Get it off your chestDidn't see one so here :)
sometimes i love croc, but then i realise hes a tripfag and then i hate him
Girlfriend and I broke up two months ago. We started talking like 3 weeks ago. Hung out probably 10 times in that span, all innocent stuff. We’ll hang out like 3 days in a row for example, set up plans on the 4th day. Then she’ll pull back and literally start saying stuff like “this isn’t healthy” and “we shouldn’t be hanging out this often”. Then a few days later we go back to the same routine of waiting for each other after work or taking our lunches at same time. Why is she so reluctant. It’s almost like a forbidden love as if her parents forbade her from dating me and she wants to but she can’t.
>>23145397ive been in love with the same man for almost 3 years now and he has never felt the same way thowards me, ive tried everything to stop loving him but i just cant
cringefest that is my existencehttps://youtu.be/WK3hIWULiQIsome religion can just fuck off i guess, no different than the tatkuzaasia is so tough, why not burn itself and see if it can survive
the nikita is helping the religion spread more i guessjustice and fattiness or whateverguess later we ll rename the pig as cabbage and whatever because god can do anything really
Now i just gotta deal with the embarrassment
I wish I had never asked my wife to open the marriage because of my bad case of feelings of missing out.It has fucked me up beyond recognition. I don't feel the same anymore, it's like I'm a totally different person after having had several FWB.
>>23145408I know the feeling. I found that just accepting you love them is easiest and move on with that being a part of you. Don't be angry with yourself (or them) or question what could have gone differently, it'll eat you up and could for years, decades in my case. There's someone else for you out there Anon and if you have tunnel vision permanently fixated on one person you're going to miss those opportunities. Time is precious, irreplaceable, don't waste it on someone who wouldn't do the same for you.
i love simping, it's great, i can see why guys do it.
>>23145404She's trying to cope with the feelings she still has for you. Just because two people break up doesn't mean one or both stop feeling that way about each other. Just the disadvantages of that relationship became greater than it's advantages. You both need more than 2 months apart for it to work itself out, especially if it wasnt mutual.
>>23145580Two things I’m sure about this breakup>there isn’t another guy atm >she’s overwhelmed with her new job She went from a retail job 10 minutes from her house working 3 days a week, to having a 630am-630pm Monday-Friday job and is basically a chauffeur for her family, dropping her dad off before her own hour commute, and not being able to sleep in on Saturdays because she takes her mom to Costco and dad to laundromat. They rely a ton on her. We still care about each other. But we’ll go from texting throughout the day for two days. Then I’ll text her something and she won’t reply, something she’s never ever done in our 2 years going out.
oh hey its 2020! what worked back in 1987 with final fantasy or kfcnwont fuckin work with you duh!and generally you have to make it much much much faster dohwhy r u such a goddamn loser anyway?stop blaming gods! it is perfect and have no malice nor violence!you can just fucking go to jail there is no miracles i can spare you no matter how holy i am wooooo
u will be in debt and a thief for your whole life and trapped among the gods and cultures that distates you and fated to suffer before finally extinct.
it s hard for any religion to lose and go first to heaventheyre bound and fucked to be here
>>23145604You say she's never done that in two years? Well of course... You guys broke up, you need to understand Anon that you don't occupy the same place in her life that you did. That comes with a break up. There doesn't need to be another guy for that to happen. I think you need to evaluate what breaking up with someone actually means to your relationship. Nothing between you two is going to be like it was when you were together. You're her friend now, not her lover. But understand that she's probably hurting, but you most likely aren't going to be the one to help alleviate that. Stop talking to her for six months, don't just ghost her, but tell her you want space and see where you she, and you, are by then.
nothing funny anymore. not even towelheads. guess it is indeed a violent hateful one.no wonder, we are suffer like this
I finally found out I have social anxiety.Honestly feels so much better knowing, i mean atleast now i can work to prevent it.
I can't wait for the crackhead's pillows to get here. If anyone wants to know the secret to a good night's sleep it would 100% be a crackhead. I believe in you dude.If I shoot some antifa in self defense be sure to pay for my bail, too, MyPillow guy. I would put those millions to starting a white ethno state.
>>23145760You're a fucking narcissist to make this thread you dumb cunt.
I know a seeeecret~
>>23145766Hmm! Making the threads huh? You know what anon I like your idea. It is time I take up more Kingly action.Attention my loyal subjects! I shall now be reforming /adv/ to be more based!All GIOYC thread will have "GIOYC" in the subject field, a link to the previous thread, and a clean .png of the classic image without the compressed pixelated garbage!All simps and roasties are here by executed via the guillotine on the spot! No exceptions!I will tell on all jannies and mods to their mothers! Embargoing their hot pockets!All IRC logs from the mods will be leaked for total transparency for all to see!The only advertisement allowed on /adv/ will be for "MyPillow" so every anon will know how to get a comfortable nights sleep and to stop the succubus advertisements!The King has spoken!
I love him so much, ugh
>>23145397Hmm I thought sexist meant you get a lot of sex
>>23145837You're thinking sexiest.
Random dudes that keep their shitty cars in the same garage as me like to come over and give me """"advice"""" on how to use my car, since my car is old.They tell me stuff like "dude you gotta take your car out more", or "a classic like that needs to be driven more" or "i see you are having trouble starting it, let me give you a piece of advice, why dont you [insert the most obvious shit that everyone knows]".I always reply politely and say "ok thanks for the advice". But they are really pissing me off. Is it ok if the next time I just tell them to fuck off and leave me alone?
You're right to think I haven't seemed into it lately. Because I haven't been. Because things have been so messed up. Last night was fucking awful. Maybe I should have left, because I can't keep being dragged through this.Something has changed since the meltdown last week. Too many times now I feel like I don't want to be around you.
>do NOFAP>have a wet dreamThat's fine, but...>the dream is about me watching porn on a smartphone
>>23145755thank you doc for the 300 dollar confirmation on what my heart already told me
>>23145909>people have the same hobby as me, they like my car and want to talk about it, the horrorWhat a fucking autist you are
You gotta fight and you gotta win. That's all there is to it.
