Maybe it was too obvious.
I hate that I keep wanting to ask out coworkers, but I don't meet women in many other situations
We eat tomorrow! Awesome.
I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry for being so inferior.You definitely deserve someone better. I'm nothing compare to them, so why?
Its strange that this silence between us seems to be building resentment between us. I hope its not true, I would hope you would like to get to know me before making judgments. I am overthinking this. Ugh. Sorry J I don't know what to even say to you maybe thats the problem.
>>21003256>>21003312Im making drawing you a giftHow do we meet tomorrow? how do I tell them or should I even tell them?
I'm an idiot. If I know that's what's going to happen I should say no.
>>21003359Trust yourself more <3
God damn it all I really want her to just respond. To tell me that everything is cool and we could hang out.
>>21003348Dud you quote my post >>21003312 on accident, anon?
It was very frustrating when I told you "I love you" and all you had to say is "no you don't". Boy, don't tell me what my feelings are. I know what I feel for you damnit. Ffs.
>>21003399Yes. I just didn't have the guts to tell ;-;
>>21003406Lol its fine. I was like, "nani the huh?"
I know you're not feeling well but please, don't forget I'm by your side
K i get it i didnt get where u just came from. Im actually a fucking dumbass fot tht
How could u not see tho
If i ever get my shit together its only cause u did
I mean, what am I even supposed to do when I express love for you and you tell me what I feel isn't real? I guess I legit am too autistic to figure out why you felt that way to begin with. Or how to convince you I really do..
>>21003389I wrote to her again. For gods sake I hope she doesn't respond with what I fear she will respond with.
U know i had ur back from the start right? I want it written somwhere. I shouldv gotten overmyself nd seen how much u were trying. Il always love your spirit
Im still too down but its a working progress
You just.. don't care about me do you? Thats why you won't even initiate a single thing between us, right?
>>21003234>tfw told the bf about that he's a bit oedipal and anal fixated, now he doesnt want me to dom and call me mommy anymore
I cant b tht alltogether allknowing person u want me to be,
>>21003475>why cant you be perfectGee
I dont know what u from m e
>>21003483Just relax okay, let's chill the fuck out
Im thinkin bout a real one from bk when nd mayby a real one from now
If ud throw me a bone i cant read minds
>>21003541Just talk to me directly like a normal human being!
how do you guys feel about long ass blogposts?
Jesus christ I'm scared of even opening messenger at this point. I don't want to see another "read">>21003606If it makes you feel any better then go for it.
I cannot tell is a woman is of legal age just by looking them.I can't read when a woman is showing any interest in me.I have actually walked away from situations in hindsight I realized "oh, shit, that might have gone somewhere" because of that.Each of these situations have been different enough from one another that I could not learn from them.I can't figure out how to fix this and it just makes me hate myself more.
Ok fine. I will go see them today. It gets lonely n shit. But if you're there you better not get the wrong ideas about me. :/
I'm a 23 y/o virgin despite my best attempts, and with how unfulfilling my life is in every way I think I'll just kill myself since noone would give a fuck anyways
I got nothing. Imagine I said something funny here.
Im still fully digusted nd creeped out by my sister and mother theyre slways lying and fully fkng gross i cant begin..
>>21003465How could i know
>>21003404This never happened tho
>>21003628Maybe what you can learn is about yourself rather than the individual situations
>>21003665Get some real problems. Thts not a suicidal problem
>>21003726Yes it did, get outa here you damn larper lmao
>>21003717You would know if you cared.
>>21003729What I've learned is what I've always known: I don't see myself as having any value, so instantly I assume no one has any interest in me and instinctively assume there's an alterior motive involved and just look for an exit.Unfortunately, trying to turn off that part of my brain triggers my autism and I instantly begin to think that any kind of friendliness towards me at all is romantic interest.
>>21003754If the only thing I will ever do with my whole life is being a wage slave, why fucking continue?
>>21003782I've had similar issues. I'm trying to work on building my own sense of self-worth, so that attention doesn't always seem like a threat/blessing. If you're self-sufficient in your own worth then (I imagine) it'd be easy to tell who's romantically interested and who's just being friendly
>>21003773U should know i didnt know but i cared
Greet me if you see me tonight. That’s the classy thing to do. Don’t worry I won’t interfere with your game. Have I ever? I just enjoy watching you try to pick up girls. It amuses me.
Dear J,He was molested.Dear K,Explain everything to her as dark as possible.
what is wrong with men? why are they so sex crazed all the time? why do they rape women all the time? what is wrong with you? just stop raping peoplego masturbate or somethingwhat the fuckmen are subhuman. absolutely subhuman. you're violent gorillas. just stop. stop raping people. stop.
WaitMaybe I'm wrong
>>21003932Also, Heres some very important adviceLearn tagalog.
>>21003946I’m an advocate of closing down 4chan and mandating 5000 hrs of behaviorist therapy in a local facility that will specialize in male re-education, therapy, and training. I dislike the word “Concentration Camp.” These are Re-education Centers.
>>21003834I don't follow the logic here. Can you elaborate or is it mostly hunches?
>>21003946I'm going to forcefully stick it in your pooper
NThe reason why I'm ghosting you is because you're a nasty manipulative child abusing whore, and I'm not gonna get involved in your fucked up shit.
I have a very, very hard time to believe I'm in control of what happens in my life. Either another person agrees with what I do, or I panic internally. If two close people want different things from me I'm torn. How can I get over this shit... This isn't normal.
