GIOYC - Get It Off Your Chest: The too short, too long, and too emotional for a thread general.BTW, you really shouldn't use this thread to vent rage or reinforce negativity, but its still good for when you need to get something into words or for sadness or whatever. I wonder if the purpose of GIOYC should be more fleshed out and restated each thread, because there is both some psychological and quality issues to consider... I realize you don't want to diminish the "just say it" encouragement premise, but I think you can do that and still have a little bit of guidelines.Take it, leave it, make some kind of wiki page I don't know.But then that's just my opinion and I'm probably just being autistic so feel free to just ignore everything I'm saying.Previous thread: >>20443607 Oh yeah, and I decided to write something that could be carried over to new threads (just maybe without this line. I figure it would be helpful informally formalize this):OP Guidelines:>Check the catalog for a properly made GIOYC thread that hasn't reached bump limit first>To make a new thread, include both GIOYC and Get It Off Your Chest in the subject line>Also make sure to include these guidelines, link the previous thread, and if the old thread still exists but is at bump limit, reply to the old thread with a link to the new thread>[insert link to image collection of thread starter images here]
>>20449078Alright dealIt's good that /adv/ has a general thread
At first I was terribly depressed that you left, then I remembered how you went on a date with another guy when we were together just to make me mad. Hope you and your new long distance boyfriend do well together.
>>20449078The only thing I have on my my chest is that I have nothing on my chest. I'll have nothing on my chest after I post this.
>>20448938>Trying to be attractive to a gay friendI hate the cuck meme, but I'd guess 11.That said I'm baffled. How the fuck did you even end up in this situation?
So earlier I got rejected, said I was interesting and wanted to be just friends. I'm sad and I can't sleep
Cream my cervix you sexy kike
that's just warm chocolate milk
I dont really like uni. but I dont like the alternative either before coming to uni I worked in a factory, and before that I was a NEET. my life was going nowhere fast and I had no freinds. the friends part was the main reason I came here desu, but Ive been here over a year and dont have any friends. I dont really enjoy the course either, but Im decently good at it and its the only thing I have to further myself in lifeI dont want to be here, but I dont want to give up my only chance at having a good life
I’m glad you’re okay. I mean, I hope you are <3.
My hair is peak bed-head. Should I get a haircut right now before my """""date""""" or should I just not?
I'm in my last year of high school and I still haven't made any new friends. Everyone else is having fun, making memories and going out together while I sit in hallways, eat alone during lunch and go straight home with a bus after school. I'm miserable and only just now started to realize how lonely and sad I actually am after denying it unconsciously for years. I spend all my summers and holidays alone, maybe go somewhere once every two months with my old "friends". I feel like dead weight around them. I feel like they don't even care about me I'm just someone to bring along in emergencies, just to have more people and noise and nothing more. I'm not included in any activities or group chats with my class no one gives a shit. They made their own groups in the beginning and I'm the weird kid. On top of being detached from everyone I'm also failing school hard and can't bring myself to care anymore. Every day is a fucking bore only thing I have in life is gym and few solitary hobbies to fill out the day but it doesn't work anymore. I don't remember the last time I had a genuine conversation. I have no one to talk to. I don't even have a social outlet I just lurk 4chan and watch Youtube and Netflix just to hear someone talk. I've been like this for 4 years maybe I don't even remember when I started doing it it's all a blur.
>>20449412Might as well not.It's what I did because it wasn't a date.It was a joke.Just like every other thing I witness.
>>20449423I hate my mother and stepfather for being selfish pricks and drinking and fighting and screaming at each other in the middle of the night every fucking week never letting me sleep making me have panic attacks and insomnia and I hate myself for wasting my youth rotting away. On the positive note I'm moving out so at least I can be alone in silence and focus for once.I hate my father for being such a fucking autist and forcing me to come visit him every second weekend in that stupid fucking forest where literally no one else lives. Making me stay there for weeks in summer not even having me do anything just stare at the walls and take walks in forest. Do you have any idea what that does to a kid??? Sometimes it feels like they set me up to fail. theres your wall of text
>>20449358The long and emotional versionIn a dark room where I'm left alone, I ponder on what could have been. Was my efforts really just until the point of "interesting"? Yes we connected with so many things, we shared the same sentiment on different ideas and both of us can't swim. Was there a disconnect somewhere? Were we too similar that there was really nothing there for mutual connection? What were you really after then? Every moment I spent with you was genuinely me being the happiest person ever. Suddenly there was this person that gets me, that I can bounce ideas from, and have long conversations about anything not realizing its 3am in the morning. Where did it all go wrong?Is it my genes if its not my character? Well yes I have gained a few pounds but you never struck me as a shallow person. Was everything a facade then?I've been questioning my sanity for the past 3 hours now and damn. I'm so confused at what is and what is not this thing called love. I hate this feeling and goddamn me for falling and for trying to reach some magical place of happiness that you've utterly shown glimpses of. Thank you for letting me know I'm not the intended one that magical place is for.
You made last minute plans with "friends" after our first night together. Your reasons for doing this were pathetic/lies. Why did you stay and have dinner after making these last minute plans? Why didn't you just tell me how you felt after our first night? Were you not ready? It was your idea to spend 2 nights over at my place. I blatantly ignored you at work the next day However, next time I see at work, I will tell you that it will be 100% professional going forward. How can someone be so callous and disrespectful /GIOYC?
When you called and said the guy you broke up with me for broke your heart and I hung up on you without saying a word, that felt so good. I'm glad you get to feel the hurt I am feeling.
Give up on the program and save your $40 a session group money.The court won't come after you for not completing it and neither will I. I never want you to darken our doorway again. I never want you to come back into his life. Just save time and money. He's better off without you. You are beyond hopeless and cannot be reformed.
>>20449400it gets better. soon you will start to feel comfortable and know some of the people from school or your program or city more at least, even if you're not friends. I suggest just chill, take a walk, listen to music, explore, get some really hot chocolate. take your mind off of that and relax, instead of giving up, you shouldn't give up man. it's your decision tho.
June needs to hurry up
I did some thinking and I was never in love with you, i was just obsessed with not being lonely. You betraying me helped me clear that in my mind.