Please take the nearest bat shaped object and bonk me as hard as you can. Thank猫ちゃん
Texas is so cucked. There I said it. I will not be starting the ethno state here that is for damn sure.
>constantly super constipated>fiber pills and diet changes do nothing>just took such a constipated shit i was digging the shit out of my anus with my fingers because it was intolerable and rock-hard>ass now hurtsWHY THE FUCK AM I ALWAYS CONSTIPATEDWHAT THE FUCKWHYWHYWHYYYYYYYYY
>>23146329I haven't decided yet, but the laws in texas are just too cucked. Even the bingo regulations are cucked.
I hope karma doesn't get me
Testposting a bit, don't mind me fellas
Reminder to go out for a walk and get that healthy sunlight. Greet some new humans that you encounter.
>>23146420That's not really how karma works, anon. You'll be okay.
>>23146522I do it everyday down to the river unless the weather is bad. Based and walk pilled.
>>23146522It gets dark at 16 here already, fucking retard. And fuck your walking meme, even in the summer that shit just makes me more depressed because I see hot bitches I never could have and normies everywhere hanging out with their friends.
I had a nice dream last night but it doesn't make up for all the things that went wrong in my life.
>>23146587Take your waifu pillow out. That'll show those normies.
>>23146661A man of culture.
I give up
>>23146307Lol thats what u want me to call u now 77 chan, ok :*
>>2314673377 has no significance to me. Pick another number.
>>23146748Well I mean if you're kinuneesan then uh lol magic nomber 33lol
Copy. Paste. Delete. Repeat. Hoping for a life changing experience beyond typing.For now and forever
>>23146783Going numb from repeating those actions.Breath in. Breath out. Always internally praying for a miracle
Uh i guess I can; draw what happend lol hmmmmmmm
Gosh, I must have grown up in an even more boring town than Lolli. We have a dance program on our television but they blacklist people like the McCarthy witch hunts, but we have to pay them money! Ok, people shouldn't hit women but many young people were forced out of jobs for speaking their young minds. And sex here is frowned upon, maybe it's all the Jehovah churches? They are nothing but hypocrites because they fuck each other after church then cast all the others in guilt. It's no good because if I go out I'm likely to be stabbed or the human dog catchers that call them selves The Police might put us in cages for the price of a pound coin. No wonder us individuals pray to the old Gods. Forget these people, they are cruel hypocrites.
>>23146587Your frustration can be converted into action and energy, friend. Pleasures from others is only temporary, as people come and go from your life. Grow yourself, for yourself.
i love leaving the heater on with the window open!
>>23146881Yea, pretty much.
miss u miss u miss u miss u miss u MISS UUUUUUUUUUU life is shit without u and it probably would still be shit despite that but at least i’d have u. nothing ever seemed as bad when i had u. i miss you.
I'm a 20yr old kissless virgin, and I think I like it
The internet is getting worse, more censored, more aggressively monetized, more leftist, more socially-correct, and just more boring every day, I fucking hate it. Wish we could go back ten years or so
>>23146954Don't forget more driven by algorithms. That shit has destabilized society.
The GIOYC thread is one the purest sources of expression of the species-wide neurosis that I have found. I would even go as far as to say that it's the purest source of it as the others lack the frequency of expression.You should all be wise to and on guard for those who wish to drown out others here. When one person or another tries to turn it into their personal playground and dominate this expression they devalue this source and dim one of the few lights in existence that expose the spectrum, depth and profundity of this neurosis which afflicts all of us.
>>23147003This is pretty stupid anon. All this place is for is shouting into a void. What other people say and do here is irrelevant because all it is is an "AAAAAAAHHHHHHH" chamber. You are basically complaining that someone is screaming too loudly/too frequently in this chamber and directing attention away from your own personal screams and this is making you feel less noticed.
>>23146661>tfw blew my Christmas budget on figures, instead of a cute Hachiroku daki like I said I wouldDamn
You are greater than dog meat.
>>23147080You let your waifu down. She is in a lonely, dark and cold box in a warehouse wondering why you haven't saved her. How can you call yourself a man?
>>23147003I've lurked here for years. There is always one at all times for some reason. They'll over stay their welcome and then be replaced by another.
Well I sure do love your sticky fingers. I said I sure do love those sticky fingers you got.
a day late but, happy birthday love.
>>23147109Fuuuck her figure is on the way in the mailBut you know what fuck it you're right.It'll be ramen for a few weeks, but at least we''ll sleep well at night.
You are a low tier swinger.
I miss you pretendera
it has been such a long time of needing distraction and not being okay, you wonder if you can be any other way again.
>>23147288I am sweet on you.
>>23147295What does that mean?
>>23147298It means that I am infatuated with you and liable to commence simping for you
>>23147298It means that you get the best of me. I am keen on you but others I may scrape like sandpaper against them.
>>23147170She will forgive you for your neglect. Don't worry too much anon she is lonely but she will have patience.
>>23147309>>23147316Damn that's nice
I wish I had a gf
>>23147290I think it will pass when I stop eating sand.
>>23147327It is nice. It is Saturday. Why pretenders? Impersonating what? The sweetness?
>>23147342Pretender is her name, I will never get to see her again
I know it's fucked up, but I really want to have sex with my mom. I want that kind of relationship with her. I have no idea what to do about it, but I've been fantasizing about it since I was a teenager and lately the desire has come back stronger than ever this year because I'm stuck living at home with her, jobless and lonely (I realize that not meeting other women and a lack of sex is playing a big part in this, but it's always been a desire of mine anyway). I keep dreaming about it recently too and I just want it so damn much. But I'm not bold and insane enough to try and initiate that shit, I don't want to wreck the close and positive relationship I do have with her, especially because I have no indication she would want that too. Shit sucks.
>>23147384That sounds like a really trying time. Is the beautiful?
I used to check for messages from you every day. Now I check probably 5 days a week. I used to feel like checking kept me close to you in a small way, now I think I am dead to you and I just do it because I can't stop.
I remember being cute once. I have fond memories of feeling that way briefly. Then I became ugly, oh well.
>>23147474You are always cute. All wide eyed and excitable.
laughing at people who used to believe in me, idiots
>>23147512sigh i wish someone felt that way about me. guess i'll just pretend on 4chan.
