Girls sad, crying, depressed, suicidal, etc.
>>3451564Dear lord that'd be painful
>>3452423oh man, oh manwhen you cry so hard, so bad, so long, there's nothing left but you and your memories, washing away timehoursafter a while you got no more tears but your're still crying
why do you still wake up in the morning /c/
>>3454491Because I have to go to work
>>3454491I don’t care about myself, but I’d feel bad if the people at my work had to stay late cause I called in sick. They actually enjoy their lives after all, so I volunteer for all the shitty work.
>>3454491Cause there are still things I want to do and places I want to see. Sadly travelling and experiencing new things can get expensive so it's the time in between those events spent working and saving up that tends to get to me, but luckily there are pictures of cute anime girls to help me cope with those stagnant, lonely days.
>>3454491honestly idk. maybe hope that tomorrow will lead to a new path and ill wake up in 10 years with some kind of successi dont really have a dream, maybe kids and a business but theyre not something that drive me
>>3455351i feel the same as well. i have nothing going for myself so might as well try to pretend to be of use>>3455455i really want to travel but i have no one to travel with and no desire to do anything when out. i have the ability to go places but no clue what to do when i get there. i have no drive to do anything i guess>>3456016>i dont really have a dreami've never had any dream in my life outside of being happyi kinda gave up on that a couple years ago
>>3454491I can't seem to give up hope just yet.
>>3454491my happiness fluctuates. some days i feel great and some days like garbage. i hope i don't have some kind of serious mood disorder
>>3456220>i have the ability to go places but no clue what to do when i get thereSometimes it's just fun to do whatever with no real plan. If you're in pleasant company then it doesn't matter what you do so long as you all do it together. But if you are like me and have nobody to do things with either then it's very daunting. I have little enjoyment doing anything by myself; I feel like such a parasite.
>>3457991same but the days where i feel "great" are slowly diminishing to the point where they're pretty rare>>3458022>Sometimes it's just fun to do whatever with no real planexcept all i'd do would be walk around, maybe get a coffee which sounds like a massive waste of money if i traveled somewhere>If you're in pleasant companyi don't have any company>I feel like such a parasite.same here, i hate interacting with people nowadays as i'm borderline useless and feel like such an annoyance. i constantly feel the need to apologize for bothering people when i talk to them at all, almost like i need to apologize for existing. i've pretty much convinced myself that i'm 'happy' being alone at this point.
>>3458217I know how you mean. I apologize for everything. I felt like a burden around everybody so I withdrew myself. I felt like I had nothing to contribute. >sounds like a massive waste of money if i traveled somewhereGotta find something you'd want to do I guess. I like museums so I'd probably go check those out.
>>3458545i know exactly what you mean anon, i'm the exact same way. i hate interacting with people, every little thing i do makes me feel like an annoyance to others and i do nothing outside of blame myself.>Gotta find something you'd want to do I guessi feel out of place anywhere i go and am not that creative. museums sound like a good idea, at least it doesn't involve socializing.i no longer have any hobbies or interests outside of /c/, no one cared about my opinions so i have little to none, i no longer have any dreams, no one has ever loved me outside of my parents and i lie to them whenever i see them; they only wanted me to be happy in life and i can't tell them that i'm noti'm ashamed of every part of me and i just keep going because i don't want to kill myself because i don't want my parents to deal with that. i'm sorry for the rant.
>>3458690>i'm sorry for the rant.It's cool. Might as well get it off your chest in the safety of anonymity. I think that I know very well how you're feeling, especially with your parents. A lot of the times I would just go along with whatever they suggested just to appease them. I don't really know what I want to do with myself so I guess I could thank them for giving me some direction.>i don't want to kill myselfI know what's it's like to be in that state of mind. I've never told anybody that before so I guess you can be my bearer of secrets. I urge you strongly against it, but you're not alone in being there. >i no longer have any hobbies or interests outside of /c/, no one cared about my opinions so i have little to noneI'm sure that there something you could find to do to enjoy. And you don't have to do it for anybody but yourself.