>>20449467Won't make a difference.
>>20449475But itll be out then and I want it now
>>20449486It'll be a disappointment
I just feel sick.
>>20449466>it gets better. soonthis is what I was told after the first month, then semester, then year, now Im half way through my second year and everything is the same. I dont want to give up tho because I know here I have a slight chance atleast. back home I have no chance at all
Stop pretending you don't know it's your fault. Stop trying to put the blame on me. Your shitty behavior has led us to this. Accept the consequences.
>>20449529What did I do? ;_;
>>20449533You are not her and you must have serious issues if you think impersonating someone on an anonymous board is a productive way to spend your day.
>>20449547How was I supposed to know you’re not him?
>>20449529And what consequences are those?
>>20449554Because you're here you dumbshit.
>>20449567This wasn't me, just another impersonator
>>20449580Kek... this place
>>20449547I do have serious issues btw
>>20449662Samealso not that guy or any of the others either
>>20449358cut all contact and move onplenty of cunts in the sea
Waiting years we'll be togetherI said better late than neverJust don't make me wait foreverDon't make me wait forever..You were walking behind me while this song played. What did you think of? I just wanted to turn around and tell you everything on my mind. But I couldn't.
I still find myself puzzled as to why things went wrong between us. The more I theorise about it, the angrier I get. You liked me, I liked you, but it was some bad timing. I struggle to forget you, still thinking about you almost everyday. I hope this is merely some young naive fool's bullshit that will fade away eventually. Never thought I'd be so crushed by rejection, and that it would take years to recover.
You just lost the best thing that ever happened to you. There is no way I will give you another chance, I've given you countless chances.
>>20449937I thought I lost the best thing too, but you turned out to flirt with anyone who was a little nice to you and you made me feel so unwanted. I didn't love you, I was just obsessed. I didn't waste your time, you wasted your own time. Good luck.
>>20449960It's not them you sperg
>>20449937It's your fault and you feel so entitled you don't even realize it.
>>20449973I’m not even the op...
>>20449942It wasn't for you. He will deeply regret it, he already is. >>20449973That wasn't me.
I wanna talk about my sexual experiences from last night with this fat girl who i really really like. But I'd feel cringy about it, also people would probably make fun of me. In any case, it was the hottest shit I've done yet. I'm very happy.
I think you need to leave me alone so I can try to get over you even though I know I never will. I guess I need to hate you.
>>20449997Can’t you just stop seeing them or block their number?
>>20449997I will leave you alone, I have no intention of communicating with you again.
>>20449997It's your fault, you're responsible for this.
>>20449979Nah I got over you. Don't flatter yourself sweetheart. There are better women out there.
>>20450012I can but it’s not that easy to do if you love someone.
>>20450018Good luck with that bucko ;) I've already found someone that I'm in love with.
>>20450018Oh and he is 100x times the man you are.
You're a real POS. I found out you came onto his therapist and she ended up cancelling therapies for him because of what a creep you were! You were NEVER a "good dad". I thought the shit you did to me in front of him was just out of rage - but you were narcissistic ALL the time. Only cared about your ego and your needs, IN FRONT OF YOUR SON WITH HIS IN-HOME THERAPIST and your son missed out on services because you're a complete douche bag. You're own father didn't stoop that low.You'll never NEVER be welcomed into his life again. I will ask her to testify if you even try. There isn't anything good about you. Complete cest pool of ego. No one and nothing is more important than what you want when you want it. It's the porn addiction you've had for over half your life and your mentality. That's why your ex from hs said you raped her. You just think women want you because they'll flirt back. Or you think because you're familiar with the female, she can't say it's rape. You are so fucking clueless. I can wait until this shit catches up with you. You did that with me in the parking lot forcing me to give you a bj that night. I felt forced. When I tried to verbalize my feelings you got PISSED with ME. And you let everyone think I'm just a snowflake and exaggerate your abuse. You beat the fuck out of me and I took it and took it and took it. Bdsm, slaps, restraints...I laugh at that shit. None of that compares to what you did to me. You think because you've got a collection of females who like jelly donuts and being cut, drawing blood and strangled, play raped etc. That secretly ALL females want this? You see video after video of females doing this shit. Mentality you think it's ok.I hope, OMG I HOPE one day it catches up with you, You do time and are on a sex offender list. Keep going narcissist coward. When you do, I'm going to mail you a letter to prison and all it'll say is "I told you so."
>>20450030Whatever you say darlin, I wish you both happiness.
>>20450047Thank you but we don't need your wishes, we already have happiness.
I'm sorry you went through the things that you did, but it's not cool to claim you never had feelings for me and then after 4 months of constant hanging out and building a relationship to the point where everyone was already considering us a couple and sending me mixed signals, you admit you had feelings for me and then two months later you break up with me claiming you never had feelings for me.It's also not cool that 3 weeks later you and I had a talk about how you wish things were the way they used to be even though we both established boundaries that they couldn't be that way because we both know that if we hang out the way we used to then we'd fall into the same routine and blurred lines of friendship.I'm glad I called you out on your bullshit and it's probably for the best that we aren't talking right now.But I miss you.
>>20450023But if they don’t respect your wishes and don’t leave you, they’re no good... It’s unrequited love, isn’t it. I had one of those as well. You just have to do what’s best for you.
>>20450064Yes, it is unrequited love. What did you do? I feel like I want to die.
>>20449360Stupid, I meant. Thanks for reminding me you're still obsessed with your ex, not to mention a few other women. It would have been just for fun knowing what you're like.
I felt you in me, holding me, carassing me. I love you so much...I haven't felt that for so fucking long. I missed you my love.
recently got pushed into a relationship with a girl I've been friends with for a few years. confessed that she had feelings for me for about a year and shes really clingy. i dont have any feelings for her and i want to back out and say i just want to be friends but dont want to fuck her over. how tf do i do this. i also still have feelings for my ex who im on good terms with and i want to get back with her again.
>>20450097Just be honest with her and also you should have never entered the relationship in the first place if you knew you didn't have feelings for her.