>>23147519i love pretending i pretend i have friends and that i will be missed if i were to “die” it’s so fun
>>23146761Who told you? Was it me? I'll kick my ass.>>23146762Yes but kind of no. Why is 33 magic or other multiples of 11? きぬねえさんですか。>>23146771Nope.
>>23147527very cool, i used to be able to pretend this. then something happened and now i can't pretend that anymore, the reality is too apparent. i'm no one now.
i have some kind of issue with my eyes where skin growths form on the edges of the eyelids so that they irritate my eyes constantly. i have no insurance so my solution has been washing my hands and then scratching the growths off with my fingernails. i've done this 4 times now. i'm only in my 20s and am terrified for the future and what this means. it's a matter of time until a growth grows INSIDE the eyelid where i can't easily reach it. also had eyelashes that grow DOWN and i had to pluck them out with a tweezer. have you ever held a tweezer 1 mm from your own eyeball and tried not to blink?i have a myriad of small health problems like this and there is literally no god damned solution to any of them. i've never even had FUN in my life, it was just work and agonizing poverty
>>23147399I mean, she might have been considered so when she was younger. She certainly isn't ugly by any means. The odd thing is, I don't necessarily consider her that attractive in terms of the type of women I've always normally liked (which is probably a normal way of seeing your own mother). And yet I still want to fuck her badly. She still has a pretty nice body even at 60 because she works out. She has a nice round ass and decent sized boobs. Nice thighs/legs in general. Just curvy in the right ways I suppose. She keeps her hair somewhat short though, which I don't really like. Before you ask though, I'm not gonna post any pics.
Pretty much everything I said to you about your actions was right. Treacherous cunt.
i'm so fuckin depressed. i miss my friends, i want to go back
I wonder if they ever think of me.
one day I will have to hear that you got in a car accident or died of an illness and we will have spoken for the last time many years before. feels so bad.
>>23147538what happened bud? pretending is hard. doesn’t work for me most of the time either but all we can do is try.
>>23147598i suppose i realized the extent to which people around me will pretend. and i realized how my whole life has been a long series of feigned interactions, unrequited friendships, and me being a desperate loser. and i can't change no matter how hard I try.
Well, shit.Girlfriend does this every year. We're one month from Christmas, and she's buying everything she wanted for herself.I swear to god if I have to hear any more about these fucking moccasins, I'm going to fucking scream. 3 months now. Every singly day, I hear about a new pair, and how the old pair had a defect, or failed. Man, I don't care. I'm trying to muster the will to live, and I get beat over the head with fucking shoes and leggings every day.I don't have the energy for this shit.
>>23147598people have only ever tolerated me until i let them down too much and they disappear. i don't know how to become less disposable.
>>23147606man i feel you on that. hopefully things will change. maybe we’re just late bloomers when it comes to meaningful friendships. i hope a good person is on their way to you right now and you’re able to break the cycle. godspeed.
>>23147622you’re not disposable. we’re all dealt different hands in life and some of us happen to get the shit, lonely, miserable ones kek. hopefully you’ve learned from your past mistakes and you won’t “let down” the people you are yet to meet. it will be alright, keep going and work on yourself if you’ve recognised what you may need to fix. you’ll be ok.
>>23147623>>23147643thanks anon. i'm not exactly sure what's wrong with me or what to fix, i hate a lot of things about myself. which sounds like something to fix but i don't know how to do that. people on /adv/ always just say hobbies but i have too many already and i'm not actually good at anything.some days I think my ship has sailed already. like the cancer has already metastasized and I can't stop it.
i remember when we were friends, what a gift that was.
Freshly washed sheets are the best thing there ever was.
I just wanted to say that getting your balls fondled during sex is probably one of the greatest feelings. My God. That never gets old.
Just wanted to say I hate sex now, it's fuckin bullshit
>>23147701I agree.>>23147718I disagree. Does nothing for me and feels uncomfortable.
>>23147732Wow really? I love when she is popping them up and down, tugging a little and stuff. It feels amazing.
>>23147686Me too. Where did we go wrong?
>>23147742Ha. One of the few questions I don't have to ask. ...there was probably nothing you could do anon.
>>23147742Didn't get nut tapped enough as a kid.
>>23147741Yeah, I don't know, I've not enjoyed that myself personally. Not sure why.
>>23147658yeah i see a lot of the hobbies bs too, never got that. and it’s hard fixing the things you don’t like about yourself, the only thing that’s worked for me is paying close attention to the way i interact with others, always be nice, no matter how much you’re hurting. wether that’s family members, acquaintances, cashiers, strangers, people you’re not on good terms with, anyone. you can start by becoming a nice person to interact with, even just for a brief moment. it will make you feel better and hopefully you won’t feel disposable when you’re consciously putting in the effort to be good to others. it feels good to Be good. i hope that helps you in some way. your people will come to you. nothing is forever, as they say, so hopefully this too will pass.
Are you ready to talk yet? I know you miss me, but it's on you to reach out this time. I would love to have a future with you, but you have to make the effort and show me that you want it enough. Just try, it's all I've ever asked of you.
>>23147851Talk about what? I didn't do nuffin'.
females are so fucking cruel from an objective standpointthese bitches will collect orbiters and not even tell these niggas that they got a bf, hell the bf prolly doesn't even know that da bitch be hanging out wit other niggas
>>23147858A likely story, friend. A likely story.
>>23147851blow it out your ass
>>23147851You blocked me you fucking moron
I don't know what else I'm supposed to do
>>23147928Then maybe he wasn't talking about you just a thought
>>23147989Eat my ass, this thread is for everybody to yell and larpIf you're expecting anything real here you're fucking stupider than I am
>>23147413You aren't dead to me. I think of you often.
Having to pee is physically arousing to me so I usually only masturbate when I have to pee and I'm afraid I'm pavloving myself into only being horny when I'm holding it in. I'm afraid I won't be able to get wet for my bf when I visit him next month unless I have to pee. And if I do that I might pee on him when we have sex! I don't know if I should just do nofap or whatI've only had ~3 *good* orgasms in my life, one was my first one and one was when I thought about my bf fucking another guy! No thanks!!
when can i resurrect?
