She said no.
>>20678975I'm always waiting for someone to disappoint me. And I'm very, very patient.
Its my fault, sorry
I love you, I miss you, every day since you leftMy life of light and reason bereft.You were my guiding light, you pulled me through,and now the world is dark (without you).It's not getting better, every day is worse.I wish it was me, not you, in that hearse.You could have managed without me, would have been fine.Not like me. I can't go on if you're not mine.Because when push comes to shove I needed you,not the other way round.I was dependent and you were generous, you brought more happiness to me in the first year I knew you than anything else did in the decades before that.My first love, my first kiss, my first hug.My first, my only. I can't imagine anyone ever making me happy like you did.The only thing that gets me happy anymore is when I forget you're gone. When I wake up and can imagine I smell you, when I come home from work and tell you about my day. That's when things are bearable.Your sister found out I still saw you sometimes, and she seemed to sympathize. She said she forgot you were gone sometimes too, but it's not the fucking same.She didn't love you like I did.She didn't need you.She goes to work with a smile, she enjoys talking to people. The light that you took with you when you left my life is still around in hers.I just wish I could go instead of you, or with you.Miss you Em. Always will.
>>20679019I'm really sorry anon. People dying fucking sucks
Nooooooo fuck. This is my fault.
I was reading an article on Fox about an 80 year, local legend crocodile being found dead in Australia and more than half the comments were somehow talking about Hilary, Pelosi, or RBG.
I love you. I wish I could tell you goodnight. I wish you wanted me.
Reposting from last thread to make sure this cunt sees it.Look you dumb slut, I go to the gas station by your house every day. I go over by a friend of mine that lives a few houses down from you. This shit is getting really old. So old I may make some of the bjllshit threats towards you no longer be bullshit if you wanna keep it up.Seriously, fuck off. How do you even have time for this nonsense with 3 fucking kids?It's all in your head. My friend had that house and lived on that block long before you did so I'm not gonna stop going over there because your pathetic ass thinks I'm stalking you.Grow the fuck up already you dumb twat.
>>20679101>Reposting from last thread to make sure this cunt sees it.Its retarded to think she will.
If you wanted to be with me, you should've taken the chance when I literally served it to you on a silver platter.If you're still hoping for me to make the next move again then keep waiting forever.
I see this person on a regular basis but dont talk to her, is it weird if she randomly got touchy and was touching my arms? lmao
Life is too short to waste time like this.https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Om4L8mlTiAA
>>20679171are you still interested in this person
>>20678975No matter how much I talk to you, I never feel better. My depression just stays constant, pushing me down. I feel like a burden to you, forcing you to listen to my problems. You have your own life, your own things going on. I feel so shitty when I do talk to you, even though you say you don’t mind. Your my only friend, and the only person I really trust.I love you man. I just wish I could feel like less of a burden to you.
>>20679171I don’t eat the food on my plate when it’s unappetizing
>>20679183 What's it to you? Are you finally going to do something? Anyways. Yes.
I'm just larping, what's wrong with that? Especially here of all places...
>>20679198Aren't we all?
So that was that. I was left to explain everything to my parents while they sodded off.
I don't want you talking to her ever again, you fucking creepy predator. Stay away.
I live with my girlfriend and i love her. Our life isnt easy but we make out ways throug Hard working and patience. We've met 4 years ago through his sister and she was engaged with another guy, knowing me has changed it all. He was an total douche who only got money through dubious negotiations and didn't want anything tô his life, she droppes University because her father was beating her mom and her gf was treating to kill hinself
>>20679198Depends, some larps piss me off lol
>>20679171Same situation and it's terrible, I'm losing focus on myself I don't know why I can't just give it up. I'll just keep waiting, hoping..
I'll miss you while I'm gone, P. I'm excited fir my trip, but I'd like to see you before I leave. That or plan something after I return. Plus it'll keep me distracted from A's mind games
I HAVE AN EIGHT INCH DICK AND I'M TOO AWKWARD TO FUCK ANYONE WITH IT
I'm so sorry J. I had to move on, for my own good. I've met someone absolutely wonderful and I think you would have liked him. Which is kind of weird to think about. I still cry when I think about you and I wish we had more time together, but you always made me cry. That's nothing new. He makes me happy and laugh. I laugh so much now, really laugh, it's very different. He doesn't make me anxious and I'm not afraid of saying something dumb. I still miss you though. And I'm very sorry.
>>20679231But what's a little bit of alcohol poisoning? And what's a little fight? Tomorrow we'll be boys again :)
I love you and I really wanna tell you but I'm scared it's too soon and things will be weird between us and I love our little conversations even if you think they're boring and I've given you so many hints that I like you but why won't you!!!! Do anything!!!! At least tell me that you're not interested if you're not interested please just give me something!!! If you don't like me then stop talking to me so much!!! Being like this is suffering!!!!!
>>20679276Whoa that was kinda clingy
>>20679231That's the same as getting mad at a scene of a movie... It would be very sad if anyone got mad at my larps as I'm just here for the schizophrenia
>>20679291I swear I'm not that clingyand maybe I shouldn't have used the word "love" butI have a deep affection for this dumb person and I guess I got really riled up over it
>>20679276These posts are so annoying. Just fucking say something. It’s like watching a really cringe character in a movie and you just turn the show off because you can’t stand the characters decisions
>>20679307but will you still love me when I'm no longer dumb and beautiful?
>>20679308sorry my life is a trope but I can assure you I'm a living breathing human bean.I've tried saying it without actually saying it and it isn't working out. And I don't feel like spilling the beans because it really feels like it's too soon, and this isn't the kind of guy I'd want to have a fling with or something like that, he seems special, and I really really don't wanna mess it up!>>20679309I'll try not to be so superficialas long as you're still you it shouldn't matter
I can't wait until you start to want to try and date someone now. Watch what she does.
>>20679323Beauty fades.. dumb is forever
>>20679332She'll pretend she doesn't care because she is very stronk and whatnot
Holy fuck there is way too much shit for me to do
I'm addicted to porn okay? You asked when we started going out and said it was a deal breaker so I lied. I lied and now we love eachother madly and things have moved fast but I know were perfect for eachother! But I'm still not good enough, I'm still looking at porn and even though it's less frequent and I'm weening myself off I feel like the worlds scummiest cheater!!! You gave me your love and trust and I've been abusing it. I need to kick this. For you and for me. So I don't feel like such a lying cheating sack of shit.
Say that you'll remember, dancing in September? :'(
어떻게 공허함이 이렇게도 무거울 수가 있지? 말해 봐..
People suspect something is up and they are right, I've only got a few months left.I'm scared. I've always dreamed of the stars, humanity embracing space and removing the shackles if Earth. Along with transhumanism, I thought I'd be able to live longer than a human of today.I have a person I love, I confessed and was rejected. Now learning I won't last long I'm glad you won't deal with losing a lover, instead of a friend but I wish I could have sat, relaxed and just have a nice cuddle.I don't what lies beyond but in scared and alone. Disowned and alone is how I guess I'll go. I love them only thing I had considered important.Goodbye
>>20679426What are you afflicted with?
I gotta cook these beans, they're barely edible
>>20679439How long has that been eating away at you
>>20679445longer than I've than I've been eating away at these beans, if that means anything
Fuck you TYou did a number to my emotions and now I cannot look at a certain group without thinking of you and how I lusted so hard after you.If you ever travel to my area, I'll make sure you see/feel how much you affected me after you basically pushed me away after a year of innuendos and being a 'friend'. You knew damn well that I couldn't do anything about it due to distance.
