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Get It Off Your Chest!
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I attempted to go to college multiple times. The one time it did work out I didn't like the actual job once I worked in the areas, the course is interesting and I like it, but the work is too stressful, too much responsibility, the hours are terrible, sometimes you work 70 hour weeks and have to stay the nights at the residential units, pretty much no free time. The pay is also the same if not lower than most regular jobs.

I don't regret being in college, but I regret doing this course, I don't think its worth it if I can just get a regular job, which is less stressful and the pay is the same. Thing is, its just easier to get a job with the degree.

Did I already lose at life? I won't have a chance at getting education again and I just know I won't work in that area. I'm not really missing out much, not on money anyway, but I'm stuck living a regular life now, with a regular job, even with a useless college degree.
Is life just going to suck now? is there any job I can get that pays average but I can get full time hours in and find satisfactory? something stable.
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>posts tanjiro
>"youre embarassing,"
Idk who u are "kinuwhatever," but uh yeah nice meeting you at the x hotel
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>>23421396
Everyone in my family has anger issues including me and we have to care for seniors in our house but nobody has any patience. The levels of stressfulness are so high and I don't want to sound as if I'm above everyone in that I have my own times of not managing my anger but I feel as i'm in a house with brutes. Everyone gets mad at the most little things its awful
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i think im just an awful person, i dont know why i do the things i do. I do arbitrarily good things, i give money to the homeless, i try to support my friends and generally be respectful or understanding of other people. However I recently went through an awful break up which made me bitter and jaded, after being completely heartbroken i became cruel and said some pretty horrific things to my ex. Funnily enough it didnt even hit me what an awful person ive been until something else i did, i had messaged this girl a few times on tinder over 2 days and then got drunk and randomly deleted my account cause i couldn't cope with the stress of it . Now im just thinking about how awful this random person must feel and if they are wondering what they did wrong after all i had done is express interest.
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2 days until the next iteration

i think ive made improvements every single time, but the next character marks the start of season 2, so there has to be a real noticeable leap
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I’m horny again. I wish we could fuck. Complete submission. I keep having flashbacks to your wonderful sadistic face.
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https://youtu.be/Nggqe-L9ZQ8
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>tfw you experience trauma through no fault of your own and then developed coping mechanisms that don't seem normal to mainstream society
>get told to "get a better outlook on life", "pull yourself up by the bootstraps", "unfuck your mind"
If you can't give any helpful insights that aren't platitudes then don't say anything at all. It won't kill you to shut up and let people with similar problems talk among each other for once. You are not a visitor at the zoo, you are not owed being heralded as the great helper of the helpless with your lukewarm advice.
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I should have figured this wouldn't go to plan. Oh well, at least I got some me time after work, even if I'm tired as fuck.

Can't wait for you to moan about going so late, like it's my fault, or trying to organise something for today, when it was meant to be yesterday and the change wasn't my fault.

Also why do you always fucking call when you know I'm probably busy? It's so annoying.
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>ugh don't you know that when you acknowledge and feel your negative emotions it like totally makes it harder for us to be evil to you! you are supposed to just let us bully you! plus like your catharsis is actually bad for you and the reason things are horrible!
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You don’t inspire romance.
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i know i should give you the benefit of the doubt but i feel like youre playing me like my last relationship. Corona or what not you saying you dont want to go on a date is fucking this up. I dont want to wait months for you i havent even seen you irl.
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>>23421760
How might I satisfy you better m'lady?
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i realize i wont be able to join any competition or JUMp comic after that massive meltdown and the so called oppositing interests...

in the end all is good and so on
and life has different measures
and... and. idk less hate to anyone
i guess who knows

and fuck zionist
kill and drink the babies blood
or whatev idk


guess god has come and it is hungry
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I used to have a big beard and I looked like a crazy homeless person.
I just shaved it and now I look like a tranny (or someone who’s trying to be)

I can’t win
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There’s another pair of socks I don’t know what to do with. They look a bit fuzzy on the picture and they marked differently from brand new (probably because tags are off), so I’m afraid these were used. What do I do? Should I buy them or not?
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>>23421970
Sock Saga continues
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Are we talking Versace socks or something like that anon? Maybe I nice woolen tube variant for the winter?
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why is there never enough distance online why do i keep encountering people i want to avoid why why why i fucking hate it and i just had a panic attack even though they wouldn't recognize me cause its been years since we've spoken
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>>23421790
right to jail
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Whats the best way to go about a job?
There are no ads for jobs in my local area, noone is saying anything about available work.
What do I do if I walk into a store? hardly I'm just gonna hand my CV to someone that works there to pass it onto someone, but what do I actually do?
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The cretin walks late at night. He’s on the move again.
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3 months ago we stopped talking. And I still think about you...I wonder if you are thinking about me too. Considering I rejected you, I deserve to suffer now just like how you must have felt back then. I want to reach out but I know that no matter what our relationship would be doomed to fail....even if itll be happy for a short while. Maybe I am just infatuated with the idea of you or what could have been. I just don't think I'll be able to connect with anyone the same way we did...I want to stop thinking about you but we literally have the exact same taste in vidya/music so my distractions are not fucking working......fucking hell
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I’m so alone and so scared, I thought I was a man but shit I’m feeling like a frightened boy.

Over the course of 6 years my best friend since high school left the country, my other closer friends all left and made it outside. I’m 32 now and I had my younger brother to see and talk to, now he’s engaged and he’s mainly available over text. It’s scary out there, I can’t really find friends. I reached out to some older friends their all married now or super awkward and can’t see my self being close with.

