Get it off your lovely chest anon.OP is drinking tonight, but we will not despair.
I'm in your dreams
you are my dreams, love.
I thought if we at least said goodbye I would get closure and be able to move on, but it didn’t really work. It helped a little, but really, more than anything in the world I just wanted to be your friend. I wanted it so badly that I don’t think I can be truly satisfied with anything other than that. That’s why I have to go no contact. Even if you understood how deeply you hurt me I don’t think you’d care. May I think about you a little less every day until you’re completely forgotten and I’m finally free.
It doesn't matter how much you like her or how good you get along, she has a bf that she has experienced a lot of life with. You cannot touch that.
>>23917170Alcohol is a gift from god. When your tears evaporate and sake to the sky the little angels transform it into alcohol again.
I love my girlfriend but her sexual past gets to me. She's had 3 threesomes and a foursome, and all except for one was with the same dude. She said she agreed to it cause she liked the other girl at the time. The most recent one happened last year. She said she never like it but had group sex like 4 damn times. I'm old enough now to look to settle down but I keep bringing it up which is my problem. I've dated hoes but I thought she was different and she may be now because of it and I'm just too stupid to let it go but she still remained friends with this dude. I just can't get over it, and it's a red flag of my own to keep talking about it cause she doesn't like talking about it. I wouldn't agree to a threesome, idk. I just wish she didn't give herself away so easily cause I want to respect her but it feels like she doesn't even respect herself.In before "any sex is good," go fuck your hand.
I can touch that as I please. Begone.
>>23917170something is happening currently that will either work itself out, or literally destroy my life. but I cant do anything about it. all I can do is wait for the results. I feel like Ive been having a continuous panic attack for the last 12 hours. FUCK
There is a lot of life left to live little scamp.
>>23917274I thought I wrote what you said, then realized it was someone else. We are in the same boat.
I want to die, I just want to fucking die, I can't do this anymore.If God exists he will have to ask my forgiveness.
I posted the same thing in the previous thread, but Im still freaking out about it. sorry>watch hentai and shit>dont watch l*li shit, but see it on hentai websites when I go on them >l*li is illegal in my country >today parents get a call claiming to be ISP saying illegal activity has occurred on our internet I know everyone said it was a scam, but I cant get over the coincidence >look at illegal shit>get phone call about illegal shitI was hoping that my dad would phone up the ISP and either confirm or deny if it was a scam call. if they say its a scam, then Id be relieved. if they said it was real I would either kill myself or try and explain to my family but I cant do either. Im stuck in limbo not knowing if Im fine or my life has been destroyed. I need to go to sleep but all I can think about is this shit
The girl didn't come into the shop today. Will I ever see her again. This is crushing me.
>>23917274This is exactly how I feel.
>>23917170I cant sleep
>>23917375 NO SLEEP TIL I suffered through that recently. now I sleep. godspeed, anon. make it through this.
you ever forget which car you're driving at 4am?
>>>81038448 u 2/thx to u
fuck hartford healthcare. they know what they did.
not everyone can. not all tht will,can.heh, dumb lyfe
I sent a text to all of my exes. What the fuck am I up to?
I'm leaving 4chan, this place is toxic for me. Here is my parting advice. Research your colleges and universities and the job market. Research a company before an interview. If you have to be a wagecuck, be one but look for opportunities. Learn humility and gratitude.Don't dread on losing your virginity, focus on meeting the right person. Don't put a down payment on a mortgage right away. Invest in an RSP. Watch for red flags in relationships and friendships. Be someone that attract positivity. Don't neglect your friends and family. Mediate or pray. Quit smoking and vaping. Limit your drinking. Seek therapy or use CBT, DBT, or anxiety workbooks. Exercise 3 times a week and get your sleep. Go to rehab or AA. Don't blame others or use your conditions as a crutch. Watch that grief or heartbreak don't become depression. Seek peer support groups in your area. Block people when necessary. Respect boundaries and consent. Become self reliant- your happiness and healing is your responsibility. It's never to late to start something new. Watch for negative thoughts. Relocate when necessary. Never accept abuse and bullying - walk away or seek help. Limit your porn and tinder use. Always use sunscreen and moisturiser. Goodbye and good luck, anons.
I am drinking. Tonight I drink. Tomorrow we work. There is no shame in my game. I meant every god damn word.
I didn't want to wake up. I was having a much better time asleep. And that's really sad. It was almost like a reverse nightmare, like when you wake up from a nightmare you're so relieved. I woke up into a nightmare..
>>23917496You're going crazy?
>>23917544Many such cases!
>>23917544>>23917558I am very much sane. There is nothing crazy about opening your heart.
Aww. Forgive me, my love! Cats get bored when the prey stops squeaking.
>>23917565>opening your heart>caring for people>honest feelingsMadness! Nurses, this anon is delusional. Send him to the good doctor [enter Dr. Coom M.D.]
yes, you are done with your responsibility.why ask more for something so little you give? thief.maybe thats why your sly god loses. hahaha
>>23917565Then why texting your ex gfs?
the weak lazy godmuch deserving for it to decay. why ask so much? i thought there is heaven?
>>23917565You are extremely delusional. Feelings...A prostate exam is in order!
>>23917170Left my first relationship after a crisis counselor confirmed I was being abused. I am safe now, but I can't shake the feeling of constant danger. The danger is gone, why am I stuck in this constant state of distress? Will I always be like this? I feel like I'm losing my mind.
>>23917584>>23917591I feel like these posts are directed at me and my God. Is this true?
pfftt. cause you dont believe it too. slyfucks. have fun and suffer here.muttsbah, it s not like you can do more either.
>>23917503Stay safe friend
bunch of needy psychos lolmaybe you should get less money from me too
Hmm! Maybe your less of a mouse and more of a little bunny? I get the two mixed up, dear.
>>23917606what if it is? u gonna explode?
>>23917603Are they stalking you?Have you blocked them?
>>23917620No. I’m curious. I don’t think I’ve got any quarrel with you. Is it?
Look... queen of cups.. I am ready to meet you at designated spot now. Will you be waiting for me there?
>>23917630i dont know. what if it is? is its dying empire on earth showing more humility now life has proven it to be a disenchanted thoughts?
i just want a real conection, i just want a soulmate, someone who can make me feel complete and safe.
>>23917629They aren't stalking me, they cannot reach me as they have been hospitalized. This "danger sense" is entirely irrational and I can't get rid of it.
I really want to text her, but I'm trying to keep to conversation in person. I really like her.
>>23917617What’s up, bud?
>>23917612You too, friend. :)
>>23917643They can't hurt you anymore Try getting into aikido and jujitsu , talk to the counselor for help on your irrational fear
>>23917640I don’t think it is. I think they are the same, I don’t see why I’d be an only child, what do I know though
>>23917652And because of this you tend end your text conversations often?
>>23917655Well, I am trying to figure out if I caught a mouse or a little rabbit. They can be very difficult to distinguish.
>>23917640I believe in God who created everything, I believe in Jesus and the Holy Spirit
People will eventually forget abut you and you will be able to move on with your life, just not in the field you chose.
>>23917674No, when a conversation through text naturally ends I don't force another topic. I let her come to me unless I am reaching out to schedule a date.
>>23917693Probably a mouse. Rabbits are far too quick!
