming soon. You can crash if you want but you're not taking me with you.
duh i still love you (secretly)
why am i still going when i know it was over a long time ago?
>>26747733Só do you, what is this?
i wanna be forgottenhttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-DAeR-OyabY
I wish you wanted me with the same energy and intensity that I want you. Or that you would at least show it more. Now I know how my ex felt.You have had a lot on your plate though, I can only imagine a day in your life, so I understand. But please reach out because I know you are stressed and overwhelmed and tired and I want to be here for you and help you. Will you please let your walls down a little for me?
>>26747785Go ahead but it's no longer satisfactory for me.
>>26747807awe okay i won't try then
i've had a few brief moments where i thought i wouldn't die alone, only to crash down further when it didn't work out. why do i keep trying?
things are getting better when by all accounts they should be getting worseIts crazy how good life becomes when you truly stop giving af
I'M FUCKING BORED AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH BORED BORED BORED AAHHHHHHHHHHH https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gmRSGYmCl58&ab_channel=iamthehof
>>26747814You never did so idgaf. You never did.
>>26747838lel ok then, be stubborn my person never tried in a way that would make me understand them and how they feel for me in a direct manner, so i hope they can figure that out soon
>>26747897is this a question or an offering? lmao
>>26747904A question about how you would respond to an offer. I think it would be a good time.
i can't escape my mind. i'm always in a day dream. i haven't had a moment of clarity in decades.
i just want a tng holodeck. where i can create a world i could live happily in, and create a woman or women who love me and could push me to be better. i can't deal with reality anymore.
I'm tired of being tired. I want to be capable of enjoying life again.
Does anyone read these hoping for a response?
i will die on mars. ive seen it.
>>26747929i do sometimes. its just reaching out into the aether, though.
>>26747941I just wish for her to see it and respond that I'm worrying over nothing, she still cares.
>>26747912it would be a good time but they've never made it to my bedroom yet so we'll see
If you love me I wish you’d break through any barrier and let me feel it. I haven’t ever had that from someone. I’m on the brink of giving up desire for it at all. The hardest part is the trust that the feelings are real, that my walls can be lowered and that I can feel as though I’m allowed to want you the way a lover does. I don’t know what on earth that’s like
any guitar players here that i can bounce a custom amp idea off of?
>>26747963Do you really think it would be all that if they did? Don't set yourself up for more disappointment.
Did you ever visit the ocean?
>>26747971sex with a lover is better than any other sex. i believe i know what i want, anon.
>>26747979Then go get it. Find your lover.
>>26747974No my transportation ended up with more trouble than I thought. I’m not in a place to be spending a lot for a trip too. Only in my dreams
It changed how I feel about you and us in general.I can't see it. I can't see a happy life with you. Maybe someone else would appreciate what you offer but I can't seem to accept it. It feels like bare minimum and I've had better, it raised the bar. It's not fair but it's not fair for me either. I don't expect much but you could put in some effort instead of a quick purchase from an asian grocer. Aren't you embarrassed?Anyway that's the most recent thing along with the fact you don't know what an open and honest relationship looks like. Hide and go seek was never my game. All these things seem to outweigh how I feel about you and how big I made you in my head. I tend to do that. Well.. until I get over the pain and forget. Then we come around again and I remember.It's not a wonder why I'm sick all the time. The difference is you came into my life and I'm not happy with you. Of course I won't tell you. I'll just stick around to avoid the responsibility of breaking your heart until something/one else works for you and I'll swiftly move on while you live with the what ifs. I'm a coward like that.
Some questions to the older anons. Did you also feel lost at 20? I'm in uni, I'm on a research and on a scholarship program but I just feel so lost. I'm failing all my classes because I simply don't study, it's not even because I don't have time, but because I really don't want to. Research is going well but it's really simple, and I barely do anything at the scholarship program. I suppose all of those things are really important to my future, but I keep wasting all my time instead in the internet, wondering and worrying about things which don't really affect my life as much like the existence of God, transgenderism, internet privacy, what e-mail provider to use, etc. Meanwhile, I don't even do the things I used to like, like watching anime, playing video games and reading. Also, I barely do anything to others, I'm completely self-indulgent, probably a narcissist who can't cope with the reality of being mediocre. I feel like I'm a no-good waste of space. Is this normal? I feel like this may be a late teenagehood, I never really "lived" as a teenager, I only studied and did my hobbies and never interacted with anyone else. Did you have the same experience? How did you manage to get out of it? How did you focus on the important things - studying hard, spending free time doing things you like, and loving your neighbor more than yourself?
>>26747974Yes, many times.
>>26747915I understand this. I'm the same way.>>26747979It is.
You're going to have to prove it to me, that's the only way.
What sort of man does this? :(
Don't be a dummy, cum on her tummy.