I wish I had a bro irl I can get drunk with and get my feelings off my chest for real and get back to it the next day never mention that night until the next one.
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sorry just needed you to know that you're still being an asshole and you're still hurting me. change this course up or let me heal in peace. simple. we don't talk anymore, so the only one that could possibly be bringing you down is yourself. this shit ain't on me. i'd have been so damn good to you you don't even know.
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>>23421760
I'm about to be inspiring an ass whooping.
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I feel like I'm honestly shitty at my job. I waste so much time, the customer is not happy with my work either. I buy so much unnecessary shit, but probably I should get ready to get fired.
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I think about it every waking second of every single day, and I wish I could take it back. This is making me suicidal
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If they didn't want us to have sex on the first date they should have made sex less enjoyable.
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we belong together, why can't you see?
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>>23422378
I can you can't. You barely give me the time of the day.
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I want more chaos. I want more war. I genuinely want to see the world burn.
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>>23422406
i could say the exact same for you.
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>>23422430
Perhaps that's because I'm avoiding you so I don't get hurt again.
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>>23422448
perhaps i too am avoiding you so i don't get hurt. you were the only one doing the hurting. all i wanted was to love you. but apparently you want something more and grander.
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>>23422473
I want to love you anon, I just want to love others as well. Why can't you let me have that?
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>>23422514
you should only have one girl at a time. not a fan of open relationships, friend. choose or you lose. i don't have a problem with letting someone who doesn't have or show respect for me go
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>>23421178
Lied about what anon, what did they do to you?
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>>23422529
Than go I shall
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>>23421878
I can relate.
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>>23422529
broooo ill let you be wife number 1 tho dont worry about wife number 2 bro i dont even like her
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>>23421396
I still need antidepressants;
however, now is the time that I feel like I really need them.
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>>23422537
your loss. you didn't get to know me. had you, you'd know there isn't another woman out there for you. there isn't another who will love you like i.
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good luck finding and having to settle for a low iq whore. but that must be your type..
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>>23422560
fine more crayons for us hoe
i was going to save you the blue ones and everything
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>>23422560
>low iq whore
You are not my type
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>>23422586
thanks! i like pink though so maybe it's for the best.
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>>23422560
you sound self-entitled as fuck kek. i’m not like other girls uwu am i right? idc who you are but show it, don’t preach it sis. hopefully someday someone will see you as valuable as you see yourself.
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I cannot get rid of OCD and my mind is not leaving me alone with catastrophic thoughts over the dumbest shit and it's tiring as fuck that I can't do things, I'm under a ton of medication and nothing is helping to make the thoughts shut up and just be a normal person
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>>23422612
being self-entitled and bitchy is most likely a result of being treated like shit. what can i do besides be mad someone doesn't realize what they lost.
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>>23422622
you can adapt a calmer “their loss” mindset and move on. if you don’t think they deserve you, they probably don’t, so why waste energy dwelling on it?
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I think this is some sort of deluded spongebob squarepants machination to rub me wrong
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>walking my dogs with my bf
>see a guy with a black lab off leash
>try to avoid him, his dog BOLTS towards me and my dogs
>pick up dogs while the lab is jumping on me
>yell at the dog's owner to leash his fucking dog
>the guy doesn't apologize at all and snidely replies "oh yeah, sure, I'll do that"
>tell him if I see him at the park without his dog again I'm calling animal control
>"yeah, you do that honey"
>tells me to "have a good day" and waves me off like I'm being ridiculous
wtf??? lol? How can he get all uppity and shitty towards ME when he's the one with the out of control mongrel jumping on strangers? LOL
I also ran into an old man on the way out that had HIS DOG OFF LEASH TOO. I told him, LEASH YOUR FUCKING DOG, he he starts mumbling in boomerese. I went GOOD THING YOU'RE GONNA DIE SOON, OLD FART and walked away. Felt great
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>>23422699
i dont want to rub you at all bro keep your rubbable bits away from me and my wife

if i wanted to rub something id get a cat
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>>23422692
the only thing i'm upset about is that we never really got a chance to open up to one another. they act very egotistical, so yeah, i honestly don't fucking know why i care so much but i do. i feel deep inside they may struggle but they'll never be honest about that. just wish i could be the one for them. wish they'd appreciate what they have and not after it's gone.
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I do not have to primp for you.
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hello I am done shitting :)
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>>23422734
ok honestly i am also just preaching as i am in a similar situation as you. i’m still gonna keep saying it, though. gotta stop thinking of those who walk away, even if they did so out of fear. we all make mistakes and most likely contributed to the way things are now. forgive yourself and others, everyone’s just doing their best.
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>>23421396
I quite frankly don't give a shit if I die anymore. My life is fucking fantastic on paper but I don't give a shit about any of it anymore.

>>23421561
I'm looking for a chick that I could tie up, dominate, and fuck her brains out in the middle of my roadtrip next week. Hmu at discord and well see.
discord: Liamedwards#5959
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>>23422009
Urgh!! Socks are socks, fuck the brands! Perfume, scarves, shoes, coats, are worth being bought from certain brands. But socks?! Ffs!
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Why am I always madly in love with someone when I'm not around them and somewhat in love when I am around them? Is it their presence calming me down or the realization that the person in front of me differs from the person in my head?
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>>23422813
for me, i take it as my limbic system screaming to get back into contact with that person and forcing my neocortical system to come up with reasons why
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When I finally come back down to earth I am going to fucking squish you boy
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>>23422798
it's hard to let things go when this person actually indirectly bullied me amongst a group of others. i want to know why they can act, talk, and treat me like that when in secret i know they feel differently but can't admit it. why'd they need to bring me down due to a fault of them not being able to handle love. it just hurts, friend.
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>>23422813
I have turbo anxiety, so it's usually the latter for me. It's not that they're any less appealing, but rather that I'm brought back down to reality to see that things are the way they are for a reason, and that makes me sad.
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I miss you
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>>23422862
Then tell me right now lol.
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>>23422866
I just did
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>>23422837
> this person actually indirectly bullied me amongst a group of others
they don’t sound too great desu. i understand it hurts, though, of course. but by giving them this indirect attention, aren’t you just fueling the flames even more? spare yourself, really. you’re just giving more and more by doing this and you’re not getting anything back, so it’s gonna keep hurting. if you think you can get some answers from them, i’d suggest you reach out, at least for closure. i don’t know your situation exactly or for how long you haven’t spoken, but if enough time has passed you can at least try to get some answers. maybe you’ve both matured enough to have a conversation.
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>>23422708
I got the diarrheaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
Good luck take your probiotics and fiber
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>>23422765
Good job I'm proud of you!
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>>23422949
I hope you mean you messaged them personally just now, not that anonymous post thrown in the void.
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Time and time again, I'm surprised when things actually just work. Usually, they don't, and I have to just suffer.
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>>23422985
please dont make him clarify i want to think they miss me
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You will not like it when the transmission begins.
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You won’t like it when I start speaking directly into your ear from the inside.
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>>23423029
Don’t live on false hope found on here.
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>>23422985
Hell no, why would I text someone who doesn't see me that way 'I miss you' irl. Might as well pour spaghetti on them.
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>>23423048
I don't mind, you have a nice voice.
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I miss you every goddamn minute
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>>23423073
Ok then just ask them how they are or whatever. How are you so certain they don’t see you that way?
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Hey baby do this for me, as you lay your head down to rest tonight I want you to close your eyes and visualize dandelions. Think of them as much as you can, say the word in your mind. Do this and your crush or the one you miss may text you
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>>23423097
That'd be a neat trick. I don't have a phone. Could they use telepathy instead?
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>>23423097
Okay
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>>23423097
Nice, will try this tonight
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>>23423090
>How are you so certain they don’t see you that way?
Because he just sees me as a no good whore. Here have a whore joke as a thank you for listening:

Q: Why do Jews like to watch porno movies backward? A: They like the part where the whore gives the money back.
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I don't agree with everyone all the time. There are just some things that personally I agree with myself only and that I find to be different from everyone else.
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>>23423140
>I don't have a phone
What?
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I think the only reason why my family can have control over my opinions is because I am living in their home. Had I not been in their home, I would be free to have whatever opinion I want to have.
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Part of me wants to be your friend again, but I don't know if it would be fully honest. I honestly don't know if I even love you without the pedestal I put you on. You were literally the perfect friend for me on paper, so why I hurt so fucking bad in our relationship confused the hell out of me.
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If to you it means the most
Hold on tight, don't let it go
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>>23421396
My biggest secret is that I really want to indulge in cannibalism.
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I jerked off and came on my sisters bedsheets last night
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ariell
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>>23423177
Don't really need one. Not like I talk to anybody.
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>>23423212
Why should I have the right to be so selfish?
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Loser.
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>>23423216
I want to be eaten.
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>>23423249
who says it is selfish?
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Me: hey is that-
Get back to work brain
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I just realized I haven't had sex with any girl I've been in love with, to be fair I've only been in love with 3 girls in my life. All the times I've had sex is with hookers or girls that are OK. I wonder what sex feels like when you actually feel a connection with the person though.
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>>23423322
I kno
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I don't like you. I do not care about you. You could die the next day and I would feign sympathy. I only put you with you because you're x's girlfriend. I hope he dumps you so people can stop forcing this friendship.
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>>23422286
Still lying I see. You're so good at it!
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>>23422286
>Dont talk anymore
>Still hurting you

Choose one
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I don’t have to muck around with you. I can go anywhere. Be anything.
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>>23423532
Go on then and quit muckin' about.
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>>23423532
>I can go anywhere
Like 4chan for example
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>>23423484
where's da lie
>>23423489
just because someone isn't being direct to me doesn't mean they still can't be an indirect jerk about me. of course it's likely there are misunderstandings between the two of us. they do not go about things in the right way, however.
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>>23423330
People don't always feel the same way. I wouldn't want anybody to just settle for me, even if they made me happy.
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>>23423560
what if that someone feels the same way.
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Almost 60 degrees today and I couldn't get my fat ass motivated enough to go for a bike ride or a walk.
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>>23423532
So go. Stop dancing with me
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you might as well go tell the entire town how in love with you i am, you dumbass. make it so i'm just so anxious and overwhelmed i can't say a goddamn word for the rest of my life.
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>>23423559
>misunderstandings
>being a jerk

Choose one
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>>23423590
Couldn't is just making excuses for right now.
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>>23423603
Whats the issue???

You are embarrassed of love?? Then that is not love. Love has no shame.

This person is a dumb ass for loving you is true
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>>23423604
leaning more towards misunderstandings. that still doesn't mean they've really been all that nice to me, though. i need someone caring who can help me out of my shell. i am almost there but not quite...a jerk wouldn't be able to help me with that whatsoever.
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>>23423409
Okay, get used to it
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>>23423603
If that's what you want, sure.
Let me just sign into Facebook here...
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>>23423637
Why would you want a person who in your opinion a jerk to help you?

Jerk or not.nobody owes you anything.
Only you are responsible for your own happiness/needs
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Feeling kind of funny
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sending me unfunny memes and I type back lol to keep the peace
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I feel completely out of place in this generation. I was raised mainly by my Christian grandma since my dad was often away and my mum was usually working to support me and my sister. My dad was raised in a very "Victorian" conservative "stiff upper lip" style and was born in Kenya (when it was part of the British empire), my mum was basically a Tomboy 40 years before they became popular and is very "proper" and traditional. As a result of this, I don't really like any form of modern media, I'm political apathetic (I have opinions but I really don't get twisted up about them like people tend to these days) and really dislike the modern way of living. If I had the chance to be dumped in any point in time I'd probably like to be a 1920s farmer, a 1800s explorer or an 1850s fisherman.


I look at my generation and I can't relate to anything they're saying, thinking or feeling - usually I just think they're unnessiarily angry or overwhelmingly ignorant. Any music I do listen to is usually from the 1950s-1970s, most of the films I watch are 1920s-1960s and the "newest" book I read was published in 1949. I just feel like the innocence of the World has been lost thanks to the dawn of instant communication and quick transportation - nothing feels special anymore and there's really no sense of wonder about anything since I could look up images of just about anything I wanted to right now. I really just want things to be simple like they were in the past and it really guts me that that'll never happen again.
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>>23423735
Drink tea
You might have the diarrhea
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>>23423801
Yuh I heard that.
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>>23423202
Dont have to love somebody to be friends. You also dont have to have sex with them either
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I have figured it out
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>>23423745
Keep peace??? Stop be dishonest and tell them what you really think you ate doing more damage by not being honest so you are in the wrong
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I'm stressed, low levels of serotonin. The problem is that the solution kind of requires me to have increased levels of serotonin in order to obtain the things that lower stress. I'm stuck in the level below minimum requirement to be able to help myself move forward.

I need to climb higher in the social hierarchy, sort of become a better person that a borderline low life that drugs turned me into since quitting. I also need a job, but because I'm stressed I get very anxious, socially especially, I'm always burnt out, I can't wake up early because stress causes me to oversleep so I can't find stable employment. I've illness/conditions caused/worsened by stress, to fix them I need to lower stress as simple as it sounds.

I just don't know where to begin with all that. I thought about anti depressants but I feel like I'd become dependent on them and also I think they'll only "mask" my stress and anxiety, just like drugs did, and when I stop taking them it'll all come crashing onto me, just like it has when I quit smoking weed and pretty much every other stuff I used to do, including smoking cigarettes. Which put me in the position I am in now. How do I move forward from here I do not know. Maybe antidepressants can at least give me a headstart so I have lower stress levels in order to fix the real issues. But idk where to even begin or how to go about all this, its overwhelming.
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>>23423860
Don’t listen to this schizo fuck, simpin with lol is free, no need to show her your rare pepe collection and compare ylyls, sometimes a lol just keeps the peace
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>>23421433
Lol don't play domb
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HUMPSTATION. ME? TO SLOT INTO THE GUMBALL SNATCH
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That fucking pepperoni pussy you have bring that on over shit
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Rent free
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Going to be 34 this year then 35 next And I'm still too nervous/shy to approach girls I like. I'm pathetic.
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>work as a letter carrier for the post office
>delivering mail today
>some old man wants me to take a package so he doesn't have to go to the office with it
>I know there's a rule about not taking anything over 10oz so I tell him I can't
>he starts throwing a tantrum, calling me an asshole and a piece of shit and this and that
>dont say anything and just walk away because I'm on the job and supposed to be professional
>look up the rule after I leave
>realize I was mistaken (only applies to shit with stamps I guess) and I could have taken the package
>no way in hell am I going back after he disrespected me like that, whether I was wrong or not

How does someone get so fucking old without gaining the smallest amount of manners or respect? What a fucking old bastard.