Whatever i do will not matter.im just gonna lost more people like how i lost everyone i love before.i know i cant kill myself and i know somehow im just gonna survive.nothing and no one can help me im just a burden to my familyi accept it the fact i will never be happy i dont care anymore being happy is a lie.i just dont want to feel anything anymore.
>>23917698ok we re done here
>>23917350silly anon, if they thought you had bad content on your devices, they wouldntve nicely called you, they wouldve kicked open your door and taken your tech by force. youre fine, most likely a scam.
>>23917700You shit in a field once, ONCE... and yall never let up on it....
Earlier today I took half a delta 8 thc gummy, I found out I have a drug test coming up on Monday. The last time I used before today was about 2 weeks ago, but that previous usage was 1 gummy a day for about a week and a half straight. There was no usage before that binge for months before then so it shouldn't be relevant.I weigh 136 and my metabolism is generally pretty good. Does anyone have enough experience to say whether it's likely I'll be clean in 5 days?
> wake up> work> go for a walk> read> go to sleep> wake up> work> read> go to sleep> wake up> work> read> go to sleepAt what point do I just off myself? I need a release from this Groundhog Day samsara.
>>23917728Kek, thanks for the laughs anon
>>23917717I am quick myself, so I suppose I have to tell by their squeak.
>>23917755Look, over there!
>>23917763Ha, nice try. I keep my eyes on my prey. Always.
>>23917274I feel this
I got my car cleaned! Wahoo!I'm gonna get its inspection done this weekend! Wahoo!Cute girlfriend here I come! Wahooooo!
Dear MomI wished you'd be my mom when I need you, and not only when it's convenient to treat me like a son.I wished you'd just say sorry for once in your lifetime but I know that's asking for too much.I wished I had the courage required to beat all of you to death and then off myself.I wished for once you'd believe in me, and that for once you'd let me have my freedom. I want to hear the truth for once, I want you to treat me like a person for once. I wished you'd stop projecting me into something bigger.You've crippled me socially and emotionally, and I'll never be able to forgive you. I don't love you, and I can't swallow the bitter thoughts that haunt me.
Got the fucking covid vaccine in January because of my job. The past 2 weeks I’ve been sick. Can’t get it out of my head that I’m developing some sort of autoimmune disease as a result of the vaccine. I’m a hypochondriac but also there’s no long term data for the vax. Just hope this blows over for me soon.
>>23917836You'll be okay don't stress over it despite what people say
>>23917170everytime im social i wish i was asocial because people exhaust me and it makes me hurt people accidentally, and then i dont want to apologize because during my 1st breakup i bitched out and apologized to her too much. but everytime im asocial i wish i was social so i could have some company and maybe something romantic so i can stop being so bored. i dont know what to do now
>>23917843Thanks, I’m sure I’ll be fine. Decided not to get any more vaccines. The uncertainty about the long term effects is just too much for my anxiety.
You know... I really need to get a few good smacks in to know for sure. You will squeak a little louder and there will be no mistaking it then.
Having a life long problem with serious depression and axniety issues doesn't make someone an asshole and to lash out when they're asking for some help is bullshit.I just want to know why it seems like everyone around me wants to hold me down instead of raise me up.
My slaps are out of love and passion, babe. Don't disrespect it.
>>23917860You’re such a fucking fag dude. I don’t mind everything else except your sadism. It’s really fucking faggy and gross to hear about. It’s like talking about diaper fetish or mutilation it’s just not good for the collective GIOYC psyche. The zeitgeist groans.
>>23917898I just did — 60 seconds ago.
>>23917855It seems pretty safe. Gillian barre(sp) syndrome may occur, but that happen from any infection.Covid can last a while, the vaccine I assume, takes a while to work it's way through.
>>23917909Then ignore it.
>>23917882It's just like them to get in my way as I'm trying to get somewhere and still, it just won't ever stop. Just let me try to move forward, I've been dealing with this shit for most of my life and they still won't stop. I'm finally feeling like I'm getting somewhere, and will be able to. I finally have an job interviews after all of this time, I finally felt a bit better, I finally felt like I was moving towards achieving some goals in the midst of all of this anger, frustration, depression, and anxiety I felt. Then right when I have the opportunity for some change they work their into fuck everything up again.
>>23917909Whatever, this board isn’t a meet and greet, it’s literally for shit like that... I best be going now.
I don't blame her, I blame myself. She gave me every opportunity to make a move and I didn't. Had I just fucked her when I had a chance, she wouldn't have gone elsewhere. You'll never find a girl that short and cute ever again. That is unless you manage to fuck August, which let's be honest, is never going to happen.
>>23917917I should lest we enter the GIOYC paradox where I tell you to ignore my reply for identical reasons
Wow, good job. You realized how cringe you were being. Ja.
>>23917932Your posts don't bother me, I was giving advice.
>>23917921That's how it always has been, and I'm just tired of it. I've never seen anyone so dead set on sabotaging someone's life on a constant basis. It's always at the worst or best times that seems like I'm being watched and right at the right moment I get things fucked up. I want them out of my life, and here I am still dealing with it after I thought that I finally did.
>>23917914Yeah I don’t think I’m having GBS types of symptoms. I had a stomach bug last week and this week still just have some headaches and feeling crummy. Also had some itching and light rash on my chest but seems to be almost all gone.
>>23917952>oh you planned on getting a car?>got some job interviews lined up>that's nice lol>hey, while it's on my mind, I'm taking over half of your tax return because you randomly just owe me money out of nowhere lmao eat shit faggot
>>23917973Sure. You're excused, whoever you are.
>>23917962Seriously, is there something I can legally do about this? Since it's literally my money? Like call the cops or something? This kind of happened last time with my tax return last year where I kept wondering where it was and they finally broke and told me they spent it. Then I raised hell and they did that fake crying shit when I kept bugging them to give me my fucking money.
I just dreamt a Murder of crows cawing with me, though i wasnt saying anything >:D
>>23917979Im gonna take a nap again. I want to drreemm.
I mean, you're practically asking for it when you react as you do. How is a guy like me supposed to not crave more?
>>23917981I was told some stupid shit like "well we really needed the money and you can't help out?", nah, because everything over the last 4 years is nothing of my own doing, or responsibility. It's not my fault your husband and my dad threw a $35 an hour job (w/ bonuses and shit like that) to steal from the company to smoke crack. If it's my tax money, and it's given to me by the government I'm entitled to 100% of that money. I should have a bank account and did while I was in Richmond and had to close it when I had to move here. Didn't find a job or a chance to open another one. So now they're basically stealing from me again.
>>23917704If you've never texted me first, then I would think you're not interested...
>If you dream of a crow talking to you in your dreams, this is a sign that you are receiving a spiritual message from a spirit guide...>Dreaming of a friendly crow is a sign that you have a unique connection to the animal spirit of a growing, and this animal might be your animal spirit guide...Game over gossip circle its 2021 lol
my entire life has become waiting for her to come online, waiting for her to message me, hoping I said the right thing, relief when she laughs at my stupid jokes
I have never met or seen my doppleganger, I dont think I have one. This is a huge sign. Hmm
>>23918126I have an identical twin
>>23918066Understandable but that’s not good. You need your own life. She’ll be put off.
I..dont think I have a shadow/doppleganger. The best thing that CAME CLOSE WAS an angel of light at that catholic church I visited..... and touched.... hmmmm >:]
https://www.ranker.com/list/bad-omens-and-signs/amber-fuaIm talking about irl, i already saw ur doppleganger mary kate.
please no more papers please i have 35 tabs open
>>23917503Based advice. Thanks anon. Also, see you next week. You’re here forever.