>>21004003A lot of it's hunches. I value myself lowly and give people ways out of speaking to me, subconsciously. I don't open up because I feel they wouldn't care about my stuff. I go into interactions with the assumption that they'll stop talking to me altogether. I always defer to the other person with regards to my wants and to decisions. Overall, I very much come across as not being my own person, instead attempting to act on behalf of whoever I'm interacting with. This is often not what people want in a relationship. I can garner interest through looks/humour/smarts, but I can't maintain it because I always cater the other person's stance, which I inherently assume is negative towards me, and I come off as either needy or cold as a result. Instead of accepting the other person, I take their role as authoritative and thus hope they accept me. I don't put in my own say in relationships or even interactions
>>21003946They're viruses. Incapable anymore of extraterrestrial prophesy and thinking. This was all prophesied about already, along with the Messiah and his death and resurrection. God or whatever you want to call it is gone doing business elsewhere, getting it ready to take the faithful off this dying planet. It'll all be over soon. Do your best to be like it.
>>21004084I don't open up because I don't want to burden people with myself and my problems.I always see people as having better things to do than deal with me, save for like therapists who I know are getting paid to do it (and even then it takes me considerable work to open up).I hate being my own person and often wish someone would just crawl into my skin and take over my life for me so I can just watch it go by.Sadly, chronic masturbation robbed me of the genetic potential my father gave me for looks, and that's where a lot of the problems stem from (knowing I fucked myself in ways I can't undo).I assume people are apathetic in a "I don't want to talk with you" sense. Even when I go to game stores I just end up wandering aroudn listlessly because I always feel like me trying to walk up to someone and talk is imposing myself on whatever business they were doing at the time.
I hope you see that I only love him. I can't be with anyone else in a romantic way anymore. He killed it for all other men.
>>21004089Men wrote women out of history and blamed them for all the evil of the world (although it's men who love warring). The feminine aspect of divinity has been completely buried. Men are selfish assholes.
>>21004147And yet we're apparently SO much more effecient than you trannys, or else we'd never have been able to do all of that in the first place. Makes you wonder...
>>21004147>blamed them for all the evil of the world (although it's men who love warring).unironically this>couple can't conceive children? or only get girls? they blamed the woman despite the sperm being the deciding factor on gender>adam and eve myth was propaganda to justify enslavement all women by blaming them for "original sin" >west is going to shit due to boomers and greed, people blame western women for wearing miniskirts and having sex on the weekendsi've never met a woman who was a warmonger, a rapist, a human trafficker, a drug dealer, or a mugger. all evil in the world is perpetrated by men.
I am literally incapable of having sex due to stuff that happened when I was younger. People are sympathetic, but don't know how to help. I don't know how to help myself either. Shit sucks
>>21004205I've met at least 3 female rapists, maybe more. Two of them were pedophiles to boot.
>>21004121You sound a lot like me. The social stuff is just a matter of acclimatisation; take small steps to build up to interacting with people out of the blue. I've been trying to build up to it for about 3 years or so and I'm still not great at it, but I've gotten better. Chronic masturbation, I think, will just result in muscular issues from the repetitive motion. I've had that problem as well. If you haven't already, take a good break from it, and also stop watching porn. You'll fall back into it at points, but keep going with the goal of abstinence from it. You'll feel better, no question. Along with this, get out there and move around some. I've been going for short walks as often as weather and my energy/schedule permit.The important thing to remember is that it's about the progress and not the end result; it's more helpful to say "I'm getting there" than "I'm not there yet". As long as you're getting better, you're doing well enough
>>21004351Muscular issues. Stunted growth. Yeah, sadly too late for all of that. It hurts and hard to get over it, but I have some good days.As for the abstinence: been working on that. Still fairly recent into some actual success with it, but I'm not giving up every other day like I was when I first started so that's good.I've got a gym membership I've been really bad at keeping up with, but it's also fairly recent.My biggest problem is that I don't know how to engage. If someone else starts and holds a conversation I find I can chime in, even if I feel uncomfortable and want to get away now and again, and that just doesn't fly for a man.Also doesn't help that I'm halfway into my twenties and only just now figuring all of this out. Demoralizing when I think about all my lost time. I often lament that I avoided this site like the plague when I was in adolescence, it might have helped me.
>>21004258I've met dozens of male pedophiles. It's very uncommon for women to rape and be pedophiles, it's against nature and maternal instincts. Statistics all prove way more sexual offenses are committed by males.
>>21004205Same. I have only met women who are victims of male's crimes.
>>21004175What? I'm not a tranny and you can't even spell properly.
I guess I don't love you anymore
>>21004135Don't be so close minded.. love can come back
I'm hoping and praying this blows over and I reach a good place.
>>21004431Good. Stop talking about me now.
>>21004447Not when I've loved him for almost 10 years. No one else compares.
>>21004431leave an initial
>>21004456Maybe it wont be all lighting and rainbows next time, but that doesn't mean it won't be special and worthwhile.. give yourself a chance.
>>21004482Lightning* excuse me
>>21004488It's okay fren. As someone who has gone through something similar I can say the pain does subside.
Whatever intel you gather on me doesn't show the truth of the situation. You are too dumb to ever understand that part.
>>21004528I'm over the pain.
sway with me under the stars...
You are a great, beautiful man. You have my heart forever.
Hurts hiding the fact I was sexually assaulted by a good “friend” of mine, and not telling my SO or anyone for that matter. I should’ve seen it coming and I just feel stupid.
I got this
>>21004564I hope you reported it.
>>21004581After years of feeling your heart in vice-grip, you become numb to the pain.
No one can be him. It's like he was designed for me.
With that said, I'm not doing this for me. I never was. He gave me instructions of what I was to do, that's why I'm here.
>>21004589I did not. Not only that, I work with him. Just ignoring it until it goes away.
Slowly realizing I’m the toxic on in the relationship. Took 6 months of blood sweat and tears from them to make me realize I’m the piece of shit and the guilts hitting hard.
>>21004631Guilt is a reminder to not repeat the same mistakes so you can be a better person. Don’t wallow, use it.