I can't wait for my future with you....the bliss, the joy I feel with you is indescribable. You've made me the happiest woman alive. Thank you <3
>>20450104 I was pretty much shoved into it and didn't have much of a choice. and I didn't realize i had no feelings for her until a day or two later.
I think I fucking hate you. You're a useless woman and would make for a terrible fucking wife or friend. Thanks for not letting me get close, I guess, so I can find someone worth spending the rest of my life with.
Thank you for waiting for me. I'll never make you sad again.
Life can be this perfect, who would've known? I was so miserable with him but you, you changed my world completely. I want to be with you forever.
hey amelia, do you want to hang out after class?
I feel so much better and... free, and ready for something real, and you're still here being fucking retarded and wasting time. All you did was waste your and my time.
>>20450077There’s no special recipe. You learn to live with it and as the time passes, it hurts less. Eventually you’ll meet someone and you will feel happiness again. As for the time being - live, take walks, read books, go to the cinema or visit some exhibitions. Just fill your time with activities. That way you’re not persistently thinking about them.
>>20450132You're here too thinking theyre here dumbass. Can't be that free kek
>>20450113I mean, I still think you should tell her.It's gonna suck but you need to explain what happened concisely.
I had a very intense and very gay dream where I intimately fucked one of my friends who cross-dresses for his cosplay, but is otherwise completely straight.Being otherwise completely straight myself, this dream scared the shit out of me, and I haven't been able to get it out of my head. Is there a better way to deal with this than just dwelling on it?
>>20450113How long have you been with her? If it’s long then break it to her gently at least. Just be honest but I wouldn’t mention that you have feelings for the ex.
>>20450122Don't worry, that long distance will drive you both apart soon enough. He could be calling you baby while he's deep in another woman.
>>20450114Did age cheat or reject you?
You have the most depth of feeling I've ever seen in any guy I've ever known. You can love as strongly as I can. I hear it in your sighs and between your words, in your sensitivity...you're the one and I love you so much. I thank God (who you love) for bringing you into my life and dreams...you walk in them and you love me in them. You also know what I'm thinking, without me telling you. You were right when you said, this love was extraordinary.
>>20450156He isn't long distance, he is with me. Imagine being this bitter everyone. This is what not to do in life.
>>20450161Reject but she's hopeless and doesn't know what she wants. I won't be her little backup beta provider (for lack of a better term).
>>20450170Please get off your high horse sweetheart.
>>20450178He has loved me for so long, you have no idea. He waited for me for years. There is no high horse but he is heavenly, he is beautiful.
>>20450188>>20450188Checking your Hitler dubs. Wir müssen Sieg für Deutschland haben.
>>20450137Thank you. When I’m out everything reminds me of him because I’ve known him so long. I really want to get my head straight and try to remain friends. I think I can’t though because I’ve been trying that for a while.
I love how he when he was angry with me, his face was all red but he smiled and laughed when was talking about how furious he was with me.
>>20450203I'll set you straight since he can't do it: fuck you.
You wanted my love all this time.
>>20450138We've talked about it in person but nice try.
>>20450221It’s true. I thought you knew.
>>20450215I second this.
I've never been so drawn into anyone before...his eyes drew me into him. He said something affectionate and I replied with a trite answer from self-consciousness, rather than anything genuine. I heard his disappointment in my answer and I knew he would wait for me.
>>20450215>>20450241You don't understand the humor or romance in it.
>>20450247My ex would get angry and abuse the fuck out of me. I never was amused by his anger. Nice you had that luxury.
>>20450243Stop leading him on; stop making him wait.
>>20450251He is love, you don't know him.
>>20450253I'm with him now and I'm so in love that I can barely think straight.
>>20450265Congrats, cool humble bragging.
I know you tell me everything is okay but everything is pointing in the other direction>tell me you don't have social media>find secret facebook>tell you i don't like instagram>you make a secret instagram>you have less sex with more>you don't play with me as much>you don't ask for nudes >you don't tell me you want me>you yell at me when you get mad at me instead of us talking it outI don't know what to feel anymoreAm i justified in my fears?
>Meet up with friend after three years of no contact>Having a good time after a couple hours so I decide to drink>A lot>Ask for head>Doesn't work>Proceed to talk about ex>She's worried because I do drugs now>Stay for a bit then leave Hmm man I am such a fuck up
I had a date with a great girl this evening. I blew it because I got anxious and felt too self-conscious to touch or escalate at all. The entire thing ended awkwardly and I could tell that she wanted to try to reach out and talk to me but the only thing I could offer was mediocre chatter or cringy self-deprecating jokes. I don't want to be this way and I'm deeply unhappy, and the quiet and romantically passive stonewalling wasn't a choice. I'm sorry, I really wanted it to work. I despise myself for being so weak and lacking in confidence: every time I try to contradict the catastrophic thought patterns I remember my mother, snarling and calling me a pathetic little weakling.Am I in hell? Can I overcome this? I don't want to keep using prostitutes for a facsimile of intimacy.
I'm so happy that I'm finally over you. Be happy and healthy, you deserve it sweetheart, I'm gonna go finally live my life.
>>20450376How’d you do it?
>>20450387I want to know the truthI want to fix itMaybe i'm paranoid. Maybe there's something else..... i really love them and it would crush me if i found out they were cheating
>>20450376Thanks. Best to you and I'm happy you are living your amazing life with so many women wanting you. I actually tried to influence one to take an interest in you romantically. I think you'd make a good couple.
I love the way you tease me. I want you so fucking badly.
>>20450265Kek you're with "him" now...I am so sorry for you. He will never be faithful. He will never pay for anything but expect you to pay. He will never hold down a full-time job. He will never help with housework. He will never put you above his needs. Ever. He will never move out from his moms house. He will never build with you or grow with you. So enjoy that dildo with a pulse.
>>20450405How do they tease you?
Mom, I'm sorry but I really do not want to have kids and you constantly asking me is annoying and makes me feel like crap. The thought of pregnancy and birth is disgusting and terrifying. I'm enjoying my lackadaisy freedom and being able to go to other countries and trips without having to worry about crying children. I wish you had more than one child to rely on for this.