>>23918218You're welcome. Naw, moving over to subreddits.
Today is the first day of the rest of my life.I'm only on this fucking board because I thought I was distraught. I'm not. I'm free. Free from her expectations. Free from the hope that she'll fall asleep in my arms again telling me she loves me.I met up with some old friends the other day. First time in over a month I've seen anyone since I started my new job. They said I looked great, healthy, I lost weight. I got a text last night from one of them saying it was awesome to see me, they missed hanging with me.I can be so much more than what I am. People actually enjoy my company. They want me around.I almost lost everything to a fucking woman. Never again. It's time to go back to the old me. I don't know why I can't find someone who's right for me romantically, sexually, emotionally. I don't care. I'm one among a million same.I need to learn to love myself again. I need to learn to be okay being alone. I don't need a girl to validate my existence, I don't need sex or romance to feel alive.I don't need to search desperately for a place to belong anymore. I'm going to try to just be. I'm going to be okay. Sanctity is just a breath away.
my girlfriend is so sweet to me. she treats me very well. there are two problems>she claims she never wants to have kids>i have a fairly evil friend i had sex with once (and still feel irrational attraction to) that is still into me and vying for my attentioni can't just cut off this second girl because she knows things about me that could ruin my life... also she's like my best friend rn which is kinda pathetic
I just can't lose weight. I'm 6'1", 245lbs. I'm type one diabetic, and insulin dependent. Changing my diet or doing aerobic exercise fucks with my blood sugar, dropping it low. And I have to eat carbs to bring it back up. So I take less insulin. Then, it goes high and I get sick. Insulin is also a growth hormone, and doesn't help with fat loss. I'm about to give up, but I'm tired of being obese and tired all the time. I feel like I need to hire a professional to help me navigate fat loss and being type one diabetic, but the one time I sought out a nutritionist, she was 5'2" and weighed more than I did. Fuck that. I'm going to be a camp counselor in late June this Summer. I'd love to be like 30lbs lighter by then but that's impossible. Hell, I'd take 20lbs lighter. I just want to hang with the kiddos and be able to keep up. And go swimming without feeling like I'm from My 600lb Life. And not worry about my fucking blood sugar while I'm doing all that. I know these threads aren't usually for health shit, but it's what's on my chest.
>>23917346This is the edgiest shit I've ever read, mate. idk maybe you should
>>23918132I don't have much of a life, I do keep myself busy but we talk every day and I wouldn't want to be distantI know I probably sound like a huge faggot but I've just never felt this strongly about anyone before
>>23917350>>23917727 is correct. If they thought you had illegal shit on your computer, especially pornographic in nature, they would have just come to arrest you and seize your hard drive. Now, they might contact you if that illegal activity is piracy of the more milquetoast variety, but that's it. They barely even take action on that sort of thing.
>>23918277Swimming in water helps you lose weight especially for your weight
My relationship with my girlfriend has become unbearable lately. All the little annoyances I thought I could deal with at first have become so grating. Any time I bring up something that irritates me she tells me off for not saying something sooner.I've been thinking of ending it but despite how annoying things are my life is so much better and I love her to death. The thought of tearing everything down and starting over makes me want to vomit.
>>23918384Why not tell her or just end it even if you have to start over
SHE'S SO PRETTY, LADS
I wish you both were fucking dead.
I am glad we are both alive!
She been ghosted so many times the bitch has become possessed.
I wish my dog were still alive so I could have another chance to treat him better. We could never let him explore the outside much because we live in an area with a high number of coyote attacks as they'd ambush dogs, and I know we didn't walk him enough. We also never let him explore the house much since he shed a lot and hair would be found everywhere. By the last few years of his life he was sleeping or eating most of the day because he couldn't go anywhere, had nothing better to do, and wasn't getting enough attention. He gained a lot of weight by the end and I know that contributed to him getting cancer. When I think about it I can't forgive myself. Anyone who does that to another creature doesn't deserve to live. It kills me that I can never make things right and give him the life he deserved.
I feel in love
>>23918603me too man
I used to be able to stay up all night, get shit done, and feel fully energized the next day. Now I'm 28 and every time I try to do this I can't even keep my eyes open past 2 or 3. I can't even make it through the night anymore. This is bullshit I need that time.
So I climbed a tree today I forgot how much fun that was, oh and apparently 3 largest hawks I've ever seen before live there. I felt the wind from its wing, its like God whispered, anyway they made 2 calfs bolt for the barn and flew calmly over them for 100 miles wow. But I've had a more amazing experience on this exact date almost Haha, true story. God I hope you're happy. Catch ya later!
>>23918627Haha yeah, I'd recommend you start listening to your body, champ. Give it adequate rest or suffer dire consequences
>>23918285You might not have much of a life but you need to get one
>>23918723I'm aware and am working on that as much as I feasibly can in the interim
>>23918662Oh and just checked and they were 2 red full body adults, and a little one. I think out west people mistake the browns for red so, like these are bigger than most eagles. I cant belive I saw them today, oh and I think the brown was just tagging along as reds hunt in pairs, seriously once in a lifetime
I want to attempt suicide but I’m not 100% sure I want to die yet.
>>23918767You're not ready Don't
>>23918242i'd be careful about the first problem. if you continue to date for a long time this may become a dealbreaker if you really want kids
I've been so lonely for such a long time(11 yrs) I'm willing to marry a girl just so they can take life insurance money. She doesn't even have to be in love with me. Lowkey I'd rather give it to a girl who puts up with me and puts out every now and then, than my family, as much as as I love them. That's how desperate I am. I give up on love. I just want a guaranteed lay.
>>23917503Underrated post, thank you anon. Good luck with your life
wish i was a normie so bad
Does anyone else feel like they're trying too hard yet at the same time not trying hard enough?
I am such a hopeless romantic I fucking hate it why can't I experience attraction normally. It's literally 100% or 0% for me
Virgin guys are so much better than all the slutty men I've had sex with.I understand the meme now. I'm only gonna chase guys that save themselves.
>>23918874as a virgin man I only want to chase after experienced mommies...!
>>23918874try to keep one
>>23918874Stay away from pure men you whore You belong with a whore man
>>23918846How do you feel 50% attracted to someone? Either way enjoy it while you can. It's been a while since I felt any attraction to anyone.
>>23918896Too late, targets aquired.>>23918883That's the aim.>>23918878;)
>>23918910i think that's nicei hope you find a shiny one and mold and protect a nice man for yourself
well, how does it feel getting shoved a fistful of your own brand of snide. i thought you are tougher. turns out you are flaky. even your god has left you to your own dancing and stammering in this earth... leaving you so...fluffed inside. why?why are you such a sad, needy, puffed out example of saintnes?just greedy to win and, what? the reverse side of sunny feminism?geeewheres your miracles.is it up deep in your own butt?seems like there s only violence left in you. i cant differentiate you from the dogs, yapping, cowing, gurgling, extasised with your own desire to win. but nevertheless, existing here.you know who the lord loved more than you? itself.but maybe thats how the people who are left out by the lord looks like: mostly like me. albeit abit too saint.choked on their own needy servy for heavens. which is not free too.having to kill qafirs to get entry. well i also dont have goals for you, but away from my ass... but i guess like the flies, you like the smell of my shit: mostly to feel good about yourself.