I guess he doesn't realize I know where he lives.
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>Before nap: Okayish, kinda tired, just chilling
>After nap: Awful, don't want to do anything, genuinely feel like I'm dying
You know, this really doesn't help me at all when I'm depressed, anxious, fresh out of meds, and haven't gotten a call from my psychiatrist to remind me about my appointment or say that I've missed it. I have no idea what to do besides stare blankly at my wall.
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>>23423801
It's pretty bad. But at least we can be thankful that we have access to things that you do like. Now we just have try to find other people who are similar. That's hard but not impossible. We know they exist.
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Well I told my doctor I have a plan for suicide. Hopefully this wasn't a mistake.
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My brain just wont let me.
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I'll give you empathy at first but if you demonstrate to me that you have no heart I will take it away.
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you don't even like anime you fuckers
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>>23424298
Wish this was them.
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>>23423907
Eat healthy, go outside, exercise, all that.
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It's ok that you hit me. I deserved it. I'm not resentful of it I promise. I'm stupid.
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>>23424449
Delusions. Whoever hit you is a monster.
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>>23424449
Getting hit is never ok anon, unless it's in the bedroom and mutually agreed upon.
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>>23424056
I've got a lot of people living rent free inside my head. The alternative to obsessing over other people is being confronted by me.
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I wanted someone to miss me as much as I missed you, but now I don't think I can do it because she'll probably fall back hard and I can't even be there for her then. I still dream about you at night. I dread the idea of ever seeing you again but I can't seem to let go for some reason. I'm just waiting for the day that I see your picture on /b/ and I hate the thought but it isn't even unrealistic.
I'd like a normal gf next time.
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>date a bunch of different guys
>don't like any of them
i just want a bf i actually like
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>really wanted to teach english abroad for travel xp
>graduated uni late
>didn't go out of uni straight away, should have but i kept trying to get a "real" job (ended up only getting mediocre positions anyway) because i was super fucking poor and had tons of debt and medical bills to pay
>age 30 now
>still want to sell all my possessions and go for it
>no way, would be the end of my potential to get married, get a decent career, and live a decent life
>wonder if i'll ever stop regretting this missed opportunity
just fuck me. i guess my cope can be i have medical issues that need treatment in my home country and doing it through foreign doctors would be super awkward. yeah.

i have remote work now but even wihtout the rona lockdowns, if i flew off somewhere i'd have to have my work day in the middle of the night, which would leave me as a zombie. i can't have anything, can i?
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I miss her. After being away from her I see it could never happen. I want her to be happy since I see I was completely shitty but seeing all her cute little status' for her new boyfriend when she never did that for me hurts. I want her back but rather kill myself to subject her to that.
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Seriously considering going on leave from university. I can't take another semester of online classes for an engineering degree when my mental health is fucking shot and nothing I try is helping. Even as a NEET like this I'm miserable. If I can't be allowed to kill myself, at least allow me to live at home and try hopefully to recover the functioning of a healthy human being - not to suffer in pain, getting bitched at by my professors because I didn't do the work when I don't even want the degree, when I think about killing myself all the time and it's hard just to show up to class. For the world that doesn't take you seriously, suicide is always an option. But it's not one I need yet. I just want this off my back
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Dumb braggart wench
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I wish I could take it back every single day. Im so sorry bro. I hope youre ok wherever you are. I will never know.
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>>23421396
I got scammed for the first time. I'm so into fart porn that I literally paid someone on twitter to fart in my face to see if I like it. I really fucking did that - paid someone to fart in my face for an hour. If i stopped thinking with my dick for 10 seconds and did research, I would have seen people reporting that account as a scammer. I'm so fucked up and I need help.
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Hey listen. Remember baby, dandelions
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I put you on layaway, it is a small matter for me.
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>>23425000
that's not how it works. gl losing them
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I want to kill myself, but I don't want to die. I just want nothing to do with this shit anymore
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>>23421396
I wasn't a good person online back then, I had discord before I dropped that from my life, had a friend who I thought was a nice dude, but I fucked that up after some petty drama, went on to say things about me, after thinking were probably true, it caused us to burn bridges. Eventually it turned out okay in the end, and he gave me another chance. But somewhere along the way, I had to fuck that up with my neglectfulness, and it burned again and that's why I always have to make sure to keep friends very close because they won't be there forever.
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What the fuck.
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>>23425060
Fuck you
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>>23424460
They aren't. Calling a human a monster is so deceitful and cruel. I deserved it, I can't blame them. I just hope they realize it's ok and I hold no resentment over it.
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>>23424990
Yeah, I forgot
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How much can i take
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>>23425065
Why did you deserve it or think you did?
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>she wants to join me on a week long fast
Uh.. I doubt that is a good idea because she is breastfeeding. Hmm. I think 48 hours is the max she should go. Right? It isn't like I am fasting for weight loss just meditation.
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>>23425083
I don't really want to go into details. I crossed a line, I didn't hit them but there are still boundaries I should have respected.
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>>23425093
Would you think it's ok to hit someone if they crossed a boundary with you?
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>>23425093
You still don't deserve to be hit. Have you tried making up with them? Have they apologized?
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>>23425097
Depending on the boundary, yes.
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>>23425100
so, to add, even if that boundary was of equal importance to you as this boundary was to them?
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>>23425101
Well, I am a little confused by your question but from what I understood from it, yes.
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>>23425099
We seem to be on good terms. They seem a bit guilted however. Hitting someone isn't pleasant even if they deserved it.
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>>23425108
They seem to be sorry. If you forgive them make sure you tell them
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I dream of mornings on the deck of a humble home, looking out on the grassy hills with a cup of malty tea, and someone by my side. Exploring towns and places we've never seen before, she uses it for inspiration for her projects, and I look for ways to grow my own art. A space in the home with a gym that looks out on those same hills, and if its pleasant enough, I can lift the weights outside, next to my meditation space, my targets, and my other training apparati. My demonstrate my art in the evenings and she helps me grow in it.
But such a life cannot be lived. My damage has put me on a different path, and nobody I love should be subjected to what I really am.
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I'm angry at the pastor who molested and beat me 30+years ago. Upset that others involved won't talk and back me up! Still a pastor, still being worshipped by brain dead morons!
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I am burnt out from last semester and am stressed out from all of a sudden having a lot of homework assignments and a test after Christmas this semester. College is turning into Hell for me.
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Talking to that girl really changed the way I see my current shitty life. I’m ready for what’s next and I’ll make the best out of it.