>Tfw you've been vibing with a chick, but you found out she hates Kevin Samuels
GOD DAMNIT WHY THE FUCK AM I SUCH A BITCH I NEED TO FUCKING STICK UP FOR MYSELF SOMETIMES. I AM SICK OF BEING A BITCH AND WORRYING ABOUTPEOPLE LASHING OUT AT MEits how i was raised, i was always raised with a fucker who kept yelling at me so i became this meek ass bastard... sick of it.
>>26748130Anything you wish
I cannot think. But behind that veil is the urge to angrily end my life, in spite of my predicaments with my body. I feel like a filthy animal, cast down from the heaven, pushed down so, and there's nothing going to change it. I've been lied to, and deception hasn't lived up to it's end of the bargain, lower than low, the only fruit available is annihilation. Oblivion in the void to where my conscious reflection is only that lack of insight, back in spite. Because you don't believe in me. I am alienated and love is ruined. Love is corrupt! Everything is meaningless in this neglect. Decrepit and abysmal, it is doomed. Love is False. Love makes me cringe. I am desperate for love, true love. I'm gonna die. ALL IS A WASTE. THERE IS NO RIGHT.THE ONLY THING THAT MATTERS IS DEATH AND DESTRUCTION: ABSOLUTE POWER; THE DEATH MEME.Thorns on the path? All the time, everywhere? From birth to death?Every day
I don't think I'll ever be able to get over missing on on social experiences in my 20s. I wish I hadn't shut myself away.
>>26748361Were you the last one to or me? There’s someone I’m thinking of but I feel like a pain in their side. If that feeling wasn’t there at all I’d probably have tried every day to talk to them
Aqui está sua jaguatirica quotidiana.
>>26748450Why do you keep posting this?
I can't waste anymore time, I'm sorry. You didn't make your move or keep your promises, bye. :(
I hate my driving anxiety so fucking much. I've had my license for 6 years already and I still feel like a high schooler with his learner's permit. Anything that isn't a back country road causes me to sweat. I get freaked out so easily about driving and it just makes me feel like a pussy. I've always lived my life prepared for the worst case scenario, and in driving, that's getting fucking killed by either you or someone else's fault. I think 60% at least of why I'm a shut-in is because I avoid driving as much as I can. I want to go out to places and meet new people. Maybe even find a girlfriend. But that's hard, who would go out with a guy who finds it difficult just to go to the nearest Wal-Mart? Or even use a drive-thru?I want to change so badly, and I've been doing a bit of it by driving just a smidge more. My parents aren't helping though. My dad just seems to enable me and my mom just chastises me and then drops it. I appreciate my mom and everything she's done, but goddamn it, I just want to say it this once, that clueless bitch is good chunk of why I get anxious on the road. Back when I was first learning, she'd overreact and scream at everything. She also gave me such a lashing when I failed my first driving test I broke down and cried. Then she always gets on my case about not driving. Damn her for that.I've had jobs, even right now a decently-paying, stay-at-home job for the past year, I don't do any drugs or alcohol, I've even lost 40 lbs since December and still losing more, but holy shit. Even with all of that, I still feel like the biggest fucking loser on Earth because I fall apart when I get behind the wheel.At least I've never been in an accident. So that's good I guess.
I find most people disrespectful.
I fucked up
I’m sorry but I’ve been made to feel unwanted. It’s my least favorite place to be.
Today is my birthday. You ruined it. Just like you’ve made a point to ruin every holiday or special occasion. You gaslit me all day and couldn’t even say two simple fucking words. Happy Birthday. Enjoy the rest of your day Bitch.
PLEASE LEARN HOW TO DO YOUR JOB BEFORE WE FIX YOUR SHIT
I dont like my new puppy. I miss my old dog. He died too young and was perfect. Im being mean to the new puppy and not training her well enough, but looking at her just makes me think of my old dog. I miss him
>>26747974No. I never lied to you once. I wish I went though, even though it was stupid.
>>26745430>Be me>Sitting on my couch, see text message saying video conference call will start at this time with Jeff my therapist. >Wait a little while and notice the text message name changed from Jeff to Clifford.>Stay calm and I have a video meeting with a very rude therapist.> My mom doesn't believe me what happened. I do take meds but I believe I was hacked or something.
>>26746988>this guy makes this post which sounds like it could have been me today if I’d been feeling particularly borderline>relevant person changes her setting on whatsapp to no longer show last online timewhat does it mean bros
If you feel so inclined anons, tell me about the one that got away/broke your heart.
>>26748953Nah. I've stopped dwelling on that. It wasn't meant to be, I have a rough understanding of the reasons, and I have let go of regret. I found someone that fits me pretty well and I'm excited to see where we end up. Life's good.
>>26746789why'd you break up
I miss him. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o0u4M6vppCI
I never realized before that all 4chan posters are homosexuals. You can laugh at me now, how could I not know!