Why do I HAVE to eat 3 different meals a day what a fucking meme. What if I wanna eat sandwiches all day today and soup all day tomorrow then eggs and bacon all day the next day? Why is this considered retarded
>>20678975got invited to the birthday party of my ex and a mutual female friend over facebookgot really mad/sad and just had to vent in the gymfuck her for messing with my feelings twice
>>20679452Why didn't you go after T in the first place then?If they were not near you, why didn't you visit them?
>>20679466I mean, you do you, but it's good for your nutrition to mix it up a little.
I love your cute little bear roars of frustration.I don't take pleasure in you being frustrated, I just love those little roars you do. Hell I even mimicked that from you because it's just too cute to drop.Why must you be so cute?
I'm trying to find the root as to why I'm so emotionally cold and introverted. As a kid, my mom was the breadwinner and my dad would take care of me and keep me happy at home. I have a lot of good memories with him, but also a lot of bad ones. He gets emotional very easily, and has big problems with anger and addictions. Whenever he told me to do something but I didn't he would go nuts. Red ass face angry as hell. I have more memories of him yelling at me in a fit of rage than happy ones. I don't entirely blame him since something else could have made them that way, but I feel like the reason why I'm so hesitant to make new friends, open up, and just stop being so nervous and anxious, is because of his anger issues. Anybody else have similar problems?
>>20679019Losing a beloved one is hard. I'm sorry Anon
>>20679477All the food I eat is healthy to be honest but I just wanna know why it's the standard for it to be an entirely different meal every meal..... I like sandwiches a lot and I get judged if I eat the same thing more than once a day like who tf wrote the rule that all meals had to be different all day. Fuck me man
I hope our date goes well next week, but I suspect it won't develop into anything. But thanks for saying yes because it's made me feel nice about myself for a few days at least. Once this is done it's probably back to that unpleasant zone where I'm not interested in anyone for months/years.
>>20679501Jeez why waste someone's time like that if you're not optimistic
>>20679499Well damn, dude.You get them sandwiches in then, let them judge while you live your life not bound by any food rules.
I regret not following you to the library the day I first saw you. I dont regret asking around to know who you are. Its been months since followed you on any social media. Every time i see a pcture of you i want to hug you very tightly i want to see every inch of your body and grope it and if you resist ill just have to hug you harder. I really wish I could get a hold of your schedule some how because I really miss looking at you from afar. I am really afraid of social interaction but next time I see you I promise I wont waste the opportunity and at least say hi. But the thought of the aftermath of me following up on the "hi" scares me what if we're drastically different? I just know there will always be problems. I like the Idea of being with you not communicating with you ( out o fear ).
>>20679510But I need to know that it's not actually fucktarded :'(
I’m not setting my bar that low. Especially if they don’t treat me like a fucking goddess. But I’ll be a friend.
>>20679108Pretty sure whomever needs to see it will need to see it.I address it to her because I can't attribute some weird happenings to anything other than the fact I drove past her house the other day leaving said friends house. Didn't even really think about it, didn't really care either way. Said gas station has good deals on energy drinks and was my destination from said friends house. I'm not driving around the block or going out of my way to make her comfortable. But when someone goes to my faux address(my dad's) and starts shining lights in the windows, I'm automatically concerned. It's not the cops as I'm not doing anything they would want to raid my residence over, 100% sure my dad isn't doing anything the cops would want to raid his house over, doubt it was a thief scoping the place out, doubt it's the person who goes through the garbage and recyclables for stuff they can scrap for money at the scrapyard, doubt it would be anything other than her/her associates trying to make me paranoid or something.It doesn't really matter, as I'm taking all the proper precautions just in case something does happen. Which is why I put this in this thread rather than trying to contact anyone directly.It's entirely possible this event has absolutely no connection to her, but I think it's very unlikely.So whatever. Whomever the perpetrator(s) are they need to fuck off.
>>20679189Friends are pure gold, Anon
>>20679523It's not fucktarded. It's okay. :^)
>>20679435Cancer, I may live with treatment but I'm ready for it in some ways. I was having a hard time moving forward before it. And between the diagnosis, pancreatic which his spread, and the only person I've ever loved rejecting me I am not sure if I want to keep on other than I'm afraid of death. Beyond is so unknown. Nothing, some form of after life.
>>20679548Thanks fren :)
You act like you understand how I’m feeling. No bitch, you don’t. You don’t experience psychotic delusions that leave you constantly questioning reality. You don’t know how hard I work every day to maintain some modicum of sanity. How far I’ve come since my last psychotic break that nearly made me lose everything.You’ve told me you want to help. You can’t help, you are not a savior. I am helping myself and you are honestly just getting in the way. You treat me like I’m an object. something that needs someone to help “fix” me. That a hug or some other kind of physical display of affection will make it all better. Haven’t you learned by now that that’s not how it works? I’m sorry. Your affection doesn’t make me feel better. You can’t fix people. Being by myself makes me feel better. Or being around people I can relate to, people who share common interests. What the fuck do we have in common? Plus, your mannerisms are unsettling. You seem emotionless. You say you enjoy fucking with people for fun. That freaks me out. I’m worried about what you are going to do to me when I inevitably have to tell you to leave me alone. But I know we will both be better off without each other in our lives.
>>20679553Challenge your cancer head on.The only way, to my knowledge, to truly challenge solid cell cancers is to push yourself to the brink of death through starvation. Now I know the first thing that will come to your mind will be, people with cancer look they're starving to death already. What you're seeing are the effects of cachexia which is a result of the gluconeogenesis cycle where cancer uses the glucose in your blood to create lactic acid which your liver breaks down that lactic acid and turns it back into glucose again to be used by the cancer which creates a cascading destructive effect within your body. During starvation your body will first run through your fat stores then it will start on muscle. Once you reach a point where your muscle tissue is used up your body will go into the endgame stage where it will do everything within its power to avoid consuming organs critical for life. During this period I suspect cancer tissue will be on the menu before your organs critical for survival. Cancer are your own cells and the reason it's so hard to defeat is because it uses your body's defenses to protect itself, especially that of the body's front line antioxidant, intracellular glutathione. I have faith that the human body is smart enough to consume the cancer cells during starvation, unfortunately I have no science to back this up as no one has tried this method before.It will be important to maintain hydration and electrolyte balance during your starvation period. I would recommend electrolyte drops that are pure minerals like LyteShow drops or something similar. Your immune system will also be depressed so you will run the risk of infection during this time as well.Starvation is dangerous, make no mistake, however, when your life is on the line it's a risk worth taking in my opinion.As you are young you have a much higher chance of this working and surviving the starvation process than someone who is older. I think it's worth a shot.
>>20679615It's an interesting idea, will start of hard but if I just don't go shopping other than to get the electrolytes it should not be as hard. I'm curious about it and have no reason but to try since I've already embraced death, even if I want immortality.So other than electrolytes won't have to go out to buy often and just to avoid anything that could cause infection.
This is my favourite songhttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JY0Ag0fMxz8What do you guys think?
>>20679508I like her a lot but I don't have a good feeling she'll reciprocate. It's been a pretty bad streak of luck for me lately.