>>3458720>I urge you strongly against itno matter how bad my life gets, i won't go through with it for my parents sakei won't change anything in my life because i'm a coward but thank you for listening, i cried for the first time in years. i've been drinknig and i'm going to bedgood night anon
>>3458740It's okay to cry anon. Let it all out if you have to. Good night, stay safe, pleasant dreams.
>>3458744thank you anon, i appreciatee you/c/ is all i have leftgood night
>>3458745You too. It's nice to be in the company of anons. Now get some rest.
>>3458217If there's one piece of advice I could give you it's to never be afraid to do something just because you don't have anyone to do it with. I always wanted to travel but never had anyone to do it with so a couple years back I decided to just say fuck it and go by myself, and yes; it was pretty horrifying at first. In my first couple days I got lost and called my dad in a panic because I was scared and didn't know what to do because no one there spoke my language. It was extremely frightening and embarrassing but I'm very glad I went through it because it allowed me to grow and gain a deeper understanding of the world. Ever since then I've become addicted to travelling, partially because the thrill makes me feel alive and partially because it feels like I always learn something new about myself and about the world whenever I throw myself into an unknown place.Now I'm not trying to say that this is the way to go for you as well, but it's what worked for me after coming from a pretty bad place myself. I used to deal with problems like self-harm and suicidal thoughts all throughout my teens and I'm still a mess when it comes to social interaction. but through the years I've learned to appreciate life bit by bit. I still get down from time to time, mainly due to the loneliness, but after living alone for 3 years and numerous solo trips abroad it's no longer something that can keep me down for any longer than a fleeting moment.Life is tough anon, but so is it everchanging. You won't recognize yourself from now 5 years in the future. Healing is possible, and I hope positive feelings will find you very, very soon.
I like these threadsthey're really comforting
these threads are comfortable, in a way. thank you
>>3458881>I still get down from time to time, mainly due to the loneliness, but after living alone for 3 years and numerous solo trips abroad it's no longer something that can keep me down for any longer than a fleeting moment.Why are you lonely anon? You seem to have a kind soul. You don't have to share if you don't want to.
Do you have a 'pick-me-up' anime, /c/? Something you watch whenever you're feeling blue.I always go back to Evangelion.
>>3460225Cardcaptor Sakura, every time
>>3451564i dont understand, what kind of contraption is this?
It's difficult to find things like this
>>3460225i usually just browse /c/ or watch whenever show i'm in the middle ofits getting harder to find things that make me happy anymore
>>3454491i want to feel useful to society and because im mildly popular so if i were to disappear because i died people would fake sadness and that would just be worse than living
>>3461474can't say i'm familiar with the feeling but i understand what you're saying
But as if to knock me downReality came aroundAnd without so much as a mere touchCut me into little pieces
>>3461474I always wished that I were popular. I just wanted to be liked by at least a few people.
>>3462266i'm popular because i'm a meme and i hate it
>>3462289It's hard to explain but people essentially expect me to behave abhorrently all the time and it really takes a toll on me.Nobody respects me and my opinion is taken for a grain of salt.
>>3462337Sorry anon. Maybe I should think before I speak. I guess I don't really know what that's like but it sound like it's pretty awful but that's obviously an understatement, sorry.
>>3462337reaching the point where you feel that people keep you around solely for that reason; no one cares what you think or feel, they only look to you for an easy laugh and then move on to other thingsyou can be as depressed as you want and no one really cares as they don't really care for you as a person; they don't hang out with you because they enjoy you as a human but instead they only hang out with you to make themselves feel better. or at least this is how it was for me years ago. its never fun being a group's 'pet'>>3462268this image hurt me
i've kinda always wished that i had the ability not to feel physical sensations
>>3462819I'm similar but I wish more to not feel things for any others. I'm just tired of people but I can't stop caring.
>>3454491I've still yet to try certain kinds of choice meats and specialty cheeses
>>3463127>certain kinds of choice meatsas in benis?
>>3454491There's still a lot creatively I would like to do. I like art and making stuff. Really the only thing that makes me happy and I have to look forward to.
>>3463127sometimes i wish i weren't anorexic so i could look forward to coming home to a nice energy replenishing meal
>>3463342I wish that I could make you something nice to eat, anon.