>>26749072Because there are no girls on the internet
I have my first major crush on a woman, I get butterflies every time I think of her. This is no ordinary crush.
>>26749046I hope one day you can look back at this as a positive thing, even though it is so retarded and shitty and awful.I feel retarded and shitty and guilty and awful and everything, but I'm still glad I met you.
I just realized something, I don't have to worry about anything at all.
>>26749093k but just so you know, it's not gonna happen.
Hey you. Still thinking about you. It’s crazy to think is been a bit more than a year now since things went crazy. I had so many feelings I wanted to convey to you but it became so difficult that I wasn’t able to tell you most of them. I guess I just wanted to let you know that I loved you, and I still do, but also to tell you that I’m im sorry for making you so sad because of my behaviors and choices. I still have some hope that it will be different should we meet again.
>>26745430im a fucking loser neetI dont wanna live but i dont wanna dieI dont wanna leech of my parents but i cant handle a typical 9-5I have a crippling fear of driving despite living in the suburbsI still freak out when im alone in public places
I want some sex, but people keep getting married. Stop marrying up all the women, you faggots.
>>26749433collect your testicles and date younger women
I can't even tell what I need anymore /adv/. I just know I'm ahedonic, creatively frustrated, and afraid my gifts have rotted
You owe me money for gangstalking me. You owe me money for wasting 30 years of my life with your bullshit, that 90% of the time makes no sense. You fucking owe me money for harassing, stalking, and sending people to hit me for no reason.You faulty judgement cost me good times while I was young and you forced shitty people to be around me, like Kate or Chrissy. There was no reason for this bullshit. They always, eventually, admitted that they were told they could treat me bad because the freaks gang stalking me told them they were "filming a movie," or "it was justified." Schaller was just as bad.You niggers owe me money.
>>26749543You owe me money because its more than obvious you back and protect shitty people, who know what they're doing.Oh and their shit terrible acting always sucks.
>>26745430It just seems that something could be done to relieve the grain surplus caused by the war, so there should at least not be drastic shortfalls in places reliant on the supply.
Attention:I'm going to use this thread as my accountabilibuddy as my life is in shambles and my friends are busy. I need to complete the project and it's barely begun. Thus begins my journey of apparent schozoposting.
just wanna blink myself out of existence
i don't belong in this world
We took a few months' break due to our differences. In that time I realized I no longer romantically love her. I still care about her very much and don't want to hurt her. Still, I realize we should just divorce and move on.Problem is, I know she loves me very much and her feelings wilp not have gone after just a few months. I keep having nightmares of having to tell her wecmust break up for good.This is torture.
>>26749526Therapy. You need therapy.Nothing good you've had is gone, you just need help re-discovering it.
>>26749747Idk anon, you seem to compliment the scenery just fine
My dad just left for a 2 week trip and I’m completely alone at the house now. I thought it would be cool but I actually have a palpable feeling of loneliness and dread.
fucking gross. time to wash your polyester shein leggings, tired of the squat rack smelling like a long john silver's thanks hon
I just have to accept my life is horrible right now, and that browsing /adv/ at night is a way to stop the pain sometimes. I'm just left to sit in a mess of my own fuck ups.
Nobody has ever made any effort to move on me because looks wise, I'm not really worth pursuing. If I made the effort again I wouldn't know if I was worth it or if it's because you're a dude and I'm the closest thing in reach. So. Nah.
>>26749849That's okay. Acceptance of your mistakes and understanding that sometimes you just need to wait until the pain goes away and you regain your strength are the first steps to making everything better.
I really wish I could remember her face
gf wants to go to America but doesnt know l have a criminal record lmao
>>26749862I mean what do you do though in the face of a huge mistake? How do you even forgive yourself or be stoic.
>>26749868I guess try to remember that we’re limited. Even the most able people out there make a ton of mistakes, humans shouldn’t be the ones operating vehicles for one thing lolBut with interpersonal mistakes especially it can be hard to make peace with. I think a good approach generally is to take responsibility for mistakes or transgressions and then do your best to learn from it. You’ll have to accept that there’s no guarantee that you can be forgiven and to take the other person’s feelings about it very seriously. It also helps to remember that we have an immense amount of options in front of us each moment, each day, etc. Regretting past choices can be made less painful if you were trying hard and attempted things you wanted to
My anger is coming down and my hatred is fading. That is not acceptable. So I'll think of memories that extremely piss me the fuck off.Anger is a good thing. There is at least one perfectly logical reason to explain it.
>>26749885It was more a mistake made in a relationship - I can't make peace with myself for it going haywire.I've learned a lesson the hard way, but it's not ideal knowing there will always be that nagging regret and shame at the back of my mind.