>>23918910would you peg a virgin on the first night?
>>23917281break up with her, you clearly have no respect for her, waranted or otherwise.your relationship has nowhere to go from here, end it.
look here. im not rich. i dont even own a fistful of your bullshit, up deep in your own arse. but i cant tell this: anything that makes you up your own ass, feels like thousand suns burning everyone s for me. so, why dont you tone down your exitement a bit and mind your own fucking business. like bringing your god down here and not keep showing your brand of "iknowitall" cuz you stink. maybe your god stinks like you
>>23917727how would they have his phone number regardless?this dude is trolling.
i like how the majority here gets riled up by a single idiot like me. it 's like lighting a mountain of petroleum. and they smell right away.if your god is so much of an owner of this place, why r you seem to be lacking in charm and content to a minor like me? it's like... pfft. it's like it is dead.
>>23918940No, I'd start off vanilla unless they specifically requested.
so i guess anything that is not M is an A, and thus a Q is an S and so on and lololol wow talk abou having no charts and diagram written for you.wait, you actually have a diagram and table in it right? how can something so holy just uses "feel it out" geez. it s hard and it doesnt ever care how it s data is managed. guess it worked for adam and eve back then. it forgot we re abit cursed by it. lolfucking pedos
>>23918985I'd want you to take me around the world and back for the first night, I'd feel cheated otherwise maybe overwhelming for a virgin though
>>23918998I'd do it. I know my way around and can give it my all.
I'm nearing 30 and it sucks that the fact of the matter is that I'm ugly. I had hoped that maybe I'd "grow into my looks" a bit, but nope, the hand I was dealt really was a turd. I was never particularly decent looking, but I've just gotten worse and worse. I can't do online dating and get matches since I just look like shit, and I'm not very sociable in real life (and live somewhere small). It's not even an issue of being a total hamplanet (I am overweight though and am trying to lose it) where if I dropped 200lbs it might radically change my appearance or something. Even if I was at my peak performance in terms of being in shape, I'd probably still max out as a light 5/10.Shit sucks, bros.
Yesterday at the station a guy was sitting on the ground crying. Nobody was paying attention to him so I asked if he was OK.He looked at me and said his mom just died, that he just got the phone call. He seemed so devastated and lost. I hugged him and listened to him and stayed with him a bit, then gave him my grandma's lucky charm and left him go home.Now I can't stop thinking about him, asking myself if I should've done more. It's a pure coincidence I stumbled on him. Poor dude, he's all alone now.
Today's the last night of late night fast food runs... I've lost so much weight I can't go back now. I'll get back to exercise soon
She doesn't want to go out with me and that's fine, I just wish she didn't play games
>>23917572imma dogimma dogimma dogwith multiple forms
I don't care about other women. I only care about her. If she doesn't want me I don't give a fuck if another girl does because I don't want those girls. If I can't attract the girl that I want then what is the point?
>scroll 4chan desperately seeking human interaction>no good threads to post in>no good thread to post>no (you)s This is not the life I want to be living.
>>23919493I know this feel, bro.
>>23919498One of these days I will get up from this computer chair and never come back. That will be the day my real life begins.
maybe we will talk again one daymaybe noti think we will at some pointbut nothing meaningful will come of it
I deserve better than a washed up whore. I'll be as picky as I want considering that I'd have the houses
>>23919508Do it or stfu
i cant start my day wo at least an hour of pron. thats how bad my job is. i swear, once your comp gets bought out by another comp, you may as well leave; theyll just find a way to get rid of you anyway.my job has been thoroughly stripped of everything. theyve gotten rid of 80% of the ppl that i used to work with. only reason why im still around (i think) is because i know the legacy systems real well. once they get rid of that? i keep trying to find new things to do and theyre all like "yeah, we'll let you know." fuck you. i know my days are numbered. fuck. sorry for rant. i have to go to work soon.
OH FUCKING WELL
i hope you sleep well loveand dream of me, of course.
Oh babe, you squeak so nicely I really can't help myself with you. I really need to control myself around you but you make it so difficult. It's your fault! D;
You are a balloon man to be pierced upon my pulling prick.
>>23919870https://youtu.be/h06LzyeqAqobush shears would achieve the same effect
5 years ago I took advantage of a drunk gf of a friend. Took a pic of her ass and touched her bare breast. She confronted me the day after, I apologized and she said she wouldn't tell her bf. I've been feeling bad about this for a year now or so, wanting to apologize but scared of bringing it up again and the secret getting out. Cue a month ago, turns out my gf was raped by my best friend before I met both of them. My friends and I decided to cut contact with him. Now my guilt/anxiety is worse. I can't keep this in anymore and after seeing what it can do to someone the need to make amends is even bigger. But I'm scared of my gf/friends cutting ties with me as well. In a weird head space and have been thinking a lot about suicide, which is weak but it feels like the only out. Started therapy recently but it's going so slow. Every day is agony and we're still in the beginning phase.
Hey I just wanted to be clear, what I felt for you was true, I don't need to know that, and I wanted to make it very clear, your clock doesn't stop until you are ready. Take your time, hurry up, you get the idea, its been up and down with me a lot and I almost forgot how much bull shit we just stepped over, and we were together in the way that I would need and seek because, you are not just anyone. People made it seem like we lost so many "important " things because of ourselves each other, every excuses from everyone including me, but you know what, fuck all that, I'd rather be homeless with you tomorrow than rich with the plastic "hip" " status " nonsense. You are not above its snare and neither am I, but if you're sick of it, I think we did what most people who gives advice and judgment could never do, love and lift each other up, even though sometimes we did the opposite, it's what you do not what you did, I'd gladly lift you up as many times because you are worthy of that, just to be clear because last time I made it seem like you were on a stopwatch. Take as much time aas you need, but don't go and steal it please. Hope you're happy and safe, that's all the matters. I'm proud to have you in my life. Thank you.
You are so beautiful and perfect. I love you. I promise I won't strike, for now. I'll give you the chance to change your mind about it. :)
Could this be yet another spongebob squarepants machination sent to disrupt my operations?
Get in the big box, daddy’s coming home.
I'm sorry I'm like this though! I can't help that I am a sadistic bastard. I promise the love I feel is real and true I just have fucked up urges and desires.
unlike the castes, there are only worthless muzies and rich muzieshaha
The sadism though.... it might be a problem. Kek.
Maybe if you'd explained this properly last night I would have been less mad. Ok, maybe you actually did but I wasn't really listening. Oops. And of course I'd still be mad, just maybe less so. But hey, I am fucking mad. Because I think the whole situation could have been avoided. This was all weird as it is and it looks like it's always going to be a problem. My problem. I still don't know what I'm going to do, to be honest. Earlier I was just trying to stop you from crying so much and make sure you didn't dig yourself into a deeper hole by getting into trouble at work. I feel bad for lying but I'm in a sticky situation here. And as for you matey, you've got some nerve. I'll give you that. But I already want to kick your fucking ass with my steel toecaps and if there's any more trouble, I will.
Or what if I turn sadism into a sexual super power? Das it. Dat bitch ain't neva leavin'!
>>23920025cocaine is one helluva drug
>>23920029Cocaine, molly, xan, x, acid, dmt, spice, pills I didn't even know what they actually were, probably heroin... It was a crazy ride.