>>20450373Is there anyway I can recover from this?I texted her apologizing but no response.I miss her
I never loved you. I got with you because you needed help. You were depressed, alone, and a mess. Now you're the cool guy with a good job and friends. I don't like that you drink so much and have no concern for your health. I'm not going to be there when your liver fails, and even though I've had this talk with you, you still say you don't care. That's for "future you" to worry about. I don't like how outlandish you are with people to the point of getting kicked out of bars or being so loud and obnoxious it disturbs others. I feel like I've done my job with you so I'm looking for a new place to live on my own finally. After 11 years. You were my first and you will be my last. I don't regret our time together and the two girls you have on the side will comfort you just fine when I'm gone.
>>20450437Mentally. It's a slow tease, he knows I love him deep down and he points out the things that I do that shows my attraction.
>>20450487Get married. You're already married mentally.
>>20450435mmm okay, whatever makes you feel better about your own existence I suppose. lol
He did me the greatest favors of them all, he just knows his little brother so much.I always enjoyed the night the most so he set my sun so I can enjoy the night of my life for the rest of my life. The sun has set, now it's time for the coldness and night.
>>20450507Yes, he is my husband.
I just wanted to be close to you. I’ll miss you. I can’t.
Covered up for a friend today. Didn't like doing it, felt like cheating myself.
It was the other way around.
In that thread about K I’m the one who said I’m in love with you. Did you know?
>>20450517Wait, you're already married? Get off 4chan.
>>20450537No, which one?
>>20450522You don't have to miss them. Make the necessary arrangements for that to happen.
>>20450548Not in adv
>>20450539In spirit, to him. No, I'm not going.
>>20450549I’m blocking him.
>>20450550I know now. I love you too.
>>20450561No you don’t or our conversation today would have gone much different and wouldn’t have made me cry.
Those guys will hate you now.
>>20450568I don't know which thread you are talking about then. I'm sorry for making you cry, I really am.
I need to control my anger asap, before I get in serious trouble. I feel like such a retard, when will I learn to just shut up.
You have my heart.
>>20450551Are you even with him? Why not pursue him as a hubby?
I loved you and you absolutely destroyed me. I'm trying so hard to move on but I dream about you every night. It's been over a month of sleepless nights and I need it to end. Part of me wants to wait, and hope you'll come back, but ik you wont. After years how do you just throw someone out like they're nothing? After all we've been through?
The story about the cows...how did you know?
>>20450588Are you my best friend or the one I love?
I feel like I’m going to die because of wanting him. I’m scared.
>>20450523I've been there anon. I covered up for my brother because I felt obligated to. "Thars what family does. ", etc. I didn't like it, and now that it's happening to me I feel like I deserve it (the cover up not the cheating).Don't cover up for your friend anymore. Tell them you will always be there for them but will not actively participate in it.
>>20450576He would never say he was sorry if I cried.
Lol you're so crazy. I love you.
>>20450621He sounds like a loser douche bag - why would you want him?
>>20450593Maybe, I know he's on here pretty often
>>20450622>Lol you're so crazy.>I love you.Pick one.
Don’t you remember how things were? Nothing happened but you’re so different towards me. Do you miss the way things were? I can accept anything if you can tell me what changed. If I did something I can try to be better.
>>20450629He is both and he loves crazy girls too. I guess that's why he loves me so much.
Ever since you got your boyfriend we've seen less and less of each other. The most significant amount of time I've spent alone with you since october's been the walk we took to the grocery store tonight! You saying "you're lonely you should try harder to find some friends" isnt helping. How am I supposed to do that when I can barely look people in the face, let alone talk about anything even remotely concering me? "you're alone you should find some friends", but You were my friend. You were my friend right up until someone else, someone better came along. How am I supposed to find anyone who won't leave me like this? How am I supposed to find anyone at all?
I was afraid....so afraid but I'm not anymore.
People could never imagine what we went through to get to this point.
Those guys on discord don’t love you.
>>20450636>I was afraidWere you petrified?
Did you send that girl all that way out there to troll me?
>>20450659I think you meant to respond to this >>20450643Also, terrified, mortified, petrified, stupefied by you.
When you drink you’re so fucking mean. Have fun pretending to be a girl tonight.
>>20450671Perhaps its a crazy reference. I don't mistake imaginary people for real ones...except maybe imaginary anons.
>>20450696I don’t mean it as an insult. I love him and want him to be happy. I’m the only one hurting. I did mean the part about when he’s drinking though. I can always tell.
How did I get sucked into life with that asshole? He is the most miserable, selfish, womanizing SOB ever. No wonder I've been depressed.
>>20450706Don't like mean guys. It's stupid.
You're a drunk drug addict now. You'll get arrested again. Karma isn't done with you yet.
>>20450730So what? you're that nasty bitch that is always harassing people on here. Karma is going to bite you too.
The words you used to describe me, both to my face and via text after everything I did ruined me. There's no way I can have you in my life after all the hurt you caused. The pitiful snake routine and crying wolf at the first instance of conflict... I'm over it and your manipulation. I'll never allow anyone so pathetic to be so cruel again.
>>20450725Thank you. I’m very close to getting my independence. It’s hard. One day I’ll be free. He gives nothing now so I have no choice.
>>20450590Tell us about the cows, anon.
A little out of touch here but what the fuck is YEET? Is that the new YOLO?
>>20450783Cows make cow paddies in the cow fields. Then they get chopped up and made into cow patties! Like you eat in burger form!I guess the message here is - you can't have cow patties without a few cow paddies!
>>20450783He would know...if he remembers.
I've always thought life was worthlessI moved away from family for a different/decent jobThis job benefits from having family support nearby as it can be difficultYou need a psych eval before taking itI know what they want to hear, I pass psych evalGradually this job is wearing away, but I'm all smilesEveryday I'm looking at good ligature points on the way to workIt's not even the job. Gandalf always said there was another pathThe next life will be better...
hee hee, hee hee!i have a pee pee!tee hee, tee hee!i love my little pee pee!what a cute weener i have. i love my weener so much.
>>20450829glad you got that of your chest
I am not immune to your feminine wiles. Had i been younger and/or you had been older, I'd ask you out in a heartbeat. Ever wonder why we've been friends this long and yet I only know your first name and i didn't ask for your number? You're too young for me, and I too old for you. Always take care and stay out of trouble. Bye.