>>26749868Its not a quick process. You take your time. You drown the guilt out with random stuff first, so that ypu don't wallow in it while its at its strongest. Important part here is to not feel guilty about wasting time - you are not wasting time, you are protecting your psyche. Don't treat the pain as something you deserve (even if you think you do) - instead treat it as a pain from, dunno, a tooth removal. Just something you need to wait to end, and its okay to take painkillers no matter which form they take. The feeling you must make yourself feel is not "Why me?", not "Oh my god, how much it hurts", and god forbid not "Well, I deserve it". The feeling you must make yourself feel is "Come oooon, when will it end already." Then, after the guilt is not that sharp anymore and you've regained some of your strength, you try to move on. Maybe fix some mistakes. Maybe start over.After you've done some progress on that part, you'll realise that nothing is hopeless, past is in the past, and hopefully you'll be able to forgive yourself.Best of luck, mate.
>>26749887Its okay, Vader.You'll get Kenobi next time.
>>26749896I already got what I wanted, and going at it again would be like bombing the Red Cross. I'll let it be for the time being.
>>26749895Thank you for this.
I've been fantasizing about going into the wood to kill myself by European yew poisoning, splattering my head under a train, hanging myself, concussing myself with a hammer and passing in a ditch somewhere far away. Then I ate a piece of meat with potatoes and drank a cup of tea and now I'm chilling. Hungry man, angry man, am I right boys?
One month since the breakup, making progress but I'm still somewhat in denial - or is it bargaining? - and I want her back.I don't know what happened and I think she just lost her shit real bad but I neither want to find her excuses or worry about her. She left me, she ran away, and half of the reasons why sounded like petty bullshit she would need to work on.It's fucking hard and we have so much things to sort out - apartment and all - that it'll take time to move on. I might also still need her help given that we're living abroad and I don't master the langage well.Fucking hell.
I'd rather believe in the delusion that I'm being cared for in some strange way than accept that I'm being rightfully hurt, as to not be abandoned by what feels, only feels, like the last source of (how about this word) "blood" I have left. That's a problem.>>26749965Sometimes, it just be like that. Can't feel the relief of eating when your dead btw. No relief in death, just death. Just nothing.
>>26750002I say it to manipulate you! "Ah, he's come to a conclusion!" you might think, so I think, and then the next day it's again more or less the same ol'. The correct thing to do, the right thing to do, is leave everyone alone, and I simply won't do the right thing, selfishly, absurdly, immaturely.If there's one thing I'm very envious of right now, it's the ability to interact with anyone with out a whole lot of pretense. Or perhaps I'm envious of friendships free from such heavy regrets.
Anyone got a short filter list that filters out most suicide posts? These threads could be alright then.
>>26749906...But then again, I would bomb the Red Cross with pleasure, if I were ordered to.I don't even know what my target is up to. I just want to hurt it. It's a mix of love turned into hatred and the innate principle of hurting that kind of shit people, if they hurt me. She did.My hatred is back, I'm feeling it, it feels great. I have a reason to fight, I have one, and only one enemy to make to make seethe.So I'll try to think the way she does and try to understand what would make her seethe. It does work, but it also has the collateral effect of changing how I write and I would not be surprised if I do come across like she does.
>>26750037Maybe like rope, kys, kill, and exit bag would get some common ones out of the way but you might have to filter a lot of related words to get them all out of view.
I don't like people that suffer from Borderline Personality Disorder. I find they make the lives of everyone around them a living hell. Avoiding them is a good idea. But if they hurt me, hurting them back is pure pleasure.
>>26750107It could be BPD that makes me immediately identify with BPD, which is a really funny thought. Either way, reading this, I felt attacked. But I also just think that sort of thinking is sad. I'm sorry but also fuck off with that.
I wish I had the strength to be able to go through with killing myself. I don't even know why I can't. It's like when I hold the knife to my wrist I lose all of the pain that made me want to die in the first place.
>>26750196That's a good thing, right? It means you don't want to die.
>>26750148I wish hurting people with BPD was a sport. When I get to know them, I find one thing in common with all of them: they got bullied.Kids are cruel,as that Sundowner from Metal Gear Rising says, but they're also smart, and sometimes kids bully people for a good reason.Fuck me I feel the blood boiling in my veins and my head hurting. This, this is the kind of hatred I needed. Antidepressants are for faggots. The real cure for depression is pure anger. The kind of anger that makes one deeply seethe.
>>26750207Congrats, you're fucked. You need just the same amount of help.
>>26750215Not really, I try to be my own shrink and it works. It never was trial and error, for that kind of thing, unlike I normally do, I do use my brain.Just think about it. If you're depressed and want to feel better, would you listen to depressing shit, or to whatever kind of metal or techno you happen to like?If you are stuck up on a rejection, or a failed relationship, or getting out of an abusive e-relationshit where you're only subjected to abuse, would you prefer being a pussy and crying about it, or knowing someone new? Maybe fucking a different girl every weekend, or even night for a while, if you have the required skills?Don't post the answers here. I don't want to judge you. I want to make you think.