>>23917170theres no doctors or surgeons or ems in canada just nurses and first aid ppl i d k how i will get better if i ever get sick
Boy do I miss the cocaine though. I want a weekend of me snorting it off my wife's ass. Need someone to watch the keedz. I want so much coke I will not feel bad spanking the powder off her butt.
Don't desire cocaine you fuckin' dumbass. Lel!
you liek that job. you improved. thats why. try losing. maybe you ll grow a feeling
>>23920000What are you so angry about?
Fabulous run in /ATOGA/ this morning. The after glow of sex is giving me psychopathic super powers. I love it.
>>23920124Nope that's called narcissistic behavior
>>23920000And also chekd,, how can you stop someone from crying?, is it possible or just a turn of phrase jc
>>23920129Narcissism is based, and definitely a super power.
>>23917258how's this working out for you?
>>23920135Oh..... cool kids. Sorry your noble I'm new to the chan. alt4 alt 7 force
>>23917274literal exact same situation, ex who felt like my soulmate randomly broke up with me a week and a half ago and cut contact
>>23920148Well I'm sorry, just don't let it bring you down. It's such a common occurrence at this point sadly. Good luck
>>23920146That's ok. I am a generous narcissist. Here, it's a good job sticker. I don't know what you have done recently to deserve it, but whatever.
>>23920157Thanks that's way cute, I'm not a PHD but im pretty sure I'm a narcastic sociopath myself, possibly because of my poor version of myself..>>23920157
>>23920136No one called.
>>23920164I took it back. No stickers for the weak. Life is cruel.
I hope things don’t work out for them.
I know things will work out for me.
maybe ur just psychos pfftyour goddaddies seem to spoil u guys muchpfftnow you wanna explode?haha
explodeexplodeexplodehahahhabunch of faggotsppl r freewhy r u faggotsfinally be off from this planetexplodeexplodeexplode
I am just so unhappy
Why do I continue to wake up? For what reason to keep going day after day? At this point, my days are an endless cycle of work, walk, read, sleep just on repeat and doing it all alone. I literally just drag myself to that computer to do a job I hate for the majority of my day, everyday so I can continue to do it again tomorrow. I have no reason for living. There is nothing about my life which I’m able to look forward to. I enjoy nothing. And so why am I continuing?
>>23920133Tell them what they want to hear. Guess it depends what they're crying about though.
I fucked that blue haired girl at the modest mouse concert and I used to feel only sort of guilty because you were already treating me like shit at the time but knowing what you did makes me wish I had cheated on you a lot more. she looked like you but was much more honest. you deserved to have me cheat on you, uncle fucking whore.
Pathetic to move in with a parent at 28?
I'm never going to give warnings again. I wasn't lying
When you hate your life and your job AND there’s nothing else you want to do nor anything else you think you wouldn’t hate, you can’t just take an apathetic attitude and keep drifting even. You want to just end it. It’s like the baseline level is just apathy, not caring and that’s livable but because your job is torture it makes it worse and more imprisoning. There is no release. You can’t just stop working. Your choice is suffer in silence forever or end your life. At least, that’s how I feel.
I know what I deserve to do to others. Patience is a virtue
I've spent the past year working on improving myself only to realize my friendships are with people with zero interest in the same. A few have even passive-aggressively insulted me instead of also working on themselves. I'm sick of this, it is something nobody warns you about or talks about, that you will probably have to fix your social life if you become less of a shitty person and may become isolated temporarily until you make new friendships with more mature people.
The sad thing is, we're better off this way
I have the means to hunt you and others indefinitely. Play a show and it will be another Columbus, Ohio
I don't think it's a problem unless I am actually hurting her. I am just being a little scary, that's fine.
I was supposed to get drunk last night and be sad but I couldn’t help but be jovial and sentimental in a relatively positive way.
Instead of coming back to NY to get your pregnant I jerked off in the woods for 6 months straight and I don't regret it a bit now that I know how much of an evil whore you are. If I had found out that night I would have burned that house down.
I really don't care if I see my gf again, but I smile every time I think about my cute female friend at work.
The option was there and I didn't take it. I can't tell if this is because I care enough, or because the alternative is a lot more effort and will hurt more. But it's not like either option was good. One road leads to the unknown, the other is the more familiar but doesn't feel like it's going anywhere interesting. I think I'm probably just delaying the inevitable. I'll see how the next few days go, I guess. But I certainly feel like the last few fucks I had left to give are fading away.
>>23920493You should dump your gf especially if she isn't pretty.
I gave this whole "healthy lifestyle" a shot, I ate properly, quit smoking, quit doing drugs, barely drink anymore, exercise daily, lower calories to not gain weight, but its just not working and it isn't worth it.For a year now I haven't slept properly, my overall body shape just got fucked for some reason, my arms are thin and my waist and back look huge for some reason and I hate looking at myself. I eat varied meals but can't shit more than once a week, I hate exercising and I just have health issues every day for a year now and doctors can't figure out whats wrong so I'm left on my own and nothing even I can do helps, its always the same. I fucking hate my life right now. I wish I could go back in time and never make that decision to "improve" myself, it only fucked everything up and a whole fucking year later I'm still not seeing improvements. At least back then I was able to function properly and was actually feeling good and healthy, now its like the opposite is happening despite trying to live healthier. I tried it all, nothing fucking works, I'm going back on drugs, smoking, not giving a fuck anymore, so fucking what if I'll live a shorter life, THIS life isn't worth it even if its 100 years long
I hate how sexualized everything is nowadays
>>23920528>I hate exercising and I just have health issues every day for a year now and doctors can't figure out whats wrongexcuses desu
I had a dream where I met and seduced Gawr Gura and we had sex...
Slept for 12 hours today and I still feel dizzy and a little tired. I fucking hate this. I tried going to bed early but no matter what I do, I always sleep that long. Its annoying because I want to get up early, I have an exam coming up at 9am soon and I NEED to be up for it but I just can't do it. My family is also starting to annoy me telling me I need to stop sleeping so much and go to bed early, like they don't get it. I just want to be normal
>>23920558how is that an excuse retard? I didn't say I didn't exercise because of some reason, I said I do regardless but I'm not feeling any better than I did before and how is that an excuse if even doctors can't tell whats wrong with you? fuck off, not in the mood for retards like you today
No matter, she will return.
A girl I've been seeing for three months decided tonight that her career was more important than a relationship with me. So fuck the cunt, I'm three sheets to the wind tonight and on tinder tomorrow to pick up some strange.We're all gonna make it bros.
I take responsibility for my faults. I understand that there have been plenty of times in my life where I made the wrong decision knowing that it was the wrong decision. I have had opportunities. That being said, I really wish I would have had some kind of real adult guidance in my life. I got decent grades and was a polite kid and I guess everyone just assumed I had things figured out, but I was so fucking lost.
I wouldn't be able to enjoy that song even if i pretended.
You are so two faced it hurts
>>23920574>fuck off, not in the mood for retards like you todayso don't reply.i find it really difficult to believe that there have been no positive improvements if you've actually committed yourself to change via exercise, quitting poor habits, and lowering your calorie intake.how did it "fuck everything up"?
>>23920518I mean she's better than nothing, I guess? I think she's pretty, and we do always have fun when we're together, it's just that when I'm away from her or don't see her for a couple of days I just realize that, I guess, if she were to leave me I wouldn't feel anything at all.