>bought my dream car>can't sleep because I'm constantly in fear of it being stolen
I'm tired of this loneliness, but I am also so scared of change that I am my worst enemy. I'd ont know exactly what scares me about changing, perhaps it's the prospect that I'll fail, or that no matter what I do I am doomed, however I am growing tired of this oppressive hopelessness, and frigid isolation. Sometimes I feel like everyone around me is thousands of miles away from me even if they are feet in front of me. Everytime I forgot the pain I will inevitably come across something that will remind me it. It's as if the Devil himself has sent his best demon to torture me for some obsured reason, or just for his pleasure.I've waited to state the exact nature and cause of my pain because I have rightfully attracted the ire of anons because of my habit of posting compulsively and often ignoring or forgetting the advice I was given. In my defense I think that I am in a place where it requires proving motive. Why should I try if these base characteristics are going to hold me back regardless of how much I improve. I'm 5'1, I have a 4.5" penis when erect, I have a below average face, and little to no social skills. These are major problems, and anyone who says otherwise is lying. I want to change; I want life to get better, but I keep going back to thinking that my cause is hopeless, and perhaps it is hopeless.
>>20450887what's wrong senpai?
>>20450875I wish I could say something to make you feel better. So many people here are lonely and hopeless, I know I am. I think this place exacerbates things.
>>20450896If you weren't talking to people here then you would be going crazy alone in your room
>>20450906I’m not alone but I’m lonely. And no it’s not my parents I’m with...
>>20450896Its strange because in spite of all the blantant lies that have been spread from here I still trust this place more than say Reddit to tell me the unadulterated truth. That is one of the main reasons I stay here. That and the fact that the people here are closer to me than anyone in real life or again Reddit>>20450906I think I would actually be more driven to talk to people in meatsoace of it weren't for this place
>>20450906lol I always think about that
>>20450893i had a breakdown about 2 years agosevere depressionanxietyocdlots of therapy and time off workit has ruined my liferecently i have finally came to accept i was abused as a childi'm tiredi'm drunki'm alone
>>20450931>recently i have finally came to accept i was abused as a childDamnit, I can sort of relate (I'm still working out if I was really abused or not)
>>20450939it is weird, spent 30 years repressing it, and then my mum dies and it all came out as this big, disgusting, volcano that had been stuck my entire life.imagine you walk into a room, the room is trashed and destroyed, there is a dog there, he has bits of couch and book in his mouth, he is huffing and puffing and looking guilty. you'd be sensible to assume the dog wrecked the room.but because i don't remember the dog wrecking the room other than small snapshots, and because i blamed everything other than the dog for wrecking the room, maybe i destroyed it the room? maybe i made the dog destroy the room? i probably deserved the room being destroyed because i am bad.i now realise the dog destroyed the room.
>>20450113Does your ex’s name start with an R?
The key to happiness is simple. You always compare yourself to those less fortunate than yourself and recognize that those who you think are really happy, usually aren't. You count your blessings. You are grateful for the food in your belly, for the internet, for the warmth of your surroundings and for your safety. You make each interaction count, you don't slack off. You put 100% effort into everything you do, no matter what it is. That effort might not get you anywhere but it counts. That kindness just helped someone's day get a little brighter and they pass that on. One person dedicated to service will be cherished by all around them. If you are in the rat race, you aren't even living. If you are feeling sorry for yourself, you aren't living. In this moment you exist. Ponder how incredible that really is.
>>20450966Couldnt agree more anon, i love you
>>20449078I'm usually only like 20% as productive as I intend to be. This has got to stop right now. I'm gonna make some insane changes and stick it out to the bitter end. There's no love, peace, harmony or comfort. Only productivity. I'll see you on the other side brothers and sisters.
>>20450959>maybe i made the dog destroy the room?>i probably deserved the room being destroyed because i am bad.
At almost 30, and never having had a relationship, I'm not sure how I could even end up in one without it turning weird and toxic. I used to think the problem would be that I'd be too needy and distant, and that would have been true in the past, but now the problem is that I'd be too dispassionate and emotionally numb.
>>20450973Thank you. I love you too. : )
>>20450743I haven't harassed anyone. Try again?
I'm killing my father Larry. Or rather my neetdom and my resistance to change it is killing my father. He works 60 hours a week at 63 years old to pay the bills and help the family out. He's the go to guy for money. His sisters use him as a cash register when they, or the poor man whom they've sunk their hooks in, cannot cover it. He takes a loss on a house he owns which has been falling apart for years because my brother lives in it and so did I for years. My fathers girlfriend has a gambling problem, is unemployed, and has tens of thousands of credit card debt. And finally his oldest son has been dicking around in the back room for 30 years. He has no pleasure in this world and no joy. No future and no hope. And I am killing him. He just sits there--whenever he's not working during the day, or picking up night shifts so he doesn't have to be hom--in his chair, watching the same football game again, and again, and again. Soon he won't be though, cause he'll be dead.
You're just one of his many toys. I'm sorry. That's all you are.
>>20449198>>20450975STOP EXPLICITLY REPLYING TO THE OP WHEN YOU HAVE NOTHING TO SAY ABOUT THE OPIT DOES NOT IMPROVE THE NUMBER OF RESPONSES YOU WILL GET
>be me>make tik tok memes cuz bored>they are all completely retarded>somehow gain some popularity by fucking around and doing stupid shit >a few of my memes got into some youtube compilations>think nothing of it>pewdiepie posts video where he says he watches entire tik tok compilations and brad trims down the footage for his videos>some of his tik tok videos have watermarks from tik tok meme compilations>idea.jpg>I trace down some of the meme compilations that pewdiepie watched and get a match with one I was in>pewdiepie saw my meme>pewdiepie noticed me>brad cut me out of final video>fuck you bradanybody know where brad lives?
>>20451095kek both of those are mineyou don't understand mobile posting
>>20450590How would ? know ? Initial?
>>20451081he love me but thats okay if you dont understand that
>>20451118 It's for M
>>20451103Yeah, that's how the internet works. I've had a lot of what I write turn into memes.