>>26750249I'd like to focus more on your hatred than whatever you're talking about. Blood boiling? Good? Want to seethe forever and feel above others? Hurt for fun, perhaps to try and feel some sense of satisfaction with yourself? Don't post the answers here.
Kids aren't smart, they're quite the opposite. Their underdeveloped brains don't know a whole lot of shit. Kids, however, can be open. They can speak their minds pretty freely. We sometimes view that as intelligence or wisdom.
>>26750288I think another mental misunderstanding with this is the idea that there is a natural order to human life which is absurd given where we're having this discussion. We have natural tendencies, that's all. Tendencies that we can ascend from but also thrive in.
>>26750268I don't feel above others. It's a coping mechanism and a good one. In case you haven't noticed I haven't done any proper bullying yet. I don't think you understand how I'm thinking.And kids do listen to their instincts. They haven't been conditioned yet and tend to have a sense of tribalism, so they bully who is not good for the tribe. Like havers of Borderline Personality Disorder.
>>26750326I mean we both will never understand how we're truly thinking, but I'm reflecting what I see. If your coping mechanism is to hurt back then you have a maladapted way of coping. As for point two, see above.
>>26750268Also, I think I know who you are lol. If you knew me in real life you'd probably tell me to sleep more and to do more with my free time.
>>26750207>Kids are cruel,as that Sundowner from Metal Gear Rising says, but they're also smart, and sometimes kids bully people for a good reason.The ability to spot weakness isn't intelligence. Hurting others for pleasure isn't virtue.>The real cure for depression is pure anger.Nope. Anger is just top shelf cope. Don't get me wrong, I don't mean the meme. Coping with something that you can't change is a *good* thing.But burying your depression in rage is no cure. I cured mine by address the core issue.
>>26750335>If your coping mechanism is to hurt back then you have a maladapted way of coping.And if you think hatred necessarily implies to hurt, you're wrong. It's not like I said "if I keep attacking it would be like bombing the Red Cross", and I clearly remember having posted that, silly glownigger.
>>26750337Nope! I have this problem too, but nope no idea who you might be. If you knew me, you'd know that I don't care how much you sleep or what you do with your free time, I'd have no place to judge.
>>26750326>so they bully who is not good for the tribeNo. They bully who they want to, which is often anyone different. Stop romanticizing idiotic children.
>26750338>26750345I don't want to talk to, let alone argue with you. If you're who I'm thinking of, someone I know only online, you annoy the shit out of me.>>26750343Yeah it's definitely you. How are you? I'm doing great compared to how I felt a month ago, myself.
>>26750354I mean I'm glad you're feeling good but I still have no idea who you are. Unless I write recognizably in this thread??? That's the only thing I can think of.
>>26750358Your writing style reminds me of somebody I used to know and I should have valued more. You can go back into stealth mode, I'll leave you in peace.
Cassandra to set this straight:-you chose to cut me off and then do whatever fuck all you were doing up until now-you bizarrely expect me to reach out to you still when you have never even tried to make it right???-you have been seeing multiple people this past year, you’re a whore. That’s not an insult - it’s the truth. I wouldn’t have seen you with those people. I literally don’t believe otherwise because you don’t communicate and are a liar. You treat people around you like shit.-You say you love me - you’ve done absolutely nothing to show for it except for by being a total fucking asshole. Yes I hate you and I always will, but I won’t be angry about it anymore. I’ll just become indifferent to you like your father is. Get the fuck out of my neighborhood. I rather kill myself than have anything to do with you because I can’t even stomach the sight of you. How do you not understand how much a horrible person you’ve been at all???? Unconditional love my fucking ass, you’re not a human being.
>>26750365NTA, are your initials JC?
>>26750354>I don't want to talk to, let alone argue with you.Fair enough. You're allowed to be wrong about child bullies being brilliant and just defenders of society.The rest was just needling you over cope versus cure.>If you're who I'm thinking of, someone I know only onlineI would find that deeply shocking. Although you seem fairly recognizable, we haven't interacted much. >you annoy the shit out of me.The idea that anyone else, especially you, feels this strongly about me on /adv/ is nothing short of shocking. I'm convinced you're thinking of someone else.
>>26750380Denton? No, I wish.>>26750385Okay. I'm getting paranoid, which is bad.
>>26750443I get paranoid here, too. Taking a walk when that happens helps me a lot.
>>26745430fuck manfuckthe cashier i was eyeing out for a year nowi saw her with her big goblin for a bf that fucking suckswtf she finds so good about this ugly prick anywaysmuh tallness is all that the dude has got going for himhes a fat slobwtffuck this shit manIm tired of womenand this lifeas a kid i thought life would be easier growing upbeen bullied and excluded all my lifewhen will my time come to shine?fuck IM so brokenAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAI'm 26, I start to think it wont ever come fuck im so sad todayaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
>>26750468A cashier? Have you tried tinder or something?