>>23147962If you knew for certain you were going to kill yourself in one week what would you do with that time?
>>23147995Eh, I've had people identify my writing style and essentially stalk/try to manipulate me via /adv/ threads. Someone involved in manipulating my ex identified some shit I said here about our failing relationship, showed her, and then she was suddenly responding to my messages. I asked the person writing similarly to her to unblock me and LO AND BEHOLD I was unblocked on Facebook within the hour. IDK if I was just too unhinged and gave out too much personal info or if they're a mod/janny, but I've definitely been in threads where people seemed to reply to me in certain way and imply stuff about my life. Never underestimate a butthurt person with a personality disorder and a computer, anon.
>>23147851bro but if i told u then u mite stop bein my frend yoi cnt do tht bro i dnt hve no otha frens n mre den tht u mean alot 2 me homie i dnt wnt 2 mss thngs ^ ya dig
>>23148009tell me about it if you'd like to anon. what do you mean? ...thinking about sending someone a message? someone waiting on a message from you?
>>23147995that exchange must happen multiple times a thread. someone replying to something obviously not meant for them. by all means continue, i just think we both know your person would never write that message.
>>23147812I like your strategy. At the same time however, I feel as though I have spent my entire life being too nice, trying to manage the expectations of others. It has failed and now I have no one and I hate myself. I have tried to be good for as long as I can remember.nothing is forever indeed. especially good things, they die almost immediately. here's hoping it passes sometime before I die, love you anon.
I tried to change myself for you, to cover up my own holes. but that isn't what love is. I was still full of holes underneath the bandaid appearance, the costumes, and it radiated.Love is finding worth in yourself and sharing it with others. Love is confidence reflected at eachother. Radiating vibes that reflect, amplify and conquer challenges together, or simply brighten the other's day.In confidence to make jokes. In confidence to share yourself instead of morphing to fit the needs of the other. That's a recipe for being unstable.Love isn't a math problem, like a list of movies to watch, a tablature or sheet music to play. It's not in sex, being there when you're down but not pulling you up with me. It's sure as hell not in distrust, lies, anxious checking, relapses and fear. It's not a goal to pass, a pedestal to climb. It's not in neglecting the rest of my life for you, but building my strongest life to share.I had to tell you what I did, You clearly noticed, and I had to let you choose freely. I can lie as much as I want but I've never been a good liar. I open like a book. I could have simply stopped, and let it lie. Fight the addiction and be stronger. Never do it again and simply pretend it didn't happen. But that's not the relationship I want with myself or you. I would have been unable to look you in the eye ever again. I would have slipped in a moment of weakness. I needed to remove the doubts of it ever happening again. And so have you.Please, just know I hold no negativity for your actions, or removing me of your life.If I am to ever become your friend again, let alone lover, I would rather it be from my own strength.
>>23148108That's pretty beautiful, Anon.I've been trying to work on myself, too. I've never been able to accept who I am, and even the concept of that for a long time has just seemed so infeasible. I still can't honestly say that I see it happening, but I've realized that I can't give up. There's no way for me to live with the person I am right now. I must change. I don't want to fail the people I care about again.
>>23148078i know what you mean anon.. it’s hard being nice when you get nothing in return, but we have to keep going. i’d be your friend if our paths crossed, and i’m sure plenty of people would love to have a friend like you as well, you just haven’t met yet. love you buddy. be well.
>>23148157jus bee urself
>>23148156What's the matter?Lost your head?
>>23148108I felt this. Well said.
I know I don’t have the balls to reach out to you. It probably wouldn’t be a good idea anyway. But why do I have this urge to talk to you so bad? I miss how attentive you can be, when you’re around. I don’t know why I can’t stop thinking about you again suddenly.
>>23148202Why can you not reach out to them?
with 9 month damage and lifetime imprisonment why would anyone in their healthy mind actually
>>23148207spoilers only work on some boards, for some reason
>>23147532Im not entirely sure what He means but;Uh you count 1-12 maybe
long gone since time beginning anyway. not like gods making this all easier or whatevim ugly inside outcharged by battery
>>23148202You're in love dummy. And that's okay.
>>23148202What if.... what if it’s because they’re thinking about you too..
>>2314820214" cock and no balls, ay. What a world we live in.
I miss you. I just miss you. I have every single day for the last 7 years since I last saw you. I want what we could have had and could have been more than I've ever wanted anything else in my entire life, it was true then and it's truer now. I don't understand why I feel so attached to you even still, but it feels important. For all intents and purposes, I should have moved on and gotten over it a long time ago and it just never happened and still won't. It never will. No one I've met since even comes close to what I could always see in you.
>>23148208Actually what?ACTUALLY WHAT?
>>23148208Have you gone as far as to want go more look like?
All these cute posts. My heart can't take this.
Some one please audio this fanfic i wrote ty;>I was walkin here, downtown the otherday and saw this rather looky palestinian jewish boy, rougly around my age and he just suddenly started blowing all the; rabbis, imams, buddhists, and priests then thought; "gee its, thee messiah vs the world huh,"
>>23148208I read this post in grime voice
>be dating girl>knew she was mentally ill but didn't seem too bad>known her for a year>suddenly goes batshit on me one night>yells at me, attacks me verbally>she goes home and self-harms>calls me the next day and tells me it's my fault and that she almost killed herself because of meI feel like I just went through something genuinely traumatizing and I feel like I can't really talk to anybody about it.
I'm crazy for this girl I work with but to terrified to do anything about it.
>>23148290The uh ram goes; uno, the uh ox goes; dos, the uh moshiach goes; treeeee ahnn
>>23148069This person makes me anxious. I don't want either of us to be hurt and recent dialogues have caused pain. I am very tired of hurting and I am no good for this person.
That's it I'm going back to sleep.
>>23148205I treated them badly and I’m supposed to be done with them. I don’t want to cause any more pain due to my cowardice in not just getting up and going with them, and I see that they have surpassed me in so many ways that I feel unworthy to hold their attention again. But damn if I’m not jealous.