How are you doing today?https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dIC4VSUE7q4
I will never make the videogame I want to createI'm over thirty and don't know shit about coding or making game art and I'm slow as shit to learn and I don't have time or energy to because of shitty job and house choresMy life is useless
>>21003234I haven't talked to any IRL friends for like ~4 years (and slowly cutting off online friends), been living off savings and not working the whole time, this week I entered the red.
If communication is so hard for you then don’t expect me to keep trying to keep in touch. I’m done talking to a wall, I know you read what I say but you only reach out when you need my help. So I’m giving up trying to be nice. I’ve been though hell, cancer pain has been pushing my sanity apart. You can’t even look at me like a person, I’m just an ATM for our kids. I’ve been trying to be the better person but there’s no point. I have a new partner that doesn’t go shutting down because we disagree on something, maybe because she’s got a bigger sense of appreciation and empathy. You want to be happy? Find a person who loves being ignored, mistreated and blamed for not changing enough for you. Some spineless nothing who has no heart or brain of their own. In fact why don’t you just fuck yourself and save the effort?
>>21004631It takes two to toxic
>>21004689You can always be a game director, that only involves getting the people on track for a project. It’ll cost you but there’s plenty of ways to do business without going broke.
Honestly what would happen if I took 28 of my birth control pills at the same time?
>>21004797You’ll feel tired? If you want the same effect, go buy plan b
>>21004797Lots of vomiting and bleeding, possibly organ tissue damage and blood clotting. If you want to sterilize yourself, just get your tubes tied.
>>21004811No, I just want to drift off and never wake up. 28 is probably too little though but that's all I have. What can I do on top of that?
I think my best friend’s sexy but I also don’t wanna ruin the friendship ya know.I think I’ll settle for the unresolved sexual tension, it’s kind of nice anyway.
>>21004818Literally, a month’s worth of birth control is the ghetto way to do Plan B lol it’s not going to kill you, you’ll just feel like shit.Eat a whole thing of vitamins, and drink a fuckton of everclear? Idk the chick that I knew that tried to suicide with pills was unsuccessful. It worked better when she jumped off a parking garage.
It sucks that nice intelligent guys like me have to resort to prostitutes to lose my virginity. But oh well, at least she gets to enjoy my chest and abs.
>>21004824I'm too much of a pussy to jump off anything. I'd rather wither away in pain in my room while listening to some music before I go blank. I could just sit in my garage with a car but I can't, my mom would find me.
>>21003404Lol. I know this feel.
>>21004858I love music too much to pick just one to lead me into an endless dream...
I wish I would start making better decisions.
Probably gonna stay where I am if I agree to move in with him. We’ve never had better timing. Kinda scared to commit to one place for so long (at least until his kid grows up) but nothing ventured, nothing gained. I do love him, never stopped, just not sure if I am in love with him.
>>21004147True, I'm quoting a book written solely by males.It's being revived, but slowly and probably not soon enough to save things.
I don't know
>>21004447You want it to?Pave the way in gold, I'll walk it
>>21004765>She's got a bigger sense of empathy and appreciateNo you just bring it out in her because you stupidly think with your penis that because she puts out she's better than your baby mama. If you'd tried harder to appreciate and empathize with her instead none if this would have happened and your kids wouldn't have a split home.
>>21003483>>21003490>>21003495Am e who someone special used to tell me to relax. I miss your smiling face
I went into law for the wrong reasonsthis first year of law school has been the worst thing I've ever done. I hate this place, the people suck, networking is the most superficial thing I've ever had to do and it makes me feel like a beggar. I'm here because I was afraid to commit to fixing my transcript to apply to medical schoool. I'm here because I was afraid to face my limitations. I am meant to be in healthcare, doctor or not. I'm sorry to my parents and my girlfriend. I wish I wasn't this way but I have to try
Damn. The app changed my number the night before I decided to see if they had left me a message or called. I guess God is saving me from more ego bruising. I just wanted to tell them a few things I wasn't going to beg.
I'm cutting ties with my family and friends and resetting my life in under a month. I don't feel sad, just excitement. They never treated me particularly bad, I don't know. I'm ready to reset, everything is too dull.
I feel really superficial in my day to day interactions, and I hate pretending to feel a certain way when I’m supposed to.
>>21004398That you're making effort is all you need. Going from not going most times to going most times is an accomplishmentAs for engaging in conversation, I've found it helpful to just listen sometimes. People can appreciate if you just add a few thoughts here and there, and if pay attention and reoax about it you'll learn how to converse better.And as for feeling like you're late to the game, there's that proverb: "The best time to plant a tree is 20 years ago, but the next-best time is now.
That fucking Disney movies fucked my perception in wahmen like goddamn everytime I see a chick making eye contact the first thought that is she likes me then I'm like wait not possible then I end up avoiding the chic then I realise what I did then I try and resolve the issue by telling the chic I'm into little kids now I'm fuuucccccckkkkkkkkkeeeeeeeddddd shit shit shit have two more years school and have most classes together
Self improvement is the way to go from now on.
you dont get to be mad at me because I told you how hurt I felt. You had me build trust and think that things would be different before running off with someone else.
I fantasize about my mom
I'm pretty sure all my friends are fake.
Another step in motion.In less than 2 months I'll moving to a new play with nothing to my name. 3 to 4 k in savings. Little to no job prospects. Everything has been telling me that I'm making a mistake. Leaving everything I have ever known for s person. I know it's stupid, but I want to try. If it fails, I'll manage and figure out how to pick myself up.
I am in my own personal hell right now. Trying to get out of a bad relationship isn't fun. I'm glad I can talk to you, though I'm not sure how to tell you what I'm going through. I haven't known you for long and so I haven't said anything about the bad relationship to you yet. I didn't want to dump my troubles on a stranger. I still don't want to dump my troubles on you. That would be wrong. That said, I know I need to let you know my situation for full disclosure reasons. You were flirting with me last time. It's obvious you like me. I'm starting to like you, too, even though I'm not really available yet and can't do anything more than talk.Where do I even start to explain this? How do I go about this? I hope I don't scare you off. Being able to talk to you and have an outside perspective has been a reminder that there are better times out there and better people. Talking with you makes me smile and give me hope. Losing that would only make a hard time worse.Please don't run away.