Fighting to keep my current couple because of fear of change is starting to sound more and more like a bad idea. I thought staying together would be an achievement to be proud of. But she’s not demonstrating interest and the lack of a romantic side to the relationship really is sinking it down. I don’t know where this will lead me but I think I’m due for a change...
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you guys

i am just so excited

for all of us
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AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHGHHHHHH
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>>23425234
oh i feel it anon
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every time I talk to you, there is something going horribly wrong. can you just chill the fuck out for a second. I know I have issues from absorbing all your bs, but you need to stop turning everything into some "I WANT TO DIEEEE" bullshit.
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>>23422109

There's work online. Good luck.
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>Look through girls on a dating site
>The ugly ones make me feel depressed
>The average ones make me feel disinterested
>The hot ones make me imagine that they are out of my league/too much competition
This is not a good way to meet people wtf is wrong with society that this technology was embraced?
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>>23422109
just ask if theyre hiring?
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>>23422837
Indirect threats? How can that come to fruition?
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I am trapped in such unbearable guilt. It's inescapable. Nothing can get my mind off of what I did. I'm just..... I'm drowning. I'm thinking dark thoughts. Suicide may be my only way out
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>>23423166
Ahaha. That’s a good one.
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I went on a walk earlier and found a bridge not too far from my campus, the sun was setting and it was really pretty
Then I realized just how far the fall would be, and I started thinking about how easy it would be to throw myself off of it
It actually felt really good thinking about it
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>>23421396
I'm 23 and going to be homeless again soon, first time was when I was 17. Back then my great uncle died and the bank sent some shady people over to evict us, I didn't really know what was going on, people just came into the house and told me to get my stuff and leave. And now it's going to happen again.
I just hate my life so much. I should've committed suicide back then, I thought about it a lot. That whole experience was pretty traumatic and changed me forever.

I didn't decide to be born to my mother, ok, I never consented to inheriting her debt, her reverse mortgage, etc... I just wanted a normal upbringing, not this shit. I should really kill myself because it's too late now, my future's already ruined and there's no recovering it, it was ruined the moment I was born. My mother might as well have strangled me to death with the umbilical cord. Now the government will step in, like it did before, to make matters worse.
I'll never forget the time some fat fuck in sunglasses knocked on my door and told me to get out. I was a fucking child man, what the fuck. I hope this stupid fucking country burns to the ground.
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I was so broken from everything I wanted something, anything, good to happen.But that can't happen. Just make sure my fire is out. Go ahead and take the lead. I just wanted something good for once but go ahead and take it. Your suffering deserves it. Obviously I deserve nothing and I deserve to be reminded every waking second that you have it and that I don't. I shouldn't deserve it. Won't ever deserve it. I'm scum. Obviously.
Could have said 'here are some real good options'. Helped me. But no.
I hope covid ends and you taste even a shred of my panic. That she goes back out with her friends and does all the things you can't do. And you, in your terror, scramble desperately to hang on to her.
Fuck you.
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Starting to think I'm physically incapable of succeeding at social interaction.
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And you'll die alone because you're a useless cunt that can't do anything outside of that room.
Good luck you dumb lanky faggot.
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You’re looking more and more like a whole sale hog with each days passing aren’t you?
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>>23425310
bullying and joking about someone does not = threats...what u on about anon
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>>23425411
...Dad?
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>>23425154
This is sweet, anon! Despite your damage, I hope that you find yourself in thia one day.
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I love him, please leave me alone now. I found someone that makes me happy... he's so perfect. I will never change my mind about you now, please get lost. My time with you is over, you're a terrible person.
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>>23421396
Idk if you really like me or not. It kinda feels like you're using me as a rebound but uhh I guess I'll keep talking to you for now.
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>>23425482
Fucking finally. And when what he is shows through in full force whine here so I can laugh at you for being such an absolute moron.
Fuck you both.
Fuck you
Fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you.
I hope you both die.
Ruin me for your benefit fuck you.
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I've never been more in love. He is the first man I've felt safe with. Ever.
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>>23425502
Okay, just stay away from me, say whatever you want, throw all your abuse at me but stay away.
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>>23425531
Until you goad a deranged faggot into blasting him in the face with a handgun.
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Ik they always say after she breaks up with you that if you loved her you’ll just want her to be happy, but that makes no sense to me. I loved her to the ends of the earth and she made me feel the worst I’ve ever felt so honestly I just hope that the same thing happens to her and when it does she thinks about how this is how I must’ve felt when she did it to me
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>>23425531
what about him specifically makes you feel safe?

>I had a gf who told me she only slept well when I was in the room. I never asked why, but I want to know.
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>>23425535
You're messed up buddy. Insane in the membrane edgelord.
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>>23425543
His confidence, I've never met anyone that confident before. He told me no one could hurt me know. It's unfair how deeply I am falling.
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>>23425552
now*

I think safety is what I needed, all along.
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>>23425546
You're well on track. >>23425552
Seems the only thing you care about is a workplace homicide. Oh right, goodbye.
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Sorry for being a dick about that, man. That was uncalled for, I don't know where that came from.
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>>23425588
>Oh pls handgun-san
Nah
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>>23425595
wut?
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>>23425445
Bully and joking about what? The topic of intensity is dependent upon the perceived threat. I would say anyone can bully and joke, but should be done in dignity. Also public humiliation is way worse than friendly teasing.
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I think you're a coward and a liar above all else. You use the word love but you're not willing to fight for anything. You care about your own comfort. You don't love others, you love what people can do for you. You're pathetic.
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It will be funny to watch you fall apart when your 'love' means something and he evaporates into a mess of his inhibitions. Good luck.
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I mean come on, man. You set a goal for a new lifestyle and shit, and I'm happy for you, but we both know that you don't have the willpower for it, so stop taking yourself too seriously.
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>>23425624
You have shown nothing worth abandoning comfort for.
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i would fight for him if i knew he for certain cared about me. and i'm completely allowed to be scared, nervous, and reserved about it until i am comfortable with him again.
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Why do people keep helping me? I just want to die already. I'll never get a job, I'll never become independent, I'll never give back.
Please kick me out so I can be pushed one step closer towards suicide.
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>>23425660
Once covid ends and you have friends again you'll realize he isn't even human.
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The power is fucking out and I have 13% on my phone. It came back on for a minute then went out again. That was like 30 minutes ago. I’m so fucked
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yo bitch why you keep showing on my dreams from time to time? we havent seen each other in 4 fucking years now
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I kept wanting to grab your ass on shift tonight, and I know you would've loved it. I almost kissed you when we walked back to your car. If we keep flirting and touching each other like this, I very well may end up ruining my marriage chasing you.
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Last night was fun I guess, but I don't want to pursue anything and think it should stay as a one night thing.
Does that make me an asshole? We were both drunk after all.
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>>23425673
okay well if he were a robot or a vampire i would not care. and covid? that doesn't change the lonerism my friend
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>>23425702
Good luck dumdum
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I'm sick of 4chan. I've had the same conversations many time. People just post the same things over and over again, maybe they are bots. Still I keep coming back because I have no friends. There are so many things I want to learn and do but I waste my time here instead. This is hell.
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Jeffrey what the fuck is even going on anymore dude I am so confused on my feelings the fuck. Fuck emotions.
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>>23425743
Block the website dude.
What do you want to do? Just start
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>>23425743
>Still I keep coming back because I have no friends.
Not a single one? What about the ones from the past, did you have a fight with them?
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>>23424300
>you'll nanashis dont even kawaii
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>>23425678
Cause youre charmander and im rayquaza
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>>23425879
u know i hate pokemon biatch. just because you declined my ass, doesnt mean you have to decline me a good night of sleep
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>got carried away with fantasies and attached to someone I met online too quickly
I hate this lmao
Now I've gotta deal with something resembling heartbreak even though there was never really anything there
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lol I hate this so fucking much. I brought this on myself and I know better. It’s been taking time away from me. Mostly been underwater. What I’m seeing in front of me are ways I can change my life completely. But they all have one thing in common. Destroy what I built. It’s no problem with rebuilding. It’s more of how do I manage to not fuck everything up. I’ll get this shit sorted out. Don’t like what I’m involved in and it’s just temptation on a silver fucking platter. I want to be left alone and for the people around me to get their shit together because I hate having to fix it or get pulled in. Also fuck you.
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>>23425886
>Steals pikachus light
Oke at least u make it to eternity lol hashtagselflove
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One could go years without thinking about anything, or without reading the letters left behind by marvelous minds, yet once one tastes a hard-won truth beyond the phantasms of what we call our "real" lives, the simple pleasures of reason and virtue will come flooding back all the same. I don't know what I'm doing on this earth. There is nothing I love more than reason itself, but for the sake of my livelihood I can hardly afford to think of the things I truly care about. I would rather be homeless than making money, and I would rather be dead than living this terrible lie.
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>>23425999
What the hell am I looking at?
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>>23425703
okay, can you tell me why he isn't human?
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>>23425951
Been there, anon. It's a shitty feeling, but all we can do is learn from it
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Everything is fucked.
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>>23426146
Nah we are all ok
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>>23426044
>and I would rather be dead than living this terrible lie.
What’s the terrible lie? We have been telling you for 5000 years that money can’t give you happiness
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>>23426159
Of course it can't. The terrible thing is that I have to make a lot of it in order to gain anything resembling a comfortable life just to go right back to thinking and writing again.
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should ve learn selling since 2010 than blowing all those stupid money in college and ending up around this politically sensitive, self interested psychosuburbs