To the MoonWell, we are in reality now. You are with somebody else. I know you just want to be not meeting ever. I'm sorry I tried to make a bridge to your 'plain' today.The Suns out now. It's a beautiful reality. Look at us all. One big happy family in a fairy tail out to sea. So happy.Thank you so much. I'm so grateful for you and everyone that was involved. You can believe me when I say everything gets better and better.What a fairy tale life.-yours truly,your sailorhttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RdyHnrbN7hA
>>23148325How long has it been?
THIS WILL NEVER END UNLESS YOU COME HERE YOU DUMB BITCH BASTARDhttps://youtu.be/DTpyVN5nTFY
>>23148334Uno is at my house but I dont have an xbone
>>23148304you should let them decide. it is equally or perhaps more likely that the cold shoulder is not good for them.
>>23148333Several months now. Our last attempt at contact was a bit messy with some unintended drama that got me in some trouble. It’s cheesy but it’s truly like a drug I can’t stop coming back to.
Not than anyone really cares. I lied to my mom about working today. I got 100% of my Christmas shopping done, down to every last wrapping paper, extended family and gag tier gift. Took about 10 hours and $500 dollars. Tomorrow I can wrap everything. Feels good.
You are a big stinky dummy
Stop hitting yourself dummy,stop hitting yourself
>>23148328I just realized next year would mark 7 years since our lil bat mitzvah :*
>>23148401how am I supposed to stop hitting myself your the one holding my arm reeeee
>>23145397I am:>virgin>kissless>hugless>handholdless>never been on a date>never had a female friend>have resorted to masturbation and porn in a poor attempt to cope with the above, but I'm trying to stop this
Looking for the new crew.
>>23148334i have uno. now what?
>>23148407And a steamy threesome with a jewesshttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DZaK37dheCM
I was never good enough and I think we both knew it.You kept me for pity. Sorry to bother.
That post I saw on here a couple days ago, calling somebody a useless freak for hacking?I admitted my own snooping due to it and blew up my friendship. Couldn't bear to be a useless freak anymore.
>>23148536I never felt any remorse especially towards you so don't worry about that, worry about something else!
>>23148536why won't they just tell you so sooner, why do they make you find out in such a painful way?
>>23148561>I never felt any remorse especially towards you so don't worry about that, worry about something else!you sound like someone I know, you lie like a rug.
>>23148536I kept you because I believed in you.
You never liked me, you just tolerated me while it was convenient. I liked you a lot though, I still think you are the coolest.
You dudes need to start doing initials if you're going to respond to eachother so much.Why did the Letter threads stop?
>>23148576Why thank you! Im so flattered by your response.
I really want this book. But it's 200 dollars and I am unemployed. What's it like to have a lot of disposable income so that you can just buy whatever you want?
>>23148582ABCDEDGHIJKLMNOPQRSTUVWXYZFUCK YOU>>23148591Being poor is fucking expensive.
Hey Jeff... I am sad and feel lonely. I think I want to commit suicide because I fantasize about it and it scares me I have them.
>>23148591For normal people it sucks because you get home too tired to enjoy the things that worked hard for, if you can even afford them.
>>23148582Fine.My name starts with a C and I'm currently getting over an A.
>>23148597Please hold out. I know it’s painful, but please hold out for me. Raindrops lately.
>>23148605Ha. It is raining right now. Well they are just tears actually. I will be strong I promise.
>>23148600Yea I am afraid of that once I finally get a job. I guess there is no paradise here on Earth.
>>23148586this is not a response to anything, you can't respond to a brick wall or a dead body or a fake ghost, you can only talk at those things.
>>23148582there are a bazillion m's in the world, firstly. so it's pointless. also, nobody should know it is me posting these shameful things. only me should know.
>>23148576You're so cute when your negative. That's why I stayed as long as I did.
>>23148661Mike?! Is that you?!
He didn’t leave her with a pot to piss in form what I can tell. Pity.
>talk to new friend>we get to know each other and maybe even hang out once>it fades out and we dont talk again>repeatplease just end my life if ill be alone forever
>>23148693No this is Max
>>23148693god is dead i'm not your precious MIKE
Hey that's my name!
>>23148672what is cute about negativity?
I talked to a friend a little while ago about this. He said you just want to cause problems and live in the chaos. Its been fun.
And Jeff, have you ever had them too? Am I just insane now? I don't think I can be saved from this hell and maybe I don't deserve to be. It is my fault.
>>23148718Because I wouldn't expect from you. I want you to stay positive.
I am genuinely truly and unironically helpless right now. Fuck.
>>23148747if someone felt this way about me... oh, to be someone else. me positive is a joke my friend, I am a black hole and everyone i have met knows that.
>>23148751If you were a black hole, I'm positive everyone you met would be attracted to you.
A few months ago I found out I had another half-sister. I guess my whore of a mother managed to get knocked up at 40 and ruin another life. Long story short, I travelled all the way back 'home' to seize full custody of a nine-year-old sister I didn't even know I had. For reasons I won't go into, the process has been fast-tracked and our mother is now facing criminal charges.I didn't think it was possible to fucking hate another human being as much as I hate my own mother, but here I am. I've hardly slept since this shit started and I've felt nothing but rage, helplessness, and the urge to vomit. I just want to go back and resume the comfy life me and my sister finally earned, but I can't do that.Fuck man, the next few years are going to be hard.
>>23148762imagine actually searching on youtube for a song from that travesty they call a play
>>23148777>777Pretty nice yourself!
I am free from my evil woman again and must kill my emotions. Why does she keep coming back when I'm weak? It's like she's psychic.
>>23148802...so kill those emotions...?Maybe write this down
>>23148795i got warned for getting dubs and trips on every post all night one night a few months ago. it's against the rules... just know i could have done it on purpose though
>>23148805Well I've been ignoring my emotions for most of my life, and it's the only reason I've accomplished anything. But I'm worried it's the reason I'm an anxious wreck now too, and how she got her hooks into me in the first place.It's sad but I've already written it down a dozen times... and the opposite. From what I've heard she probably has too. It's a toxic, codependent, mess. Solution is to just stop being a lazy fuck and go hit on some chicks at a bar to take my mind off of her. I'll probably do that next weekend. This time she came back saying she needed me and she wouldn't make the same mistakes again... right as I was finally getting my shit together. As of Monday, my shit's going to be together, so there's nothing stopping me from doing what I'm sure she does every time we break up. Sucks that they can just wiggle their ass on any street corner and get a revenge fuck.