I had a dream last night where my oneitus messaged me, telling me how hard she was actually falling for me and and hopelessly cared for me so much.I could only think "I fucking knew it" in my dream.My intuition and gut feelings are generally really good, and I want to believe that she secretly was in love with me the entire time, but my common sense knows that it's dangerous to actually believe that.It was a nice dream, at least.
>>23920615good. maybe you'll finally feel real pain.
>>23920646Felt plenty of real pain before, thankshttps://m.youtube.com/watch?v=wgZc2JzqJ2c
>>23920644not to sound like an /x/ fag but if your intuition is leading you somewhere, you must believe in it. any doubts you may have are out of fear, let them go and let your intuition guide you... also dubs.
I think I'm depressed, I've been very tired for a long time now, I worry about my future because I know I won't work the job I studied for 4 years in college for and finding a regular job is impossible these days with Covid + I need to move out and for that I need a job so it just amplifies my worries. I gained weight, not sure how, I never ate more than usual and I always had a steady weight, I did lose pretty much all of it by now because this has been going on for months, but I still somehow look "fat", disproportionate fat and I just look unhappy and unhealthy. I haven't seen my college friends this year because of covid, and before I was "healthy" and looked somewhat good, but now I don't want them to look at me because I feel so unattractive and its been nearly a year since I saw them so I'm afraid they'll think I just let myself go, whereas before I used to be this confident, somewhat attractive, "knows what he's doing" kind of guy and now I look and act nothing like it and it bothers me, I don't want to see anyone I know right now because of that because I know they'll look at me weird and think I'm some fucking loser who let himself go and my reasons will sound like an "excuse". I can't fucking do it, but I've been trying for months to improve my situation and it got me nowhere so I feel like I'll be avoiding seeing anyone forever and I just can't stand this sort of life. The worst is that one of the girls I knew actually had a thing for me before covid hit, and now I'm afraid that if she sees me she'll think less of me and never want to even consider dating me which only makes me want to avoid everyone even more until I "sort my shit out" but its been months and I haven't been able to get better so I don't think this is going to happen, so I'll just avoid them forever.
im glad how dragged you are. your god cant provide you joy so you have to take it from me.irony he wonders if you should go to heaven already
It really is over after 25, isn’t it?I think people say it’s not because they see people after 25 doing remarkable things but from where I’m sitting it sure looks to me like they always start before 25. I can count the number of people who started doing with their lives that I want to do with mine after age 25 on less than one hand.
maybe you dont exist too
>>23920727Yeah idk of anyone who was a loser at 25 then ended up being successful or whatever.
Been sucked into this online dating stuff these past few weeks with a guy who from the start I thought was too far away, but he made it seem romantic and he said he was looking for something serious - and we spent hours videoing very frequently. I quickly realized he wanted me to come stay with him for the weekend and I thought that was too much, even if we had been talking online. He eventually agreed to meeting for a day instead - and now is suddenly pulling out of it by saying I move too slow. Ugh, I just feel like I wasted so much time. Maybe guys these days just expect sex on the first date no matter what...
I regret it because I feel even more vulnerable. It's more difficult to say anything meaningful.
>>23920683Perhaps you're right. However we haven't spoken in almost a year and she didn't treat me all that well. It's just best for me to keep working on getting over her and not cling on to hope that she comes around.
>>23920727>>23920751yep might as well kill yourself
>>23920808i understand. i’m sorry she didn’t treat you too well, but noone’s perfect. i don’t know the details of your situation, but if you follow your gut it’ll lead you to where you need to be. you may feel like she’s in love with you, and you may be right, but you may also feel deep down that she’s actually not the one for you, which could simultaneously also be right. stay true to yourself and your intuition. be well, anon.
It bothers me so much that there are people out there making a living streaming or being vtubers or whatever just because they’re attractive or have an attractive voice.
Within the first four messages, I told a girl I would take her camping. Her profile says “take me camping”I wonder if I blew it. I don’t care.
What the fuck am I up to?
>>23920873I'm a guy and have always been told to go into comedy, streaming or youtube would work for that too but I just don't want that life, don't want to be known for being the "internet guy", then if I decide to do something else with my time, that life is hard to escape, you'll always be the internet person. Guess there is downsides to that too. But if its money you want and you don't have much value for yourself then that life is ideal
>>23920885What if that's how they lure strangers into the woods to murder them
>>23920909How old are you? There’s no way you’re over 23 and working a wagie job.
I want a gf so I can play dumb videogames with her
>>23920925I'm 25. I'd rather work a regular job than to sell myself on the internet, no matter how good the money is. I can still try things I actually want to do in my life but going on the internet first thing, especially if you know you don't really want to do it, is social suicide
Bros, people fucking suck My little brother is doing virtual school, and he’s in first year of high school. Like they’re mini adults at this point. So he’s doing school and I’m overhearing his classes all day today cause I’m off. My little brother is a saint tbqh and doesn’t get yelled at by teachers. And all I hear from the other students is feeding bullshit to the teachers>mr smith my webcam isn’t working today>what happened jimmy, it was working yesterday Or>Melissa, I didn’t get your homework email yesterday, what happened>oh idk I tried sending it but it’s not working >what isn’t working?>idk it’s just not working Or >wait mr smith, I don’t have a textbook>Danny, how do you not have a textbook, it’s April we’ve been working all year on thisOr>sorry mr smith my laptop wasn’t working last week so I couldn’t do the homework Like I feel so bad for these teachers, these kids are pieces of shit taking advantage of their older teachers and using virtual school to their advantage and to frustrate the teachers
>>23920966>>Melissa, I didn’t get your homework email yesterday, what happened>>oh idk I tried sending it but it’s not working>>what isn’t working?>>idk it’s just not workingClassic.
i would prefer if you defended me when your friends say things like that....no wonder i am a shut in.
>>23920975Swear these are actual things I’m hearing. The extended version is really>Melissa, I didn’t get your home work email, where is it?>idk mr smith it’s not letting me send>Melissa, you’ve been sending me work all year and now it’s just not working?>idk mr smith>ok send me an email. Right now. Class, I want all of you to send me an email right now. Type anything you want. I just want to see if you all have the right email and why Melissa is the only one having a problem>oh, mr smith, it works now!Fucking Melissa
I've been a manager at a fast food smoothie place for over 4 years now and I'm completely burned out on customer service, and I have no idea where to go next so the anxiety is making me procrastinate on looking for other jobs.Anyone have a similar experience? I'm thinking of looking into my local Union Hall and seeing if I can get a job there.
>>23918066I am in a similar position right now.
>>23917170everyone is so fucking stupid, and i cant even blame them because its really not anyones fault, thats just how it is.i figured when I reached college and went to a top ranked engineering program, people would be smarter and relatable to me. everyone is still dumb and now they need my help with studying for exams but i still dont even have to apply myself. i literally got a perfect on my physics exam without showing up to a single lecturei think ill kill myself, its not that i think life isnt worth living or sucks. my life is going pretty well. i just cant cope with the fact that I must appear even dumber to a true genius than these people seem to me.when i see an ant, i pity it. imagine how a type 3 civilization superintelligence feels about us
>>23920994I'm a shift lead at an grocery store, I make $19/hr and get regular full time work. I have friend who are still making 13, 14, 15 an hour in shitty retail jobs so I feel kinda grateful I make what I make and get benefits and stuff.But my job is super fucking physical, and I'm also getting burnt out on telling shit-smelling Somalis how to use their EBT cards.I use an electric pallet jack a lot, i was thinking of using that experience and trying to get a warehouse/forklift job of some kind.Same physical labor, no shit eating immigrants to deal with.