>>20679623Fiddy cent is a likable lyricist
Fuck it, the purpose of life is the keks and dismissing anything that may get in the way of you having them
>>20679622If you're interested in trying this drop a throw out contact email and I will help you along the way if you need someone. I have some unfinished business with cancer myself and I'm willing to go to battle with you until the end if need be. You will have to be in tune with your body because you will have to know when you are at your limit, I can't tell you when that is, you will have to trust your intuition. Some people have been able to go up to 70 days without food while some expire before three weeks. I would recommend meditation during this time so you're in tune with everything. I don't know if this will work but you will be paving a course regarding this process for the future mankind regardless of the outcome. I will also make sure your story is not forgotten if the worst happens. If this is successful you won't need me as you will have single-handedly destroyed a multi-billion dollar machine that has produced little to no accessible, successful treatment options for the majority of cancers.As for coming to terms with death, I can speak to this subject well but I find Alan Watts does a great job of it:https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wTFLC_81dM4
>>20679608Okay I have to larp to this one :3 .... Just ignore me like you always do, nibba.. why even pay any kind of fucking mind to literal garbage
I regret leaving the cozy beach house life we had, we could have made it work if only you would have taken it a bit more easy. :(
She doesn't like you, she is scared of you. You need to back off.
>>20678975>watched glue trap videos on YouTube>mice getting caught in glue and struggling in panic in a futile attempt to escape before settling down in exhaustion or resignation>found it eroticI'm kinda freaked out by it. Yeah I'm a dom into bdsm but still watching the mice trapped, struggling, and resigning and getting turned on by it was a little creepy.
>>20679660that is sadism
Good night, P. <3
>>20679675Someone I'm not able to say goodnight to anymore. But I'll say goodnight to you too anon, since you're here.Goodnight, anon.
Alright... I guess I've never really directly addressed my issues with women here. Perhaps I've been beating around the bush too much...I'm too picky. I think of every reason to not bother with her before I bother with anything else and can never decide which path I want to take with her anyway. So severe is this that I've remained a virgin to my current age. Now the issue has expanded to me not even being able to talk to women at all.Or was it always like that... I don't even know any more. Like I'm shy, but I can kind of go past that point sometimes. Thing is, when I get past that, I start thinking something like "who even is this bitch?" and then I'll have a strange inner monologue about not wanting to get involved with someone else's life and the issues I've heard regarding just casually fucking around.I'll think about how I'd probably have a better time masturbating any way... despite knowing what it has been like to be touched by a woman the very few times it's actually happened in my life.I don't seem to be particularly unattractive and I guess people like my personality or something, but I can't... decide. Also, if I'm perfectly honest, I'm afraid of someone shattering all the positive things people have said about me and that's not without reason frankly because I've learned in a performance review lately that I'm sensitive to criticism due to lingering insecurities regarding some diagnoses I was given as a child that made me question my perception of the world and how people percieve me.There's a part of me that just keeps wishing I could stay young and in the romantic stage before meeting someone forever because I'm more comfortable there and because I can keep thinking about what I could do without handling reality....But then I remember what it was like when I thought I almost landed a date that one time. I don't know how to move past this and I've been so frustrated trying to find a therapist and get answers from that dumb Medicare bitch...
You're a family friend so you've always been untouchable to me. I've always been scared to even bother because you're so close with everyone. You've shown interest in me before. Were both in relationships now and I respect that, but I cant help but think about you sometimes.. maybe it's the unknowing? Or maybe a mistake? I've known you 10 years at least and I've never thought anything negative about you. You're so genuine and kind. I feel like you dont recieve the love that you deserve and I can tell that you're unhappy. It's not my place to say or even get slightly involved, in a way I just feel slightly jealous because someone else is taking advantage of what I never had. I wonder if you actually have interest in me? You've already admitted a long time ago that you do, yet I wonder if it was just friendly flirting or maybe I've held back from something that could have been good for both of us. I'm not a bad person. And I would never tell you any of this. I just hope you recieve the love that I feel you deserve. Realistically it would never happen anyways, you're so put together and I'm so incredibly broken. I know that you're better than me, maybe it's the fantastasy that keeps both of us interested. Idk how I still think about you constantly haha.
>>20679690And then if I find a girl, then I'd probably start thinking it would be hard to find another one if that doesn't work...To think my Dad just managed to marry his first ever date.I'm so fucking confused.All my hobbies are super male-oriented too, like DnD.Actually, I think DnD/Pathfinder might be my only social hobby. About half the time in my experience, there will be 1~3 girls in DnD and they'll either be ugly stereotypical nerds (in the bad way), or they will never, ever, ever be single because it's child's play for them to get a penis inside them.
>>20679684Oh I know that feel. Good night to you too, anon.
I love you, C~
>>20679701So I just don't know how I'd relate to a woman who has hobbies that I find boring.Maybe if she sang or dance I'd...Man I really am AS aren't I I fucking hate myself.Most people with AS never leave their parents house or find love or anything. I left my parents house, but the reason was school.I swear I'm only a few steps away from the stairs leading to suicidal thoughts.
>>20679690Personally, I think that you're inexperience is causing your issues with women. If you have never really been good with women you are just basing your knowledge of them solely on the fake perception of them. Ie. Social media, annoying bitches you see on the street, bitchy girlfriends of friends. You're never actually seeing them as they are. Realistically women are humans just like men are. Theres obviously differences in genetic make up but for the most part we are actually similar to men. We went to the same schools as your friends, taught the same lessons, lived the same life. Aside from different sensitivities and the obvious structural differences women are a lot like men. Personally I believe that it's not who the person is, its who they choose to be. You feel hatred toward women and resent them because you dont understand them. But if you try and see past that and think hey women arent shitty just certain people are shitty. And try not to categorize them into a group it may help. You're obviously going to be skeptical because speaking with them isnt so familiar to you, and being shy doesnt really make it easy. But you're never going to like something if you believe that it's all the same. How many different burgers have you had in a life time? Pasta? Fuckin beans? It's all made up of the same shit but when you think of it it's all pretty different. Just like people. I've met men more sensitive than me and women cold as ice. But it's all about how you determine those who surround you.
>>20679710I can't tell right now if I have friends if I'm developing friends.Have I commonly had them or not? I don't know. I keep looking for reasons why I'm like this. Even if someone says they're my friend, are they, really? My first and last group of "guy" friends left me and I couldn't even bang the whore who outright said she would fuck me.But then I guess that was because I wasn't sure her bf was really jiving with the open relationship thing.God I need a therapist. But it's been so hard to stay motivated. Since I never got a license, also like a lot of fucking AS people (I live in a part of Portland where driving isn't practical, but still...), I don't have a great concept of how far things are, so I was just browsing my tiny area code on Psychology Today when I started so that might be part of it, but still it was a lot of therapists... and trying to remember all this insurance bullshit is so annoying. Last time, they just read the fucking website to me.I can't stand this bullshit any more.
I really wish I had a good father. Biological dad goes to jail for meth, stepfather is abusive. I still have mom but I know she won't be around forever and I'm terrified of having to face that reality.
I wish I fucked you, T.Sorry I wasn't open quick enough to you.God you were so bubbly.I wish you didn't hate me because I posted a spergy ass text to you. Stop making me regret it.
Ugh please stay out of my dreams, it hurts to see you even in dream form.
>>20679736Hey it hurts me more to dream about you.Your dirty blonde looking green eyed giant ass staring into me as I sleep hurts my soul.
>>20679713I guess I kind of see what you're saying, but the problem is I don't actually hate women. I'm more worried about letting one into my life...Um...And, okay, maybe I'm a little afraid of them too, but that's not the only issue...
>>20679749...Wait, shit. I really do hate women.Oh god.
>>20679750Do you happen to hate faggots as well?