Aw man idk, it's kinda true but you're still wrong. I don't know how I know but I believe in myself and you keep telling me these things that just don't compute.
Why won't these suicide fantasies go away? Why am I even having them? I'm insane.
Got into a bad fight with gf like a week ago and he lost her shit and threw my handgun out into the driveway, scuffing the fuck out of it. Not the first time she’s done that or destroyed something of mine in anger. I went berserker and grabbed the handgun and pistol whipped her knees and elbows. Not the first time she’s goaded me to extreme anger to the point of violence(she knows exactly how to make me lose it, hitting below the belt verbally, physically provoking me) any way I know the relationship is unhealthy but I can’t get away, I’ve put myself in a situation where splitting up isn’t exactly feasible without becoming homeless. I still love her, I think, and she says she loves me too and won’t let me leave her but she is a ticking time bomb of rage and makes me feel like a monster for responding physically when I had not her choice. Can’t leave the house without her chasing me, literally. Tried being calm and reasonable ind the face of her anger but it makes it worse. I’m no saint though. I drink probably more often than I should and have unmedicated bipolar disorder. I get annoyed easily sometimes and unintentionally pick fights. I’m a bit introverted and have problems with effective communication which leads her to constantly complain that I don’t talk to her. She’s gained considerable weight since we got together and I admittedly don’t have sex with her as often any more, but that’s mostly due to lowered sex drive from depression. Sometimes I wish we had never met but then I remember it wasn’t always this bad. I don’t know if we’ll ever be good for each other. She got pregnant six months into the relationship and I persuaded her to have an abortion because we weren’t financially ready for a child but now she uses that against me when we argue. I often think of either disappearing completely while she’s not around or just shooting myself.
>>23148832Well, I'm just some drunk asshole, but I do have obsessive thoughts. Big part of why I'm drunk. But don't drink, in your situation, I'm obsessing about something less final. But anyways, In the short term, the only thing that's worked for me is finding a new obsession. My fallback is making extremely complex idle games. I never finish them, but it's something that can occupy my mind until it actually gets bored and finally release the thoughts. That or work. Work works a lot better desu, because people praise me when I do good, and I have an unhealthy need for validation.Also suicide cuts a gordian knot. Other ways to do that are impossible without knowing more details of the knot.- Miss L
Anyone here have covid yet?
>>23148858I know 3 people who have had it in the last month or so. I have not though, and God willing, it will remain that way.
>>23145397I have some serious issues I am going through, but its getting better. I have friends now, a full time job, almost out of my old debt and going back to college to get a bachelors. It isn't easy, but I am better off then I was before.I hope this pays off, because I honestly want a girlfriend. I just hope I can find one one day.SOD is garbage that damages your ego if you let it. The moment its safe to date normally again, I will fucking drop the service>>23145569not op, but your right. I wish I had someone to tell me that 7 years ago. I no longer miss her, but the damage is done...
>>23148850Fuck that sounds terrible man. I've gotten myself into a slightly similar situation but less extreme in the past. I think the obvious outside point of view here is:> Can’t leave the house without her chasing me, literallyThis is a reason to leave the situation completely. I've seen it before, I don't know wtf it is. Either level 10 abandonment/paranoia, or level 10 manipulation, but it's fucked. You have to keep sane boundaries. > I often think of either disappearing completely while she’s not around or just shooting myself.Disappearing sounds like a good option.
>>23148725Isn't that like seeing a crack addict and going "Oh how nice, they're having fun"
>>23148825Believing in yourself is all you need, even if it doesn't make sense.
>>23145569This is good advice, but you shouldn't necessarily close the door on that person for good. Maybe don't let it hold you back from living life, but you never know. Love can be a funny thing. I told my college friend/crush I loved her in a letter a long time ago and sent it to her since I hadn't seen her in years at that point and just needed to finally say it to her, knowing full well at the time she wouldn't really care or receive it that well. 7-ish years later though and we've begun a relationship, because over time that letter and the words in it sank in for her and she realized she felt the same. I believe she is the one, just as I always have. The waiting is hard. If I had known better myself, I would have spent far less of my time doing nothing but that, but she was and is worth it to me nonetheless.
>>23148874It was a goodbye.
>>23148907I know on this site I'm supposed to stupidly hate you out of jealousy for having this, but I just can't do it. Make her squirt, you cute son of a bitch.
I haven't see the girl from work in months because of all this quarantine stuff. Hate my life. I might never see her again. Wish I could just see her one more time. I feel like just sitting outside in the park all day hoping that she might pass by. Also have so much work i can barely breathe at the moment. College exams, arranging internships and a job on top of all that.
>>23148832Then make those thoughts kill themselves
>>23148925Thanks anon! I'll help her soak our sheets just for you. If it makes you feel any better, I spent a lot of long, lonely years before finally reaching this moment.
>relationship of 2.5 years>ended 2 months ago>one month ago reconnected but still awkward as fuck>slow texting today reveals she’s struggling with a class>spend over 2 hours helping her over the phone>finish assignment at midnight >she says she’s sleepy and doesn’t want to talk God damn I’m fucking mad
no matter what happens or how good my life gets i cant get rid of this disgusting feeling right beneath the surface. i feel like im stuck in purgatory.
>>23148962if you wouldn't be glad to do it, don't do it, that's a mistake. she didn't owe you that and you didn't owe her what you did.
>planned attack and shooting happens literally next to my house>realize i literally could have been there with my family today if we had decided to goi wasn’t there, and i'm very glad i didn’t go, and more importantly i feel so incredibly awful for any victims. but this really puts things into perspective holy shit. especially compared to the petty rants i've posted recently.i have no room to act like a victim but the fact that it happened so close makes my head spin.
>>23148968Seconding this, it's exactly right.