fuck this planet

i ll disappear in bahamas
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everyone is in their own psychofucked mentally ill
politically charged retarded
morale

fuckign fucks everyones
is fucked up

evn the fucking saints are dyin to
flip evwryone off a quick one and call it dips hahahahah well

whatever

whens the last time saints gonna die
for not themseves? na ah. thats centuries ago.

even the prophets dont anymore
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I got angry and scared today. Now my head hurts and I can't sleep.
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>>23425624
That's fair.
I barely want to exist most days, so I can't be assed to do this love shit.

But oh no the internet thinks im a bad person again i better do something
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>>23426235
Wishing you the best anon. Sleep will come eventually. Watch some lighthearted videos and try to find a reason to laugh.
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I read this book and never felt so fucking exposed in my life. I finally understand why it's always on top seller lists.

I've been living this cycle to a T since my childhood, and it's prevented me from having friends, relationships, and success. I have to stop blaming others and take care of myself, it's the least I can do.
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>>23425316
What's wrong buddy? What did you do?
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either lucky or simply upside down

like the smell of the room now

cant complaint
cuz honestly
cant complaint
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>mum is likely BPD
>dad's some kind of fucked
>mum regularly provokes everyone around her
>dad's starting to learn how she operates
>"you get off on it" in reference to how she provokes
>"shut up you wrinkled, retarded fuck" in response to her trying to turn it back on him
This is going to end badly. Maybe not today or tomorrow, but I feel like this will elevate into a real physical confrontation between them. It has gotten this way before when I was maybe 8-10, but not with the viciousness from my dad and his understanding of how my mum tries to provoke the way she does. The further my mum feels cornered by plain logic, the more irrational she becomes in an argument to the point of throwing shit/hitting people at its peak. This cannot end well.
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Thanks for giving me confidence /adv/. Finally feel like there is.. a lot of clarity between she and I now and Idk. We were being fun with each other today and I felt like I wasn’t bothering her at all. Like she wanted to talk with me.
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nothing works out everything is retarded im also retarded why the fuck this is all dumb as fuck wish im a fucking savant sinc eyear 0 then id have gone to bhama to chill and swim in the clear water this is so meaningless im now evolved into a racist, bigot, and all and all a racially charged dyslexic retard to be hahahah
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I have a DISTURBING FUCKIN MEMORY of her so fucking much. Bringing me to a roller skating rink and telling everyone she could that "I'm her boyfriend". I don't know why the fuck she does it but it's GAY as Richard Simmons.
And then she has the balls to show up and start waving her ass around. PERVERT BITCH I'm your NEPHEW YOU MENTALLY CHALLENGED PIECE OF SHIT... HOW OFTEN DO YOU DO IT WITH ANESTHETIC.. CAUSE I WAKE UP WITH BALLS WET EVERY OTHER GOD DAMN WEEK? and it ain't my fault you can't get the guys you want.. but THAT DON'T MEAN I'M YOUR BOYFRIEND..
And then to top it all off, I flagellate her for it, and she cries like a little bitch, I get PUNISHED, and 5 years later what's she do? Hop on xbox and tell everyone that'll listen that I'm her boyfriend with her husband listening. IM FUCKING DONE.. IF YOU DON'T STOP I SWEAR TO GOD,, WHEN YOU START GETTING PAID YOU OWE ME FOR THIS HORSE SHIT....
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>>23421396
Did very bad thing in past, I had in on my chest for some time and told It to my gf, she doesnt want to talk to me. I think its over but I feel better In a way, no More secrets
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>>23426630
you put the milk in before the cereal?
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I hate my degree but there's nothing I can do about it. All the degrees I want to do have zero post-graduation prospects, I don't have the required subjects to do them, cost too much money to learn or will lead to the same job anyway so it's not worth changing just to waste £10k just to end up in the same place a year later. Now I'm stuck with a course I hate and there's nothing I can do to change it.
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>>23426704
Yeah
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>>23426736
How far are you in? As a third year student who hates my degree more than ever I would definitely talk to an academic advisor and weigh up your options
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Think I have a stomach bug, and was up all night being sick/having the runs. Have to watch my siblings half the day, do a job interview, cram for exams next week I haven't studied for... I don't know how the fuck I'm supposed to do this, I wish I could go back to bed, sleep and never wake up
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>>23421396
I can only sleep when thinking of suicide. I beg for it to up in my dreams but it never does. I try to cry to sleep like i use to but the tears never come. I really want to let go. I am tired.
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>>23426809
Second year, I was thinking of switching to Finance but I would have to start again next year - basically meaning that I'd be starting my degree at the same time I should be finishing it. My lecturer said it probably wouldn't be worth it since it'll most likely lead to a very similar job. I'd love to do Archaeology or Paleontology but there's absolutely nothing you can do with either of those (unless you get moronically lucky) and since being a pilot costs £100k (unless the RAF decide that I can work for them) I think it's best I just stick with what I have - even if I hate it.
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i genuinely dont get why im not good enough for you

time to move on i suppose
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>>23426858
Just ask?
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u won its according to plan as usual

not gonna elaborate
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sometimes i wish im like maya sakamoto when i was 5 just to save all the pain

now im just a bigot and racially charged
fullmetal alchemist/prototype
and you read the slash above like
fate stay/night
so its like
fullmeta alchemist prototype
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granma once said..