>>20451138He don't even love himself How he going to love you
All my life friends and family have told me I'm smart but whenever I get into an argument on the internet, strangers tell me I'm stupid and that I don't understand basic facts about life.I actually think anonymous and pseudonymous people on the internet that tell me I'm stupid are more right than my family and friends. I think my family and friends were just trying to make me feel better about being low IQ, low intellect, and laid it on too thick in lying to me.
>>20451181You dont know him the way I know him
I HATE DUCKSFUCK DUCKSBUT I HAVE TO LIVE AND LET LIVE YOU KNOWI JUST REALLY CAN'T STAND FUCKING DUCKS AND I JUST HAVE TO LET THEM WADDLE AROUNDWITH THEIR SHITTY LITTLE DUCKLING DUCK SPAWNQUACKING ALL THE FUCKING TIMETHEY EVEN LOOK LIKE DEMONSFUCK THEM
I'm always paranoid whenever I post here. I think that someone I know in real life knows that I come here often and which exact post(s) that I posted.
I really hate how many musicians and artists try to peddle the idea that you need to put mind altering crap in your body in order to be creative
>>20451230me too manI fantasize there is a mod that allows the anonymous factor to be replaced by trackers or that people are looking into my webcam or watching my youtube videosi always brush it off, but the thought comes back
>>20451230I am watching you.
>>20450531K, since u know me so well.
>>20449078They don't really know that I've been gone for a while on fb. They haven't seen my post it seems and haven't thought to look at my wall.I feel like one of those people who disappears or dies and people are still making birthday wishes on their wall years later - except I left a message.lol
>>20451232At the start, you don’t.
>>20451230Same here. But I guess it doesn't really matter, it wouldn't change my life for the worse if people read the dumb shit I write here. I probably look and act like I'm gay and suicidal already, in real life.>>20451236The other day I found out my webcam was plugged in. I was almost sure I had always left it unplugged. Scary ish.
>>20451142Are you S? What you mean cows?
>>20449078Just so you knowhttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g8z-qP34-1Y&list=RDg8z-qP34-1Y&start_radio=1
>>20451232I hate that too and I also hate it when people try to be edgy and claim that you enjoy a certain song better when you are on drugs. Yeah no shit, edgelords!
>>20449078I have a thing for necks. Its super wierd and idk anyone else who does but like just o o h when someone has a good neck I catch feels most of the time
>>20451272Same here, well I mean I like loooong necks.
If I had any doubts about you being a sociopath, this night has proven me otherwise. Was any part of this real?
>>20450588This is too relatable, but replace month with over a year and a half. I have no clue why they went out of their way to let me back in a couple months ago just to immediately give me the cold shoulder a day later.
>>20451282I mean idk about length mattering it's not a dick but you do you I'm just out here being gay and shit
>>20451291What did your crazy friend do?Sexually assault you with a pool noodle? Mutilate someone's pet cat? Force you to videotape him masturbating on to the neighbor's car? Ask you go to vandalize mailboxes with him?I'm genuinely curious.
>>20450400That's kind of you, but I'm a one gal man, and even if I'm over you, I still think you're my one and only. I ain't looking round. Call me dumb if you want, but I'm set.
>>20449078Made an album of starter images. Just in case anyone interested.https://imgur.com/a/bZP7RCf
>>20449078my very good friend disappeared and nobody knows why or where or when or howthey like ghosted everyone even me and fucking nobody did anything about it ..maybe the only person who cares is me .
>>20451225Holy shit most underrated post this whole thread. How could you fucks have overlooked this gem. FUCK DUCKS
>>20451291I'll be a sociopath if you want me to be. Spank me. I won't even kill your mom.
I'm terrified that the dental office will lie to me so that they can perform an unnecessary operation like extracting an undamaged tooth so that they can milk more money out of me
>>20451220How long you known him? Lived with him? Stayed up all hours of the night talking about life and dreams?
>>20451252Maybe it was a coincidence.
>>20451325He is a part of me.
>>20451308Thanks for humouring me.
>>20451326????? just say it
>>20451336It was about a bull & cows charging at me. If she is fictional, he wrote it. If she isn't, it's still odd. I guess we are all connected.
No, you're not my backup plan, I just don't want to seem needy after just a few weeks, and I want to spend time with friends too.Her BPD makes some days feel like walking on eggshells.
wtf is going on here?
I can't explain why I love him. It doesn't make any sense to love him but I know him in a way I don't know you. You are loved by everyone, he isn't. Perhaps I love the creepy crazy ones over the boring ones. He is real, he is honest, he feels so deeply.
Tick tick tick tick tick tick tick tick tick tick tick tick ti.Where will it stop? Nobody knows!Tock tock tock tock tock tock tock tock tock tock tock tock to.How far in the snow? Nobody knows!The irony of it all is that I can only be human in all the ways I never wanted to be.
I always used to think that only losers quit their jobs, but I now realize that quitting my job was one of the best decisions I've ever made.
>>20451350Does something seem odd to you?
>>20451357I used to love you anon.
I actually really miss the "cringe" phase that most of my friends act like they were embarrassed by.Guess what? You and I and everyone we knew as friends were all cool and interesting during that phase. We had creativity and imaginations. Selfies of ourselves with castles in the snow, wearing hoodies and pants with chains and other shit I'm sure you all think is "cringe" and silly now. Weekend trips to whatever movie at the mall had a vampire or a witch in it that year. Road trips to concerts by bands and artists whose work spoke to us in some way. Everyone was a budding artist or writing a novel. Look at yourselves now. You're all boring, exhausted, soul drained fucks. Like the fucking skeleton people in They Live. And it's sad that you look back on when we were all happy and expressed ourselves and think that beautiful phase of our lives was "cringe". That was the part of my life with all of the memories that I'll forever cherish.
>>20451334I thought that too. He has a way of making you think that.
I think I'm finally close to actually killing myself. I've looked up exit bag stuff on Amazon, I have money for it.I can't stop thinking about it.I feel so bad about my cat but I think mom will take care of her after I'm gone. She's always been affectionate to her, it will work out.I stopped taking all my antidepressants. I don't want to make it to 32.