I tried going back to school in the spring, completely and utterly failed both my coding class and math class. Tried again this fall, dropped coding class one week in, was going relatviely steady in my other classes for about a month and then could no longer pay attention to anything. I don't even end up doing something else when I go to do my homework I just end up staring at it zoning out for hours getting more and more stressed out to the point where I just either shut down completely or find something to distract myself. I don't even want to actually go to school but I absolutely hate working the jobs available to me and just want to make enough money to live on my own. At this point I don't see any future that doesn't end in rope within the next five years
>>23148990Do you have ADD or ADHD?
>>23148968Idk we began talking, at one point I had her laughing so much she couldn’t talk right for like 5 minutes. Then we finished the assignment. I followed with a vague how was your day. She shut it right down with “actually I’m really tired” and I got so pissed. I know she doesn’t owe me anything. I’m a fucking retard
>>23149002You know, the great poet Christopher Wallace once spake:>I don't chase 'em, I replace 'em.Be like him.
>>23148226Next year is the sabbath day of 66
>>23149002Just like you should actively try to replace her, you should actively try to stop beating yourself up as well. Ya learn whatever you can learn and you get out of there as soon as possible. Don't stay in the empty room.
>>23149001I've never been diagnosed but at this point I feel like I must. I can't focus on anything anymore regardless of whether I want to or not and have no real ambition anymore
>>23149017It might be worth it to get checked out. If you do have that, you can get on some meds that will help correct this issue for you immensely. Also sounds like you might be depressed on top of it.
Haven't had sex in like two years and kind of miss it.
you guys are obsessed with sex, i would chop my dick off for a friend
>>23149035But would you suck his dick?
>>23149048depends what kinda friends we are
>hey lamed lamedSomethings telling me my life here is your dream come true
I can't in any way feel like life is fair. I can't accept that it's not either. I had to take everything from life while my younger brother had a different life. He got to experience love from his parents, encouragement from them, had loving friends who wanted him around.I was working 40 hours a week at 17 but still had to play by my parents bullshit. They wonder why I am the why I am who I am but refuse to even attempt to understand me. Maybe, when I wad 17 amd working 40 hours a week, I shouldn't have needed to answer my phone 3 times an hour. Maybe if I didn't need to mop the toilet because my younger brother in high schools gf was coming over I would have been okay. Maybe if I wasn't the beta test version of the child you wanted, I could have been human. I am alive to piss on your graves. Once you're both dead, I'll dance, puss and shit on where you were laid to rot. You should never have been allowed to have children.
I was liked and even somewhat respected in that community before you came along, not one issue. I fucking hate you for it, and I wish there was something I could do to take back what I had.
I don't care if you're broke or homeless I can help setting you up towards the right path that will lead you towards love and happiness.Trust me. Im always here for you no matter what
I thought telling the truth was the right thing to do.All I do is feel fucking empty for it.
funny how whenever i would do anything for someone they want nothing from me at all, no call, no message, nothing
>>23148962What did you expect?
>>23149085Look man, I just want a regular boyfriend where I can builld a stable foundation with hypothetical bf while growing together as a person . Thats the point of a normal healthy relationship! All you have to do is trust me and do not be afraid of what will happen. I have faith in this now all what's left is yours
>>23149103You dont need to have sex with me wtf.You're not a toy
it's cool when people pretend to like you for sex or for some other weird reason you can't understand and then one day they're like, "surprise I don't actually like you enough to speak to you ever again."
>>23149077I don't nto re-visit the past, but you stuck your nose in something that had nothing to do with you. It had to do with me, and another anon. I wouldn't doubt he vented his frustrations due to the bullshit his gf at the time was starting with me and him, and he should have really should have been honest with me about him changing his mind about him inviting me(not with malicious intent, we were good friends, just me coming would/did cause problems, he could have told me. I would have just brushed it off, understood, no hard feelings whatsoever). You did it because you wanted clout, you wanted attention, you wanted to make a name for yourself by coming after me when I wasn't around, in situations where you could use your big fucking mouth for your advantage. I was no threat to you, and there shouldn't have been any feelings of animosity towards me because we didn't know each other, and from my reactions with you and your "gang" at that time left a bad taste in my mouth and others.
>>23149130That sounds very disgusting. Please don't force yourself, im aware you've been through alot
>>23149130Only 6-8s are like this, 9s and 10s are compulsive with their lovers.
>>23149137I can't even think of what to type anymore, because it seems so petty and stupid. That's exactly what it is, just petty, stupid high school tier bully shit. Now I'm not sure if I can even show my face anymore because of the damage you've done to me, and the things you've said and done to entice a reaction out of me and then use it against me. I just wish I could reverse what you've done.
>>23149077What community, fursuit underwater basket weaving?
>>23148857I c u
>>23149139"force yourself," what do you mean? I haven't been through that much to be fair except being insane which is quite difficult.>>23149141you're talking about women aren't you. I was just talking about people. but I guess in terms of women she was possibly only an 8. not to me though.
>>23149173Nah i meant both mb
>>23149177they are all 10/10 to me, I miss them.
>>23149157>You've never been a part of one, so it doesn't concern you.
>>23149185My take is that if he or she hasnt slept with you, they probably didnt like you. My experience has former lovers coming back all the time. Honestly if they like you a lot they want you to stay single and alone lmao
>>23149195lets say we're talking about someone you have hooked up with or even had sex with. coming back, eh? never happened to me. maybe you're more likable than me
Let’s just do this already. Honestly.
>>23149203My case is different but its pretty common to hear from normal people "ah i hooked up with my ex again," in a more ritualistic setting "exes," dont exist lol
>>23149212Sounds good. You first
I think me getting depressed is starting to get my parents sad fuckkk
>>23149226I have been though.
>>23149230Yeah probably :/
>>23149231Hold on i lost track
>>23145569>>23148907>>23148939Congrats Anon, your story is a rarity among these types. I wish it was the same for me. We were friends in high school, really close and had been through some shit together. I don't know if it's me just not reading the lack of signals or whatever but nothing ever materialized, even after I told her. Never let the feelings go though. We're still really close 24 years later, both married to other people. The ever present knot in the pitt of my stomach over it is just something I live with. Years turned into decades. And I figured that for my health and sanity I needed to move on. Don't know if she knows I still feel that way or wants to admit it. Sometimes when our conversations or texts get deep we'll tell one another we love the other, I assume she's being naieve about what I mean when I say it... Anyway. It's just part of who I am I guess, I don't let regret put blinders on me anymore.