>>23918066Why wait for her to message you? Message her first, show her you are interested that way. Come on anon, girls like it when you make the first step. Just fucking do it.
>>23920994Sort of. I’m burned out on work in general. I have an office job as an analyst but my 3 years working post-college have just been so miserable that I don’t care anymore. I can’t bring myself to apply for anything else because I feel like it will just be more of the same or worse.
>>23920953I don’t really consider it selling yourself on the internet but whatever. I suspect one day you’ll regret not having pursued it when your looks fade and your personality is ground down to dust by a corporate file but it’s your life.
Been talking about writing a song with a couple of my friends. I have a huge passion for singing so jumped at the opportunity to do it. Found out yesterday that they’d already written, performed and recorded everything behind my back. It’s such a small thing but it fucking crushed me. Had really pinned my hopes on doing something I loved with two of my best friends. I just feel like complete shit now.
I feel like smoking weed daily actually made me healthy and kept my whatever the fuck that was away. I just feel terrible now and I feel like the only cure for me is either a very strict meat only diet, or going back to smoking weed but I'm afraid of getting hooked on it again and the diet, I hate the fact I have to resort to it if I'm honest, I'd rather be dead than have to live like this for the rest of my life where everyone else around me seems to have a regular life.
I don't eat much, I count my calories and I exercise, mainly go for an hour long walk, but every time I go home to see my family and they cook, I've no idea whats in there and how many calories are there, then I do my best to exercise but I feel like i'm gaining weight anyway. For the past few week or so its been raining so I wasn't able to go out for a walk and within 1.5 weeks I gained 2-3kg already. I hate myself so much right now, I'm unable to keep a steady weight and I just feel uncomfortable in my skin, I hate living like this...
I know we'll never speak again, but I felt terrible about how we ended off the other night, and I just wanted to apologize. I’m sorry for hurting you, I’m sorry that I got carried away like that, I’m sorry that I begged and pleaded for you to stay. I’m sorry that I made you feel unsafe, I never meant to do that. I always wanted you to feel safe with me, to be happy. But I wasn’t good enough for that. And for that, I'm sorry. If I knew that you felt that way, I would have worked on myself, so you can be happy and safe again. I would have done whatever it took to make it right, and to make you feel happy and safe again. I just wish I had you back in my life, and if you gave me the chance, I'll make sure you don't regret it. I should have just taken it maturely and let you go. But no, my emotions got the better of me. And I’m sorry. But I know that doesnt make it rightGoodbye, I’ll miss you, and can only wish you the best in life. I loved you then, I love you still.
I think something is wrong with my back, its getting more and more stiff, especially around the waist. I feel like I can't streighten myself up and I think its getting worse with time. I have no idea whats wrong with it
Pay up or DIEYour choice.
I don’t want to work anymore. How do I not work anymore?I wish I was born into a rich family.
I can't stop thinking about you. I know it's unhealthy and obsessive but I need you in my life, forever.
I've become everything I didn't want to be. It's hard seeing myself in the mirror because it just makes me so fucking angry and depressed. It's just that I still see the person I could have been and I just have to let that go because that version of me didn't get to exist.
I want you to text me. Just be the first one for once. I know I am clingy but please... I can't stop thinking about you.
Watching a bunch of loose women convince some girl to breakup with her long-term boyfriend so she can go "experience whoring" is the epitome of reddit culture.Genuinely do not understand the eagerness to break young couples up when neither of the two in the relationship is currently compromising their individual life goals. If they grow apart, they grow apart - but no reason to rush the breakup so they can go indulge in soul crushing degeneracy.
>>23921326I knew this place would damage me, because I was finally somewhere where I wanted to be, doing what I wanted after years of wanting it, and I finally got it. I was trying, and I saw so much about myself that came out and felt so much better about myself because I was moving forward. Now, I'm so much worse off, and all I have is lost time and the self destruction that will take even longer to fix. I didn't want to come here, not at all.
>>23921353What fucks me up the most, I'll be thinking "what if?" for the rest of my life. I didn't ask for much, I just wanted to be left alone to live my own life, to make my own decisions, to have the freedom to do what I wanted when I wanted to, I felt I was finally free of everything and everyone that held me down. I want to get over it, and I should, but just can't forgive them, and I'm tired of hearing their version of what happened. It just hurts, and it sucks to see how bad off I've become, even still getting drug to the ground.
>still regret a digital sexual relation I had Its the internet that's the problem I know it. Oh wait people had random sexual encounters before it could be digital
I can't stop thinking about a specific guy. I've literally only talked to him and handful of times, but I see him around and my heart just stops. I honestly could do better than him too. I've never felt this way about anyone.
>>23921254not gonna happen incel, fuck you
>>23921567neck yourself nigger
Don’t mind me just rambling about a local news article>yesterday a man was found dead behind a sketchy parking lot I know where it is>gun recovered near body>”no foul play suspected”>the guy was a restaurant co owner>today two sisters were killed in the restaurant he co owned>the shootings are connectedSus as fuck.
Too many Leo’s in my inbox. Nearly all of them are Leo’s. Where are all of the sweet Pisces/cancers hiding?
I’m ready for this fucking pandemic to go away. A lot of people seem happy because they’ve gotten to start working from home or going to school online but I would propose that if they’re that excited, they should’ve gotten out of that job anyway and that if it hasn’t yet, misery over the that situation too will set in. As for me, I hate working from home as much if not more as I hated my job before and I’m tired of this fucking thing putting our lives on hold. I’m as much as an introvert loner as the next guy but this shit isn’t normal and public life is almost a requirement for any kind of life.
They are a drain on your life and you believe them to be a necessity. You have no energy or drive for yourself, only others. You are miserable and can't even admit it due to selfishness being forbidden thinking path. After all, their happiness is paramount. That is what motivates you. Anything anyone else wants because that's what makes you happy. A proxy for your own happiness. Start living for yourself before you waste another second in silent agony and I promise you will find a reason to smile. I believe in you.
I want to go back to cigarettes, I'm thinking 2 a day this time. I've been off for 12 months now, don't really crave it, I'm ok not smoking but I think it'll help me with not being able to shit regularly and I tried loading my diet with fiber, I tried different varieties of diets, nothing worked and this makes me just feel uncomfortable and I never know when it'll happen to me, but it affects my sleep, how I feel during the day, or sometimes, during the week. I'm just afraid of cancer and contributing to it willingly.
I've been treated for asthma for over 4 months now and it turns out I don't have asthma. I still have the inhalers though and I wasn't told not to take them anymore. What the fuck do I do? I know I don't need to take them but isn't there a risk of some withdrawals or side effects if I just quit using them? the fucking retard of a doctor didn't say anything about stopping so I've no idea what to do, I'm just relying on google at this point
Alright this radio silence is a bit concerning. Come on, I was talking again even though I didn't want to. That status you put up was worrying, the fact that you've ignored everyone was worrying and even though we've had this problem, I don't want anything bad to happen.And S, I swear if this leads to anything bad I am going to kick your fucking ass so hard you little shit. And fuck, fuckity fuck fuck shitfuck.