>>3454491my cat needs to eat. he loves me so much for no reason and i feel like i can't let him down
OC from 2009.
>>3464455Cute. Make anything more since then?
>>3454491There are goals that i have still yet to accomplish
>>3465177must be nice to have goals set for your selfgood luck
just cut ties with two of my best friends ama
>>3466164any reason why?i've done the same over the past year and i continue to lose more friends due to being more and more antisocial and depressed. i want to be younger again.
>>3466171Paranoia caught up to me I think. Really it's just the fact that they've been taking the piss out of me for years now, and recently they fucked over my relations with this person I liked.That's not even what caused it really, it's that and the fact that they don't talk to me unless I start a conversation, and they have a bunch of groups they tell me they exclude me from.i don't think i'm built for friends
>>3466230good on you anon, life is rough and it's not worth spending it with people who treat you like some kind of pet or joke. even if you feel like you don't have many friends, you'll always have /c/
>>3466240i got run off here too for my own stupidity
>>3466253>i got run off hereHow? It's an anonymous website. Who could chase you out?
>>3466253well the good thing about these threads is that we all suffer together in some way. if you've somehow managed to have this board turn against you in some way then you should at least try to reflect on what happened. /c/ isn't a hateful board, acknowledging your mistakes and shortcomings is one way of working to redeem yourself. just make sure you don't make the same mistakes and make sure you always try your best >>3466261judging by the image, i feel like i know who it isno everyone on /c/ is an anon
>>3466261>>3466262yeah i was puggoit wasn't exactly the best thing i've done but there was a period of two-ish years where i felt i had friends in the threads and whatnoti admit i was a bit retarded about the entire blogpost whatever thingbut after i was "thrown out" i saw people complaining about me everywhere
>>3466262>>3466266I don't pay enough attention board politics to know who any of the characters are, sorry. You'll always just be anon to me.
>>3466273that's more than anything i could've asked forthank you
>>3466266figured as much. doubt things will go back to the way it was back then but it doesn't mean it's the end either; yeah i've noticed that as well, i'd imagine those last few threads really killed off interest of a few people who also used other parts of the board and annoyed them.there's nothing wrong with using a name on /c/ so long as long as you try to keep some kind of humility as someone with a name; this is an anonymous website and people who use names tread lightly. to be honest, creating a discord server and treating the thread as your own wasn't the best move. anons here love another and want to keep the board comfy; you will always have the chance to rejoin the board but again just try your best and think of other anons. the best part of the site is that at the end of the day we're all anons and we'll always have each other's company regardless of the mistakes we've made - it's not the end of the world and you can always find a way up >>3466273drama in a specific thread, wouldn't call it board politics specifically but oh well.
>>3466275Remember to only post girls.
who else judges their life solely based on productivity while being shit at focusing?i drink a shitton of coffee for the feeling of productivity and so that my heart gets worse
>>3466653I judge my life based on the validation of others.
>>3466653i can't be productive as i get stressed out and panic whenever i try anything new.
>>3454491I'm too much of a coward to accomplish something significant in my life, either the one way or another.
why the fuck am i such a miserable personwhy do i get upset at every little thingi just want to be happy and make friends but i always end up miserable
I wasn't very lucky during the last two years, nor the time before, made a lot of mistakes instead of progress and lost some important people too. Everytime I try to change my life it only gets worse, so most of the time I life from day to day. After 15 years on the line I am exhausted though, it wouldn't be bad if a truck hits me now.
>>3462546so relateable, having fun with "friends" and trying to atleast stick out by being funny and memeing yourself out. then finding out that people actually think you are retarded. Are they even my friends if i have to invite myself in everytime? fuck man i just realised
>>3468924it fucking sucks. no matter what happens or how serious you get, they'll continue to think you're either joking or just flat out retarded. worst part of it all was unironically finding out that a couple people actually viewed me as the friend group's pet, someone who wasn't to be taken seriously and just laughed at i just stopped really reaching out to the few people i have left irl; now i usually just drink alone. i really hope the best for you anon, i want you to be happy.the anons on /c/ are my only real friends
i've been getting invited to parties recently, but something in my head forces me to not enjoy myself and sit alone in a corner