>>26750379And as much as I hate you and hold anger, you dont need to feel “comfortable” to be honest with another person. (Especially when you are the one causing it?). And you seriously wonder why you have insomnia? There’s a human in you, but it’s definitely not in your conscience. The things you’ve continued to do, you haven’t changed in the slightest.
This has happened to me more than once. I stop talking to someone, then they go to a board where they know I post and accuse random people of being me and mentioning my username. Why are people like this? THIS is exactly why I have no fucking friends. I can't stand this. I would literally beat the shit out of the woman doing this if I knew where she lived. I'm a neet and hanging out of that board is one of my few pleasures and now I have to feel uncomfortable because some cunt is namedropping me for no reason?! On some post about some girl's boyfriend taking pills? My boyfriend doesn't take fucking pills so what the fuck was that for? Again I hope she commits suicide, gets hit by a car, and beaten all on the same day for trying to NAMEDROP ME on some random girl's vent post
>>26750450I think I'll just go to sleep. I work nights and I should already be in bed anyway. If I could I'd buy you a pint to make up for being rude.
>>26750489I guess, here's my thinking: Tinder is this place where everyone has the same goal of finding something, everyone is agreeing to the idea that they want something more out of the interactions they're going to have. The cash register is not that, yeah? >>26750492You're fine. Sleep well.
>>26750468You're 26. That's a decade too old to "eye a cashier" for a year. A year ago you could have asked her out, been told "No, I'm dating a hobgoblin.", and moved on. Instead you invested a year of hopefully minimal thought into her and now you're worse than you'd have been a year ago.Go out. Try. Fail. Learn. Try again. Fail better. There is no tutorial. There is no risk-free version of life. Go make mistakes.
>>26750443>I'm getting paranoidWell, do what you need to do to stay rational. I assure you that I'm harmless and nobody.
Does anyone else go about their day having to conduct themselves normally knowing they made the most ridiculous and outrageous mistake ever. I'm a big fan of trying and failing but how do you not feel great humiliation sometimes.
Don’t you understand that I didn’t care? I wanted you to communicate and be honest to me. That’s the only single thing I ever wanted from you and you couldn’t. I don’t want you stalking me anymore, please stop going into my stuff. If there’s any privacy I can have it’s in the work I do so that I can heal, please leave me alone.
>>26750536And it’s not about him anymore and you fucking know it, you also fucked him up, it’s about what you’re doing *right now*.
>>26750528I think, I don't know, accepting you did it, and now accepting it's in the past. Being the best human you can be is good repentance. I think. I don't know.
>>26750542>you also fucked him upGood.>it’s about what you’re doing *right now*.Playing Ace Combat Zero, while I finish the only beer I had in a while, before I go to sleep?
>>26750568Or so to say, what made you focus so heavily on a cashier at some random store when you don't know anything about their life except for the idle chattering that they have to put up with as part of their work? Did they make themselves seem available? And was that signal very clear? Do you know them more past their life at the cash register?
Lol I have a cashier I like too but I wouldn't even dream about asking her number. I don't even know her name, and I don't think asking the number of someone I don't know is a good idea.
>>26750592I mean, how would you react if someone you don't have talked to save for the occasional small talk and what I need to say like "can I have two bags please"or whatever. It's not like a barman or barmaid, with people like that I have many good reasons to talk to. To a cashier, not really.
Please reassure me despite all which has happened that it's going to be okay
>>26750617You're going to be alive and it's going to be okay.
>>26750623How can I just calm down and let the past go
>>26750629Breathe deeply, take a walk, do something you like, perceive beautiful things, sit with the pain and offer it a cup of something.
>>26750634Boy it's tough, but thanks.
>>26750583you sound satiric
>>26750651Can you elaborate? A satire of what?
>>26750592She probably doesn't like you, is just doing her job and being nice. Don't be weird dude.
I just realized I feel like I have been talking here with someone I know in real life if even barely so, a bartender. I think I might get along with her great, she made a good first impression on me.
>>26750798Here? Probably not. Please be safe. t. person who does similar shit
>>26745430Is it illegal to convert all my assets into gold and bury them if I’m getting divorced? I don’t want my wife to get half my money. Can I do a Gold D Rodger and say “If you want my treasure you can have it but you have to find it first”?
>>26750803I cannot exclude it. But even if that were the case, I'd rather talk to her in real life and when she's not busy. It's funny, have interest in her because of her charisma more than anything else. Normally guys become interested in girls because of their looks, before anything else.And I can safely say the fact I like her because of something that is part of personality is a very good thing. I have the feeling if anything ever happens we will get along almost perfectly.
How much trouble have I caused? Like a fucking shit load or?