>>21005215Don't do it. If it feels like a mistake, it is a mistake. I did what you are about to do when I was younger. It blew up in my face. The one I moved out for left me within a month. I couldn't find work. I ran out of money. I nearly starved, before being forced to go home in shame.I was an emotional wreck for months. I tried picking myself back up and going to school and finding work. I gave my mom what I could as payment for a place to sleep, but it was never enough to her. My mother was merciless. She threw me out. I was homeless. This landed me in an even worse situation that I'm now struggling to get out of.Don't do it. If it feels wrong, DO NOT DO IT.Please. Save yourself. Don't end up like me.
All I achieved til now was out of ego
>>21004828You to shy for real girls? To smart for them perhaps? Get yo shit together fggot
>>21003310Chances are you're valuable in your way. Stick to what you like about you or build yourself as someone you would like
So... I feel a little bit dirty. Over a whole 2 years I've been shitting on the concept of finding personal information about someone, doxing and all of that stupid shit. Today a friend IRL comes to me asking if I can do her a favor and find personal info on a scammer, that she's tried a lot. Somehow I found a fuck of a lot of personal info about this person (and relatives) including addresses. I gave her that info. I'm so fucking stupid.
>>21005220Going through something similar.Wish you the best.
>>21005279Should have gotten paid.
>>21005305Way ahead of ya, since she told me she would pay me. I just don't like the look of this.
The only times women make an effort to treat me like a person is when they either want to get in my pants or manipulate me into doing things for them
>>21005316Everyone wants something from others. It's why society exists. Every relationship, friendship or more, requires an exchange to exist.You are wanting emotional connection, I'm guessing. Perhaps a home maker? Do you really treat all women like people or only those you want something from?Past that, look at yourself and try to figure out what you can do to attract women who want from you the stuff you're willing to give. If you don't want to give anything, give up on relationships. Period.
I want to tell you goodbye but I don’t know how. I need you out of my head. I don’t want this.
>>21005350Want what? Just say goodbye. Give them a reason.
The last message i sent you goes above the context of our conversation. I wish I could tell you.
>>21005350Yea idk what to say eitherBye.
>>21005054Sorry, I said engage, what I mean is initiate. I can listen to people talk all day, it's starting the conversation I am terrible at.I've seen that a lot, unfortunately it doesn't mean you'll get to eat the apple in your lifetime.
>>21005361What is this about?
>>21005363You should say more.
"Want to watch all of Tarantino's films with me?" https://youtu.be/9gs1_ndm3r4
Every time a particular co-worker talks to me, nothing but word salad comes out of my mouth.Wtf.
>>21005255It hurts to read this, worse of all is that even against all my better judgement it's something that I can't really back out on. The person I will be moving in with, my gf, will be coming soon to drive with me to our new apartment.My documents are signed, my family has given me their blessing in the form of a new car. I gave my place of work my resignation letter and while sadden by the news they understand, while wishing me the best and having both my boss and my boss's boss tell me that should things not work out that they will likely have a spot for me. I'm giving up my everything, so that someone else can live better. Risking everything just to have the chance to give someone else the chance to be happy. As stupid as it is, I know this has a huge chance of going to hell I accept my fate and will live with my choices. Thank you for your concern.Were this two years ago, I have no idea knowing what I know if I would do the same.This will likely be the death of me, but I'll manage. Even if I have to live as a roach, I will figure out a way to continue.It is only when it's darkest that we can see the stars.
>>21005345I just ignore them for the most part
>>21005350The how is very simple. Just say you need to concentrate on yourself for awhile. This conveys a goodbye yet if you still care about them, gives you an opportunity to keep them in your life but with your boundaries in place. Do not expect them to 'fight' for you or to convey how much you truly mean to them- that only happens in the movies. Plus, what you mean to them is probably very little. You would not feel the need to leave if any of your feelings were reciprocated at an equivalent level.
It’s just that your abuse has me all sort of messed up. No one has hurt me like this before and you know I’ve been hurt bad. You’re too smart and it makes you dangerous. I almost didn’t make it though this... but I did. I just need to tell you. I can do this.
I'm a ugly sack sack of shit
Please care a bit more about me, realize that kind of stuff make me depressed
>>21005345>>21005406Y'know, I've already been forced to part with my innocence, childhood, adolescence, and most of my ability to trust others at this point. What the fuck else am I supposed to give up? How much more are you going to ask of me? What, if anything, are you going to pony up? You're the one who keep coming after me. Why should I let you into my life?
>>21005454What sort of stuff?
>>21005412I do mean very little to him which I why I can’t leave the door open.
>>21005470Being around normal, happy people - and especially him
>>21005414Abusers never listen. They never change. They will listen only for their benefit. They will use what you tell them against you. They'll tell others you harass them. They'll tell others you are crazy. They will never stop abusing you. It will only get worse until there is nothing left of you.No contact is the only way to get and be free.
>>21005479Then I hope you are able to walk away freely with your head held high, no regrets, and without looking back. You deserve better!I just did the same after 5 long years and what led me to finally move on was the realization that I want/need/deserve someone who will be excited to receive my attention, who will crave my affections, and who will want me to be committed to them. Devoting yourself to someone who only takes your heart without offering theirs willingly in return, is wasted since they are unworthy. It sucks ass and feels like shit but there was already someone worthy who I never noticed bc I was too hung up on the schmuck.