>>20451361I am watching you on Netflix.
>>20451382I like it.
I got fat and I think it was because I was in a lot of emotional pain and it gave me a reason to excuse that I was unlovable. It has to be because I got fat, right?It's not. It's my personality. The real me is horrible.I don't care anymore. I'm just going to lose weight and marry a man that makes more than 65k a year. Can't be that hard. I'm good at pretending to be a good person.
>>20451308>>20451335 (You)>>20449078 (OP)>fucked up the URL last post by copying the wrong URL haha time to redo itActually, here's an updated album.>https://imgur.com/a/p6jexmB
>>20451379I didn't think it, I experienced it. He wasn't into you, doesn't mean he isn't into me. Piss off now.
>>20451390I failed at everything in life, every single thing I attempted. I don't want to work a shitty job. I don't want to be around people. I only want to be with my cat but I'm always in bed so I'm neglecting her too. I wasted all my life and I have nothing. I am nothing. I have no talent for anything. I'm a dumb, useless person.
>>20451364Love is the act I put on and pretend that everything is perfectly fine, and that things can only move forward vainly in the hopes that I can buy myself just a little more time to care... or perhaps just enough time to die.I am no mirror, only the morning fog.
>>20451391>>20451407You're both just average, normal people. Nothing too horrible, nothing too great. Just work on being good people.
>>20451414Why aren't things perfectly fine for you anon?
I have really big dreams and I pursue them, but all of my friends seem to just lazy around in life and be "content" with part time jobs just living to pay the next bill.I strive for being physically fit. I invest in my own education (not college, I'm talking about any form of education), fashion, travel and just absorbing as much as possible from the world.It can be a bit lonely sometimes. The must be others like me out there. Others who want to be their best.
>>20451432Then there are us that have done all that and realize it still leaves you empty in the end.
>>20451416I've been in bed doing nothing for the past decade. I dropped out of college, never had a job. I don't even shower anymore. I'm just rotting in bed waiting to die and I don't feel like doing anything else. I'm a waste of space. Everything I do is worthless garbage, there isn't a single thing I could call a success. I'm the person I hate the most on this fucking planet.
>>20451391>It has to be because I got fat,What has to be because you got fat?How fat are you? I still liked my crush after she got chubby/overweight and would have supported her in losing weight (she was still sexy to me).If you've turned a guy off it's most likely because of your personality.
>>20451441Stop dear anon. Your worth isn't dependent on a job or your hygiene or anything else. Baby steps baby. Take a step out of bed and pick up some stuff on the floor. Day 2, take a shower, Day 3...get some fresh air. You don't have to do much but force yourself to pick yourself up. You can help other people in your position, way more than others can in the future....when you are well. Be well loved anon.
>>20451460It's useless, I tried doing things. I tried dozens of medicines. Nothing works, nothing makes me feel better and I only hate myself more every day. Suicide is my only way out of being a living embarrassment.
>>20451432Keep it up, Anon. They'll realize that they need to pick up the pace and do something with their lives in 5-10 years time.
>>20451471If a quadriplegic can do it, so can you. Quit feeling sorry for yourself and do something little like I said.
>>20451476Being content is better than not being content.
I’m ready for the new semester to start. I’m trapped in my own sin and decadence here. I miss my friends, and I miss lifting. She’s gonna regret every ounce of leaving.
I'm kinda insecure, my life story is kinda flat and bland and so is my personality. I'm not really smart or talented either and I don't have a thriving social life or something to compensate. It kinda sucks but I also find it really hard to push myself to be something better. I guess no news is good news right?
>>20451432Realize now that there is no solace in your end goals. You must learn to find peace in your progress.
>>20451498Be happy in the peace that you’ve had. No news is better than bad news. Keep working on yourself
I’m glad I blocked your number
>>20451488>If a quadriplegic can do it, so can you.This is bullshit. My brain is faulty. I'm retarded and I have this depression shit that makes me hate every moment I'm awake. Of course people in good mental health can overcome shit.Taking a walk doesn't change anything. Doing little things won't change anything. Wow I brushed my teeth, what an accomplishment. It totally makes me forget that I want to die.
>>20451519Your boy isn't t posting to you on 4chan, miss larp. Just message him instead.
>>20451460Reading this post... man I wish I was temporarily depressed and in a relationship with a well-adjusted woman would hold me against her and say that shit to me.Kind of Oedipus-y of me, but man... I wish I had that kind of rock.
>>20451530Not that that's realistic, I just wish...
>>20451491Being content is being a loser? HahaOnly losers call other people losers (especially for being content).
>>20451526I'm a dude but ok, man. kek
>>20451530Thanks anon. It didn't do much but thanks. <3
If you were popular in high school, how does it feel to know that your life has amounted to nothing and how does it feel to know how many people find you to be a waste of fucking space?
>>20451539When you grow up you stop caring about what other people think of you and you start living the life you really want. The most interesting people I know aren't boring robot workers with no time, paying their taxes like a good little citizen....they are people that have really lived life.
>>20451516I'm depressed too, in the last 6 months I lost my dad to cancer and my dog to a neurological disease. I was diagnosed with a serious illness, multiple other material losses...you just have to keep going.
Will you tell me once and for all who you are? I just want to be sure, I want to know. Please, I beg you to do this for me.
>>20449078My wife doesn't love me anymore. And I'm finding out through marriage counselling that I don't love her either and I'd rather leave. I don't know if I'd rather stick my decision for the commitment out until she chooses to torpedo it eventually or if that's a waste of time and I should just cut ties now. A large part of me feels tied to the promises I made and for better or worse to hold to the decision I made. But another part of me feels restless and sick of living in a loveless, entirely sexless relationship with someone who doesn't like me at all and that the best thing for both of us is to find someone better suited for us. Who knows.
>>20451569Keep up your strength friend. I’m praying for you.
>>20451516I feel exactly the same way.
>>20451539If I was popular in high school then I was a celebrity in collegeI purposely limit my social media to close friends and family and this makes me a loser to stupid people
>>20451516Believing yourself to be faulty will create that as your reality. Change your thinking to change your life.