>>26750822>Is it illegal to convert all my assets into gold and bury them if I’m getting divorced?It'd be far more practical to do it using crypto. The challenge will be doing it without leaving a paper trail. If you leave a paper trail and refuse to cough it up, they'll find you in contempt of court and make you sit in jail forever unless you give up.
Who are you again?
>>26750967Wish I knew lol D:
>have 5 beers last night at a work thing>stop drinking at 9:30>Go to bed at 1 am>Still feel hungoverI’ve decided I hate alcohol. What a shit tier drug, I’m just going to stick to weed from now on
i hate them all. i have sometrauma. because they're not like methey have gained credit in incredulity,falsehood.everything i hear is spew.i only see myselfas valid.it just means i'vebeen pushed.i so badly want to accuse.i've beenmisused and abused;my trust dysconstellated.i want to push that knife:from me to you.everything's been distorted.and made a disgustingfad.
>>26750992Imagine having hangovers at all.t. still haven't finished the beer I was having earlier. Fuck Hoffnung.
>>26751024Why don't you ever admit responsibility for your mistakes, ever? The more you write shit like that, the angrier I get and the more justified my anger is.
>>26751030There is no free will. That will come out later. The more you know. It's child abuse, you retard.
>>26751038What are you on about? The only kids I ever talk to are my cousins and I haven't seen them for more than half a decade.
>>26751046You think you know me?You don't.
>>26751063>You think you know me?
>>26751086I appreciate it
i never understood the "you are not alone" thing. why would i feel better that others feel as bad as i do? i don't want anyone else to feel like i do.
>woman has notifications silencedThe last woman I saw who had that ghosted me so safe to assume it’s over with this one. Oh well.
The more you threat me like shit, the more I'll treat you like shit, N. I think it's very fair m8.
Why are the heroes villains and the villains heroes?ARGHWARFARGLBLARH
>>26751207because all the people writing this stuff a post-modern-neo-marxist-pedophiles.
>>26751211Query:Is pedophilia isomorphic to post-modern-neo-marxism?
>>26751220well, the original french post-modernists were originally marxists, and almost all were pedophiles, so yes.
Is community college bullshit or should I quit my job and go?
never had a gf. friend was in kinda the same boat, although he got one recently. he reminds me of myself in many ways, and thus i got a little sad when he started dating his gf (because i dont have even though were very alike). we always joked about nogf memes but now that he has one, im kinda down since im alone. im happy for him, but i feel sad at the same time. i understand why im upset and know its stupod but logic doesnt just beat emotions that easily. also before anyone tells me to 'just get a girlfriend', ive tried my entire life without success. it really is entirely out of my hands.
>>26745555Update: it's not serious to the point of peeling. But I still look like the Polish flag.
>>26751238unless you're gonna be a doctor, lawyer, scientist, or teacher, college in general is bullshit.
>>26750822More or less, yes. They can track your finances and see all your money "disappearing" suddenly. Then possibly hit you with an evasion charge. But it'd definitely suck up more time and money.It's better to leave a paper trail of you investing and losing. Classic way is to create a dummy eBay account (not on your computer) and buy absurdly overpriced items from it. The more believable route is forged rare collectables. Sign a baseball Babe Ruth. One woman actually got scammed by doll furniture, thinking it was fill size antiques. Or you could just keep withdrawing cash from ATMs at strip clubs The point is for there to be clear path where the money went. *Then* use that money to buy gold and bury it or whatever.
I hardly remember my dreams, but it feels like I spend all of dream land in a reality with my dad in it still. Today I woke up from a dream he was in, and it didn’t make total sense, but I was still talking to him and enjoying his company like usual. I hate waking up. I’d be so dysfunctional if I didn’t have my partner. Not even a support thing, I just want to wash my face before he takes over the br to get ready for work, so that forces me to start my day. I can’t take naps anymore because I feel so miserable when I wake up, going from happy dreamland to the depressing reality that my dad isn’t in this timeline anymore. I don’t spend my whole day crying anymore but I’m still miserable at my core
>>26750592>I don't think asking the number of someone I don't know is a good idea.It can be, be it's got a high chance of failure. It's basically "Hey, I've seen you here a lot and think you're very pretty but I don't know anything about you. Would you like to get a cup of coffee sometime?"If she says no, you smile, say "thanks anyway" or something, immediately fuck off, and the next time you see her you pretend nothing happened.
>Every nation that ever death-penaltied should die.Thoughts?
>>26751303I'm not doing it lol. I already said I think it's a bad idea. If anything I could talk to her like I talk with everyone else too, but to be honest I never really talked with cashiers. I don't know why.
I hate lesbians! They are rotten, scornful cunts. Fuck em'!
>>26749221You don't know that. I haven't seen her with a woman before but she is flirting with me.
>>26751482>They are rotten, scornful cuntsThat's you because you can't get laid.