I'm always such a baby, how do I grow up?
everything sucks and I want to die but what's especially bad is meeting a girl and falling for her in 5 god damn minutes then obsessing about it for weeks and then not feeling like I want to die until I realize how fucking retarded I amthis is so fucking stupid
>>21005518Thank you. Good for you! You’re so strong. <3 I’ve been thinking about going no contact for the last two years off and on. I’m too accepting of the abuse because of my past and he’s so special but it’s not worth it.
I think you’re starting to like me, I want you to. You’re so smart and funny. I already knew you were cute but that means so little, your personality has been shining through lately and I really like being around you. I hope you ask me out or something
>>21005406> Ignores women unless he wants something> Why do women only come around me when they want something?> Does not see the parallels here.You get what you give.>>21005462Nobody can FORCE you to do anything. You choose to do it. This unhealthy attitude creates resentments and removes responsibility over your own actions.> Why should I let you into my life?That's for you to decide. Why do you want anyone in your life? Companionship? Sex? They can do things for you? Everyone in a relationship that isn't one-sided ponies up something. Women, too. They are letting you into their lives as well and offering something in exchange. Companionship, sex, things they can do for you, ect. Stop and look at what is being offered. Sometimes what is being offered is subtle. For example, a live-in GF that takes care of all the bills, laundry, and cooking is effectively removing all these burdens from you in exchange for living with you. These things are easily taken for granted, but are being ponied up by her. Sometimes it really is one-sided. Walk away from those. Men can do it, women can do it, everyone can do it. Selfishness has no gender restriction. Make sure you're not one-sided, either.
>>21005529take responsibly for everything you do. Sounds easy but it's not.
He's like virtual reality. It doesn't matter if he it's all show or not. The only thing that matters is the effect he elicits. Do you feel me?
>>21005529Put away childish things. Turn off games, anime, and other entertainment. Put away your phone except to make calls. Spend time in the real world ONLY for a year. You will grow up fast.>>21005534You are lonely. That's all. Do as I suggested to the other guy. In your case you need a change of perspective and to be around other human beings. Getting out and being alive will help you feel better about being alive.
>>21005619if he's all*
Smart people notice patterns. I count on that.
I don't think I'll ask you out. If you want me, come and get me.
I want to see you.
>>21005626How? Tell me
>>21005624So do schizophrenics. Will you count on them?
>>21005629You do it.
>>21005629One text is all it takes
>>21005635Yeah, they are usually extremely intelligent. There are things we don't understand just yet about them.
>>21005640I'll try... same locationwill update you later
>>21005602>You choose to do it.Yeah, after being beaten and choked on top of years of grooming
>>21005671Stop wallowing as a victim. You're displaying it as a badge to be proud of and it's not. You should be ashamed and embarrassed. You allowed these things because you are too weak as a person to understand the difference between bad attention and good attention. Stop trolling for pity, blaming others for what you allow them to do, and grow some damn balls.
>>21005656I'll wait for you
>>21005686Yet here you are blaming OP, you might want to take your own advice anon.
>>21005651A common misconception. Only a few of them possess a high intelligence. Most of the sufferers don't have the adequate reasoning skills to be reliant, as most of the patterns they perceive are based on illusions and rarely correlates with reality.
Women are just like you guys. We want to love, to be cherished, to be encouraged and supported. We give back in the way we are treated.
Gotta try harder
>>21005736Guy here, I do want to love but I don't need anyone to support me or to encourage me. I can do that myself and if I didn't then I'd be weak.
>>21005712Nah, they perceive the world differently and are highly valued in many others cultures as seers (often being medicine men). That's not to say there aren't dumb schizophrenics, I'm sure there are. They just see beyond what we see.
>>21005656>>21005696Ah yea noDont pretend to be me. I dont need to see her or anyone else. Dont show up if you're even reading this.
>>21003310I know this feel bro. I literally just got my bachelor's degree, and am working on my master's degree. I thought that would start making me feel superior---- but guess what? it doesn't matter. We'll always feel inferior somehow.Idk how to remove this feeling. I suppose it is our ego keeping ourselves in check.
>>21005701Oh zip it, Skippy. Read the threads.
I like beer. It actually has taken away the pain she caused. My heart has stopped hurting for now. It's funny before beer I was going to come here and write out a long, angry letter of all the things I haven't said to her about how she did me wrong. But now, I just want to say thanks beer. You're a real bro. I'd buy you a beer if I could
>>21005745Well women.....we are encouraged to be weak.
I'll always want to murder you
I think murderers and groups of murderers are proven to be low IQ people
>>21005814Dude write a letter and set it on fire Kill yourself
>>21005686I don't think you get it in the slightest. Maybe I'm venting my frustration to 4chan too often these days, but you are a fucking tool. I would bet money you don't have the balls to tell someone who was molested it was their fault and that they allowed it to happen to their face.
>>21005818It's the truth. Look at the cartels, look at the niggers, look at the Muslims, look at that fucking highschool dropout Tarrant. All fucking retarded.
>>21005628I want to see you too.
>>21005686Being a victim is something to be proud of when you survived, gotten away and are thriving. Sharing your story helps others who are still in it. It can help someone else to get out and know there is hope.Do you really need this spelled out and explained to you? Dumbasses running amuck!
>>21005863And how is the OP being this enlightened? Read the thread dumbass
>>21005825I never said it was their fault or they allowed it. What I said was by continuing the pattern of putting themselves in that situation, then yes, it would be their fault. Do you think these women who were kidnapped and chained in basements are wallowing or moving forward with their lives? Read the thread- this poster is only wallowing and making victim excuses when prompted to move forward and deal with the shit. They don’t want to
>>21004964You’re not even close, she took my failing health badly and bailed on me when I was dying from cancer. She told me she hates herself for doing that, but at that point her mind was made up. She called me a great dad after she broke up with me, that’s the mentality of a person who cuts their nose off to spite their face. She never wanted to be a mom, and deep down I know that’s why she resents me. But at least she knows I’m always going to help with the children. You don’t know what it feels like to be fucked over when you're at deaths door, until then keep pretending you know me.