>>23148536I told you before: I don't pity you. I still really like you; I just can't do as you ask right now.
>>23146804What language was this translated from?
>>23148108Kaede poster is cute.
>>23149275You said we could get married after I collected all 150 pokemon... Did you... did you really lie to me?
>>23149296Listen here little baby. You're gonna get a lot of hurtful and degrading comments, but that ain't what I'm about. Let me just say, you are perfect the way you are. You hear me sugar? PERFECT. Don't ever change. You deserve anything and everything you want. Stay safe for me, baby girl. >mfw thinking of you hurtingTake your pokemon and become a champ of your own league.
Ok I’m bored of this now.
>>23149275what am i asking? all i want is for you to talk with me. why's that so hard? i'm not asking you to date yet...not asking you to marry me...make up your damn mind.
>>23149333You sound like me. Maybe they can't be your friend and they can't talk about it.
RyanI want you to know that me and Smoke and Drink connected here on the west coast through all of the drama this year with girls. I love you for being my friend. I love that I could beat literally hitler here on this board and you came here tonight. It means so much to me to speak to you a little bit again. My good friend. My comrade in arms. My partner in crime to Mike. You made me proud and I am making you proud and look at us on top of the world;East Coast you... West Coast Me....Lets enjoy life.I'll see you in New York sometime and we will laugh our asses off again.Cheers!Bruh..https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zwhP5b4tD6g
I really did want to be in a relationship with you, Kristen. I would have handled it differently if I’d known how quickly and wholeheartedly you were going to latch onto someone else.
From cringe to king.
>>23149342well then i'd prefer someone more open.
There is one fish and no sea.
Searching for you, it’s not that easy.
>>23149426Maybe it's a lake fish?
I wish one of you would just tell me it's going to be okay.
Why do I vividly imagine myself having sex with everyone I meet when I have no real want to intention to? Am I just repressed?
>>23149444It’s all going to be okay man
>>23149408That's right. Good for you.
I am convinced you or I will die before we speak again. I miss you my friend.
>>23149444Well, you and I may have very different definitions of okay. I mean, we're all going to live, we're all going to die, and we're all going to have something that happens in between. "Life" I believe they refer to it as. I can't tell you that it's going to be good, or that you're going to be great. I can't even tell you that your best efforts will be found deserving of a just reward. All I can really tell you is that it's going to be an interesting ride, and that you shouldn't take things too seriously or personally. We're all lost in this crazy world, and there are no universal answers. All I can say is that if you learn to appreciate the little things and make the most of your day, you're going to make a lot of good memories to look back on as you bleed out behind a 7/11 after a homeless man shivs you with a plastic spork over half a sandwhich and a small fountain cup of doctor pepper.It's going to suck, you're going to die painfully, but that's okay.
>>23148850Relatable. It'll end badly. One day either it will get too physical, the piggus will get involved and ruin your life with domestic violence charges. When the man in the relationship is nuts, the man always loses. When the woman in the relationship is nuts, the man still loses. Take it from someone who's life has already been ruined by a crazy wife, who's already in way too deep and has a kid to think about, who's over 30k deep for various mentally unstable wife related reasons, who's prospective career choices and opportunities were ruined by domestic charges that didn't even stick, yet they still damn every single attempt at rebuilding any semblance of the life they once had, who's bright idea was to marry a former prostitute and stripper then expect life to be dandy, who's had everything they cared about taken from them, who's been on the verge of suicide for almost half a year now because of the aforementioned.Heed my warnings, man. The pain of severance is surmountable as long as there's not a kid involved. Anywhere you have to go is better than being dependent on a woman who will beget your demise.
I cant make friends or love. I just want to knock everyone over their heads. Take the mens money and take the womens pussy. Consent is just how npcs obstuct my will with their own and demand selfish bullshit. I prefer my own selfish bullshit, thanks.All in minecraft.
Life is: a really bad prank; devoid of rewards; perpetual disappointment and tribulation; foretold by the redundancy of history and therefore unsurprising, mundane, predictable, and disenchanting; began without consent, ended without regard; a game no one wanted to play and few get to quit early.
Come sweet little boy and listen to me berate you for hours.
Just checking. Sorry.
>>23149523Why would you want to do that? :(
>>23149475Stop being dramatic. One of us we'll put in the effort or not. Have fun until then.
Where were you when I was crying everyday?
>>23149523Until I stop listening to you.
This world is so fucking disgusting. Does love really exist?
I want to vomit.
https://youtu.be/HaNvzj6H8RAI give up. You're on your own
Turns out women are just as disgusting as men. Yuck.
>>23149719Alone. Here.Where were you?
>>23149955On /r9k/, caged without guidance.
I fully support animal cruelty as long as it's directed at mice/rats.
>>23150010Oh, the little pp cages?Brother, that's not even a problem. The shitty little locks they put on those things usually only have a single pin. You could pick the thing with a nail file.
>>23150019Thats the thing. I didn't have a nailfile until I severed my fimger and made one.
Why is it so hard to talk to a love interest? I think like something is preventing me from talking?
>>23150075Overwhelming anxiety.You just have to be yourself, even if yourself sucks, and not put the horse before the cart.Even if you won somebody over by being fake, what good is that if all you can ever do is act around them? You'll never be able to engage with them sincerely. Also if you're sitting there telling yourself, "OMG! This is the one! If I mess this up, I'm just fucked for the rest of my life!" Like yeah, no pressure?You're just two peeps, dog. Don't worry about what could be, enjoy what is.
Go back to sleep stinky dummy. You are getting any mail at this hour.
>>23150135I'll do what I want.
>>23150161Mhm, and how's that going for you.
>>23149475I was your friend, you weren't mine. We probably won't speak again, I don't have the energy for your bullshit.
I hear sex noises but I have to take a shid back there. I think it’s wrapping up p
>>23145397Grandma died, great grandma died, girl i'm dating was diagnosed with cancer and now needs time alone. What is wrong with this week? 2020 was a plain joke already and now this?