I remember as a kid, where i believed that other Humans are exactly like me. I admired the intelligence and the personality. Long time since.It began all since i was 10 years old. I finished the german primary school (1-4 classes) and then they decided to send me to the lower secondary school (5-10/12 classes which bans u from all academic jobs). Then in the 5th grade, somobody started bullying me. In 6th grade, everybody started bullying me. 8 Years of extrem bullying. Nobody (even from other schools) wanted to have anything to do with me. I was alone, hunted by bullies. Every school break and holidays, i spend my time gaming home and watching people walk through, talking with eatch other. Sometimes i heard small pieces of conversations, created of the look an personality and immaginated conversations with me. All the time. 8 Years hiding from bullies and random people supporting them. Because of that, i had too much time. So i read. I got smart, but there was no future way for me anymore. My parents payed a professional loyer to check this, there was no way for me to register at university (only my communication skills were bad). But i have very good skills in quantum physics and programming (private learning). So, im sitting right now with no future here.I feel like beeing alone in the universe. All Humans are objects for. Dosnt matter how hard i try. Feels like every human that walking nearby is just a bad developed A.I.. Every step predictable. Every Word. I know that i cant read minds, but i can predict very easy a humans reaction. Feels like im alone in the matrix, surrounded by software.And now im still sitting and trying to reach life out there, how i though it would be as a kid.
Kid you a bustaYou should have hunted the bullies
Dig deep and find another person like yourself they are rare but they do live amongst you male and female.
>>20679403>Find someone who's selfish, self loathing, has critical flaws but hides them well enough that people think they're a confident leader, but are just a paper tiger.That would be disastrous.
Listen to Hancock's half hour it will make you smile.
>>20679374It's okay, anon... i feel this deep inside, too. I have managed to hone my skills at socializing so that I connect better with others, but I know I am nothing like them, and they are just too simple and predictable in their uninspiring nature for me to ever really think I am one of them.