It's nice to know that my dreams don't mean shit to you.. all this other here bullshit bout wanting to see beyond and whooptywhoop lol nigga you don't do shit but push it away dafuq was this holycoaster about anyway
Subscribe to pewdiepieAlso, fuck pol and white people
>>20679627Well she accepted to go out with you, if you feel like she's still not going to be into you that's gotta be some self esteem issues..
>>20679763This nigga popped up just to stirr sum shit, SAYYYY.. what it do, pimpin?
>broke up with gf 6 months ago, no cheating involve, it didn't work out>every once in a while we send msg just to catch up>saw her yesterday crying in her car>msg sent, she wants to meetnot sure if this a good idea
>>20678975(Start at 5 minutes) Is this guy redpilled?https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lTivujkUxpg
>>20679768Smoking fat blunts and wondering how some retarded Australian acquired all those weapons, fucking copycats
How do I message him? I've only met him once and I know he doesn't remember me. How do I get his attention when he's sleeping with other women?
>>20679779Damn I ain't been on /pol/ in a minute bro this loud ain't no joke sun I ain't finna eem tryin Shi u don't hia me dou
>>20679276tfw no clingy gf
I didn't know it hurt.. I thought it was just fun :(
I love you, I want you to be mine!
>>20679777He's high right?
>>20679787Go get them. I believe in you.
>>20678975Hey, brother. Fuck you for sexually assaulting me and fuck our older brother, mother, and my therapist for sympathizing with you and making it seem like it was my fault. I fucking hate all of you and wish you a lainful death.
>>20679746You dark eyed dark haired fucker, do you think I like hearing your sexy voice call my name or something? Its torture.
>>20679786What'd you do?
Why can't I be happy?
I haven't felt anything since I left you and you died. You will never be dead to me really though. I pay more mind to you than I could ever hope to give to someone else. Probably see you never, but if I do that would be quite clever.
What does this emoji mean?https://emojipedia.org/eye/I ask, because a guy who follows me (girl) left a few of them on a recent selfie of mine.
>>20679810You're on an image board - post the emoji as an image.
>>20679812This is what he left.
>>20679815He likes what he sees and wants you to know that.
>>20679818Or, he's one with the cosmos
>>20679818I get that, but is there any kind of sexual connotation?
>>20679802Don't mind me, just being a schizo :o)
>>20679821Maybe. It's too vague.
>>20678975I've done two horrible things that I completely regret and think about regularly. 1. I loaded "rat shot" into my .22 and shot at a chipmunk who was living beneath a tree in my yard. My property was overrun with chipmunks at the time and I was trying to quell the swarm. But when I shot at this little guy he rubbed at his eyes as if I had blinded him and I felt fucking awful so I shot at him again to put him out of his misery ( my eyes are starting to tear up now).2. We had a raccoon family in our side yard and I wanted to try to protect my cats.. I went back to the fence and shot at them many times. I heard their cries and shot them nonetheless. They screamed as I shot them and I fucking hate myself and I still cry about how much of a fucking cunt bastard I was. I am crying at this memory presently. Life is suffering.
I want to take her out on cute dates but she isn't interested in me and I don't have a car.
>>20678975I have something to get off my chestI say nigger one time and then I go to the hospital and they stick a knife up my ass- twist it, and got a big nigger to rape me when i was knocked outI mean I got a job out of it so I guess I whored myself out for a good 20k a yearI guess if I was forced to be raped things could be worseI still don't like nigger and never will- black people don't care, but mental ward raping niggers can go fuck themselves regardless of skin coloroh and New Zealand had a 9/11 tier attack while you brainwashed idiots talk jack about your feelings
>>20678975Matched with a qt punk girl on tinder. We talked for about a week, and eventually went on a date. After I got off work, we went to the bar, had a few drinks and some laughs, and then we went back to my place. We cuddled and slept together (no sex, as we both agreed beforehand). A lot of kissing, feeling, and she all around was into the date, or so I thought. Dropped her off the next morning, and we kissed goodbye. She said next time I'd have to meet closer to her (like a 30min drive). Later that day, she ghosted me. She was so smart, beautiful, and I think an all around great match. It stings, bros. It's been like 5 days, and I don't wanna change the bedsheets cause I still find her hair on my pillows. I guess I have no choice but to get over her. She inspired me to break my tattoo virginity, so I got one the other day. I posted it on Snapchat and she saw it, so she's definitely not dead. I'm one to jumo all in on relationships and fill in the blanks later. Guess I was too into her. :(
>>20678975Belle and ErinWe are Even nownow go fuck your own asses mine is too sore for awhile
I guess you just don't care about me anymore. I deserve it, though.
>>20679864Apologize and make amends?
>>20679839>>20679862HereSt. Patrick Day FoolsHe just jerked off on my head when I was sleeping. I really didn't give half a flying fuckIt was a lieI did break my ass skate boarding at the skate park with the kids again todayI actually Bleed from thatlolCheersI'm get tind drunk today and spending it with you faggotsI got promoted to Lieutenant- that-THAT- is real talk homies
>>20679868I don't know what I should apologize for... We basically just stopped talking and became strangers. Maybe I was the one who started it. I don't know.
Depreciation is usually an inadequate explanation for a fall in profits.
>>20679839I'm not obligated to give a fuck about anything BUT my feefees, nigger gorge bush did nine elem
Why is this board so full of spam and pasta?
>>20679875If you have a steady one dollar at -10 to +10 with a standard of goal then can balance the reservethat's my math
I deserve revenge
>>20679903everday gets betterLETS DO IT AGAIN
>>20679883Do you mean variances in international exchange rates? If you do then it is possible but from the little I know the pound / dollar / euro hasn't been turbulent enough to reduce profits by 19% . I have seen losses occur when business rashly gamble on currency exchange. If it was me I would advise have enough to cover a period of three months depending. I would say buy a month in spend a month out in order to keep pegged to what's happening in the exchange value so that it's absorbed in the accounts very quickly. I've not studied management accounting but from my experience, don't gamble on currency in business, it's not the companies job. Labour costs, well, I assume the staff are mostly minimum legal wage so again there shouldn't have been any surprises there. It's going to be costs I imagine or that it's an old business needing investment as everything falls to pieces at once. Has there been any unusual drawings from the accounts or loans to directors? Interest payments, now we're getting to something. Who do they owe money to and how much and why is it a problem. Was there a wedding or anything? Wife needed a new kitchen, per chance?
>>20679931I want to harm them
>>20678975I can't wait to afford sport ticketsgonna travel and collect a hat from every teamstart those frequent flyer miles like Jackie Brown. I ended up in the same boat as her in the end, but much younger
I want to drink chamomile tea with you again.
I will give you repairs , but that is what depreciation is there for. Labour costs, I doubt it. Interestingly no mention of increases in costs of stock. Utility bills, unlikely. Interest payments, that's the clanger for me.
>>20679982I'd rather sit with a beer talking to some stranger about how some other team sucks that I don't care about cause I just don't care anymore- ABOUT ANYTHINGNUKE EM
>>20678975I have ONE song on CD that does it for me nowONE SONG and it's the LoFi CD versionI don't smoke weed anymore and limited my beers to ONE a day (Today I'm getting fucking shitfaced though)https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dztURk0_DOg
I read what you wrote about me all those years ago.. you got it alllll twisted homie
What does make me angry is companies with government contracts folding. The government has a responsibility in the tendering process to pick sound candidates. I've watched the select committees and they are lame as anything. I'd shred these mother fuckers.