ah nvm.

i shouldbpost no
and everyone told me
shitposting do you no good

and so here i am

as god s will

and this is, a worthless,1cent commentary
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I had a dream where I was at a high school reunion thing. There were a lot of people out on the football field. Many brought dogs.
These two dogs were running around and playing aggressively. One attacked me and bit my shoulder. I never saw the wound or felt pain but I felt my skin fall off. I went to the hospital where the nurse treated it with some kind of cloth towelette that she dabbed it with and a cloth binding.
She was reassuring but I kept asking for my mom and no one knew where she was. Then I was alone and it turned out no one was dabbing my back, it was just the way the healing process feels. Someone came in and said I was lucky it wasn't so bad but I can kiss my social life goodbye.
When I went outside everyone had a camera and a dog and they recorded themselves chasing me down with their dogs. I asked for my mom again then woke up.
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>>23426919
Also I owed the fact that I didn't feel pain to the fact that I was drunk when it happened. I remember being grateful that I had the "foresight" to get drunk before the attack rather than after.
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>>23426919
And also there was this part where I was wishing I would die (between being treated and going outside, but that death (meaning not just literal death but also peace) wasn't just going to be given to me, I had to make it happen myself
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>>23426866
i did, but ill always be "just a friend"

so im moving on
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>>23426934
That's for the best then, good luck.
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at the peak of life... i wish im maya sakamoto when i was 5,like singing for escaflowne at 12. talent or what.

but whatever.
hardships didnt make you better
its luck and some modesty.
i had 170 iq in elementary
but maybe thats just a complementary gift anyway
we were quite poor too.

a gift from the teachers

oh sorry. not suggesting anything but

i mean

you know
house cleaner isnt the easiest job to find. if that were the case,
you woulndt be eating pag pag for CNN.


but then again
its not filipine here.

or whatever.
no good rest place downward, only way up.
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also you know why you have friends?
cuz yer lucky.
im a nobody.
to be forgotten.
as you always do
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and then again, we re all here.
like fucking idiots. im not the only fuckshit

but i guess big shots enjoys torturing little kittens the most.
rarely their own kinds.

how unfair.
no place to hide.
even your own kinsmen is here to fuk you.

grandma said not even the lions eat its own cub. but we re all snakes here


or was that david attenborough?
idk

and even lions murders another lions
and honestly?

you get friends by keeping it to yourself...
but my friends hasnt been keeping me so. what do i care.

or well,

yeah i dont knowmy way in life.
maybe i ll learn to keep it to my own but for now, honestly i am hurt to a length to even bother.

kill me

you win
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I still have love for my high school crush after almost a decade, and I've finally realized that it has been preventing me from developing deeper feelings for other girls in my life.

Fuck.
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AKIRA AAAA :C :]
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AKIRA OHNAAAAAAAAAAAA
WAAAHAHHAAHHAHAHAHA SWWWWWWWWWW AAAAAAAAAAAA
https://youtu.be/h6fcK_fRYaI
AAAAHAHAA YAMERRROOROTTEEEEESSAAAA AFFFFFFFFFFG END
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"Reincarnation is real,"
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>>23427069
it s atrap and im broke
and im afriad of new people
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yea being oldest child makes ir crinfe for me to do toher lwide imake jo sense
>>
well
china isbpro polygamis

which means


uncle


gandma


yadyaydyaya
i m too big and or someshit
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u win. awaeawawawaw u all winnnnm awawawawwawawa
im just a rock awaw
cringe?
ok
it s all about the moneyband the win and yaysdysydydyyduayays
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I’ve learned a lot about myself as a person since we were talking. I have something called anxious attachment style. It means that people like me with mommy and daddy issues who never knew what to expect from their parents will get attached to people really easily, and be overly sensitive to things we perceive as being ignored or changes in tone or read too much into what you say. We need constant reassurance that you don’t hate us and that you’re going to be there for us. When we don’t get that we get scared and reach out to try and fix whatever we did, and that can be a lot for some people.

I get it. It’s smothering, suffocating, and I get it. It’s a lot, and I can be a lot.

But still, fuck you a little bit for abandoning me when I clearly needed someone so badly just to be there for me. Probably also related to my attachment issues, I kind of have a hard time letting go of people and feelings, so you didn’t just hurt me. You hurt me deeply and I’m going to feel it for a long time.
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>>23426146
everybody sucks.
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I don't have a single romantic bone in my body that isn't tied to some sexual desire, that isn't in the pursuit of sex.

I think I may be Aromantic, but don't quote me on that, and besides labels are bullshit.
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im sorry im wrong
im so wrong

just please let my parents and senpai go to bahama or wheevre they want

becsuse mom keeps saying


going around the world
like

the luxury
for them


just them.
i can stay here

i promise ill be good

i might... i might even hold 3d.
i mightt even give up 2d
hahahah

to me i just need to

to...

draw. and earn billion

please
entertain their luxury first
aaaa
>>
fuck this

hahhah

yeah.
if you are on my side.
entertain them then.


just so.

just so.

just so i can lesrn to roll alone

hahahah

hahahahahah
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ye pls let them go to bahama just so i can escape this scrimfest haha
expecially some ppl

fuck
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https://youtu.be/__GGv6CQDsg
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a good plan


a normal family


well i wanted that

guess my "friend" flipped me over
in competition.

think and you will be able.
and this is how apple eats the world
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>>23425087
You still drink water and stuff on a fast, right?
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yeh tru i have it all and my dad and mum didnt and i cant turn back time to unborn me so they can be sartist doctor whatever
now i am racially charged
religion must be happy
the point is my suffering has no meaning only brings out my worse and delaying everyone else

but i guess who gives a fuck
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>I've always wanted to go on the moped army official forum and search my name
>really dont do that
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It's 23 hours until my exam. I have not studied at all.
I already have a plan B. It's actually a plan F or G by now. Whenever I fail something (because I put 0 effort in), I completely abandon it and try something else. Thinking of moving country if this fails :(
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All I can think about is killing my brother, or hoping he dies.
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>>23421396
i hate women
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Dating is fucking dumb I want to make friends and socialize not talk about gay shit like romance. I’ve had my fill of romance and I just want to make friends and THEN maybe date. I don’t desire to have sex when I take care of my own needs (without porn).
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In just the past 12 months I've gone from just getting on with my life and trying my best and trying to see the best in people, to hating everything and everyone.

Black lives matter has had the opposite effect and has made me far more racist than I ever was before. I feel a burning hatred towards the movement and anyone that supports it to the point I do not consider them human, more like an NPC.