>>20451403He's into everybody. I'm so sorry you think you're special. That's going to hurt when you finally realize it. You're being played and can't see it yet. You're getting upset with me because you know deep down is true.
>>20451651What’s his initial?
>>20451651He isn't a player. Sorry you got burned but that's not my love. Get lost.
>>20451403Where's he at now? Ah not with you I bet.
>>20451600Mickey mouse Thanks...that helps.
I crave the intimacy I had when in bed with this chick in college, I was and still am a virgin and I was too stupid to see I was a white knight, did learn to cut that shit out but fuck I want her in my bed again and she was pretty damn good looking too.I also regret not talking to Asian qt3.14 in wasted college days too.
>>20451663What's wrong with you? lol I love someone and he loves me. I'm sorry you're bitter about that but not all guys are the same.
Why do you follow me?
>>20451448Reading Comprehension: Try It Out Today!
You clearly showed me that you don't care, but why am I still here?
>>20449078BI see only you in these Larps
>>20451711It's do or die time. If you can't be honest, we can't be. I've waited too long.
>>20451711Unless they told you to your face or wrote to your number, then they most likely don’t hate you. What do you think you’ll see here?
I need to stop this. Make up your mind.
Sorry it didn't work out. Farewell.
>>20449078Not everything needs to be micro-managed. Leave this thread alone pls.
>>20451711It doesn't make a difference to you if I love you or not, you don't love me and you never will. I get it.
>>20451422I do not allow them to be.There are simple truths that we would refuse to believe, yet exist nonetheless. Complications and logical inconsistencies that lead to emotional boundaries between individuals. Even when we acknowledge when and where these divides exist, there are limited ways in which we may approach them.My current situation does not allow me to address such divides, and so I must watch as they grow, feigning ignorance, until the emotion becomes actuality.I do not have to care. I do not want to care. Yet, I must. Caring is all that allows me to be, and for now, I must.
>>20451718I don't larp, motherfucker.I just come at you from the throat with my fucking pool noodles.
I love our child more than anything, but I wish I hadn't have had him with you.I wish I'd never met you.
>>20451807I see what you do is soul enslavement to many many people. It is very wrong )perhaps the worst thing you can do to someone) and for that reason, I don't consider you a good honorable person.
>>20451818No you screwed up
I never thought it would happen ever but I fell out of love with you
You stole my life. I hate you.
I know you lurk here, so let me ask you:Would it really make a difference if I did come back to that swampy hellhole mitigating damage?What treatment should I expect from you aside from bitterness?I talked to those two because they are cool to me.My muscle memory has worn down, so it's back to square one if I ever did come back.Do you really want my nerfed self trying to compete with the good ol' days?I can ride a cart now, I can also traverse the building WITH MUSIC IN MY EARS! I can also just take shit at my own pace.This new gig spoilt me and I fucking love it.Your main girls and guy also seem pissy towards me. I ain't coming back if they're still this nasty.I love the 3 bossmen, but fact is I really cannot come back. I had a hero set up for you to take my place, but because of records, I had to discard him and leave you her.I'm also just so very tired. You noticed I was falling off track? That's because my body knew it was on the way out. I was fatigued and beyond upset with life. Now I can freely say I enjoy it a lot.There has to be lots of things for me to ever come back. A massive raise and a fuckton of respect is a start. Knowing the building, neither will happen.
>>20451822You misunderstand.I am not a good or honorable person, I don't care for such things. I would not trap somebody, yet I understand that having is haven taken. For as long as the people in my life will have me, I will be there. One's only hope is that they never have to see that day come that would spell otherwise.The solutions lie unavailable, and I don't know that I have the time or will to change that.
The fuck is up with this thread???
>>20451856Why do you feel so strongly that you are needed in their life? What if you are told you aren't welcome?
>>20451858It's the lunatic edition. Just chill out and grab some popcorn. k?
>>20451858It's sort of like this anon:https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-JaeBxYCI9k
I want to know who I feel. That is all I want to know in this world.
I don't care who you are, I really don't. I love you. You see through me!!
>>20451902Sadly I do.But why though?Apparently you enjoy everyone else.
>>20451906I enjoy no one else. I take stabs in the dark to find the truth because you wont tell me that truth.
>>20451910I just think you're not loyal.You look too perfect to wind up with me.
Stop making your kid take 2 hour fucking baths. No wonder she keeps getting sick all the time.
>>20451917How could I be loyal to a phantom? How is that even possible when I don't even know what you are?
They pluck all the angels, maybe now you can understand.
>>20451902Ask them out and get to know them.
>>20451940I ask them out. There.
I told you many years ago my love, I don't care if you are green. I would still love you. I am prepared to accept you in your worst form...for me that is. That is polar opposite to anyone else view I know. I'd prefer you to be green than perfect.
End this. Have mercy.
I know people and I know them well.
I am so lucky, such a lucky bird to be with you. You may see outwardly but I see to your core.
>>20451951Then talk to me and fuck me.Until then we got nothing
>>20451983I fucked you last night.
We're done and I'm ok with it...as long as you can handle it. I love you but I think we've both had enough. Our love story is documented and to be discovered one day. Go fuck around with one of those floozies that comes around, I don't mind...it's whatever makes you happy. Last meal.
Your brother betrays you according to the myth, keep that in mind.
I'm scared of what you can be capable of. The little things from before turned out to become bigger ones. Feelings get in the way of identifying big red flags. Trust comes from a process, and once something gets tainted, it's hard not to wonder what else was there, how long have you been lying to me and if I could ever trust you again. There is something horrible inside you, something I had never seen before.
>>20451998I want you to be my last meal though.You look so plump and decadent. Your thighs alone are juicy enough to last me entire weeks.
>>20452007Thighs aren't huge, can I interest you in a breast instead, how about a drumstick?
>>20450975I feel you
It's not like you didn't try to warn me about who you really are inside, you just knew I'd stay no matter what. I did, and now I feel stupid.
You’re hurting me doing it this way.
>>20451519J and E, but things like this are apparently really common with BPD. Asked her for a few drinks tomorrow and it's all good now.
Aw man this is terrible
New thread >>20452472