I still live with my parents and I am 33 years old. I have a shitty wage job. I think in two months I am going to kill myself
>>26751207Because "good and evil" is a horribly flawed but deeply ingrained way of thinking and most people, most situations, most things in general are much more nuanced than that.
>>26751244You're okay and I believe in you, you got it man don't write yourself off. Here you are in this place on this site of all places understanding your loneliness and understanding your envy, and you think it's entirely out of your hands? I think that's cool shit.
im not sure if this woman likes me or if she just likes the fact that im black.
>>26751533How do you think your life ended up that way? No positive reinforcement? Not having confidence, love, or believing in you from others? You were just told to be like this even though you don’t know how or what it’s like?
>>26751422Every nation had the death penalty at some point. Abolition is a relatively recent thing>B-b-but what about X country that was established in 1980 and never had it?There are very few instances where colonials completely established and ran a country. Countries are made up of the same retards that have been living there for the last 10,000 years. They had capital punishment in their previous state
>>26751665I thought everyone hated blacks, that's the story, right?
>>26751200God, you're all such losers here. Seriously, you are. What's the point of you 4chan losers? You can't even deal with basic life.
>>26751779What's the point of posting here, then? You know where you are. If you are so above then why bother? If you'd like people to not be "losers" (no one's winning in this shit) then maybe you could be a little more constructive? Or is that the point?
i hope we can find a happy medium and go back to how we were. not all the way. i miss certain parts a lot. can you trust me? can you open up to me?
>>26751161It has a few benefits. It can be helpful to realize that the problems you face are at least somewhat typical because it removes the potential for doom and gloom based around thinking something is only able to happen to you or like your suffering is the first and only instance out there which is sometimes true but very rarely. It also provides potential for mutual healing to hear about how others endured similar hardship and if they had techniques that assisted in managing pain. We’re all fighting battles hopefully part of not being alone in it is good for showing that and letting us treat one another better
>get fired from good internship cause I was too lazy>friend said wtf, I shouldn't be hired>I said they don't have a high retention rateFeels bad man...
>>26752157Shouldn't be fired, not hired.
This is a weird gioyc but apparently just asking this is enough to get me yelled atI don't understand how anyone can be several hundred thousand dollars in student loan debtAnd I don't mean after medical/law school, or a PhD, I don't mean after someone kinda screwed themselves over and the interest just kept on adding upI mean after 4 years of school, they owe 250,000Like I stayed in state, went to a community college to get as many credits as I could, and got scholarshipsAnd after 5 years I spent maybe 35k on tuition overall, not even taking into account scholarships or grants, which covered probably 2/3ds of itAnd even then Ive been hired for a job that earns 90k a yearYet I've talked to people who are my age and already owe 150k, 180k, and 200k in just student loans and their degree is in a field that pays 50k a year on average
>>26750365Awww person is hu g up on their ex...hahaha
She remembered <3
god I'm so jealous of you. I know I set myself up for failure but the fact you got my dream job first try while bitching, moaning and crying to me about not wanting a job pisses me off like you dont believe. It's so hard to be happy for you. I've been ghosted, denied and outright ignored entirely for years and you got in on your first job application.
Fuck you Australia and fuck you you bogan whore. You're sick in the head!
>>26752134Why don't you ask the person?
>>26752315essentially just nerves. i dont want to mess it up again
>>26749285Still in love with B, huh?
Last night the only way I could get to sleep was imagining someone there beside me cuddled up. I woke up this morning depressed as hell because I've never done something like that. For some reason, I fell asleep easier, but the reality is depressing. I never got to go out a lot, I've been socially isolated for years of my life. I always wanted to find someone, and I always wanted to date. It was just one of those things I thought I'd get around to and have the opportunity to do and never did. No one deserves to be alone and not feel loved, and I just haven't had enough chances to find it. Now that I'm older, the dating pools shirking and I feel awful and anxious about it. I never had anyone, I had one gf for a short time and that was about it. I just hate feeling like there's so much life and things that I've missed out on that I'll never have again, or never have the chance to have. I'm not angry, but I'm just depressed, and last night that was something that's never happened.
>>26752648What are you going to do about it?
>>26752724I don't know.
I’m sorry I wasn’t a good friend and didn’t make an effort Clyle. There really was no good reason that we couldn’t have been friends for life
>>26752134i always wondered why your friend can't help us work things out, especially after the last message i sent him? apparently vidya is just more important for all of you people, sadly
i like to get out and do shit, it'd be nice if you were mine to take along everywhere
>doing a surprise birthday party for a friend>in charge of baking the cake>cake literally just came out of the oven>get a group message saying "hey guys we were in contact with someone who tested positive for covid so we're canceling <the bullshit event we made up for said surprise birthday party>"So now I'm up one whole cake, but I'm cutting. Do I just give the cake to my friend?
Man you really strapped me in with the bomb here
>>26752903sorry, youre not the person the post was meant for but good luck