>>21005882I said:>I've already been forced to part with my innocence, childhood, adolescence, and most of my ability to trust others at this point.You said:>Nobody can FORCE you to do anything. You choose to do it. >Do you think these women who were kidnapped and chained in basements are wallowing or moving forward with their lives?Tell me exactly what's going on in my life outside of wasting time on here, since you've been making it clear you know my life better than I do
It is really sad these posters are faking being abused, molested, or having cancer for (You)s. I really don’t see the point when you can go to red.dit for karma whoring.
>>21005915>I've already been forced to part with my innocence, childhood, adolescence, and most of my ability to trust others at this point.You are choosing to limit any future relationships in your life by carrying mistrust. The people who do evil things are (hopefully) not the same as the new people entering your life. So why should the newbies have to suffer for the sins of the others? You say your innocence was stolen- it is your choice if you do not recognize the value of innocence all around you. Your childhood and adolescence was stolen? What makes you think you were entitled in the first place to these things? Are you worse off than children born to crack heads and shucked into a foster system until 18? How about starving kids born in third world countries forced into labor camps to survive? Everyone needs a good pity party now and again but then you pick yourself up, realize the world is a shitty fucking place that doesn’t owe you a damn thing, and you bust your ass to become someone better. Abuse is not an excuse to hide behind because you are too afraid to live life. It is fuel and ammunition to make your world better.
>>21005379I wish I was yours.
>>21005780True, and I think it's a good thing to some degree. Men and women don't necessarily want the same things but in the end they complement each other. I want to be able to protect someone I care about so I'll search for someone who seeks protection, if that makes sense.
i just want a fucking hug. i just want at least one friend. i'm so lonely. i feel tears in my eyes again.
>>21005919I think it’s sad you think people are lying, why would anyone vent their personal feelings to the void and make shit up? That negates the point of getting things off your mind by posting and letting people who have lesser or equal problems get perspective. If everyone is shit posting then the jokes on you and me for being here.
I just realized I could be the most creepy person to some people. Then I realized that what if all of my friends are part of that creepy vibe, and that I've been wrong all this time and that-that creepy vibe is rubbing everyone off the same way. What if I've been doing it wrong the entire timeFuck I need therapy
Fuck it, life's hard.
i loved you but its not enough. I'm dead inside now.
>>21005978Why can't you be?
I'm just going to fucking say this, or I will just end up resenting you forever. Hell, I still might. I hate how you play off how hurtful you've been this week. "im sorry I was in the wrong" isn't good enough. I fucking hate apologies. Don't fuck up in the first place, it's not difficult. Your bullshit has caused me so much fucking anxiety it's been hard to breathe at times. And the reason behind it, what you're going with, is absolutely the most hurtful reason you could have had. And worst part is I think you know that. I wanted forever with you because I loved you more than life. Now I don't really care what happens. I'm tired of trying, I'm tired of being perfect and giving you everything and getting shit in return. And to think I left someone who loved me with everything they are. I worry I can't say the same about you.
The majority of the time I feel like everyone is scared of doing what’s difficult for what they want. Even if it means sacrificing other things they want. People don’t seem to believe the world is as fucked up as it is, it’s that comfort with ignorance that makes them see only what they want.
>>21005951>Everyone needs a good pity party now and again but then you pick yourself upTell me what's >>21005951>Everyone needs a good pity party now and again but then you pick yourself upWay to miss the whole fucking point of vent on here in first place
You are so wonderful, you make me happy just by existing, and a world with you in it is so inspiring. Nobody is perfect but you’re lovely and that’s as close as anythingI’m not perfect but I hope I can brighten your spirits and be a good role model. If not by my fallible actions, then by the continuation of wishful ideals
Imagine I had just fucking perfect discipline. Imagine what I would be capable of.
>>21006057What do you want to do anon? What makes you happy? What makes you interested or curious? Tell me!
Huh, I just realized my old crush honked at me today.Hope she didn't take me looking behind seriously, my ears are all over the place since I tried to swim. Now I can barely hear from one of them.
>>21003234The reason I'm a lonely virgin that doesn't have a gf is probably because I've never even asked out a girl before and have high standards. I always thought the girl of my dreams would be the one to ask me out. It actually happened to me twice in highschool believe it or not, but one was fat so I flat out turned her down, and the other one was at a summer camp and it didn't have enough time to go anywhere and we lived too far apart outside of summer camp.Now I have no experience with women at 22 years old and it seems like too much of a hassle and also I feel too shy and autistic and generally unknowledgable on how to go about it, to ask out a girl at this point.
>>21006024Because I'm not good enough for you, or you're scared.It fucks me up so I just larp on here.
Just had this funny dream!
Thankful that I escaped. Today I felt more normal than I had in a long time.
i just wish you'd let me live. this was the first time ive had fun all year and you went out of your way to ruin it. you wouldn't get so emotional over everything if you cut down on your drinking, i know you won't. its ridiculous that i feel like i have to be responsible for you, especially considering youve never even pretended to try being responsible for anyone, not even yourself. it is your fault, you need to take action before you slip away.
Does dopamine have anything to do with why we call drugs dope, I wonder
>>21006170And how do you know you're not good enough for me? I never need much.