>>20680003stop beating a dead horseITS DEAD- MOVE ON- IT GETS BETTER-LETS DO IT AGAIN
Retoasting my post in this threadIdk where else to say this and it's seriously eating me up. I'm in a relationship and for the last while she sometimes says she wants to break up and we fight quite a bit but it would be hard because live together and parents know each other and we're like part of the families and all that and my mum likes her too so idk. However recently I started falling for this other girl and it I'm pretty sure she likes me too. Also things in my relationship have actually been going pretty well recently feel guilty for really liking the other girl and I'm assuming the other girl won't be happy I've been talking to her so much despite being in a relationship. I feel like an awful person for being on this situation and I feel so bad. Idk how to describe how I feel. So yeah either remind me I'm an awful person or tell me what the hell I should do
Cassie. I’m so sorry it came to this. It’s been 1 year and 4 months and this torch won’t go out. I should have fought harder for you. I shouldn’t have let you get away with it. It was a cry for help and I was to self absorbed to see it. I’m so sorry. It was completely inevitable, yet here we are. I’m sorry
>>20678975CassieHey ; )
I missed a good episode obviously.
>>20680054*Smug Teeth Glare*
>>20680056I am unaware of this meme.
>>20678975To my family:I am sorry, but I chose the road less traveled- the hard onethe hardest oneI will be traveling and bringing back presents. I'll see you all on holidays, but I have to grow upI have 30,000 in student loans to repayand I have my first bill from the IRSIts timeThe birds fly and the bees stay homeI have my nest here, but will be flying frequently cause I don't want to stay in one place foreverthe boy is gonethe man is hereHappy birthday to St. Patrick and have a blessed day everyoneI gave up weed for my lent for tobaccoIt's just good business to do that. Weed makes you crazy and in jailAunt Patti: Focus on Owen
I overthink things a lot and I’m waiting for this to fully heal and go away
>>20678975I feel whole when I talk to you. You still message me even when I think I’m boring or unfunny. You make me laugh and you make me understand that you’re more than I expected. You’re different. I just wish that I had the confidence to say something more.
>>20680076Me tooBelieve meMe too
>>20680031Hows that's beating a dead horse if that's the first time I ever get it off my chest in any way /:
We are appallingly financially managed, our regulatory bodies are out to lunch and leaving the EU is a total smoke screen.
>>20680077Lucky Strong Proud
>>20680081I'm too proud for my own goodflaw of the Gryffindors
>>20680095It's about five til larp o'clock anyway I guess..
>>20678975I only saw the first episode of the Sopranos where tony punches Mahaffey in the face and then I turned that shit off and went back to work while Tony's life fell apartI imagine Tony turned on Journey at the end and Mahaffey came up to him and said "how ya doing asshole" Then drank his beer
>>20679475I'm in CanadaThey are in EuropeWe are both are poverty students and realistically, a meet up wouldn't be possible for another 5 years.When I learned that they were eyeing someone at their work, I knew they just moved on and I very reluctantly cut the ties.Lesson learned on not to grow feels for an attractive member of the opposite sex.Developed a thing for a certain group of Europeans though fml
Literally within a week I have gotten an amazing part time job, a car and my first ever successful date with a kiss at the end. I can't believe how fast life can change. I feel somewhat undeserving of these things because all 3 of these things were not given to me because I looked for them, but rather because they were handed to me by my family. With that in mind, I really want to work hard to earn and keep them with my own merit.Keep kicking anons, we're all gonna make it.
>>20680177Congratulations anon. It's nice when you get a big break like that, now remember what you resolved to do and stick with it. Godspeed
I post all the time about hating manlets and wanting them to die but my boyfriend is a manlet. I resent him for taking my virginity since hes a manlet. I beleive that makes him significantly less attractive than I imagined. He only looks good on top of me for some reason his face only looks good at that angle. No wonder his relationships failed. Hes lucky he found a godess like me that wont cheat on him with an actual chad.
I should stop being an ironic weeb and be realer. I feel like people think I'm a pedophile. Just gotta purge everything completely and then only do good shit and no bad shit. Just no entertainment whatsoever or anything that isn't directly tied to my goals. Just pure discipline. And also nofap.
I miss you, V.
I was away from home for a month to work and during that time I develop a massive urge to fuck around behind my wife's back.I got back about 4 days ago and after finally getting laid I feel better, but the urge lingers on.I'm leaving for work again on Tuesday and I'm worried I might give in to temptation as the next stretch of work is gonna be 5 months.
>>20679874>just stopped talkingoh you mean one person stopped talking while the other person kept trying to talk until they were staring at a screen full of messages sent with no reply wondering if they should send another until they finally gave up? and then years go by and you're too ashamed to message them, and they can't message you without reliving the pain of being ignored? yea nothing to apologize for. it's not like you made them feel like their life didn't matter or anything.
I’m scared that you’re leaving. I don’t know what to say to you anymore, I’m always afraid.
>>20680369This really sounds like something someone I know would say. Initial? I only know you online though, so don't reply if it's in real life.
justice will come. hope you're ready for prison, pretty boy. and if that doesn't go through i'll still out you for the shitbag you are and tip them on your tax evasion too.
You know what? A lot of things were my fault between us Natalie, a lot of it.But at the same time I wasn't exactly of sound mind. I snapped. I snapped and everything I ever went through in life came to break the walls I had built. A surge of PTSD came and washed me away and I was scared as fuck for the both of us.When I needed you the most though, the one person I thought I could trust, who said she loved me, when I extended my hand desperately, you just ran.You left me to drown and because of that I nearly killed myself twice. I couldn't bare it.I couldn't face it alone. My friends, my family, they mocked me. Thought I was lazy when I couldn't find the strength to get up and look for a job or didn't want to do chores, or anything like that.I suffered through severe burn out and my knees paid for it as I smashed them with a sledgehammer just so I could FEEL SOMETHING.I get that you were scared, I get that you felt it "had to be someone else", I understand perfectly what would be going through your mind seeing me like that.But at the same time, fuck you. For better or worse, I would have grabbed your hand and pulled you out and stood by you until we got through it.Thanks for leaving me when I needed you the most. I hope you choke on the silky carpet of your gross Chinese girlfriend and go to hell.You're as soulless as your gingery locks make it to be.And your Chinese girlfriend could do a lot better than you.
WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME, I CAN NOT STOP DREAMING ABOUT HER Every fucking night I have dreams that either were okay or she comes up to me and says we should try again or some shit, and for bc whatever stupid reason I say yes and were back together. It feels so natural to be with her, some nights it feels so real I wake up and go to tell her about the dream like I havent had her blocked for 3 months. Why do I still love you so fucking much? Why do you still make me so fucking happy?
>>20680393It’s only online but he wouldn’t come to advice. Are you doing something that might make them feel this way? I feel like he doesn’t want me in his life anymore but won’t tell me. I feel very close to him so I’m afraid.
>>20680412I really hope I'm not doing anything that makes them feel this way, but I know they feel that way sometimes regardless. I'm supportive, and I offer to help them, but they isolate themself from me and everyone else. For the past year they've barely talked to anyone.I'm not sure what to say about that really, sorry...
im sorry im sorry im sorry ill fuck off forever this time for real i promise I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry from the bottom of my bottomless pit heart I'm fucking sorREEEEEEEEEE
>>20680417Sounds like me. Your friend must be depressed too. I isolate because I feel I have nothing to offer and truthfully I don’t have anything to offer when I’m depressed. My brain doesn’t function. He’s the only person I feel comfortable around now but I don’t know why. I think it might be best if I block him so he doesn’t have to be bothered. I’m too selfish to do it.