The handling of the Covid pandemic has made it clear how fucking stupid and easily influenced and manipulated people really are and now I don't just hate minorities, I hate people in general. All faith in the state, Government, world leaders has been lost. It's just the blind leading the blind.

I'm not even from the US but watching the events of this year unfold have certainly had the demoralising effect that they were probably intended for. I will never vote or engage in politics ever again. I no longer wish to be concerned with other people at all. I do not believe we are stronger in numbers, I think our lack of ability to think for and look after ourselves is what puts us in such a position of desperation and vulnerability to be manipulated.

Most of the biggest problems we face today are man made.

Human nature at it's very core is selfish and the majority of what we do is motivated out of the need to satisfy our own impulses.
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>>23427305
Good. I used to hate them too. Next step is to ascend and forget about their existence completely
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>>23427172
Clearly? Mate, I don't know that. How would I know that? Just assume that's why I was contacted in the first place? Kind of silly.
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>>23427312
Hot take.
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I'd scream, but it'd be terribly rude to slightly inconvenience those around me, so I'll just push it deep inside instead.
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Everything is awful n even the easiest thing would be to gain weight but I can't even do that.
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I realized I am being too soft and I need to be harsher. Next time she is a klutz ai am going to give her a damn earfull like I used to. Fuck this nice shit, I need something effective.
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Lol mariel ecksdee;
https://youtu.be/suV2AQeeSw0
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It's my birthday today. I'm 33 years old. My life has passed me by. I've never had a girlfriend, I'm fat, and mediocre at everything I do. Somehow I have many friends and family who all love me but...it doesn't change the facts. I'm a loser of the worst kind: one who succeeds just enough to know that they're not actually that successful. Happy birthday to me.
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>>23427352
next time she does it just throw her over your leg and drill it into her ass

sometimes to best way to show people you care is to hurt them
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>>23427320
yh I wish. 2/3 of the people at work are women. I literally can't avoid them if I wanted too.
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>>23427368
Good idea. Give her an earfull and a spanking.
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Man I feel annoyed, this friend of mine recently made up with her friend, who she stopped talking to because her friend ignored a sexual harassment case and they're acting like besties and shit, y'know why they made up? cuz my friend had a fight with the chick that was harassed.
They're both shitty, I'm only still friends with her because of other people.
She also partially blamed a 14yo for statutory rape.
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>>23427344
I used to think exactly as you do until I started properly counting calories and realized I was probably starving myself for years.

Count calories, and gradually increase your consumption so your digestive system has time to adapt. Don't try to stuff yourself with a bunch of fatty beef or chicken breasts; just gradually change what you are comfortable with while snacking on dense calories + protein foods like nuts or protein shakes.

I went from never being able to gain weight, to making steady and noticeable weight and muscle gain in only a couple of months.
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>>23427330

Not really.

If I wasn't constrained by time and a 2000 word character limit, I could quite easily and effortlessly reconstruct those brief stated points into a structured argument that clearly supports them.

Unlike a news editor, my beliefs and views aren't even the least bit motivated by the response from the recipient or reader and I'm not trying to change anybody else's mind.

If it comforts you to discredit the statements I've made by labelling it as a hot take, so be it.
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>>23427381
My problem is the quality of food. I've gone through countless different diets mostly centering around fish, fruits + veggies for years, n anything that is gluten, dairy, or sugar makes my skin go crazy n my energy levels plummet. But that shit is in /everything/ n it's the more fattening stuff. And the ingredients/food without those additives are tripley priced. For so long I have wished to have a magic food pill.

Sorry for vent, I'm still going to take your advice, just difficult being around shitty Burger curlture food
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I could go get one subway sandwhich...
or I could get 4 pizzas for the same price.
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whatever

go kill yourself
i cant handle your "friendship"
killing me everytime
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yeah yeah what a fucking pain
flipping me every single time anyway
holy cow

no one cares

well

guess what you pray shows what you are too
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https://youtu.be/HMSWAUAKJn0
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Can I get a (You), please?
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pls die but i dont care anymore
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>>23427532
sure
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I want to feel the power again
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i cant trust her even tho shes my gf i just really cant no matter how much i convince myself. those attention whoring posts that she puts on her tiktok to random stories cant be for me, i just wanna push myself away with every chance i get
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Many such cases.
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I miss my friendo
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>>23427679

me too anon, i just lost my best friend :(
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hey out there random thread guy...please come back, would be really nice to hear from you...
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Should of dig your claws in deeper you should of knocked her up.
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I'd honestly be fine with being friends if I knew for a fact we'd stay friends. But it never pans out that way. The whole friends thing is a scam.
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You knew what would happen. That's why you talked to me those days. Everyone got what they wanted which is pretty cool.
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>>23427782
Not true.

>>23427782
Not really.
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>>23427782
Not true. Friendships take work, just like any other relationship between two people.
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>>23427844
2nd for
>>23427807
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>>23427886
women suck but they don't deserve that
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>>23427886
Hey plastic surgeon anon
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God DAMN it's fucking infuriating getting your account blocked on bumble and having literally no idea why and no appeal process. And to top it off, it's a massive pain to make a new account.
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im being called a racist for not finding black skinned women physically attractive purely on the basis of their black skin. i cannot see myself dating a black person, full stop. friends, sure. partners, no. i just dont find it attractive, no matter what.
am i racist?
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>>23427959
Not racist as there is no victim aside from depriving the brown girls in your life.
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Really starting to hate the "you're here forever" rule. How many more days am I going to waste 30 minutes or an hour of my time reading the schizophrenic ramblings of autistic virgins and underageb&? This website's full of actual fucking retards, every board I used to like has been ruined by fags who are just looking for more locations to have the same "woman bad minorities bad" circlejerk. Maybe this is the year I finally just block the website and get on with my life, the returns have been diminishing for over a decade at this point and the current dominance of /pol9k/ is just the last nail in the coffin.
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When is the new gioyc being posted?
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>>23428121
NOOOOOOOOOO, my general needs to be on the first page all the time! God, can you imagine people using the search function to find this place?! Better start making new threads while this one is still on page 1 so people can tell that there's two threads but one is new, they might otherwise mistakenly think there isn't an old thread up where they shouldn't post because then the OP won't go to page 1.
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>>23428127
Maybe they should get stickied that way we wouldn't have to deal with this question all the time
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>>23428148
The mere suggestion is upsetting to me and others. Mind your tongue.
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>>23428148
https://www.4channel.org/feedback
Sure, tell that to the mods. I doubt anything would come of it though.
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>>23428153
I mind no such thing
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Not the purpose of a sticky. Why not just sticky every ritual thread across boards? It’s rediculoud
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Each thread is a paragraph in our story. Each written with its own mood. A sticky is like a never ending pamphlet. Nothing good can come of this
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This sunlight feels good. It feels like it’s been years.
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Anything less than honesty is a lie
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The mods will laugh at your silly little ideas and are just in doing so
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Rinse the origin and cease to be.



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