I met someone a month ago who's kind of turned my world around. We met through friends and instantly hit it off. She's from a neighboring country and was initially just over for a handful of days but ended up extending it to stay with me for another bit. It was an intense week and I don't think I've ever opened up to and felt so comfortable with somebody on this level before.Since then I've went over to visit her twice, we've met each others' parents, made plans for the coming month, and she's coming over to stay a week with me soon. This has all happened so rapidly and it's a lot to process, but every time I'm with her I feel like nothing else matters in the world, and I just can't wait to get to know her more and experiences things with her.I do worry things are advancing too fast - and I'm trying to keep a general sense of things - but it's hard not to get swept up in the moment. She's already given me everything my last ex couldn't, and I find myself learning more about myself with each day I spend with her.I've never put much weight in 'fate' or 'destiny', but everything about this and the many coincidences and similarities that keep popping up around it have lead me to second-guess my beliefs lately.Apologies for the stream-of-consciousness ramble, I'm still parsing the past few weeks and just needed to get some thoughts down
Even if you don’t want me, I think you’re pretty alright and want to know you better
For the past several months to a year I’ve been hyping myself up (as well as telling others) about a move to a big city, that in my head was supposed to, in my own arrogant thinking, put myself in better company, have more things to do etc, basically get away from a typical regional town. Man I hyped it up so much for so long. I left a job where I had the best co-worker. I fucking wept in the car after I said goodbye, man. I’ve been here nearly 2 weeks now.I have good friends here but they’re all caught up in their own shit. They’re all telling me it’s great for me to have left that town, but I dunno man, I’m not really buying it now. It’s all I heard from them beforehand though. “When are ya movin to Brisbane, man! We’re worried about you!” Naturally, of course, they’re all adults. I don’t know what I was thinking, although I must be selfish to expect everything to be dandy from the moment I moved down. I’ve got a flat inspection tonight, and a job interview tomorrow which should be good. But maaaan all I can think of is just hopping back in my car and driving all the way back home. I really feel much better being a hermit who checks into his friends every couple of months. I can’t stand it here as it is. It’s fucking cold. City people are stiff, driving here is fucked. Crazy thing is I’ve lived in this city before, but I somehow forgot why I left. I feel like a massive retard. I swear I’ll never talk this place up again. The only thing keeping me going right now is the thought that if I try hard enough and still fail, I can go home and half save face. I wish I could go back in time and slap the fuck out of myself, and let myself know how good I had it. Man I can’t wait to just go back home in a few months. Wish I wasn’t such a big mouth about this. Honestly, I’m happy to have not too much ambition and to just live back in my hometown, cleaning people’s houses. Deep down, I really am.
One day. Not today not tomorrow But I wouldn't mind seeing you once again. At least before I move on with my life and back home to do what I have left to do. R
A few years ago I left some of my old friends and moved to a different city, but recently we've been meeting up again and each time we see each other its kinda bittersweet because it's like nothing had changed compared to my current friends where I feel out of the loop
>>21006259No thx. I'm good.
I'll wait until I have somebody I can torture
>>21006266Ok. CoolThis is goodbye than. Goodbye CYou'll be written into my life story anyway
I want somebody I can harm and abuse
Leave me alone... You don't love me anymore, so just leave me alone.
>>21005764Boo fucking hoo get over yourself move on youre gonna make it so stfu-her
damn, I've made a lot of bad decisions
JYou seem to be over it, I hope at least. Good bye. Sorry for what I did.
>>21006266Shut your stupid whore mouth
>>21006285All you have to do is tell me "I'm single now" and I will swoop you up.Put that in your pocket for a rainy day.Until then I expect the same distance you've been giving me anyway.
>>21006317LolMaybe you should actually tell your person this bruh
>>21006314Make me xoxo
>>21006323I will if I can get her alone for a minute
I already said goodbye >>21006287>cope>>21006305>Sorry for what I did.You did a lot more good for me than you did bad so I should thank you instead. You dont even understand what you actually did for me but thank youI wont be responding again. R.
>>21003234My girlfriend says she loves me but acts like she could care less whether I live or die. No family or friends left. Never felt more alone. Starting to feel like I don't care either.
>>21006323Text her, either spill it there or ask to be alone via text like tell her you need to talk. Waiting for this magical perfect moment you don't have to work for is stupid
I miss you. Talking to you always brightened up my day. You don't know how happy you made me. In my loneliest and scariest of times, I cheered you on, but it was you who helped me feel a bit more cheery. I hoper you're doing well. Don't stay up too long.
>>21006339Meant for >>21006332
What should I do?
>>21006337My post is for a J, not from one.
>>21006330>xoxoThought you didn't want it, mark
>>21006342I really wish this was for me, but I know it's not.
>>21006357Entire thread is nothing but loneliness from missing people. Who are you looking for?
Who the fuck goes to bed that early? Maybe I don't like you. haha
>>21006365My very important person... I'm not allowed to talk to him anymore because it became to painful. But I would like to think I made his day better, but I don't think I did.
I think you have been through a lot of hurtin'. Your first love chose someone else, and I won't flatter myself and say you loved me, but I know you felt something. And you knew that something could be another spark to just burn you. Its not that you choose what you feel, as if your emotions are on a circuit board and you can flip them on and off at will, you just really wanted to be able to. Your obsession with control is a defense mechanism, and I don't hate you. I can never hate you fir not wanting to be hurt ir to hurt someone else. We can never be, but I care about you. If you need a friend, I am here. I could use a friend too, so maybe thats what we were meant to be all along.
>>21006389Sorry to inform but my feelings have always been on a switch. And they’re now in the off position. I don’t need any more friends.
>>21006416Hey, if thats true then what else is there to say. I have been without friends basically my entire life. It wasn't that bad, but I cracked. If you don't then you're much more stronger than me and that makes me a little envious. My offer will always stand, just for you. Take care.
>>21006389>You dont know me at all J.Stop talking to me. I dont believe anything going forward is you.
>>21006427>I have been without friends basically my entire life. You dont have to lie. I know
>>21006430It's not a lie.
>>21006437Yes, yes it isI have seen enough to know the truth. You're a "normie"I used to be one and I will be one again but going forward You dont deserve my time like this. None of you doStop.
>>21006457Its sad because your post really emphasizes how little you know me. But thats your choice. If you ever want to learn the truth my walls have a gate that will be open just for you. Goodnight.
>>21006428I never talk to you, and I know that.