I know you wonder if it's me here or not. You're right, it is me. I've always been on /mu/. However, once this all started happening, I needed somewhere to get my feelings out. Use your initial next time you talk about me. That's the least we can do. T
I have a phone interview in about a half hour. I feel nervous because I have literally no idea what they're going to ask me, but I also feel like "whatever happens happens" because it's a very desirable position with a great employer and I figure just getting this far in the audition process is a big accomplishment. Most of all though, I just want to get this over with.
>>20680549Well... It went how it went, I guess. I don't think it went particularly well, but it feels good that I'll know if I'm moving on within 24 hours.
I make myself lonely and then get sad that I am. What the fuck is wrong with me?
Another day, another selfdestructive step.Cool.
>>20679490Really similar anon, just my dad was also alcoholic.
>>20680752Nothing's wrong with you. Everyone experiences some type of loneliness.But what's up?Get together with friends. Go out and do something. If you want change, you've got to make it happen.
I hate you so much I can't stand it. Both of you. I wish I'd never met you.Because I can't stop thinking of the good times. No matter what happened, it didn't matter because I had you two. I would always have you. This world is shit, but it doesn't matter because you're here, and that's all I need. I often wonder if it's my fault. If I hadn't been honest, would we still be friends? Would that even be a good thing when I already stopped trusting you long ago? Without trust, there is no friendship.Most of all, I wonder how you could do this to me. You both act like you don't care, but I hope maybe, just maybe, you feel even a fraction of the pain I feel. I still miss you both (the people I thought you were), but god I fucking hate you. That people like you exist and make up the majority of the population disgusts me. Fuck you. You'll both be alone when everyone else realizes just the sort of fake, cuntish, selfish sociopaths you are. Your recent attempts to compete with me have been absolutely hilarious, btw. Give up. You have no talent for this and not everyone wants to worship you because let's be honest you're not a particularly charming personality. Have fun with your basedboys and literal retards, you fucking losers.
So many good news today and yesterday. God is real and He's watching over me.
I’ll be God.
I wish I could know if you felt any remorse for what you did. As far as I know, you couldn't care less.
I love you, i know do you want me but you could at least try to not act like a meany bitch just to make me walk away from you, why did you do that and act like that way?I really like you, for what you are i dont care about anything more when i was with you, i feel we have something special but looks like you dont care, even telling me all the time we talk was bored for you hurt my heart i feel do did care for me, you only wanted to play with somebody, but i'm tirede of being that, so be happy with your next toy.
>>20680900If you become God. Then I'll become a king, who everyone can respect and trust.
Oh god, Im buying a new car soon and I dont know how the fuck to haggle. Im gonna die bros.
>>20681073There is no process. You just pester him to lower the price.>ehhhhhh >I dunnnooooo>cant you go any lower?>I'm gonna have to talk to this other guy first
I've overcome regret desu. My past is a depressing mire that it's best not entering.
>>20681073>offer less than asking priceThere you go, bro.
Finally matched with someone worthwhile and we are getting coffee soonish and i'm already beginning to obsess over it all. How do i stop anons?
I think I ruined my plan like I always do. I just have to work *that* much harder to compensate. It's too bad IQ is immutable that's the only thing I can't improve with hard work. But I have to achieve my goals, the fate of the universe hangs in the balance. It feels like I'm fighting the devil alone with no weapons.
>>20678975fuck i'm already blessed with being able to see him 4 times a week but i want to know everything before i do anything else again. I wish I could have an entire backlog of all the women he dated or fucked so I can know how I compare. I wish I could have a secret camera that follows him around all day just to see what he does during the day.
What a fucking terrible beginning to a shift. Glad it's chill now.
I have nothing to say to you. I feel bad about what you wrote. I won't tell you that, but I do.
I have no sex drive. I haven't had one for a while but recently I'm starting to miss it.In the beginning we fucked everyday, sometimes twice a day. Then the honeymoon period ended and real life stress added pressure to the relationship.His weight fluctuates but he's steadily been getting bigger. I don't think I'm attracted to him anymore. I waiting for the right time to tell him this. Last year I developed a long-term health condition. When I'm get stressed my symptoms get worse. When my symptoms get worse I become more stressed. Its a cycle that has probably contributed to my reduced libido.I thought about trying to masturbate but these days I don't have any fantasies to get me going. I feel like I have no imagination. Since I got together with my boyfriend I began to rely on him for any and all stimulation. I need someone to lust over.
Is it weird to not give a shit about music or people's taste in music? Like whenever people ask what I'm into I never really know what to say, I just give a generic "oh you know a little bit of everything".
Listen, Jener. You don't know what happened to Amelia yet tonight, but you need to get out of here and hide. It wasn't an accident, it was a setup. A stage. They wanted us to think that we were doing something great, going in and stopping this, but all it was is an aptitude test to gauge are efficacy. I know you you want out, and they know that you're becoming a liability because of it. I saw your file come up on the monitor when they were refreshing the stage. I don't remember what they did to us, but what they're doing to those people on that list... It's sickening. I need to stay here and try to figure something out with the others, but you need to leave immediately. If they don't already have you, they're coming, and I don't know that there's anything I can do about it. Be safe.
>>20680961I think about it every night.
>>20681285What do you feel bad about anon?
Why my dick only 7”
>>20681285 Here? If it’s something written here you can’t know it’s them for sure and anyways they probably wouldn’t want you to know they wrote it. This isn’t a letter thread.
4 years ago I met a girl that made me feel sexual attraction for someone for the first time in my life. She rejected me. I thought I'd never feel sexually attracted to anyone ever again and now 4 years later and aged 26 I see I'm still right. Fuck
I don't know what to feel anymore, j. welp
>>20681285intials or you're a larper
I dont feel like I deserve to be loved because of my autism desu
>>20681285Just ignore I ever sent you that message. I wasn't in the right frame of mind because I was stressed. It has gotten better.
I wish someone loved me.
>>20681550I always do...
I can't be with you. My future is a clear path, and my dream can't include you. I wish I were free to love you.
>>20681572can I still love you?
Meh. A little early but whatever, I am sleepy.G'night J
>>20681571You must be a female
>>20681549Everyone deserves love anon
What happened? I am still that same person, I did not change. You abandoning me was so sudden. What happened?
He has gotten better about his anger, he is actively trying to better himself. You are sweet, I have known you for a long time, but you deserve someone who isn't as damaged as me. Especially when I am pregnant with his kid. It's just... too late for us. Good luck.
I constantly have to convince myself traveling is over rated even though going to all these exotic places looks cool but I can't afford that shitI'm ready to just give up, I've been in and out of therapists for ten years, always been on meds, and the light has pretty much gone out. I was out of my meds and now the pain in my head is back, thank christ I didn't go to work today, but it scares me the idea when I don't have any of my meds because my entire world is flipped upside down. I can't function without them and feel suicidal after missing even a day, if I can't survive without them it makes me think nature wants me fucking dead.
>>20681576You shouldn't. I care so much about you, I don't want to see you sad
>>20681642>HURRRR DUUURRR>I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOU SAD>BUT I WILL ALSO BREAK YOUR HEART AND MAKE YOU SADRetard
Oh my god I want to tell you. I NEED to tell you. I'M RUNNING OUT OF TIME
>>20681679What ? I didn't break her heart
>have Muslim friend>talk to her about the New Zealand terrorist attack>tell her I'm sorry, and that she and her family deserve a place in this world>she says, "Yeah that's okay"Her English is good but not perfect so it's most likely that, but man that response took me off guard.