Some of you mother fuckers just have such weird fuckin values. Honestly though it's pretty obvious you are probably CIA bots mostly saying stupid ass shit that nobody with a heart would ever believe because your whole goal is to torture lonely men huh? I don't know if you are CIA or not but still whatever the fuck funds you this is pathetic.
>>23921617cancers are just going through a lot rn okay
>>23920727It's not even over at 89 this life is just a little miserable speck in the grand scheme of things. You have forever to be.
Dear K, I don't how I lucked out and managed to get your attention, I think that maybe you feel like you don't feel ready or worthy of having someone who loves you fully because its easy to dwell on all the negative things that you were put through, I think its awesome how honest and kind you are.. and for some reason although I'm terrified of being close because this last one really made me depressed, I honestly cannot deny if your story is true, I just want to give you all I have and more, you deserve it. You said you had a dream of your ideal living situation, I want you to have it and more. I want you to feel like its something you could never lose because I can't help it, and it's strange but I don't think I can give you enough love, so take your time, I want you to trust me , anyways. Looks like you got back. Haha better cut this off.
parents think I actually finished uni and want to see the diploma..
>>23921020I do, I wait for her replies
>>23921903That's bretty gay my guy
>>23921903This almost sounds like it could be for me and it's nice so I'm gonna claim it.
>>23921981It's not for you at all
>>23921985I knew you'd say that but I am going to pretend anyway.
Just how bad of an idea is it to get involved with a mentally ill 18 year old girl?
You are not a dollar bill to be liked by everyone.
I have just under a month before I leave the most retarded cuck state and that is way too long to wait especially as the weather gets nicer and every complete moron is now outside. They act in such stupid ways that they inspire one to want to beat them to death with a hammer because they're actually too dense to realize that half their bullshit threatens your safety.
>>23922006Don't pretend either
>>23922020Pretending eternally, motherfucker.
You are not a coin to be tossed by everyone you meet.
Want to take a 2 month vacation in July from work. After that I'll go back to school so work will be a no go for atleast 6 months or so. I'll need to tell my boss this month. Should I just quit or should I try to get them to modify my contract?
It doesn't bother me that she's dating other men. It bothers me that she's dating other men, it doesn't work out, and then she says there are no men.
No one seems to understand or appreciate how much control I have. I am incredibly merciful.
I’m starting to realize that I won’t be able to accomplish these things I want to accomplish with my life over the next few years. How depressing...
>>23922111I respect your digits.
>>23917170 I’m a weak faggot who gets depressed at slightest fuckups from fear of being alone again. It was finally going good frens and now some shit’s happened (not even anyone’s fault, just bad luck) and I’m worried she lost interest. I’m fucking paranoid schizo.
>>23921683Calm down and ask yourself the right questions.
>>23922155Try to see that through with her instead of worrying on your own? It won't solve anything. Just try to ask her.
Today I Learned how to tie a hangman's noose. Im feeling very productive today
>write in group chat>either get ignored or get a dismissive message, jokes fly over people's heads, everyone is dead serious, reply once a day if not leaving messages on seen>don't bother talking for a week or so>someone asks question>I reply to be helpful>"where have you been anon"I don't fucking get people sometimes
Back to the grindstone, 2 hours left!
>>23922307I did that in hs best shit ever, my rapist had me blow a big hard sexy load in her cervix because of it mmm
my attention isn't enough because i don't have a pussy. it's so obvious
What an annoying poster that was. I don't mind interviews... But I hate terrible interviewers. Yuck.
Christ what a shit day. Or day and yesterday evening, I guess.Lately it's like every time my luck is turning, when I think I'm going in the right direction there's some bullshit problem or setback. Like the one today. What a fucking pisstake. I swear if it isn't a simple, obvious fix I'm going to do something really fucking stupid. It would work as well...and no harm done to anyone.
Why the autism over hugs? There was something wrong with that person.
>>23922029Stfu stupid ass ewhore
>>23917503I am screenshotting this post to hold onto it. Thank you anon
I'm 28, I'm at that age where all my friends are now in serious romantic relationships and have serious jobs. They barely have time for me anymore. I just got out of a shitty chaotic relationship, I need to take time to work on myself. I'm unemployed and having to start from the bottom career wise. But I just feel so lonely. I don't even want a partner right now, the only thing I'd want from it is to fill the void all my friends being busy has left. Its really frustrating. I find myself hoping one of them breaks up and I can have them back in my life the way things were before. All I can do is keep working on myself to the point where I can pursue a healthy relationship for myself but fuck its a long way off
>>23922770Not trying to be mean but reading this is just lame. You mother fuckers always just capitulate to the dumbest judgement imaginable. It's like you are all beholden to a retarded God that thinks people are evil by virtue of existence. Y'know the God that invented the concept of Original Sin?
>>23922669No, go away.
>>23922800No ewhore you fuck off
You fuckers think if someone doesn't have money they are a failure. Like the only way to be successful is to make money. How fucking retarded.
>>23920906Are you doing that stupid ritual for that YouTube blood cult
Life is not about making money. Money is a CHORE
Yeah I DO have to have a tough guy attitude because you guys are VULTURES. You prey on the "weak" because you are petty.
You don't go to a 9-5 for money you go to one for your family. I don't have a family or even a place in the world so fuck off.
Poor angry couple ill pray you compromise your relationship for the sake of your child and well beings
>>23922276I might do that but I’m worried that it’ll just make shit worse, because I don’t want her to take me for a paranoid schizo. I believe she’s actually girl that is worth serious involvement, not just some roastie good only for fucking and nothing else, so I’m worried I’ll lose her. I haven’t been in anything serious for a long time and 4chan fucked my view of women so maybe that’s why I’m so terrified about every slip in our relationship.
>>23921903You are right I do not feel worthy of this much attention.
I crossed a line and I can't go back
>>23922963May god have mercy on your soul
NOOO I'M FALLING IN LOVE WITH A VTUBER NOOO LET ME MEET HER IRL FIRST
I know you're in contact with other women or girls I'm not a cuck but I don't think I care, been really melancholic
I don't mind that you're trying to get at me, I mind that you think I'm too dumb to notice.
What have I done? Please don't take my advice, you baka.
>>23922789Don't be afraid of losing or being good enough, your debt is paid
Important email got incorrectly flagged as junk and thus got deleted <10 days. Meanwhile there’s actual junk in my email box. Fuck outlook
>>23920148to add to this, i planned on killing myself two days after the breakup but ended up checking myself into inpatient. I felt better while i was there but as soon as i got out I started feeling shitty again. And now the only things keeping me from killing myself is hurting my family and holding onto this stupid hope that lll get my ex back someday
>2 hinge matches>South African girl>fun, nice, decent banter, pretty, very into me>aaand she's fat>other girl>generally meh conversation and no chemistry>not fatI cant just find a girl who is both cool and not fat? Why is this such a big ask?
>>23923622Make the south African girl lose weight Easy
ever had a spontaneous hug during comunion brosbest feel ever, i like to think that came from God
>>23923640The chances of a girl losing weight drastically diminish when she's in a relationship
Dayum, that was brutal. I hope I made you cry, bitch. Don't fucking talk to me, I'm bad for you.
>>23923699Why do you talk like a niggerWenches always cry
>>23923689You're either a woman or a virgin.
>>23923724Kek nice projection
>>23923699>Don't fucking talk to me, I'm bad for you.Are you trying to hide your vulnerable side by proclaiming this? CuteBad to the boneB-B-B-B-Bad