>>21006486I wish I did know you but apparently I dont.I mean it. I did want to know you but you wouldn't speak to me and let me get to know you. That's not a big dealI know you're scared shitless of me and my anger. That has nothing to do with you for anyone else. Some of the anger is gone at this point but I mean itYou're normal and special in a way. I'm done ok. I cant do this with you or anyone elseI have my own path. I mean it. I dont even believe it's you at this point on here and I cant post going forward even if I think its you or notI wish I knew you but we can't all get what we want in life.
>>21006499I feel like the only thing we learned about each other is that we are both terribly lonely people. And that will be the only thing we will ever learn about each other. I don't have the energy to say anything more than that. Except I love you, somehow.
>>21006520I've told you this many times. I wont be your little cuck or play toy okI know what you're doing if you are her or not. I'm not stupidJust stop it already. You dont careYou never did. I dont need youYou dont need me..
I needed someone to talk toNot a relationship. Leave me alone going forward
>>21006553Who are you? Either tell them directly or at least leave an initial.
>>21006547You know there is only one way for you to know the truth, I will never deny you a chance to learn. But if dying on the rock of ignorance is what you prefer, so be it. As heartbreaking as that would be.
>>21006565You're not her.I'm going to sleep because I have other things to do tomorrow I know it's not her. Stop fucking with me
This is just a game to you people isnt it. Just fuck with me and treat me like shitFuck all of you.
>>21006572Thats very possible. Goodnight, stranger.
I’m the architect, she’s the construction worker. That’s why you two get along.
Now she even ghosted me ffs
>>21003234I really do love you. I never left even after five years and you gaining 40 lbs the last two years because I really wanted us to work out. I changed to be more reliable, caring, generous, and basically be your prince, but you never were willing to do the same for me and even put me into a marriage ultimatum on our fifth anniversary. As much as it hurts me today, I had to choose my own future happiness. I still want you to be the mother of my child, but you never wanted to put the effort to work on yourself like I did for you. I am constantly reminded of you and miss you, but I know it had to be done. Goodbye my love.
I feel like my gross slutty past makes me undeserving of love and a good life
I wish you'd just tell me. I wouldn't have to wonder so much.
why do I find pleasure in pleasing borderline NEET or otherwise socially outcasted men? At first I thought it was some sort of powerplay, but no, I just like pleasing pasty fat white guys and full filling their shitty fantasies kms
>>21006790Get in my life right now.
>>21006790At least your not gay
>>21003234May as well share this before the thread dies>go & pay phone bill every month>cute & "busty" girl behind the counter asks me questions about how my life is every time I visit>she starts asking me how things are going in my love life>just kinda ignore the question & pay the bill >next time I see her she jiggles her tits to the side of me asking if she know anyone interested in having a girlfriendI'm actually at a loss as to bite the bullet & ask her out for some coffee or just stay away from someone who's so forward that they would even do something like that?
>>21003234I'm 24 and I have no clue what to do with my life.
I FINALLY SLEPT FOR 9 HOURS HO HO HOLY SHIT!
>>21006831She has a boyfriend 100% My sister calls those types of people bitches and she got lot's of friends in her college days.
WHY DID THE LANDLORD LET A FUCKING ELEPHANT MOVE IN UPSTAIRS
I'm not any good. All I can do is lie and be mean. I want to have something or someone to live for but I don't really care about anything. I hate things. I hate lots of things. But I don't love anything. There are lots of things I pretend to be; things that I, on capricious occasion, would like to be, but none of them stick. I eventually grow to hate them. Why am I like this?I loved you. Why did you hate me?
>>21006895I love you.Just went out and bought some foodAlso, my dog is a fatherly monk just like me.
>>21006925My sister left her dog and when I woke up my dog is hiding under the bed because RK is too energetic.He was also trying to teach the puppy on how to jump on the bed and disciplines himSo cutebut he likes barking at strangers! he even lunged at the waterboy when he at his early months.Im so proud of him
You made my day better. Thank you.
>>21006951Don't know how or why but you're welcome!
>>21006951>>21006953No problem <3And apparently, RK ate his lunch for the third timeIt kinda reminds me of us
I am not a good person.
>>21003234I'm so full of dread right now
>>21007013You're a good person.
Did reinstalling my operating system do anything? How did my computer get compromised again?
>>21007085Yes. Curly fries.
I don't know if I can, anon.
I got drunk and blacked out again. There are obviously things bothering me deep down. I just wish I could bury them forever.
I don't think I will ever be ok. Not unless I can just forget.
Why does it feel like i've hurt someones feelings again?I'll send you a twinflame along the way
I want the war to be over.
I know this sounds dumb, but I’m embarrassed over uploading some fetish porn several months ago. Like, excessively embarrassed. Excruciatingly embarrassed. Embarrassed to the point where I spend most of my day trying not to think about it. I won’t name the fetish or describe what I uploaded, but what’s really frustrating is that a: Part of my embarrassment is irrational because people liked what I wrote, and b: because it’s inappropriate, I can’t vent to or get help from anybody. The closest thing I could do is reach out to a person on the site who’s okay with friendly PMs. The problem is I’ve become so socially anxious, I can’t even speak with people online anymore. 4chan is fine thanks to the anonymity.Every time I do something to get myself out of my shell, I seem to regret it. I know if I push myself, it’ll get easier, but it’s just so scary.
>>21006192I know you don't need much,but HE has everything already.His career which always comes first and his wife.I am nothing but a distraction.
I realized that asking your advice on my shit is really dumb and not rational because I basically ask you to confirm my opinion I haven't said yet. This is dumb
>>21006190No. Dope as in dope fiend is because dope used be "a thick sauce". Dope fiends in the 1880s were those that drank laudanum and other thick mixtures of opiates. Dopamine comes from dopa and amine, where dopa was an acronym for dihydroxyphenylalanine.