>>20681686Tell them what?
>>20681693I really hate when this happens. You try to say something meaningful and they respond with something short like that and you are left bewildered.oh well, you did good anyway anon
>>20681693I think she meant that it's okay and she's fine. Sometimes when I translate from arabic to english in my head it makes weird sentences
>>20681693I mean, it'd be like if another fat white dude got murdered in a fat white dude hate crime someplace. Fuck if I care. If somebody came up to me like, "Hey fat white guy, I'm so sorry about that other fat white guy, you totally deserve to live in this world fat white guy!" It's kind of like... okay.I mean, sure I'm a fat white guy, but shit dude, I'm just a fat white guy. I'm not THE fat white guy. You know? I don't even know that other fat white guy. Guy could be a dick for all I know, I mean he's fat and white after all. All I know is that I'm not a dick despite being fat and white, so it's all good. I don't need anybody to tell me I've got a place here, because when I go places, I take up two places as a fat white guy. Double spaces, motherfucker.
>You just come off differently from everyone elsewhat did he mean by thisis it autism on my end?
>>20681748What was the context ? That could mean ''you're a weirdo eww'' or ''you're special and I love you'' depending on how it's said
I almost got ran over by my best friend because he thought he could make a funny joke by swerving his car into me as I ran beside him.Fucking guy got way too close and lucky I got pushed away. That fucking idiocy could’ve ended me and both of us are goddamn idiots!Holy fuck that scared the shit out of me. Rightfully so for such a dumb fuck thing.
>>20681756A superior of mine was talking to me 1 on 1 briefly, which does not happen often. Ended up bringing up the anti social issue. I said that I know I am anti social. He responded with that. He said that he does not know how to put it and that there are no answers to my questions. idk
>>20681762He just called me to check up on me and holy fuck I hope I said the right thing to make him feel better, he sounded horrendously frightened and horrible about it.
>>20681716It is a bit bewildering, but I told her that out of genuine concern so I don't mind not getting a pat on the back.>>20681721She's actually a Pacific Islander, so she doesn't speak Arabic. But yeah I think she was just trying to say that too. Maybe just mixed up it's okay with that's okay.
>>20681774Oh ok, yeah that sounds like autism on your part honestly. Is it true you're antisocial ? Does lacking social skills affect your work performance ? Cause otherwise idk why he would meet you just to say that
>>20681734Can you imagine being a Muslim right now? People all around the world reject your very existence because of a very small minority. They even go out of their way to murder you and your family.I can't even begin to imagine how she feels about this attack.
Good thing I always end up irreparably fucking up every single interpersonal relationship I've ever been in because at least then none of the people I care about will be too sad when kill myself
>>20681784He did not meet me for that. It just happened, sort of "right place right time" sort of thing. He did not say that it effects my work performance, the talk lasted like a minute or two anyway. I suppose he just noticed it and said something. I would call myself anti social.
>>20681777Oh that's cool, didn't know there were muslims in the pacific. It also might be that she doesn't know how to feel about the shooting. I'm fine because I understand what happened in that faggot's head before he went to kill these innocents, but if you don't understand it might be hard to digest
>>20681642I’m not sad. Loving him makes me so happy.
>>20681789Stupid people will always be a threat to those around them, the only difference now is that they've got a common target.Fact of the matter is, there's nothing to be done about it. Only thing you can do is try to be smart, and wait for people to go freak out about the next thing.
>>20681706I like them. I want to get to know them.
>>20681847Better get to it then. Miss every shot you don't take.
>>20681847I would like for you to murder several people for me, but you're definitely not in my area.It would be nice and justified if you do so.Murder specifically 10 people in my world and it would stabilize.
Pretty much the reason why I (and most of my friends) are single. I won't date coworkers on principal, all my hobbies are male-dominant, don't like bars or clubs, and I refuse to hit on cashiers, waitresses, or gymgoers because I'll seem like a creep (and it's pretty inconsiderate). Oh, and I don't use social media.The biggest factor is what I do recreationally, but I'm just not into the things people do where they meet like bar hopping and all that. At the same time, I don't think I'd be interested in someone who is. If only there was a way for people who like their solitude to meet, but that's kinda paradoxical.
It made me sad when I tried to lewd with you yesterday and nothing happens. You know what you do to me... You make me so wet. Is it on purpose?
>>20681834Stupidity is the cause of this shooting anon. It's something much deeper. These people have been stripped of their identity, their heritage and their culture in the last 100 years, and most of their honest, smart and otherwise good men were killed in WW2. What's left is shallow rootless faggots, the perfect prey for the elites. They've been sold forged identities of all sorts (memes, extreme politics, etc) and now they do the bidding of those above. Divide & conquer tactics work just as good as they did 2000 years ago
>>20681860Murder is not my specialty, anon. I'm sorry. And I've got my own mission to accomplish. Don't let hate occupy your mind. 10 people in a world of almost 8 billion should not be the reason for your troubles.
I regret not saying yes to a girl who asked me to a high school dance, where the girl asks the guy. This was almost ten years ago, and I still think about it
>>20681880It may be all they know, but I still consider it stupidity. How many good people are going to have to continue giving their lives just for the masses to continue on the next target?I'd almost sooner see the world engulfed in indiscriminate flame.
>>20681942Yeah there's probably stupidity in there. I think the shooters should be tortured in a public place to make an example like they did in the middle agesThe thing is that these shootings are only a symptom of a much larger problem. It's probably too late to solve it anyways, so I get what you mean by wanting the world to burn
>rejection is no big dealThis is my biggest regret in recent times.Asked someone out at work and I misread the signs. Got rejected harshly. She made a joke about my height and is rubbing it in ever since. Never doing that at work again, but I genuinly thought the interest was shared. She did a total personality change after rejecting me and treats me like shit since then
I got my act together recently and I'm actually in a good place now but I always hear people talk about the stupid/fun shit they got into in their teens/early 20s and it bums me out that I never had any of that.It's such a special time in life and I just watched it go by with nothing to show for it.
>>20681857I don't know if they'd want me to. They're busy..I think. I don't want to give them more stress.
Whelp. It's over. I don't care if you see this or not. Seriously? Ghosting me after a few months of being (good?) friends and something more, and you are knocked up less than a month later? Which you told me was NOT something you ever wanted. Now this guy is the center of your universe? Did I ever matter to you? You sure made me feel like I did. You mattered to me. A lot. Even the DAY before you dropped me, you told me nice things. Why? To what end? I'm not mad, I'm just fucking hurt. That you didn't respect me and our friendship enough to just tell me you found someone you wanted a future with. Or was I the backup? In case it didn't work, you wanted me to be there still. Providing the affection and caring that I loved to share with you, every day? I hate myself because I still can't stop thinking about you. I've been in a hellish limbo for months, because you couldn't even tell me we weren't friends, and I don't quit on people I care about. I had no idea what was going on. Thanks for that. A few words and I might have been sad but not a fucking trainwreck for months. I tried, a lot. I love you, but fuck you, yeah?
>>20681964Alright if it's a he, it would help.If it's a she, it's over if she is intentionally busy.
>>20681977A he. I wish I didn't think this way. I wish I could be greedy and take what I want. But I keep holding back. I'm so nervous, too. I know I have nothing to lose. Yet I can't acknowledge these feelings properly..
>>20681686God isn't real, your life is a lie, we're all going to die.
>>20681994You're clearly under 16 so please leave this place (for your own good)
>>20681860If u got TEN people in your life that you hate so much that u want them murdered, maybe U are the problem?
Eating raw beans sucks fuckin dicks
Why the fuck did you think it was a good idea to walk into Mexico without any identification on you? Why were you too lazy to stay int ouch with your family for a month? Why did you decide to hitchhike back an forth across the country? In what universe is taking meth ever a good idea? Why couldn't I have been a better little brother?
>>20681998I wish. Doing 16 over again would be great. No, this was more of a joke, and a bit of a deflective disquisition to sate my own curiosity.Though if we're being honest, when has such a statement ever deterred a curious mind? Kids are just like that.
>>20681991Make him yours.
>>20682044I disagree with this. Please don't pee on people, it's rude.
>>20681952rejection is good when you face it enough you become immune
I had my chance to finally break up with you today and I fucking chickened out. I’m a coward.
The way I interact with other people is disgusting.
I want big sister back
>>20680034Cassie is a shit head princess with a shit head online persona that is totally different from her sad reality. Those titties aren't massive for milking, they're massively deceiving you from realizing how mentally fucked up she is. Her older sister fucked your closest brother when they were little and the incest might have carried on down to her. Either way, you dodged a bullet bro.
Where do you find a guy who isn't an insecure mess of a person? Holy shit.
>>20682296I wonder that too.
Tick. tock. tick. tock. tick. tock.Hikaru, you realize I care a lot about you right? I think about your well-being everyday. I know you care about me too, or you wouldn't come lingering around trying to talk to me every so often, when I am so deep in worlds within worlds to escape you. Even now this very second we could do things like normal. If it was even possible for you to get a hold of me. I guess that was my fault.Tick. tock. tick. tock.It makes me feel crazy when I am doing stuff alone when I know I could be hanging out with you, but we can't because of all of this extraneous crap; I wish you hadn't tried to force an answer out of me last time we talked, when all I wanted to do was forget everything and just talk about video games.Tick. Tock.I beat Tsukihime yesterday. It was my first REAL visual novel (not Danganronpa or Ace Attorney) I got the true ending, and you already know for who. When I beat it and she went to sleep, I could barely breathe and it make me choke up because it made me think about a relationship ending abruptly and unfairly.Tick.This feeling that touches me and reminds me of the past; I can taste the recollection from that world that never was, and its bitter. Just a message from me to you through time and space, even though you probably won't get it. You can add me again and Ill accept.....................................................
>Met up with girl who asked me to lunch.>I figured it was basically a date since she asked me out and her friend messaged me hinting at it.>She looked kinda cute in her pics.>It went well, we got along, she was very nice to me (also did me a favours relating to uni)>But I honestly did not feel physically attracted to her at all.>Before we met, her friends invited me to dinner with her and her two friends (both with their partners) and I committed>it was an awkward night.I couldn't muster up any desire to make a move because I don't want a relationship with her, and I think that is what she is after. I also partly couldn't because I still have a huge crush on a girl in one of my classes at uni.
>>20679308Sound like you're describing Evangelion.
Wow I really care for my friend and he does a lot of coke. Like constantly. He has such a beautiful mind. I think I’m going to casually say something some time
I've been at this for four decades. Doing the right things the right way. Being honest and just. Following my own rule to never hurt anyone. I've survived countless injuries; even cancer. I've saved lives and enabled others to have opportunities that they wouldn't have otherwise. But still I'm an outsider. Accused of impossible things and screamed at for my appearance. I've never had friends and never felt love. It's too late to start over somewhere new. The only reason I stay alive is to keep my pain to myself and stop it from affecting those few who might feel something if I died. Nobody treated me like a human. The most I could hope for was to be useful.
>>20682296>Where do you find a guy who isn't an insecure mess of a person?That only makes it worse for them.
>>20682344So? It's not my problem.
All I want to know is what I'm doing wrong. Am I too nice, not nice enough? Am I ugly, boring, too weird, or just obvious? what's wrong with me. I have no problem talking with members of the opposite sex, and many of them are friends, but yet I've never had a girlfriend. I don't want to be desperate, I just don't want to die alone. But If do, I want to know why
>>20682354So nothing. Stop whining.
>>20682382It's a rant thread.If you don't like it leave.You're a shining example of guys to avoid.
Sorry, I’m on another assignment. Try to stay positive. I know it’s hard. It’s almost spring, go outside and take a long walk. You know, Einstein used to do his best thinking on walks. People say and do negative things because they can’t control their emotions. Fear, that’s the worst one.
31nnob4dy tryn4 s3y D3Y tryn4 f1x a n1bba w1t a hug F00
>>20679655I only wanted to apologize to her
>>20682447Hugs are nice
>>20682447>repair 0%*hugs*>repair 10%Hug this boi
>>20681513wait in all seriousness. Same happened to me. Thought it would all work out and I just had to wait another four years maybe? worrying.what are you gonna do now?
I'm still deeply in love with you you crazy gypsy.If we could just fuck with each other once and hide it from the others, I will live with it with joy.I need you. You're a drug to me like I was to the rest of them.When you got her fired, you turned me on so much.Just please, just this once, let's go. I will allow you to steal me like you intended. I saw those bright grey eyes from the beginning beg for me, and I thought maybe you didn't want that. I see even now those damn eyes glare into my soul wanting more.I know you want as much as I do. I'm dropping all restraints just once. You're never going to read thos but goddamn, you would rock my world more than I would yours. I'm so madly in love my dreams don't stop imagining you and that worries me.
Goodnight P, I miss you.
I'm gonna try and make today a good day.
>>20682516No thanks, you’re misreading signals.
>>20682534I miss P too. I hope I see her befoe my trip
Why am I such a shit
I still can't.
I will always love my husband more than you. I know you try to convince me otherwise but he is a better father than you could ever be but my kid adores him . He works silently.... in love.
Being girly is so stupid and boring!
9 11"s did Bush
I THOUGHT I TOLD YOU TO STAY OUT IF MY DREAMS
>>20679171You know why I can’t do that
We need to talk
>>20682793Then tell them asap. Good luck.
>>20682779No, I don't know why
You know what's funny? In one of the dreams where you were 'sad' you actually DID ask for a hug lol. It looked like we were in a library but a very messy with electronic floors that moved peoples spots around randomly. People were talking and we were using the computers and somebody said yeah that's them but I pretended I didn't understand because I couldn't believe it anyway (just like I do here) and then when you finally got close enough to realize it was me you came up to me and held me and said 'shhhhh I just want a hug,, just a hug' and so you held me and then everything in the room started flying upwards except us and then the dream ended. So yeah.. the only reason I reached out after all these years and despite all the pride is because I was genuinely worried that you're not okay. I know you told me you are but I just know you're not and probably a lot worse than I think but you're right as usual, I cant do a goddamn thing for you. You're already giving it your all to have your place in normieland, for your family's sake I suppose, and the last thing you need is me saying ooh-ooh AAAH-AAH love is magic is space is everything AAAAA schizophrenia flat earth banana!
>be me>second year of uni, still virgin>wants to find fuck buddy to smash>got this female friend from uni since freshman year>she also virgin>should i ask?Note: chinese cultures are not the most open minded, fuck buddies are frowned upon. What do?
>>20679409stop looking at porn completely and just be real with her. i will pray for your success
I love waking up to your messages. I have decided not to fight it anymore. I just love you and I always will... no matter what I do. I know you don’t feel the same but I’m thankful that you’re still in my life. I’m just going to keep trying for you.